In My Desperate Time

I can't get a pregnancy test in prison. So I'm not sure.

I don't know whom I can talk to about that.

And I have no idea what to do if I'm really pregnant.

I am at lost, but instinctively, I want to protect my unborn child.

Fortunately, Mindy will come to visit me today. I can use her advice.

Through the glass, I see Mindy looking at me with anxiety.

I force a smile at her, then sit down, and pick up the phone.

Mindy sobs while talking, tears rolling in her eyes.

"Jane, you seem to have lost so much weight. And you look haggard. Did you get bullied inside?"

Got bullied?

I sure did.

those pains and humiliations make me feel

have something to

whisper, "Mindy, I might be

Mindy's expression suddenly changes.

so shocked that she

pregnant now?

her opinion. But when I hear she says it so decisively, suddenly, I feel even more reluctant to give up

"Why?"

I murmur.

will you do with this child? Who do you think should get custody? Frances or you? Actually, you don't like either of the options, do you? What's more, it hasn't been long since Earl was born, and

have

be very stubborn. I'm not good at taking

want to lose

know how it hurts to lose my

are you sure you're pregnant? You can't get a

it feels when I'm pregnant. Besides, my period has been delayed by ten days."

convincing at all. I'll help you come out for an examination. You also need some

doctors in the prison. They won't allow me to get