Love Aint Always Pretty

Forelsket

- the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love

Origin: Norwegian

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Both of us headed up to my room and as soon as we got inside, he walked to the bed and placed the box on top. I locked the door and just watched Nick. It felt like a déjà vu, like it was the first night we spent together.

"Aren't you gonna join me here?" He asked.

I smiled and started walking closer to him. I sat down on the bed right across him and he gave me a slice. We just ate peacefully and he opened a can of soda for me too.

"I think you still need curtains." I say.

"No curtains."

I smiled. "Why? Do you have some fear of curtains?"

He shakes his head. "Nope. I just don't like curtains."

"Why?" I asked again before taking a drink from my cola.

"Cos it'll just add dust to my room and I'm too lazy to wash it time to time."

I nod. "Reasonable."

He pulled out a ply of tissue and wiped my cheek, "You're such a messy eater."

I giggled.

"I'm just really hungry." I said smiling.

He smiled. "Thanks for coming with me today. I really appreciate it."

I smiled back at him.

"No problem. It's really not a big deal and thanks for choosing a blouse for me." I say before taking a bite.

The whole dinner, I just kept asking about how he should put more decors in his room. I told him to rather put some fruit basket, or maybe a painting or two or maybe some colorful vase. But he said he didn't want to put much cos he's a lazy cleaner.

When we were done eating, we cleaned our mess and I thought he was going to leave but instead he is still here. I don't want him to leave too but it's Friday. Fridays are party days.

"Can I lie down on your bed?" He asked.

I nod. "Sure."

He lays down on my bed with his head right behind me. I looked at him over my shoulder as he place my pillow beneath his head. "Aren't you going yet?"

"You want me to leave already?" He asked back.

I slightly bite my lower lip, "No..."

"Then I'm staying for tonight." He says.

I chuckled and faced him. "Nick you have a party to attend to. It's Friday, remember?"

He groans and placed his arm on top of my lap but I'm still looking right at him.

"I'd rather be here and spend my Friday night with you." He says while looking at me.

Jesus Nick you're really going to give me a heart attack.

I smiled. "Tracy will find you in the morning. What am I gonna say?"

"Nope. She's not. Tracy's going out of town with Clyde the entire weekend. It's their first anniversary together." He said.

My heart is melting.

I'm jealous. I'm not jealous over Clyde. I'm happy for them. But all I'm getting jealous about is their relationship. I'm jealous about how they can be free in front of the public. I'm jealous about how they can kiss and say their I love you's in front of their friends because everyone knows they are dating. I'm jealous because they own each other. Im jealous because they have the right to be jealous over the other one. I'm jealous cos they don't have to be a secret.

Unlike me and Nick.

"You okay? What's wrong?" He asks.

okay. This is not okay anymore. I can't help myself falling in

fine. Nothing's wrong."

his fingers moves through mine, spreading them apart. My fingers like his fingers until he

meant what I

eyebrows creasing as I look at

talking about?"

his head

He confirms it.

I tell myself not to fall for his actions, I end up falling. Every time I tell myself not to fall for his sugar-coated words, I still end up falling. Oh my god Nick, why are you doing this to me? Why is it hard to just keep it physical between you and I? Oh gosh I wanna scream so loud right now. I wanna throw myself at him and hug him and tell him I missed him too.

you..." he pulls himself

mint from that candy I gave him. He's breathing on my face and

I.

Give.

In.

"Miss me?" He continues.

Nick I'm falling...

parts. "I..

kisses me briefly. My limbs are softer now. I feel like I'm turning into a liquid. I'm liquefying and I'm turning myself into water-form now with one touch and one kiss

tons of exams this week so I

can feel it burning. My breathing is now heavier than before and we've done this a lot of times but I'm still not used to

a huge part of

to me. Not seeing you or kissing this

Im smiling wider.

And wider.

cleared my throat. "I think you need to go. Your frat party

go to that lame party. Let's stay in bed for

Oh god.

I say no to you Nick? I can't seem to never say no to

I nod.

a movie?" I suggested maneuvering myself to

movie do you have?"

on the bed. He was looking through the movies I have on my laptop but I was busy looking at him. I love how his eyebrows are

about this one?" He

screen. "I fell asleep one time when I watched that.

"This one." I snapped.

looks at it. "The Best Of

nod and looked at

seen it?"

romantic flick." He

watch it?" I asked

looked

it yet as

exhaled. "Okay. Let's

I smiled happily.

movie started right away and I don't know if Nick was watching it but I am obviously excited to watch this. I haven't had time to watch movies on my laptop anymore cos I've been so busy with school. As the movie goes on, it's now on

seriously hot."

rain on top of a rooftop. It was really intense. God it was steamy. I wish Nick and I could kiss under the rain. I wish he could feel what

a little from the pillow

You." He

smiling like a complete retard. My heart is going nuts again but I just continued watching and rested my head on his shoulder. Now the scene

top of this bed where we had sexy for the first time is making my hormones rage

talked about how it started as a young love and how the girl's father were against her relationship with this hot guy named Dawson Cole cos he was just a poor man and twenty years passed they saw each other again and they realized that their love for each other didn't die at all. They realized it was just there all

head

until now? What if they're still together? What if she'll come back all of a sudden and they'll see each other again? What if their love

reality hit me

it is, I am really crying. I'm trying not to let my tears fall but it's still falling. It's hurting me cos I'm imagining him and a blurred face Catherine getting back together after a few years. I know if that will happen someday, if Catherine will come back, Nick will surely choose her instead of me. I mean, I'm

He asks while

crying because I'm falling for you Nick and I'm scared about what will happen to us in

see Nick stopping the movie and pulled my head to him so

He asked

shake my

not watching anymore."

I just nodded.

hugs me

My poor poor heart.

back while I was lying on top of his chest. His arms were still wrapped around me and I

the other person even if

tears. I tried to stop myself from crying. I tried to make my heart from getting hurt.