In My Desperate Time

After one week, I am discharged from the hospital.

During the hospital stay, I pick out a name for my daughter:

Penelope.

It means love that never dies.

But I guess I'm the only one who knows why I give her that name.

Penelope has yet to be discharged from the hospital, but now she can take her bottle herself. That's something!

The doctor gives her a checkup and tells me that if it goes well, Penelope will be transferred to the general ward in two days.

Since I can't see Penelope except in visiting hours, my mother and I go back to our hometown together.

On Monday afternoon, we rush over to see her.

Three days later, Penelope is transferred to the general ward. And I stay in the hospital so that I can take good care of her.

Seeing her increasingly round chubby cheeks, I feel extremely happy.

But my mother really worries about me.

"Jane, you've lost a lot of weight."

than I

month. My mother wouldn't let me. If not for my tears and pleas, I wouldn't have been allowed to stay

I’m barely holding

at myself. I'm

If I fall apart, what will happen to

next to Penelope's after I've taken care of her for a whole day. For me, the happiest thing to do every

has gained from

in mind, I carefully

by day. It requires a

have

I can do is to get

Penelope, I go to the job market for

don't want to be a

soon as I pick up the brush, I would

come to my mind and linger

has brought me great pain, reminding me that it was me who personally destroyed my love with a

time I think about it, my heart aches

I could be away from Frances if I didn't think about him or

suddenly shows

exact, he shows up with

like a family

a lunch box, squatting on the side of the road and eating my lunch.