In My Desperate Time

Did he really kiss her?

It hurts so bitterly in my heart.

I can do nothing to stop my lover from kissing another woman, but simply stand there like an onlooker.

Is there anything more painful than this?

What if Hilda goes even further? Will he meet her desire?

Everything before me is so cruel and overwhelming.

Please stop!

I repeat this over and over again silently, with my fists clenched, only to find it useless to ease my pain.

It seems that Frances could hear me, as he halts.

He looks as if he attempts to pull away, but then he’s held even tighter by her.

The kiss lasts for two minutes before it finally ends.

I am fighting back tears, forcing myself not to shed one.

With the end of the intentional kiss show comes the hustle and bustle of the ball.

me for a

only because I want to see Frances, except which

the couple are dancing elegantly in the hall, I seat myself somewhere unnoticeable, staring

is his

long does he have to keep acting as Hilda’s

idea of how long

for seeing him for a little longer, I think I must

my irresistible longing for him prevents me from leaving during the

leave the seat until I have become the last

don’t know when I can see him

is it even possible for us to meet

he

don’t dare to think

never looked steadily at

utmost to avoid

guests depart, Frances and Hilda go

night,

thought of this makes

any difference

distressed to hail a taxi, with my feet dragging me forward on the street

that moment, my phone vibrates in my

There is a message.