Love Aint Always Pretty

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Translation: darkness

Origin: French

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NICK'S POV

SEVEN YEARS AGO

It's been almost a year since my mother died. It's been almost a year since my mother's case was closed. It's been almost a year that I've been fighting for justice of my mother's death. Hans was the one who killed my mom. He intentionally killed my mother but he didn't get to be put in prison cos they paid the entire police station. They paid the witness and they left town right away after that day they killed my mother.

Yes, they. Hans and Mr. Forster.

It has been almost a year too since I lived alone in the house with Tracy. It's been almost a year I've been wanting to get my revenge on them. And it's been almost a year since Catherine left me.

Catherine found out on that same day who killed my mom and she couldn't stand being around me cos she felt guilty of what happened. When I got back home that day, I couldn't find her clothes on our dresser and I found a note on the kitchen table. That's all she left me, a note.

She said how sorry she was and how guilty she was of what happened. She said she didn't want this to happen. She blamed herself that my mom died. She said she didn't expect her father could go this far. She said she's going back to her father. She left me just like that. She left me so easily as if what we had was nothing important.

Catherine left me alone.

"Congratulations Nick." Tracy hugs me.

"Thanks Trace." I hugged her back and kissed her forehead.

"Bro, we're graduates! Wuhooo!" Alec fist bumped with me.

I smiled at him and he hooks his arm around my neck. "Dude, stop with that remorseful look. I'm sure your mom is proud of you right now."

"I just wish she could've seen me right now. She'd be so proud of me. She'd tell me for sure that she didn't expect I'd pass high school." I laugh humorlessly.

I looked up at the sky. "This is for you mom."

"How about we go to Tuck's party tonight? They said it's going to be epic! It's the last party we could attend to as high school. What do you say?" Alec offered.

"I can't leave Tracy alone." I say.

"Mom will guard her for us. She could sleep in my place." Alec blurted.

"I'll be fine Nick. Just go and have fun." Tracy says.

•••••

Later that afternoon after attending my high school graduation, I waited for my shift in this mechanic shop to end. I tried to do little fixes in the engine of this car that needs to be picked up any minute now. It's an old classic car and it's a pretty damn beautiful ride. Mrs. Tonkin, the wife of this shop's original owner, said that a beautiful man and a pretty lady owns this ride and she also said it's a pretty damn special car for them cos they'll be using it when they get married.

I stared at the engine as Alec starts trying it back again. He starts the engine and thank goodness it starts working. Alec steps out of the driver's seat.

"It worked bro!" Alec chimed.

I smile and closed the trunk. "That's really brilliant. I'm sure the owner of this car will extremely be happy."

"Damn this baby is a 1959 classic."

I smiled.

"Boys! The owners of that car are here." I hear Mrs. Tonkin call out to us.

Alec and I hurriedly turned around to see who it was. To my surprise, I dropped the tool from my hand and I stood there, frozen. My eyes grew bigger every time they walked near us and my heart was pumping really fast. I feel so surprised and happy but furiously angry.

Catherine is with Hans!

I know Catherine was also shocked to see me too and Alec even stared at me the moment he knew it was her and this douche bag. Her eyes looked like she's about to cry but she's holding it back.

for almost a year of leaving me. I wanted to ask her how she was. I wanted to ask her why she left me so

Happy with Hans.

a loose black dress and a pair of golden flats. She's so pretty. She's always so

and closer to us, I knew something was not right here. I glared at Hans and he was so calm. He planned this. He knew I worked here that's why he brought this stupid car here. I know

said to us while gesturing. "And his beautiful fiancée, Miss

Fiancée.

mother. Catherine stands right before me.

My eyes dilated.

She's pregnant!

Catherine is pregnant.

a baby soon that's why he's marrying her. It's really lovely. They're such

right in front of them and Catherine isn't even doing anything. She just kept looking at me. Not a word said. Not a how are you from her.

my head up to her and she's looking at me.

Hans then looked back at her as

Catherine is so unfair. I waited

up!"

he taps my

wanna hear

you beat him up there?

shake my head. "Catherine was

fingers

front of Catherine and she's pregnant."

fucking pregnant with

Instead, I drove back to that old house where Catherine and I used to live together. Even though it was a short period of time, it was very memorable to me. This place was where Catherine and I filled our dreams together. This house was where we planned our future together. This was where we

my jeans then covered it over with my shirt. I had this gun ever since my mom died. Dad came here last year and

one comes here, instead of me. I hear footsteps coming down the stairs. Catherine's image appeared on top of the staircase. She paused and looked shocked to find me here. Slowly, she starts coming down the steps and I didn't move from

surprise."

tell you that. What are you

She says while touching her

as I stare at her

at me.

on the couch. The couch where we'd used to cuddle or make out with when

walk towards her. I slowly sat down without saying a word and neither did she. We stared at the

room chasing

I nod.

We cooked together, we washed clothes together, we ate together, we washed dishes together. I learned how to do chores cos you taught me. You learned not to cook cos of me. We even slept together

We. Not you and Hans but

gazes at me then bends her head down as she stares at

Why didn't you come

think I grew

me was true. He was right about everything he pointed out

were okay

careless Nick. Sixteen year olds make stupid

me and being with

that I need to live

her answer. Her words were knife and how she said

me Catherine?" I asked

and she's doubtful of what to say to me. "Did

you so much. I used to love you."

to

exhaled heavily as I try to sink those words inside my mind then I reached for her small soft hand. I hold onto it, for the first

and I was doing the same

was still in hopes that

and slightly

finally let you go..." I

to let her go but then she was the first one who let go of me. She was the one who left

me kiss you." I

it was the first time we do it. She tilts her head sideways, feeling my palm closely. I started moving closer and closer to her until both of closed our eyes, until my lips were on her lips and until we started kissing.

Catherine.." I say as I pull myself away