In My Desperate Time

I can't get a pregnancy test in prison. So I'm not sure.

I don't know whom I can talk to about that.

And I have no idea what to do if I'm really pregnant.

I am at lost, but instinctively, I want to protect my unborn child.

Fortunately, Mindy will come to visit me today. I can use her advice.

Through the glass, I see Mindy looking at me with anxiety.

I force a smile at her, then sit down, and pick up the phone.

Mindy sobs while talking, tears rolling in her eyes.

"Jane, you seem to have lost so much weight. And you look haggard. Did you get bullied inside?"

Got bullied?

I sure did.

and humiliations

have something to tell

and whisper, "Mindy, I

Mindy's expression suddenly changes.

she almost

pregnant now? You can't keep this

when I hear she says it so decisively, suddenly, I feel even more reluctant to give up on

"Why?"

I murmur.

at me when she says with a low voice, "You tell me! Frances now hates you, and you are in prison. What will you do with this child? Who do you think should get custody? Frances or you? Actually, you don't like either of the options, do you? What's more, it hasn't been long since Earl was born, and you delivered her by c-section. You shouldn't give birth to another child for two years, otherwise,

have a

I'm not good at taking

to lose

times. I know how it hurts

you're pregnant? You can't get a pregnancy test in

when I'm pregnant. Besides,

convincing at all. I'll help you come out for an examination. You also need some

are doctors in the prison. They won't allow me to get