Gemes
- the anger one feels inside but cannot find a way to express it.
Origin: Javanese
52
That Saturday afternoon, we went to a nearby small grocery store and bought a few foods until tomorrow. Nick was the one picking what he needs since he's the one who'll do all the cooking. I was the one pushing the cart for us though I bought a few foods too like junk foods, some chips, chocolate cookies, gummy worms, popcorn, and some other stuff that is to my own liking.
Nick was busy picking some perfect sauce for the pasta he'll be making tonight while I searched for a milk for me to drink. It may sound crazy but I usually choose the most beautiful milk container and that's how I choose milk aside from it being low fat. I head back to where the gummies were and every single thing was just deliciously tempting to buy.
"Hi. Excuse me dear." An old woman who wore a red trench coat approached me.
I smiled. "Hi ma'm. Can I be of any help?"
I sounded like a saleslady.
"Oh don't worry about me. I am more worried about you." She holds my arm.
I paused. "Me?"
She nods and looks over at Nick. "Why are you with that man?"
I looked over at Nick and he watches me talking to this old woman. I stared back at her and she looked so serious. "You should be careful around him." She says.
"I should be careful? With Nick?"
She nods again. "Yes dear."
She's the third person to tell me to be careful around Nick. Why? What's with Nick that I should really be careful about? What's Nick hiding from me?
"W-why?" I asked.
"Cos he's a--"
"Something going on here?"
She was cut off of what she was going to tell me by Nick. How'd he came here so fast? Nick stands right next to me and stares at the old woman then at me.
I shake my head. "No. She was just asking for directions where the fruits are."
Nick stares at the old woman intently and she looks back at him with fear in her eyes. He starts telling her where the fruits were placed and she hurriedly walks away but her eyes were glued to me.
"Do you know her?" I asked him.
"Yeah. She's Mrs. Tonkin. Her husband died cos of a stray bullet in New Year's."
He turned to me. "Done picking your gummies?"
I smiled. "Almost. Just a second."
Late that afternoon, while Nick was busy preparing for our dinner, I headed out of my room to help him and then I stared at his bedroom door. I looked at the stairs if he would come up but he wasn't. I slowly marched my way near his door and slowly opened it. I wanted to see how his room looks like. I wanted to compare his old room grin the one has at the frat house.
were all white, there were no curtains and the bedsheets were dark blue. I see
beautiful it hurts me cos I look nothing like her. They look so perfect for each other. Nick was smiling on the first picture, and I've never seen that smile before. I've never seen him smile like that at
another girl were with them. I think that's Jenna. Tracy told me once about her old best friend. The fourth photo, Catherine and Nick were with Alec. They were posing some wacky faces. Nick seemed so happy with her. The last frame was a solo picture of Catherine. I grabbed it as my tears were filling my eyes. I'm crying cos I'm hurt. I'm crying cos I know we can
you're Catherine..." I
down on his drawer. I stood up and walked out of his room. I closed the door and tears were falling down on my face. He's still in love with her. He'll
pictures in his room bothered me too much and I still asked myself what could've that old woman was about to say. I would want
I think Nick didn't notice that I was bothered or somewhat like that cos he's used to the both of us getting
baby. Nick, who was sitting down right next to me, kept
emotional when it comes to
and don't you dare fight with me about
watched a movie together, we didn't finish it cos I was crying too much
even finished the popcorn all
hit him. "You took some from
couch and headed to kitchen. "Want me to grab some drinks for you?"
"Anything." He says.
snapped and he
pulled out a pack then headed out of he kitchen
"Beer?" I smiled.
did you get
she wants to be drank." I say as I walk
know beers had a
back down on the couch right next to him and
I don't
just going to take a few cans. Maybe two for each of
my chin and pulled me towards his direction so I could face him. "You were never a
I smile. "Peer pressure."
feel bad cos you're learning to drink up like this and you wear showy clothes more often now cos of the people around
need no lecture, daddy." I teased him while I'm biting my lips
grins. "You got
a daddy, you're six years older than me. You're too old and I'm still eighteen.
least I'm experienced."
my face with my hands. He pulls my hands away from my
off while brushing my fingers
Oh god.
spank you cos you've been a very naughty
That's sexy.
like that Nick. It's scary. It's like
holds my head close to him and kissed my temple. "I'm just joking. Do
on and I have no idea what it was. I watched it anyways cos Nick seems to be interested on it. It could buy me time from thinking about that old woman, both of us went quiet while
Nick? That question is once again
funny would come up. I look back ahead and all of a sudden Nick kissed my
"What's wrong?" He asked.
at
sure?" He
my head on his shoulder. "Let's
as I crossed my legs over
my carriage?"
softly as he folds his arms to his side. "You've got to be kidding
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