In My Desperate Time

After one week, I am discharged from the hospital.

During the hospital stay, I pick out a name for my daughter:

Penelope.

It means love that never dies.

But I guess I'm the only one who knows why I give her that name.

Penelope has yet to be discharged from the hospital, but now she can take her bottle herself. That's something!

The doctor gives her a checkup and tells me that if it goes well, Penelope will be transferred to the general ward in two days.

Since I can't see Penelope except in visiting hours, my mother and I go back to our hometown together.

On Monday afternoon, we rush over to see her.

Three days later, Penelope is transferred to the general ward. And I stay in the hospital so that I can take good care of her.

Seeing her increasingly round chubby cheeks, I feel extremely happy.

But my mother really worries about me.

"Jane, you've lost a lot of weight."

I'm thinner than I was

care of Penelope myself even without being confined in a month. My mother wouldn't let me. If not for my tears and pleas, I wouldn't have been allowed to stay by

I’m barely holding

at myself. I'm afraid that it might make me feel painful to

on. If I fall apart, what will happen to

Penelope's after I've taken care of her for a whole day. For me, the happiest thing to

a month, Penelope has gained from

doctor in mind,

It requires a lot of

have

can do is to get

go to the job market

want to be a designer

as I pick up the brush, I would think of my old

suddenly come to my mind and

the bygone days. That shot has brought me great pain, reminding me that it was me who personally destroyed my love

about it, my heart aches so

Frances if I didn't think about him or ran

suddenly

he shows up with Hilda, Albie, and

a family

box, squatting on the side of the road and eating my lunch.