In My Desperate Time

After one week, I am discharged from the hospital.

During the hospital stay, I pick out a name for my daughter:

Penelope.

It means love that never dies.

But I guess I'm the only one who knows why I give her that name.

Penelope has yet to be discharged from the hospital, but now she can take her bottle herself. That's something!

The doctor gives her a checkup and tells me that if it goes well, Penelope will be transferred to the general ward in two days.

Since I can't see Penelope except in visiting hours, my mother and I go back to our hometown together.

On Monday afternoon, we rush over to see her.

Three days later, Penelope is transferred to the general ward. And I stay in the hospital so that I can take good care of her.

Seeing her increasingly round chubby cheeks, I feel extremely happy.

But my mother really worries about me.

"Jane, you've lost a lot of weight."

know I'm thinner than I

to Penelope, I decide to take care of Penelope myself even without being confined in a month.

barely holding

afraid to look at myself. I'm afraid that it might make me feel

must hold on. If I fall

rest in the bed next to Penelope's after I've taken care of her for a whole day. For me, the happiest thing to do every day is to look at

gained from 1.6 kilograms to

the doctor in mind, I

day. It requires a lot of money

I have

I can do

go to the job market for job seeking, regardless of

to be a designer

the brush,

to my mind and linger

That shot has brought me great pain, reminding me that it was me who personally destroyed my love

my heart aches so much that

I could be away from Frances if I didn't think about him or ran

he suddenly shows

he shows up

look like a

this moment, I'm carrying a lunch box, squatting on the side of the road and eating