Love Aint Always Pretty

Forelsket

- the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love

Origin: Norwegian

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Both of us headed up to my room and as soon as we got inside, he walked to the bed and placed the box on top. I locked the door and just watched Nick. It felt like a déjà vu, like it was the first night we spent together.

"Aren't you gonna join me here?" He asked.

I smiled and started walking closer to him. I sat down on the bed right across him and he gave me a slice. We just ate peacefully and he opened a can of soda for me too.

"I think you still need curtains." I say.

"No curtains."

I smiled. "Why? Do you have some fear of curtains?"

He shakes his head. "Nope. I just don't like curtains."

"Why?" I asked again before taking a drink from my cola.

"Cos it'll just add dust to my room and I'm too lazy to wash it time to time."

I nod. "Reasonable."

He pulled out a ply of tissue and wiped my cheek, "You're such a messy eater."

I giggled.

"I'm just really hungry." I said smiling.

He smiled. "Thanks for coming with me today. I really appreciate it."

I smiled back at him.

"No problem. It's really not a big deal and thanks for choosing a blouse for me." I say before taking a bite.

The whole dinner, I just kept asking about how he should put more decors in his room. I told him to rather put some fruit basket, or maybe a painting or two or maybe some colorful vase. But he said he didn't want to put much cos he's a lazy cleaner.

When we were done eating, we cleaned our mess and I thought he was going to leave but instead he is still here. I don't want him to leave too but it's Friday. Fridays are party days.

"Can I lie down on your bed?" He asked.

I nod. "Sure."

He lays down on my bed with his head right behind me. I looked at him over my shoulder as he place my pillow beneath his head. "Aren't you going yet?"

"You want me to leave already?" He asked back.

I slightly bite my lower lip, "No..."

"Then I'm staying for tonight." He says.

I chuckled and faced him. "Nick you have a party to attend to. It's Friday, remember?"

He groans and placed his arm on top of my lap but I'm still looking right at him.

"I'd rather be here and spend my Friday night with you." He says while looking at me.

Jesus Nick you're really going to give me a heart attack.

I smiled. "Tracy will find you in the morning. What am I gonna say?"

"Nope. She's not. Tracy's going out of town with Clyde the entire weekend. It's their first anniversary together." He said.

My heart is melting.

I'm jealous. I'm not jealous over Clyde. I'm happy for them. But all I'm getting jealous about is their relationship. I'm jealous about how they can be free in front of the public. I'm jealous about how they can kiss and say their I love you's in front of their friends because everyone knows they are dating. I'm jealous because they own each other. Im jealous because they have the right to be jealous over the other one. I'm jealous cos they don't have to be a secret.

Unlike me and Nick.

"You okay? What's wrong?" He asks.

I'm not okay. This is not okay anymore. I can't help myself falling in love with you, that's

Nothing's wrong." I said

through mine, spreading them apart. My fingers like his

meant what I said though." He

as I look

talking

I missed you." He pulled his

He confirms it.

Oh my god Nick, why are you doing this to me? Why is it hard to just keep it physical between you and I? Oh gosh I wanna scream so loud right now. I wanna throw myself

you..." he pulls himself

lips just an inch away. He smells mint from that candy I gave him. He's breathing on my face and he's holding

I.

Give.

In.

"Miss me?" He continues.

Nick I'm falling...

slowly parts.

I'm turning myself into water-form now with one touch and one kiss from

me you were having tons of exams this week

can feel it burning. My breathing is now heavier than before and

always wins a huge part of

to me. Not seeing you or kissing

Im smiling wider.

And wider.

go. Your frat party needs the presence of the El

lame party. Let's stay in bed for

Oh god.

you Nick? I can't

I nod.

a movie?" I suggested maneuvering

you have?"

with our stomachs facing down on the bed. He was looking through the movies I have on my laptop but I was busy looking at him. I love how his eyebrows are creasing to the center. I love how he looks at something so seriously like what he's doing right now. I love rubbing my forefinger against his side-beard and he doesn't complain about

this one?" He turned

"I fell asleep one time when I watched that.

"This one." I snapped.

it. "The

nod and looked

you seen

romantic flick."

to watch it?" I asked

looked

haven't watched it yet as

exhaled. "Okay. Let's

I smiled happily.

right away and I don't know if Nick was watching it but I am obviously excited to watch this. I haven't had time to watch movies on my laptop anymore cos I've

is seriously

top of a rooftop. It was really intense. God it was steamy. I wish Nick and I could kiss under the rain. I wish he could

the pillow beneath us, "Are

watching..... You."

I have to press my lips together so I could stop myself from smiling like a complete retard. My heart is going nuts again but I just continued watching and rested my head on his shoulder. Now the scene is where the young couples were

the first time while we're on top of this bed where we had sexy for the first time is

he doesn't want me to miss a single part. The movie talked about how it started as a young love and how the girl's father were against her relationship with this hot guy named Dawson Cole cos he was just a poor man and twenty years passed they saw each other again and they realized that their love for each other didn't die

came into my head out of the

love with eight years ago? What if he's still in love with her until now? What if they're still together? What if she'll come back all of a sudden and they'll see each other again? What if their love for each other

then reality hit me hard, there's

as embarrassing as it is, I am really crying. I'm trying not to let my tears fall but it's still falling. It's hurting me cos I'm imagining him and a blurred face Catherine getting back together after a few years. I know if that will happen someday, if Catherine will come back, Nick will surely choose her instead of me. I mean, I'm just his sex buddy. I'm just a hole where he needs to put his dick into if he's horny. I don't hold anything to

you crying?" He asks while

I'm falling for you Nick and I'm scared about what will happen to us in the future. I'm sure it will hurt me, and

out from my eyes. I see Nick stopping the movie

wrong?" He

just shake my head

we're not watching

I just nodded.

hugs

My poor poor heart.

I was lying on top of his chest. His arms were still wrapped around me and I was just listening to his heartbeat while I was

can make you attach to the other person even

pulled myself away from him and wiped my tears. I tried to stop myself from crying. I tried to make my heart from getting hurt. I sat down on the bed right next to him while he was rubbing my thigh with one