Love Aint Always Pretty
Chapter 17: 17 Fanaa
Fanaa
- destruction of self; "destroyed in love"
Origin: Arabic and Urdu
17
I take the supplies that I need to clean his wound and lay them out on the counter. I prop up my leg leaning it on the toilet bowl just below his crotch and placed his hand on my leg.
I.
Put.
His.
Hand.
On.
My.
Leg.
Holy hell.
His arm draping across my leg and I wish my hands would calm down and not shake while I clean his wound. As I start putting alcohol over the cut with the cotton ball clipped with the tweezers, I push all of my hair to one side so it won't intervene while I'm cleaning his wound. I was amazed that he doesn't flinch at all from the stinging pain. He just sat there and doesn't make a sound. I was even silently wincing for him but he just watches me work quietly. We didn't talk as always.
I don't know if he was looking at his hand or thinking if I was doing it right even though I know what I'm doing, or he was looking at my face. I don't know because I'm too nervous to look at him. But I try to ignore Nick even though our faces were a little closer than a while ago. I even feel his breath on my cheek every single time he exhales.
I see his other hand resting on his knee but I ignored it again. All of a sudden I can sense that one of the tips of his fingers is now touching my knee but I still try to ignore it. I reached for something from the first aid and slowly placed an antibiotic cream on his wound. Our eyes lock for three seconds the least but then I quickly looked back down on his wound. He's too close in getting too conscious with what I'm doing.
Suddenly I dropped the cream on the floor. "Shit." I cursed.
I hurriedly picked it up and acted weird before Nick. I can't tell if he's tensed as I am. But I couldn't quite figure out if he's nervous because I was this close to him or because I was hurting him with what I was doing over his wound.
Suddenly, two of the tips now touches my knee.
Now three.
I inhale again and try to grab the gauze from the kit while exhaling. I didn't look at him after grabbing it, I quickly looked back down on his wound. As much as I want to focus on his hand, making the perfect wrap around his wound, I can't cos the tips of his fingers that are on my knee isn't an accidental graze at all.
He's actually touching me.
His fingers now trailing around my knee and his hand slowly runs down the back of my leg. Holy shit. All of a sudden his forehead pressing against my neck then he sighs while squeezing my leg. I can't move. I don't want to move at all.
Breathe Savannah.
Just breathe.
I quickly manage to finish with his gauze covering around his palm but he still didn't speak. He doesn't release me too so I didn't back away. I can feel his warm breathing on my neck.
Breathe Savannah.
Slowly I feel his hand gliding go to my thigh then on my hip and now up to my waist. Shit he's holding my waist.
Breathe Savannah.
Breathe Savannah.
His fingers gripping my waist as he slowly pulls his head back. His face now close to mine and now that the space in between us is growing smaller and smaller, I think every muscle in my body somehow just forgot it's job.
"Savannah." He whispers.
I gulped.
I pulled myself up all of a sudden and escaped from his grip. He was still sitting on top of the closed toilet
"I'm done cleaning it. Uhh..." I scratch my hair. "I just need to recheck it again probably before we leave tomorrow."
it. I stepped out and took a deep breath. As I was about to leave him, he grabs my wrist and pulled me back inside the restroom and I was closer to him. He gently closes the door and locked it. He's still sitting on the toilet though and now I'm standing in
Oh god.
Oh god.
slowly but his eyes never leaves mine. His head now looking down at me while his height towering over me as I prop my head up to him. He pulled his wounded hand up to my cheek, holding my face and
He's wetting them.
That.
Was.
So.
Hot.
I'm damn sure that Nick really wants
now, I'm hella sure that I want to do the same
down against my spine and I feel some left marks with
die with every inch he comes closer and closer to me. And I'm pretty
and my head on the opposite side. Both of us closing our eyes together and boom. My lips are pressing against his. He tightens
is
wall. His mouth is so possessive. His lips is like a destructive hurricane for a second then a calm sea the next. His fingers digging into my hip and my arms wrapping around his neck. His kisses gaining a little speed while he lifts my leg,
cigarette; toxic and unhealthy, but
if he's not only on his pants right now and if
he
then the kiss came to an abrupt stop and drops my
He stopped.
Why did he stop?
No. No.
me again again. Kiss me again. We were getting
He's regretting that he kissed me. Nick pushes himself off the wall and turned his back to me. I didn't
do that again to
Why?
Why Nick?
Why?
opens the door but I don't want him to go. I don't want him to leave me here after kissing me so terribly great like that. Finally he leaves me still against this stupid wall. I
I sigh.
the bathroom and
would deep?"
shake my head. "Nothing
god! Come downstairs, I'm watching this chick
brother?" I
saw him entering his room." she points out to the door right across the
the couch and she
have a girlfriend, Tracy?" I asked out of the
as I can remember, he's been single for eight
jaws dropped. "You're kidding me? Isn't he like twenty four? And he's in college for god sake. I'm sure
old to still be in college but there's always reasons behind
I just nod.
•••••
the rooftop. Gosh, I'm going
to be attracted to
fall back asleep for the nth time but no use. I can't even if I try to. My mind is still thinking about that deliciously perfect kiss I had with Nick. I crawled out
I stepped down the last step of the stairs, I see Nick sitting on the couch with the light from the tv was the only thing lighting up the entire living room. He looks at me as if he was expecting me to come down. I just walk past him and ignored the fact that he regretted kissing
I kissed
to the fridge then noticed that it was
thought you
as soon as I heard Nick's voice. I turned around as quick as I could and faced him standing right
not." I answered,
The entire house is too quiet. It's too quiet that it's getting
Tracy do some girly stuff before
taking a drink from my glass. I wiped my upper lip with the back of my thumb. I wanted to ask him if he's really been single for eight years. I mean, that's
been single Nick?"
couldn't hold it
He answers right away without hesitation plastered
you stop kissing me
had... At least...." I just don't know how to finish my sentence right
He continued
hook up with some girls cos
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