In My Desperate Time

After one week, I am discharged from the hospital.

During the hospital stay, I pick out a name for my daughter:

Penelope.

It means love that never dies.

But I guess I'm the only one who knows why I give her that name.

Penelope has yet to be discharged from the hospital, but now she can take her bottle herself. That's something!

The doctor gives her a checkup and tells me that if it goes well, Penelope will be transferred to the general ward in two days.

Since I can't see Penelope except in visiting hours, my mother and I go back to our hometown together.

On Monday afternoon, we rush over to see her.

Three days later, Penelope is transferred to the general ward. And I stay in the hospital so that I can take good care of her.

Seeing her increasingly round chubby cheeks, I feel extremely happy.

But my mother really worries about me.

"Jane, you've lost a lot of weight."

know I'm thinner than I

Penelope myself even without being confined in a month. My mother wouldn't let me. If not for my tears and pleas, I wouldn't have been allowed to stay by

I’m barely

myself. I'm afraid that it might make me feel painful to see how skinny

hold on. If I fall

next to Penelope's after I've taken care of her for a whole day. For me, the happiest

has gained from

the advice of the doctor in mind,

requires a

have no

I can do is to

after giving birth to Penelope, I go to the job market for job

don't want to

brush, I would think of

to my mind and linger

days. That shot has brought me great pain, reminding me that it was me who personally destroyed my love

heart aches so much that I

I could be away from Frances if I didn't think about him

suddenly shows

he shows up with Hilda, Albie, and

a family

moment, I'm carrying a lunch box, squatting on the side of the road and eating my lunch. I look like