Love Aint Always Pretty

Forelsket

- the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love

Origin: Norwegian

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Both of us headed up to my room and as soon as we got inside, he walked to the bed and placed the box on top. I locked the door and just watched Nick. It felt like a déjà vu, like it was the first night we spent together.

"Aren't you gonna join me here?" He asked.

I smiled and started walking closer to him. I sat down on the bed right across him and he gave me a slice. We just ate peacefully and he opened a can of soda for me too.

"I think you still need curtains." I say.

"No curtains."

I smiled. "Why? Do you have some fear of curtains?"

He shakes his head. "Nope. I just don't like curtains."

"Why?" I asked again before taking a drink from my cola.

"Cos it'll just add dust to my room and I'm too lazy to wash it time to time."

I nod. "Reasonable."

He pulled out a ply of tissue and wiped my cheek, "You're such a messy eater."

I giggled.

"I'm just really hungry." I said smiling.

He smiled. "Thanks for coming with me today. I really appreciate it."

I smiled back at him.

"No problem. It's really not a big deal and thanks for choosing a blouse for me." I say before taking a bite.

The whole dinner, I just kept asking about how he should put more decors in his room. I told him to rather put some fruit basket, or maybe a painting or two or maybe some colorful vase. But he said he didn't want to put much cos he's a lazy cleaner.

When we were done eating, we cleaned our mess and I thought he was going to leave but instead he is still here. I don't want him to leave too but it's Friday. Fridays are party days.

"Can I lie down on your bed?" He asked.

I nod. "Sure."

He lays down on my bed with his head right behind me. I looked at him over my shoulder as he place my pillow beneath his head. "Aren't you going yet?"

"You want me to leave already?" He asked back.

I slightly bite my lower lip, "No..."

"Then I'm staying for tonight." He says.

I chuckled and faced him. "Nick you have a party to attend to. It's Friday, remember?"

He groans and placed his arm on top of my lap but I'm still looking right at him.

"I'd rather be here and spend my Friday night with you." He says while looking at me.

Jesus Nick you're really going to give me a heart attack.

I smiled. "Tracy will find you in the morning. What am I gonna say?"

"Nope. She's not. Tracy's going out of town with Clyde the entire weekend. It's their first anniversary together." He said.

My heart is melting.

I'm jealous. I'm not jealous over Clyde. I'm happy for them. But all I'm getting jealous about is their relationship. I'm jealous about how they can be free in front of the public. I'm jealous about how they can kiss and say their I love you's in front of their friends because everyone knows they are dating. I'm jealous because they own each other. Im jealous because they have the right to be jealous over the other one. I'm jealous cos they don't have to be a secret.

Unlike me and Nick.

"You okay? What's wrong?" He asks.

This is not okay anymore. I can't help myself falling in

Nothing's wrong." I said

through mine, spreading them apart. My fingers

what I said

creasing as I

talking

pulled his head slightly up and looked at

He confirms it.

to fall for his actions, I end up falling. Every time I tell myself not to fall for his sugar-coated words, I still end up falling. Oh my god Nick, why are you doing this to me? Why is it hard to just keep it physical between you and I? Oh gosh I wanna scream so loud right now.

you..." he pulls

closer to me and his lips just an inch away. He smells mint from that candy I gave him. He's breathing on my face and he's holding my cheek with his huge

I.

Give.

In.

"Miss me?" He continues.

Nick I'm falling...

parts. "I..

I'm turning into a liquid. I'm liquefying and I'm turning myself into water-form now with one touch and one kiss from him. He rests his forehead against my forehead while his thumb

exams this week so I really didn't want to bother

just smiled at him in response. I know my cheeks are blushing cos I can feel it burning. My breathing is now heavier than before and we've done this a

always wins a

me. Not seeing you or kissing this delicious lips." He

Im smiling wider.

And wider.

cleared my throat. "I think you need to go. Your frat party needs the presence of

want to go to that lame party. Let's stay in bed for a while." He

Oh god.

I say no to you Nick? I can't seem to never say no to

I nod.

movie?" I suggested maneuvering myself to the

movie do you have?"

looking at him. I love how his eyebrows are creasing to the center. I love how he looks at something so seriously like what he's doing right now. I love rubbing my forefinger against his side-beard and he doesn't complain about

this one?" He turned

the screen. "I fell asleep one time when I watched that. How

"This one." I snapped.

looks at it. "The Best Of

and looked at

you seen it?"

It's obviously a romantic flick."

watch it?" I asked

looked at

watched it yet as

exhaled. "Okay. Let's watch

I smiled happily.

was watching it but I am obviously excited to watch this. I haven't had time to watch movies on my laptop anymore cos I've been so busy with school. As the movie goes on, it's now on this scene where the young Amanda and young Dawson went out for

guy is seriously hot." I

was really intense. God it was steamy. I wish Nick and I could kiss under the rain. I wish he could feel what I feel when we kiss. I see Nick

my head up a little from the pillow beneath us, "Are you

You." He says

my cheek gently and I have to press my lips together so I could stop myself from smiling like a complete retard. My heart is going

first time while we're on top of this bed where we had sexy for the first

he doesn't want me to miss a single part. The movie talked about how it started as a young love and how the girl's father were against her relationship with this hot guy named Dawson Cole cos he was just

head out of

love? What if Catherine was the last girl he fell in love with eight years ago? What if he's still in love with her until now? What if they're still together? What if she'll come back all of a

hit me hard, there's

will happen someday, if Catherine will come back, Nick will surely choose her instead of me. I mean, I'm just his sex buddy. I'm just a hole where he needs to put his dick into if he's horny. I don't hold

you crying?" He

my head. I'm crying because I'm falling for you Nick and I'm scared about what will happen to us in

eyes. I see Nick stopping the movie and pulled my head to him so I could

wrong?" He asked

shake

not watching anymore." He

I just nodded.

instructs and hugs me all of a

My poor poor heart.

I was lying on top of his chest. His arms

never really thought sex can make you attach to the other person even if you both planned that this was just

from getting hurt. I sat down on the bed