Gemes
- the anger one feels inside but cannot find a way to express it.
Origin: Javanese
52
That Saturday afternoon, we went to a nearby small grocery store and bought a few foods until tomorrow. Nick was the one picking what he needs since he's the one who'll do all the cooking. I was the one pushing the cart for us though I bought a few foods too like junk foods, some chips, chocolate cookies, gummy worms, popcorn, and some other stuff that is to my own liking.
Nick was busy picking some perfect sauce for the pasta he'll be making tonight while I searched for a milk for me to drink. It may sound crazy but I usually choose the most beautiful milk container and that's how I choose milk aside from it being low fat. I head back to where the gummies were and every single thing was just deliciously tempting to buy.
"Hi. Excuse me dear." An old woman who wore a red trench coat approached me.
I smiled. "Hi ma'm. Can I be of any help?"
I sounded like a saleslady.
"Oh don't worry about me. I am more worried about you." She holds my arm.
I paused. "Me?"
She nods and looks over at Nick. "Why are you with that man?"
I looked over at Nick and he watches me talking to this old woman. I stared back at her and she looked so serious. "You should be careful around him." She says.
"I should be careful? With Nick?"
She nods again. "Yes dear."
She's the third person to tell me to be careful around Nick. Why? What's with Nick that I should really be careful about? What's Nick hiding from me?
"W-why?" I asked.
"Cos he's a--"
"Something going on here?"
She was cut off of what she was going to tell me by Nick. How'd he came here so fast? Nick stands right next to me and stares at the old woman then at me.
I shake my head. "No. She was just asking for directions where the fruits are."
Nick stares at the old woman intently and she looks back at him with fear in her eyes. He starts telling her where the fruits were placed and she hurriedly walks away but her eyes were glued to me.
"Do you know her?" I asked him.
"Yeah. She's Mrs. Tonkin. Her husband died cos of a stray bullet in New Year's."
He turned to me. "Done picking your gummies?"
I smiled. "Almost. Just a second."
Late that afternoon, while Nick was busy preparing for our dinner, I headed out of my room to help him and then I stared at his bedroom door. I looked at the stairs if he would come up but he wasn't. I slowly marched my way near his door and slowly opened it. I wanted to see how his room looks like. I wanted to compare his old room grin the one has at the frat house.
the door creaks open, I noticed that his walls were all white, there were no curtains and the bedsheets were dark blue. I see a few
how Catherine looks like. She's so beautiful it hurts me cos I look nothing like her. They look so perfect for each other. Nick
Jenna. Tracy told me once about her old best friend. The fourth photo, Catherine and Nick were with Alec. They were posing some wacky faces. Nick seemed so happy with her. The last frame was a solo picture
Catherine..."
room. I closed the door and tears were falling down on my face. He's still in love with her. He'll always be in love with
could've that old woman was about to say. I would want to ask Nick about it but what if he'll just get mad that I asked him. The way that old woman looked at Nick, it's like he's at fault. It's like he did something that she's
that I was bothered or somewhat like that cos he's used to the both of us getting quiet all of a sudden. Dinner was lovely as always and we had a little talk. We
watching it. The movie was very touching that made me tear up like a baby. Nick, who was sitting down right next to me, kept handing me tissues. One ply after the other. I think he's laughing at me too but I was so focused on the movie. When
when it
you dare fight with me about it." I pointed my finger out to him and
it cos I was crying too much so I wanted to finish this one this time."
"You even finished the popcorn all
"You took
the couch and headed to kitchen. "Want me to grab some drinks for you?" I asked him while
"Anything." He says.
I snapped and he was smiling at
kitchen. I marched to the refrigerator and saw cans of beers so I pulled out a
"Beer?" I smiled.
sighs. "Where did you
fridge. That means she wants to be drank." I say as I walk
know beers had
on the couch right next to him and placed the pack
know I don't
it all? We're just going to take a few cans. Maybe two for each of
so I could face him. "You were never a drinker
I smile. "Peer pressure."
drink up like this and you wear
father. Please. I don't need no lecture, daddy." I teased him while I'm biting my lips
grins. "You got kinks for
me. You're too old and I'm still eighteen. Remember?" I
I'm
pulls my hands away from
while brushing my fingers
Oh god.
you cos you've been a very naughty naughty girl?"
That's sexy.
being like that Nick. It's scary. It's
to him and kissed my
it anyways cos Nick seems
Nick? That question is once again stuck in my
and he seemed so focused on the tv and would laugh under his throat when something funny would come up. I look back ahead and all of a sudden Nick kissed my temple. I stared
"What's wrong?" He asked.
at
sure?" He
at him as I placed my head on his shoulder.
and stood right before me as I crossed my legs over the table.
my carriage?"
as he folds his arms to
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