Love Aint Always Pretty

Serendipity

- finding something good without looking for it

18

"I'm very attracted to you Savannah." He repeats.

My heart leaps.

"But I just don't want those extra other stuff between us." He added while holding the back of his neck.

My eyebrows furrowing.

"Other stuff?" My voice shying away.

"Those boyfriend and girlfriend thing. I don't want that." He said firm.

Holy hell.

I just do not know what to say to him or even how to react to that thing he just confessed to me. I wait for a little more to rethink again and then think a lot more. He just admitted to me that he just wants to have sex with me. He doesn't want those sweet little things done in a relationship. He doesn't want it to lead into something. He wants sec from me. Nothing but sex.

I should be punching him or hitting him with my fists and I should be mad at him cos that's what he's only after me but the fact that he chose to kiss me after those straight eight years, makes me flatter. I find it disrespectful yet intense that he only wants nothing but sex from me. No guy had ever been this frank to me and Nick's too hot to resist. I know I couldn't even if I lie to myself that I do not want what he's offering me.

We're staring at each other again. I think he is nervous and I think he's wondering if he pissed me off. But honestly, I don't feel like I'm pissed off at all. I feel the total opposite of being mad. It makes me want to jump on top of the counter and scream my lungs out in the middle of the night cos I feel honored. I know want this. I want Nick. I want this no matter what the consequences are. I want this.

I just don't know how to answer him though.

I uncross my legs. "So Nick, lets get this straight."

He looks at me sternly.

"You haven't had sex for eight years." I say, he nods.

"You haven't kissed someone for eight years as well." He nods again.

"You certainly don't like commitments." He nods once more.

"You don't like those things done in a relationship too. You don't like to date anybody. And you obviously don't want love either. Correct?" I say out.

He's sexy smirk is showing. "Yup."

"But you're also saying you're very attracted to me even though you don't want to get attracted to me. You want to have sex with me but you don't want us to be committed. You don't want to love me and you also don't want me to love you. That's it? Did I get it right?" I asked.

He nods while rubbing his chin with his thumb and forefinger. "Yes."

"Well I just think we should take it slow." I teased. "I don't want to pressure you or anything. You're still a virgin."

I smile at my own joke but then his smile fades and takes steps towards me. I quickly stopped smiling the moment he stood right in front of me. He spreads my legs apart and stood up in between my thighs. Oh god. Oh god. He is seriously intimidating. He leans close to my ear.

"Remember, it's been eight years Savannah. Trust me when I say I'm fucking ready." He says.

That.

Was

Insanely.

Hot.

pulls his head away from me and kept smirking. "Are you sure

This.

he meant when he said this. I'm torn between the two options of thinking this means; letting him have sex with me with no

I said with whatever

He smirks.

can't believe I asked you

I smiled sheepishly.

a while since the last time I did it. I know I am definitely attracted to him and I wouldn't want to have meaningless sex with anyone

me Nick." I called

"I'm listening." He says.

If ever we wanted a relationship out of this thing we are talking about right now, it'll never work out. I'm sure it won't. And I won't have to worry about ruining

"Alright. Go on."

You want

He nods. "Totally."

will let you. I will let you have

Shit that was so

Do it again.

Do it again.

let you fuck me a lot."

eyes widened. "Are

you want

me even longer with a challenging stare.

"Okay." I said.

He deliberately nods. "Okay."

promise me you won't fall in

have sex without expectations from it. I'm nervous because I'm not sure that we can just have casual sex sooner or later but yet I stand here pretending that I'm fine with just sex. Maybe if it starts out this way, it'll probably turn into something

I'm hopeful.

He just told you

can't have sex right

Damn it.

"Why not?" I asked.

I'm sure as hell in first five thrust I'll do

I laughed.

again in ways that'll

I have been anticipating

it."

want this

effortlessly carried me up on his arms, while my legs spreading wide against his body as he walks towards the counter, right next to the sink. He placed

that I love it every time I catch you looking at me?" He says while brushing his thumb on

cos I'm sure as hell he's talking about that thing we did inside the car on the

holding on to his neck. Every movement he does is liquefying me. I've never felt this good on kissing other men like how he kisses me. His

against his body. I am almost on the edge of the counter. His wounded hand inserting under

we hear footsteps that sounded like coming down the

"Shit." I pulled away.

He listened as well.

it's

me off the counter and the door opens just right on time we both got away from our kiss. We froze for a second when we saw Tracy rubbing her eyes as she

still up?" She