In My Desperate Time

I can't get a pregnancy test in prison. So I'm not sure.

I don't know whom I can talk to about that.

And I have no idea what to do if I'm really pregnant.

I am at lost, but instinctively, I want to protect my unborn child.

Fortunately, Mindy will come to visit me today. I can use her advice.

Through the glass, I see Mindy looking at me with anxiety.

I force a smile at her, then sit down, and pick up the phone.

Mindy sobs while talking, tears rolling in her eyes.

"Jane, you seem to have lost so much weight. And you look haggard. Did you get bullied inside?"

Got bullied?

I sure did.

and humiliations

I have something to

and whisper, "Mindy,

Mindy's expression suddenly changes.

that she almost can't

now? You

it so decisively, suddenly, I feel even more reluctant to give up on this

"Why?"

I murmur.

"You tell me! Frances now hates you, and you are in prison. What will you do with this child? Who do you think should get custody? Frances or you? Actually, you don't like either of the options, do you? What's more, it hasn't been long since Earl was born, and you delivered her by c-section. You shouldn't give birth to

does have a point

very stubborn. I'm not good at taking

don’t want to lose this

Earl for several times. I know how it hurts to lose

sure you're pregnant? You can't get

it feels when I'm pregnant. Besides, my period has been delayed by

at all. I'll help you come out for an examination. You also

in the prison. They won't