Love Aint Always Pretty

Forelsket

- the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love

Origin: Norwegian

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Both of us headed up to my room and as soon as we got inside, he walked to the bed and placed the box on top. I locked the door and just watched Nick. It felt like a déjà vu, like it was the first night we spent together.

"Aren't you gonna join me here?" He asked.

I smiled and started walking closer to him. I sat down on the bed right across him and he gave me a slice. We just ate peacefully and he opened a can of soda for me too.

"I think you still need curtains." I say.

"No curtains."

I smiled. "Why? Do you have some fear of curtains?"

He shakes his head. "Nope. I just don't like curtains."

"Why?" I asked again before taking a drink from my cola.

"Cos it'll just add dust to my room and I'm too lazy to wash it time to time."

I nod. "Reasonable."

He pulled out a ply of tissue and wiped my cheek, "You're such a messy eater."

I giggled.

"I'm just really hungry." I said smiling.

He smiled. "Thanks for coming with me today. I really appreciate it."

I smiled back at him.

"No problem. It's really not a big deal and thanks for choosing a blouse for me." I say before taking a bite.

The whole dinner, I just kept asking about how he should put more decors in his room. I told him to rather put some fruit basket, or maybe a painting or two or maybe some colorful vase. But he said he didn't want to put much cos he's a lazy cleaner.

When we were done eating, we cleaned our mess and I thought he was going to leave but instead he is still here. I don't want him to leave too but it's Friday. Fridays are party days.

"Can I lie down on your bed?" He asked.

I nod. "Sure."

He lays down on my bed with his head right behind me. I looked at him over my shoulder as he place my pillow beneath his head. "Aren't you going yet?"

"You want me to leave already?" He asked back.

I slightly bite my lower lip, "No..."

"Then I'm staying for tonight." He says.

I chuckled and faced him. "Nick you have a party to attend to. It's Friday, remember?"

He groans and placed his arm on top of my lap but I'm still looking right at him.

"I'd rather be here and spend my Friday night with you." He says while looking at me.

Jesus Nick you're really going to give me a heart attack.

I smiled. "Tracy will find you in the morning. What am I gonna say?"

"Nope. She's not. Tracy's going out of town with Clyde the entire weekend. It's their first anniversary together." He said.

My heart is melting.

I'm jealous. I'm not jealous over Clyde. I'm happy for them. But all I'm getting jealous about is their relationship. I'm jealous about how they can be free in front of the public. I'm jealous about how they can kiss and say their I love you's in front of their friends because everyone knows they are dating. I'm jealous because they own each other. Im jealous because they have the right to be jealous over the other one. I'm jealous cos they don't have to be a secret.

Unlike me and Nick.

"You okay? What's wrong?" He asks.

okay anymore. I can't help myself falling in love with you, that's

wrong."

his fingers moves through mine, spreading

meant what I said though." He

creasing as

are you talking

pulled his

He confirms it.

tell myself not to fall for his actions, I end up falling. Every time I tell myself not to fall for his sugar-coated words, I still end up falling. Oh my god Nick, why are you doing this to me? Why is it hard to just keep it physical between you and I?

you..." he pulls

away. He smells mint from that

I.

Give.

In.

"Miss me?" He continues.

Nick I'm falling...

slowly parts.

briefly. My limbs are softer now. I feel like I'm turning into a liquid. I'm liquefying and I'm turning myself into water-form

having tons of exams this week so I really

can feel it burning. My breathing is now heavier than before and we've done this a lot of times but I'm still not used to his

wins a huge part of

me. Not seeing you or kissing this

Im smiling wider.

And wider.

you need to go. Your frat

to go to that lame party. Let's stay in bed for a while." He says while

Oh god.

you Nick? I can't seem to never say no to

I nod.

a movie?" I suggested maneuvering myself

you have?"

and both of us were now lying down side by side with our stomachs facing down on the bed. He was looking through the movies I have on my laptop but I was busy looking at him. I love how his eyebrows are creasing to the center. I love how he looks at something so seriously like what he's doing right now. I love rubbing my forefinger against his side-beard

about this one?" He

quickly looked at the screen. "I fell asleep one time when I watched that.

"This one." I snapped.

it. "The Best Of

and looked

seen it?" I

obviously a romantic flick." He

want to watch it?" I

just looked at

it yet as

exhaled. "Okay.

I smiled happily.

to watch this. I haven't had time to watch movies on my laptop anymore cos I've been so busy with school. As the

guy is seriously hot."

just ignored what I said too. Now the two young couples were kissing under the rain on top of a rooftop. It was really intense. God it was steamy. I wish Nick and I could kiss under the rain. I wish he could feel what I feel when we kiss. I see

pulled my head up a little from the pillow beneath us, "Are you watching or

watching..... You." He says

from smiling like a complete retard. My heart is going nuts again but I just continued watching and rested my head on his shoulder. Now the scene is where the young couples were making love

while we're on top of this bed where we had sexy for the first time is making my hormones

girl's father were against her relationship with this hot guy

into my head

still together? What if she'll come back all of a sudden and

reality hit me hard,

someday, if Catherine will come back, Nick will surely choose her instead of me. I mean, I'm just his sex buddy. I'm just a hole where he needs to put his dick into if he's

are you crying?" He asks while

my head. I'm crying because I'm falling for you Nick and I'm scared about what will happen to us in the future. I'm sure it will hurt

cos my tears were bawling out from my eyes. I see Nick stopping the movie and pulled my head

wrong?" He

just shake my head

not watching anymore." He

I just nodded.

He instructs and hugs me all of a

My poor poor heart.

arms were

you attach to the other person even if you both planned

I tried to stop myself from crying. I tried to make my heart from getting hurt. I sat down on the bed right next to him while