Love Aint Always Pretty

Forelsket

- the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love

Origin: Norwegian

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Both of us headed up to my room and as soon as we got inside, he walked to the bed and placed the box on top. I locked the door and just watched Nick. It felt like a déjà vu, like it was the first night we spent together.

"Aren't you gonna join me here?" He asked.

I smiled and started walking closer to him. I sat down on the bed right across him and he gave me a slice. We just ate peacefully and he opened a can of soda for me too.

"I think you still need curtains." I say.

"No curtains."

I smiled. "Why? Do you have some fear of curtains?"

He shakes his head. "Nope. I just don't like curtains."

"Why?" I asked again before taking a drink from my cola.

"Cos it'll just add dust to my room and I'm too lazy to wash it time to time."

I nod. "Reasonable."

He pulled out a ply of tissue and wiped my cheek, "You're such a messy eater."

I giggled.

"I'm just really hungry." I said smiling.

He smiled. "Thanks for coming with me today. I really appreciate it."

I smiled back at him.

"No problem. It's really not a big deal and thanks for choosing a blouse for me." I say before taking a bite.

The whole dinner, I just kept asking about how he should put more decors in his room. I told him to rather put some fruit basket, or maybe a painting or two or maybe some colorful vase. But he said he didn't want to put much cos he's a lazy cleaner.

When we were done eating, we cleaned our mess and I thought he was going to leave but instead he is still here. I don't want him to leave too but it's Friday. Fridays are party days.

"Can I lie down on your bed?" He asked.

I nod. "Sure."

He lays down on my bed with his head right behind me. I looked at him over my shoulder as he place my pillow beneath his head. "Aren't you going yet?"

"You want me to leave already?" He asked back.

I slightly bite my lower lip, "No..."

"Then I'm staying for tonight." He says.

I chuckled and faced him. "Nick you have a party to attend to. It's Friday, remember?"

He groans and placed his arm on top of my lap but I'm still looking right at him.

"I'd rather be here and spend my Friday night with you." He says while looking at me.

Jesus Nick you're really going to give me a heart attack.

I smiled. "Tracy will find you in the morning. What am I gonna say?"

"Nope. She's not. Tracy's going out of town with Clyde the entire weekend. It's their first anniversary together." He said.

My heart is melting.

I'm jealous. I'm not jealous over Clyde. I'm happy for them. But all I'm getting jealous about is their relationship. I'm jealous about how they can be free in front of the public. I'm jealous about how they can kiss and say their I love you's in front of their friends because everyone knows they are dating. I'm jealous because they own each other. Im jealous because they have the right to be jealous over the other one. I'm jealous cos they don't have to be a secret.

Unlike me and Nick.

"You okay? What's wrong?" He asks.

is not okay anymore. I can't help myself falling

wrong."

and his fingers moves through mine, spreading them apart. My fingers like his fingers until he entwines

what I

creasing as

are you talking

I missed you." He pulled his head slightly up and looked

He confirms it.

up falling. Every time I tell myself not to fall for his sugar-coated words, I still end up falling. Oh my god Nick, why are you doing this to me? Why is it hard to just keep it physical between

he pulls himself

head moving closer to me and his lips just an inch away. He smells mint from that candy I gave him. He's breathing on my face and he's holding my cheek

I.

Give.

In.

"Miss me?" He continues.

Nick I'm falling...

parts.

briefly. My limbs are softer now. I feel like I'm turning into a liquid. I'm liquefying and I'm turning myself into water-form now with one touch and one kiss from him. He rests his forehead against my forehead

told me you were having tons of exams this week so I really didn't

burning. My breathing is now heavier than before and we've done this

always wins a huge

was torture to me. Not seeing you or kissing this delicious lips." He

Im smiling wider.

And wider.

go. Your frat party needs the presence of

go to that lame party. Let's stay in bed for a while." He says while pulling

Oh god.

I can't seem to never say

I nod.

a movie?" I suggested maneuvering myself

you

looking through the movies I have on my laptop but I was busy looking at him. I love how his eyebrows are creasing to the center. I love how he looks at something so seriously like what he's doing right now. I love rubbing my forefinger

about this one?" He turned to

screen. "I fell asleep one time

"This one." I snapped.

looks at it. "The Best

and looked at

you seen it?"

It's obviously a romantic flick." He

to watch it?"

just looked at

haven't watched it yet as

exhaled. "Okay. Let's

I smiled happily.

had time to watch movies on my laptop anymore cos I've been so busy with school. As the movie goes on, it's now on this scene where

seriously

was steamy. I wish Nick and I could kiss under the rain. I wish he could feel what I feel when we kiss. I see Nick from my peripheral view but he's just looking at

my head up a little from the pillow beneath us, "Are you

watching..... You." He says

kissed my cheek gently and I have to press my lips together so I could stop myself from smiling like a complete retard. My heart is going nuts again but I just continued watching and rested my head on

bed scene with Nick for the first time while we're on top of this bed where we had sexy for the first time is making my hormones

it and he doesn't want me to miss a single part. The movie talked about how it started as a young love and how the girl's father were against her relationship with this hot guy named Dawson Cole

my head

years ago? What if he's still in love with her until now? What if they're still together? What if she'll come back all of

reality hit me

it's still falling. It's hurting me cos I'm imagining him and a blurred face Catherine getting back together after a few years. I know if that will happen someday, if Catherine will come back, Nick will surely choose her instead of me. I mean, I'm just his sex buddy. I'm just a hole where he

crying?" He asks

and I'm scared about what

my tears were bawling out from my eyes. I see Nick stopping the movie and pulled my head to him so I could look at

wrong?" He

shake my head

not watching

I just nodded.

He instructs and hugs me

My poor poor heart.

back while I was lying on top of his chest. His arms were still wrapped

sex can make you attach to the other person even if you both planned that

crying. I tried to make my heart from getting hurt. I sat down on the bed right next to him while he was rubbing my thigh with one hand then he sits