Love Aint Always Pretty

Forelsket

- the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love

Origin: Norwegian

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Both of us headed up to my room and as soon as we got inside, he walked to the bed and placed the box on top. I locked the door and just watched Nick. It felt like a déjà vu, like it was the first night we spent together.

"Aren't you gonna join me here?" He asked.

I smiled and started walking closer to him. I sat down on the bed right across him and he gave me a slice. We just ate peacefully and he opened a can of soda for me too.

"I think you still need curtains." I say.

"No curtains."

I smiled. "Why? Do you have some fear of curtains?"

He shakes his head. "Nope. I just don't like curtains."

"Why?" I asked again before taking a drink from my cola.

"Cos it'll just add dust to my room and I'm too lazy to wash it time to time."

I nod. "Reasonable."

He pulled out a ply of tissue and wiped my cheek, "You're such a messy eater."

I giggled.

"I'm just really hungry." I said smiling.

He smiled. "Thanks for coming with me today. I really appreciate it."

I smiled back at him.

"No problem. It's really not a big deal and thanks for choosing a blouse for me." I say before taking a bite.

The whole dinner, I just kept asking about how he should put more decors in his room. I told him to rather put some fruit basket, or maybe a painting or two or maybe some colorful vase. But he said he didn't want to put much cos he's a lazy cleaner.

When we were done eating, we cleaned our mess and I thought he was going to leave but instead he is still here. I don't want him to leave too but it's Friday. Fridays are party days.

"Can I lie down on your bed?" He asked.

I nod. "Sure."

He lays down on my bed with his head right behind me. I looked at him over my shoulder as he place my pillow beneath his head. "Aren't you going yet?"

"You want me to leave already?" He asked back.

I slightly bite my lower lip, "No..."

"Then I'm staying for tonight." He says.

I chuckled and faced him. "Nick you have a party to attend to. It's Friday, remember?"

He groans and placed his arm on top of my lap but I'm still looking right at him.

"I'd rather be here and spend my Friday night with you." He says while looking at me.

Jesus Nick you're really going to give me a heart attack.

I smiled. "Tracy will find you in the morning. What am I gonna say?"

"Nope. She's not. Tracy's going out of town with Clyde the entire weekend. It's their first anniversary together." He said.

My heart is melting.

I'm jealous. I'm not jealous over Clyde. I'm happy for them. But all I'm getting jealous about is their relationship. I'm jealous about how they can be free in front of the public. I'm jealous about how they can kiss and say their I love you's in front of their friends because everyone knows they are dating. I'm jealous because they own each other. Im jealous because they have the right to be jealous over the other one. I'm jealous cos they don't have to be a secret.

Unlike me and Nick.

"You okay? What's wrong?" He asks.

is not okay anymore. I can't help

wrong."

through mine, spreading them apart. My

what I

eyebrows creasing as I

you talking

missed you." He pulled his head slightly

He confirms it.

to fall for his actions, I end up falling. Every time I tell myself not to fall for his sugar-coated words, I still end up falling. Oh my god Nick, why are you doing this to me? Why is it hard to just keep it physical between you and I? Oh gosh I wanna scream so loud right now. I wanna throw myself at him and hug him and tell him I missed him too. Oh god my poor

you..." he

inch away. He smells mint from that candy I gave him. He's breathing on my face

I.

Give.

In.

"Miss me?" He continues.

Nick I'm falling...

parts. "I.. I

I'm turning into a liquid. I'm liquefying and I'm turning myself into water-form now with one touch and one kiss from him. He rests his forehead against my forehead while his thumb

week so I really didn't want to

I can feel it burning. My breathing is now heavier than before and we've done this a lot of times but I'm still not used to his sensual touches and these little things that he

wins a huge part of

you

Im smiling wider.

And wider.

to go. Your frat

to that lame party. Let's stay in bed for a while." He says while pulling my

Oh god.

you Nick? I can't seem to never say no

I nod.

movie?" I suggested

movie do you

of us were now lying down side by side with our stomachs facing down on the bed. He was looking through the movies I have on my laptop but I was busy looking at him. I love how his eyebrows are creasing to the center. I love how he looks at something so seriously like what he's doing right now. I love rubbing my forefinger against his side-beard and he doesn't complain

one?"

"I fell asleep one time when I watched

"This one." I snapped.

it. "The Best Of

nod and looked at

you seen

romantic flick." He sounded disliking

don't want to watch it?" I asked

looked

watched it yet as well."

"Okay. Let's watch

I smiled happily.

time to watch movies on my laptop anymore cos I've been so busy with school. As the movie goes on, it's

guy is seriously

two young couples were kissing under the rain on top of a rooftop. It was really intense. God it was steamy. I wish Nick and I could kiss under the rain. I wish he could feel what I feel when we kiss. I see Nick

head up a little from the pillow beneath

You." He

his side and we continued watching it. He kissed my cheek gently and I have to press my lips together so I could stop myself from smiling like a complete retard. My heart is going nuts again but I just continued

first time while we're on top of this bed where we had sexy for the first time is making my hormones rage like lightning

he noticed that I was seriously watching it and he doesn't want me to miss a single part. The movie talked about how it started as a young love and how the girl's father were against her relationship with this hot guy named Dawson Cole cos he was just a poor man and twenty years passed they saw each other again and they realized that

into my head out of

What if he's still in love with her until now? What if they're still together? What if she'll come back

me hard, there's

trying not to let my tears fall but it's still falling. It's hurting me cos I'm imagining him and a blurred face Catherine getting back together after a few years. I know if that will happen someday, if Catherine will come back, Nick will surely choose her instead of me. I mean, I'm just his sex buddy. I'm just a hole where he needs to put his dick into if he's horny. I don't hold anything to him. And I'm crying because as early as now, it's

Why are you crying?" He asks

Nick and I'm scared about what will happen to us in the future. I'm sure

I see Nick stopping the movie and pulled my head to him so I could look at him. He thumbs my

He asked

just shake

it, we're not watching anymore." He

I just nodded.

instructs and hugs me

My poor poor heart.

on his back while I was lying on top of his chest. His arms were still wrapped around me and I was just listening to his heartbeat while I

never really thought sex can make you attach to the other

I tried to make my heart from getting hurt. I sat down on the bed right next to him while