In My Desperate Time

I can't get a pregnancy test in prison. So I'm not sure.

I don't know whom I can talk to about that.

And I have no idea what to do if I'm really pregnant.

I am at lost, but instinctively, I want to protect my unborn child.

Fortunately, Mindy will come to visit me today. I can use her advice.

Through the glass, I see Mindy looking at me with anxiety.

I force a smile at her, then sit down, and pick up the phone.

Mindy sobs while talking, tears rolling in her eyes.

"Jane, you seem to have lost so much weight. And you look haggard. Did you get bullied inside?"

Got bullied?

I sure did.

pains and humiliations make

I have something to

and whisper, "Mindy, I

Mindy's expression suddenly changes.

so shocked that she almost can't hold the

are you pregnant now? You can't keep this

wanted to listen to her opinion. But when I hear she says it so decisively, suddenly, I feel even more reluctant

"Why?"

I murmur.

custody? Frances or you? Actually, you don't like either of the options, do you? What's more, it hasn't

have a

I can be very stubborn. I'm not good

want to

hurts to

You can't get a pregnancy test in prison. How did

I've got pregnant once. I know how it feels when I'm pregnant. Besides, my period has been delayed by ten days." I reply in

I'll help you come out for an examination. You also need some

prison. They won't allow me