Love Aint Always Pretty

Forelsket

- the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love

Origin: Norwegian

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Both of us headed up to my room and as soon as we got inside, he walked to the bed and placed the box on top. I locked the door and just watched Nick. It felt like a déjà vu, like it was the first night we spent together.

"Aren't you gonna join me here?" He asked.

I smiled and started walking closer to him. I sat down on the bed right across him and he gave me a slice. We just ate peacefully and he opened a can of soda for me too.

"I think you still need curtains." I say.

"No curtains."

I smiled. "Why? Do you have some fear of curtains?"

He shakes his head. "Nope. I just don't like curtains."

"Why?" I asked again before taking a drink from my cola.

"Cos it'll just add dust to my room and I'm too lazy to wash it time to time."

I nod. "Reasonable."

He pulled out a ply of tissue and wiped my cheek, "You're such a messy eater."

I giggled.

"I'm just really hungry." I said smiling.

He smiled. "Thanks for coming with me today. I really appreciate it."

I smiled back at him.

"No problem. It's really not a big deal and thanks for choosing a blouse for me." I say before taking a bite.

The whole dinner, I just kept asking about how he should put more decors in his room. I told him to rather put some fruit basket, or maybe a painting or two or maybe some colorful vase. But he said he didn't want to put much cos he's a lazy cleaner.

When we were done eating, we cleaned our mess and I thought he was going to leave but instead he is still here. I don't want him to leave too but it's Friday. Fridays are party days.

"Can I lie down on your bed?" He asked.

I nod. "Sure."

He lays down on my bed with his head right behind me. I looked at him over my shoulder as he place my pillow beneath his head. "Aren't you going yet?"

"You want me to leave already?" He asked back.

I slightly bite my lower lip, "No..."

"Then I'm staying for tonight." He says.

I chuckled and faced him. "Nick you have a party to attend to. It's Friday, remember?"

He groans and placed his arm on top of my lap but I'm still looking right at him.

"I'd rather be here and spend my Friday night with you." He says while looking at me.

Jesus Nick you're really going to give me a heart attack.

I smiled. "Tracy will find you in the morning. What am I gonna say?"

"Nope. She's not. Tracy's going out of town with Clyde the entire weekend. It's their first anniversary together." He said.

My heart is melting.

I'm jealous. I'm not jealous over Clyde. I'm happy for them. But all I'm getting jealous about is their relationship. I'm jealous about how they can be free in front of the public. I'm jealous about how they can kiss and say their I love you's in front of their friends because everyone knows they are dating. I'm jealous because they own each other. Im jealous because they have the right to be jealous over the other one. I'm jealous cos they don't have to be a secret.

Unlike me and Nick.

"You okay? What's wrong?" He asks.

I'm not okay. This is not okay anymore. I can't help myself falling

wrong." I said

for my hand and his fingers moves through mine, spreading them apart. My fingers like his fingers until he entwines

what I said though."

eyebrows creasing as I look

talking about?"

you." He pulled his head slightly up and looked

He confirms it.

did miss me. Every time I tell myself not to fall for his actions, I end up falling. Every time I tell myself not to fall for his sugar-coated words, I still end up falling. Oh my god Nick, why are you doing this to me? Why is it hard to just keep it physical between you and I? Oh gosh I wanna scream so loud right now. I wanna throw myself at him and hug him and tell him I missed him too.

you..." he pulls

moving closer to me and his lips just an inch away. He smells mint from that candy I gave him. He's breathing on my

I.

Give.

In.

"Miss me?" He continues.

Nick I'm falling...

slowly parts.

into water-form now with one touch and one kiss from him. He rests his forehead against my

of exams this week

is now heavier than before and we've done this a lot of times but I'm still not used to his sensual touches and these little things that

always wins a huge part

to me. Not seeing you

Im smiling wider.

And wider.

need to go. Your frat party

stay in bed for a while." He says

Oh god.

no to you Nick? I can't seem to never say

I nod.

movie?" I suggested

movie do you

looking through the movies I have on my laptop but I was busy looking at him. I love how his eyebrows are creasing to the center. I love how he looks at something so seriously like

this one?" He turned

looked at the screen. "I fell asleep one time

"This one." I snapped.

at it. "The Best Of

and looked at

you seen it?"

a romantic flick."

to watch it?" I asked

looked at

yet as

exhaled. "Okay. Let's

I smiled happily.

on my laptop anymore cos I've been so busy with school. As the movie goes on, it's now on this scene where the young Amanda and young

guy is seriously

the rain on top of a rooftop. It was really intense. God it was steamy. I wish Nick and I could kiss under the rain. I

head up a little from the pillow beneath us, "Are you watching

watching..... You."

a complete retard. My heart is going nuts again but I just continued watching and rested my head on his shoulder. Now the scene is where the young couples were making

bed where we had sexy for the first

initiate to kiss or to cuddle, I think he noticed that I was seriously watching it and he doesn't want me to miss a single part. The movie talked about how it started as a young love and how the girl's father were against her relationship with this hot guy named Dawson Cole cos he was just a poor man and twenty years

came into my head out

What if Catherine was the last girl he fell in love with eight years ago? What if he's still in love with her until now? What if they're still together? What if she'll come back all of a sudden and they'll see each other again? What if their love for each other

me hard,

a blurred face Catherine getting back together after a few years. I know if that will happen someday, if Catherine will come back, Nick will surely choose her instead of me. I mean, I'm just his sex buddy. I'm just a hole where he needs to put his dick into if he's horny.

are you crying?" He

shake my head. I'm crying because I'm falling for you Nick and I'm scared about what will happen to us in the future. I'm sure it will

I see Nick stopping the movie and pulled my head to him so I could look

wrong?" He asked

just shake my

it, we're not watching

I just nodded.

hugs me

My poor poor heart.

was lying on top of his chest. His arms were still wrapped around me and I was just listening to his heartbeat while I was

other

tried to make my heart from getting hurt. I sat down on the