Love Aint Always Pretty

Forelsket

- the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love

Origin: Norwegian

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Both of us headed up to my room and as soon as we got inside, he walked to the bed and placed the box on top. I locked the door and just watched Nick. It felt like a déjà vu, like it was the first night we spent together.

"Aren't you gonna join me here?" He asked.

I smiled and started walking closer to him. I sat down on the bed right across him and he gave me a slice. We just ate peacefully and he opened a can of soda for me too.

"I think you still need curtains." I say.

"No curtains."

I smiled. "Why? Do you have some fear of curtains?"

He shakes his head. "Nope. I just don't like curtains."

"Why?" I asked again before taking a drink from my cola.

"Cos it'll just add dust to my room and I'm too lazy to wash it time to time."

I nod. "Reasonable."

He pulled out a ply of tissue and wiped my cheek, "You're such a messy eater."

I giggled.

"I'm just really hungry." I said smiling.

He smiled. "Thanks for coming with me today. I really appreciate it."

I smiled back at him.

"No problem. It's really not a big deal and thanks for choosing a blouse for me." I say before taking a bite.

The whole dinner, I just kept asking about how he should put more decors in his room. I told him to rather put some fruit basket, or maybe a painting or two or maybe some colorful vase. But he said he didn't want to put much cos he's a lazy cleaner.

When we were done eating, we cleaned our mess and I thought he was going to leave but instead he is still here. I don't want him to leave too but it's Friday. Fridays are party days.

"Can I lie down on your bed?" He asked.

I nod. "Sure."

He lays down on my bed with his head right behind me. I looked at him over my shoulder as he place my pillow beneath his head. "Aren't you going yet?"

"You want me to leave already?" He asked back.

I slightly bite my lower lip, "No..."

"Then I'm staying for tonight." He says.

I chuckled and faced him. "Nick you have a party to attend to. It's Friday, remember?"

He groans and placed his arm on top of my lap but I'm still looking right at him.

"I'd rather be here and spend my Friday night with you." He says while looking at me.

Jesus Nick you're really going to give me a heart attack.

I smiled. "Tracy will find you in the morning. What am I gonna say?"

"Nope. She's not. Tracy's going out of town with Clyde the entire weekend. It's their first anniversary together." He said.

My heart is melting.

I'm jealous. I'm not jealous over Clyde. I'm happy for them. But all I'm getting jealous about is their relationship. I'm jealous about how they can be free in front of the public. I'm jealous about how they can kiss and say their I love you's in front of their friends because everyone knows they are dating. I'm jealous because they own each other. Im jealous because they have the right to be jealous over the other one. I'm jealous cos they don't have to be a secret.

Unlike me and Nick.

"You okay? What's wrong?" He asks.

I'm not okay. This is not okay anymore. I can't help myself falling

Nothing's wrong."

reaches for my hand and his fingers moves through mine, spreading them apart. My fingers like his

what I said

as

talking about?" I

I missed you." He pulled his head slightly

He confirms it.

Nick, why are you doing this to me? Why

he pulls himself

closer to me and his lips just an inch away. He smells mint from that candy I gave him. He's breathing on my face and he's holding my cheek with his huge

I.

Give.

In.

"Miss me?" He continues.

Nick I'm falling...

slowly parts. "I.. I

My limbs are softer now. I feel like I'm turning into a liquid. I'm liquefying and I'm turning myself into water-form now with one touch and one

this week so I really didn't want to bother

smiled at him in response. I know my cheeks are blushing cos I can feel it burning. My breathing is now heavier than before and we've done this a lot of times but I'm still not used to his sensual touches and

a huge

me. Not seeing you

Im smiling wider.

And wider.

Your frat party needs the presence of

go to that lame party. Let's stay in bed

Oh god.

say no to you Nick? I can't seem to never say

I nod.

watch a movie?" I suggested maneuvering myself to the

do you have?" He

through the movies I have on my laptop but I was busy looking at him. I love how

one?" He turned to

quickly looked at the screen. "I fell asleep one time when I watched that.

"This one." I snapped.

it. "The

and looked at

you seen it?"

obviously a romantic flick." He sounded disliking

to watch it?" I asked

just looked at

yet as

"Okay. Let's

I smiled happily.

but I am obviously excited to watch this. I haven't had time to watch movies on my laptop anymore cos I've been so busy with

is seriously hot."

couples were kissing under the rain on top of a rooftop. It was really intense. God it was steamy. I wish Nick and I could kiss under the rain. I

from the pillow beneath us, "Are you watching or

You." He

lips together so I could stop myself from smiling like a complete retard. My heart is going nuts again but I just continued watching and rested my head on his shoulder. Now the scene is where

scene with Nick for the first time while we're on top of this bed where we had sexy for

to miss a single part. The movie talked about how it started as a young love and how the girl's father were against her relationship with this hot guy named Dawson Cole cos he was just a poor man and twenty years passed they saw each other again and they realized that their

into my head out of

love with her until now? What if they're still together? What if she'll come back all of

hit me hard, there's no

falling. It's hurting me cos I'm imagining him and a blurred face Catherine getting back together after a few years. I know if that will happen someday, if Catherine will come back, Nick will surely choose her instead of me. I mean, I'm just his sex buddy. I'm just a hole where he needs to put his dick into if he's horny. I don't hold anything to

He

I'm scared about what will happen to us in

eyes. I see Nick stopping the movie

wrong?" He

just shake my head

it, we're not watching anymore." He

I just nodded.

instructs and hugs me all of a

My poor poor heart.

on top of his chest. His arms were still wrapped around me and I was just

the other person even if you

pulled myself away from him and wiped my tears. I tried to stop myself from crying. I tried to make my heart from getting hurt.