In My Desperate Time

I can't get a pregnancy test in prison. So I'm not sure.

I don't know whom I can talk to about that.

And I have no idea what to do if I'm really pregnant.

I am at lost, but instinctively, I want to protect my unborn child.

Fortunately, Mindy will come to visit me today. I can use her advice.

Through the glass, I see Mindy looking at me with anxiety.

I force a smile at her, then sit down, and pick up the phone.

Mindy sobs while talking, tears rolling in her eyes.

"Jane, you seem to have lost so much weight. And you look haggard. Did you get bullied inside?"

Got bullied?

I sure did.

and humiliations

have something to

"Mindy, I might be

Mindy's expression suddenly changes.

is so shocked that she

are you pregnant now? You can't keep

hear she says it so decisively, suddenly, I feel even more

"Why?"

I murmur.

She doesn't look at me when she says with a low voice, "You tell me! Frances now hates you, and you are in prison. What will you do with this child? Who do you think should get custody? Frances or you? Actually, you don't like either of the options, do you? What's more, it hasn't

have a

can be very stubborn. I'm not good at

want to lose this

times. I know how it hurts to lose my

you sure you're pregnant? You can't get

feels when I'm pregnant. Besides,

out

the prison. They won't allow me