Love Aint Always Pretty

Forelsket

- the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love

Origin: Norwegian

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Both of us headed up to my room and as soon as we got inside, he walked to the bed and placed the box on top. I locked the door and just watched Nick. It felt like a déjà vu, like it was the first night we spent together.

"Aren't you gonna join me here?" He asked.

I smiled and started walking closer to him. I sat down on the bed right across him and he gave me a slice. We just ate peacefully and he opened a can of soda for me too.

"I think you still need curtains." I say.

"No curtains."

I smiled. "Why? Do you have some fear of curtains?"

He shakes his head. "Nope. I just don't like curtains."

"Why?" I asked again before taking a drink from my cola.

"Cos it'll just add dust to my room and I'm too lazy to wash it time to time."

I nod. "Reasonable."

He pulled out a ply of tissue and wiped my cheek, "You're such a messy eater."

I giggled.

"I'm just really hungry." I said smiling.

He smiled. "Thanks for coming with me today. I really appreciate it."

I smiled back at him.

"No problem. It's really not a big deal and thanks for choosing a blouse for me." I say before taking a bite.

The whole dinner, I just kept asking about how he should put more decors in his room. I told him to rather put some fruit basket, or maybe a painting or two or maybe some colorful vase. But he said he didn't want to put much cos he's a lazy cleaner.

When we were done eating, we cleaned our mess and I thought he was going to leave but instead he is still here. I don't want him to leave too but it's Friday. Fridays are party days.

"Can I lie down on your bed?" He asked.

I nod. "Sure."

He lays down on my bed with his head right behind me. I looked at him over my shoulder as he place my pillow beneath his head. "Aren't you going yet?"

"You want me to leave already?" He asked back.

I slightly bite my lower lip, "No..."

"Then I'm staying for tonight." He says.

I chuckled and faced him. "Nick you have a party to attend to. It's Friday, remember?"

He groans and placed his arm on top of my lap but I'm still looking right at him.

"I'd rather be here and spend my Friday night with you." He says while looking at me.

Jesus Nick you're really going to give me a heart attack.

I smiled. "Tracy will find you in the morning. What am I gonna say?"

"Nope. She's not. Tracy's going out of town with Clyde the entire weekend. It's their first anniversary together." He said.

My heart is melting.

I'm jealous. I'm not jealous over Clyde. I'm happy for them. But all I'm getting jealous about is their relationship. I'm jealous about how they can be free in front of the public. I'm jealous about how they can kiss and say their I love you's in front of their friends because everyone knows they are dating. I'm jealous because they own each other. Im jealous because they have the right to be jealous over the other one. I'm jealous cos they don't have to be a secret.

Unlike me and Nick.

"You okay? What's wrong?" He asks.

not okay anymore. I can't help myself

fine. Nothing's wrong." I said

fingers moves through mine, spreading them apart. My fingers like his

what I said though." He

as I look

you talking about?" I

He pulled his head slightly up and

He confirms it.

I tell myself not to fall for his sugar-coated words, I still end up falling. Oh my god Nick, why are you doing this to me? Why is it hard to just keep it physical between you and

you..." he

moving closer to me and his lips just an inch away. He smells mint from that candy I gave him. He's breathing on my face and he's holding my cheek with

I.

Give.

In.

"Miss me?" He continues.

Nick I'm falling...

lips slowly parts.

briefly. My limbs are softer now. I feel like I'm turning into a liquid. I'm liquefying and I'm turning myself into water-form now with one touch and one kiss from him. He rests his forehead against my

you were having tons of exams this week so

response. I know my cheeks are blushing cos I can feel it burning. My breathing is now heavier than before and we've done this a lot of times but

a huge part of

to me. Not seeing you or kissing this delicious lips."

Im smiling wider.

And wider.

need to go. Your

Let's stay in bed for a while."

Oh god.

to you Nick? I can't seem to

I nod.

watch a movie?" I suggested maneuvering myself

do you

I was busy looking at him. I love how his eyebrows are creasing to the center. I love how he looks at something so seriously like what

this one?" He turned

the screen. "I fell asleep one time when I watched that. How about..." I

"This one." I snapped.

at it. "The

nod and looked

seen it?" I

obviously a romantic flick." He sounded disliking

don't want to watch it?" I

just looked

it yet

exhaled. "Okay. Let's

I smiled happily.

this. I haven't had time to watch movies on my laptop anymore cos I've been so busy with school. As the movie goes on, it's now on this scene where the young Amanda and young Dawson went out for a

seriously hot." I

the two young couples were kissing under the rain on top of a rooftop. It was really intense. God it was steamy. I wish Nick and I could kiss under the rain. I wish he could feel what I feel when we kiss. I see Nick from my peripheral view but he's just looking at me

the pillow beneath us, "Are you watching

You." He says

continued watching it. He kissed my cheek gently and I have to press my lips together so I could stop myself from smiling like a complete retard. My heart is going nuts again but I just continued watching and rested my head on his shoulder. Now the scene is where the young couples were making love and it.

first time while we're on top of this bed where we had sexy for the first

how it started as a young love and how the girl's father were against her relationship with this

my head out of

Catherine was Nick's first love? What if Catherine was the last girl he fell in love with eight years ago? What if he's still in love with her until now? What if they're still together? What if she'll come back all of

reality hit me hard, there's no

that will happen someday, if Catherine will come back, Nick will surely choose her instead of me. I mean, I'm just his sex buddy. I'm just a

are you crying?" He asks while he's

crying because I'm falling for you Nick and I'm scared about what will happen to us in the future. I'm

anymore cos my tears were bawling out from my eyes. I see Nick stopping the movie and pulled my head to him so I could

wrong?" He

just shake my

we're not watching

I just nodded.

here." He instructs and hugs me all of

My poor poor heart.

down on his back while I was lying on top of his chest. His arms were still wrapped around me and I was just listening to his

attach to the other person even

wiped my tears. I tried to stop myself from crying. I tried to make my heart from getting hurt. I sat down on the bed right next to him while he was rubbing my thigh with one hand then he sits down