Love Aint Always Pretty

Forelsket

- the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love

Origin: Norwegian

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Both of us headed up to my room and as soon as we got inside, he walked to the bed and placed the box on top. I locked the door and just watched Nick. It felt like a déjà vu, like it was the first night we spent together.

"Aren't you gonna join me here?" He asked.

I smiled and started walking closer to him. I sat down on the bed right across him and he gave me a slice. We just ate peacefully and he opened a can of soda for me too.

"I think you still need curtains." I say.

"No curtains."

I smiled. "Why? Do you have some fear of curtains?"

He shakes his head. "Nope. I just don't like curtains."

"Why?" I asked again before taking a drink from my cola.

"Cos it'll just add dust to my room and I'm too lazy to wash it time to time."

I nod. "Reasonable."

He pulled out a ply of tissue and wiped my cheek, "You're such a messy eater."

I giggled.

"I'm just really hungry." I said smiling.

He smiled. "Thanks for coming with me today. I really appreciate it."

I smiled back at him.

"No problem. It's really not a big deal and thanks for choosing a blouse for me." I say before taking a bite.

The whole dinner, I just kept asking about how he should put more decors in his room. I told him to rather put some fruit basket, or maybe a painting or two or maybe some colorful vase. But he said he didn't want to put much cos he's a lazy cleaner.

When we were done eating, we cleaned our mess and I thought he was going to leave but instead he is still here. I don't want him to leave too but it's Friday. Fridays are party days.

"Can I lie down on your bed?" He asked.

I nod. "Sure."

He lays down on my bed with his head right behind me. I looked at him over my shoulder as he place my pillow beneath his head. "Aren't you going yet?"

"You want me to leave already?" He asked back.

I slightly bite my lower lip, "No..."

"Then I'm staying for tonight." He says.

I chuckled and faced him. "Nick you have a party to attend to. It's Friday, remember?"

He groans and placed his arm on top of my lap but I'm still looking right at him.

"I'd rather be here and spend my Friday night with you." He says while looking at me.

Jesus Nick you're really going to give me a heart attack.

I smiled. "Tracy will find you in the morning. What am I gonna say?"

"Nope. She's not. Tracy's going out of town with Clyde the entire weekend. It's their first anniversary together." He said.

My heart is melting.

I'm jealous. I'm not jealous over Clyde. I'm happy for them. But all I'm getting jealous about is their relationship. I'm jealous about how they can be free in front of the public. I'm jealous about how they can kiss and say their I love you's in front of their friends because everyone knows they are dating. I'm jealous because they own each other. Im jealous because they have the right to be jealous over the other one. I'm jealous cos they don't have to be a secret.

Unlike me and Nick.

"You okay? What's wrong?" He asks.

anymore. I can't help myself falling in love with you, that's

wrong."

his fingers moves through mine, spreading them apart.

I said though." He

eyebrows creasing as I look at

talking about?"

missed you." He pulled his head

He confirms it.

time I tell myself not to fall for his actions, I end up falling. Every time I tell myself not to fall for his sugar-coated words, I still end up falling. Oh my god Nick, why are you doing this to me? Why is it hard to just keep it physical between you and I? Oh gosh I wanna scream so loud right

he pulls himself

smells mint from that candy I gave him. He's breathing

I.

Give.

In.

"Miss me?" He continues.

Nick I'm falling...

lips slowly parts.

softer now. I feel like I'm turning into a liquid. I'm liquefying and I'm turning myself into water-form now with one touch and one kiss from him. He rests his forehead against my forehead while his thumb brushing on

week so I really didn't want to bother

at him in response. I know my cheeks are blushing cos I can feel it burning. My breathing is now heavier than before and we've done this a lot of times but I'm still not

always wins a huge

to me. Not seeing you or

Im smiling wider.

And wider.

Your frat

in bed for a while." He says while pulling my hand and

Oh god.

to you Nick? I

I nod.

I suggested maneuvering myself

movie do you have?"

stomachs facing down on the bed. He was looking through the movies I have on my laptop but I was busy looking at him. I love how his eyebrows are creasing to the center. I love how he looks at

this one?" He turned

asleep one time when I

"This one." I snapped.

looks at it.

and

you seen

It's obviously a romantic flick." He sounded

want to watch it?"

looked at

it yet as well." I

exhaled. "Okay.

I smiled happily.

away and I don't know if Nick was watching it but I am obviously excited to watch this. I haven't had time to watch movies on my laptop anymore cos I've been so busy with school. As the movie goes on, it's now on this scene where the young Amanda and young Dawson went

is seriously hot."

what I said too. Now the two young couples were kissing under the rain on top of a rooftop. It was really intense. God it was steamy. I wish Nick and I could kiss under the rain. I wish he could feel what I feel when we kiss. I see Nick from my peripheral

the

watching..... You." He

my lips together so I could stop myself from smiling like a complete retard. My heart is going nuts again but I just continued watching and rested my head on his shoulder. Now the scene is where the young couples were making love and it. Was. God damn.

first time while we're on top of this bed

he noticed that I was seriously watching it and he doesn't want me to miss a single part. The movie talked about how it started as a young love and how the girl's father were against her relationship with this hot guy named Dawson Cole cos he was just a poor

into my head

he fell in love with eight years ago? What if he's still in love with her until now? What if they're still together? What if she'll come back all of a sudden and they'll see each other again? What if their love

me hard,

will happen someday, if Catherine will come back, Nick will surely choose her instead of me. I mean, I'm just his sex buddy. I'm just a

you crying?" He asks while

what will happen to us in the future. I'm sure it will

see Nick stopping the movie and pulled my head to him so

wrong?" He asked

shake my

not watching

I just nodded.

here." He instructs and hugs me

My poor poor heart.

while I was lying on top of his chest. His arms were still

other

to make my heart from getting hurt. I sat down on the bed right next to him while he was rubbing my thigh with one hand then he