Love Aint Always Pretty

Forelsket

- the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love

Origin: Norwegian

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Both of us headed up to my room and as soon as we got inside, he walked to the bed and placed the box on top. I locked the door and just watched Nick. It felt like a déjà vu, like it was the first night we spent together.

"Aren't you gonna join me here?" He asked.

I smiled and started walking closer to him. I sat down on the bed right across him and he gave me a slice. We just ate peacefully and he opened a can of soda for me too.

"I think you still need curtains." I say.

"No curtains."

I smiled. "Why? Do you have some fear of curtains?"

He shakes his head. "Nope. I just don't like curtains."

"Why?" I asked again before taking a drink from my cola.

"Cos it'll just add dust to my room and I'm too lazy to wash it time to time."

I nod. "Reasonable."

He pulled out a ply of tissue and wiped my cheek, "You're such a messy eater."

I giggled.

"I'm just really hungry." I said smiling.

He smiled. "Thanks for coming with me today. I really appreciate it."

I smiled back at him.

"No problem. It's really not a big deal and thanks for choosing a blouse for me." I say before taking a bite.

The whole dinner, I just kept asking about how he should put more decors in his room. I told him to rather put some fruit basket, or maybe a painting or two or maybe some colorful vase. But he said he didn't want to put much cos he's a lazy cleaner.

When we were done eating, we cleaned our mess and I thought he was going to leave but instead he is still here. I don't want him to leave too but it's Friday. Fridays are party days.

"Can I lie down on your bed?" He asked.

I nod. "Sure."

He lays down on my bed with his head right behind me. I looked at him over my shoulder as he place my pillow beneath his head. "Aren't you going yet?"

"You want me to leave already?" He asked back.

I slightly bite my lower lip, "No..."

"Then I'm staying for tonight." He says.

I chuckled and faced him. "Nick you have a party to attend to. It's Friday, remember?"

He groans and placed his arm on top of my lap but I'm still looking right at him.

"I'd rather be here and spend my Friday night with you." He says while looking at me.

Jesus Nick you're really going to give me a heart attack.

I smiled. "Tracy will find you in the morning. What am I gonna say?"

"Nope. She's not. Tracy's going out of town with Clyde the entire weekend. It's their first anniversary together." He said.

My heart is melting.

I'm jealous. I'm not jealous over Clyde. I'm happy for them. But all I'm getting jealous about is their relationship. I'm jealous about how they can be free in front of the public. I'm jealous about how they can kiss and say their I love you's in front of their friends because everyone knows they are dating. I'm jealous because they own each other. Im jealous because they have the right to be jealous over the other one. I'm jealous cos they don't have to be a secret.

Unlike me and Nick.

"You okay? What's wrong?" He asks.

This is not okay anymore. I can't help myself falling

Nothing's wrong."

fingers moves through mine, spreading them apart.

what I said though."

eyebrows creasing as

are you talking

missed you." He pulled his head slightly up and looked

He confirms it.

up falling. Oh my god Nick, why are you doing this to me? Why is it hard to just

you..." he pulls himself

just an inch away. He smells mint from that candy I gave him. He's breathing on my face and he's

I.

Give.

In.

"Miss me?" He continues.

Nick I'm falling...

slowly parts. "I..

turning into a liquid. I'm liquefying and I'm turning myself into water-form now with one touch and one kiss from him.

exams this week so I really didn't want to bother you." He

in response. I know my cheeks are blushing cos I can feel it burning. My breathing is now heavier than before and we've done this a lot of times but I'm still not used to his sensual touches and these

wins a huge part of

Not seeing you or kissing

Im smiling wider.

And wider.

"I think you need to go. Your frat party needs the presence of the

to go to that lame party. Let's stay in bed for a while." He says while pulling my

Oh god.

no to you Nick? I can't seem to never say

I nod.

watch a movie?" I suggested maneuvering

you

laptop but I was busy looking at him. I

one?" He

screen. "I fell asleep one time when I watched that. How about..." I

"This one." I snapped.

it.

nod and looked at

seen it?" I

romantic flick."

want to watch

just looked at

watched it yet as well." I

"Okay. Let's

I smiled happily.

my laptop anymore cos I've been so busy with school. As the movie goes on, it's now on this scene where the young

is seriously

Now the two young couples were kissing under the rain on top of a rooftop. It was really intense. God it was steamy. I wish Nick and I

little from the pillow beneath us,

watching..... You." He

have to press my lips together so I could stop myself from smiling like a complete retard. My heart is going nuts again but I just continued watching and rested my head on his shoulder. Now the scene is where the young couples

top of this bed where we had sexy for the first time is making my

kiss or to cuddle, I think he noticed that I was seriously watching it and he doesn't want me to miss a single part. The movie talked about how it started as a young love and how the girl's father were against her relationship with

came into my head out of

love with her until now? What if they're still together? What if she'll come back all of a sudden and they'll see each other again? What if their love for each other will ignite? What will happen

reality hit me hard,

I'm imagining him and a blurred face Catherine getting back together after a few years. I know if that will happen someday, if Catherine will come back, Nick will surely choose her

He asks while he's

my head. I'm crying because I'm falling for you Nick and I'm scared about what will happen to us in the future. I'm sure

eyes. I see Nick stopping the

He asked

just shake my

it, we're not watching anymore." He

I just nodded.

hugs me all

My poor poor heart.

was lying on top of his chest. His arms were

attach to the other person even if you both planned that

tried to stop myself from crying. I tried to make my heart from getting hurt. I sat down on the bed right next to him while he was rubbing my thigh