Gemes
- the anger one feels inside but cannot find a way to express it.
Origin: Javanese
52
That Saturday afternoon, we went to a nearby small grocery store and bought a few foods until tomorrow. Nick was the one picking what he needs since he's the one who'll do all the cooking. I was the one pushing the cart for us though I bought a few foods too like junk foods, some chips, chocolate cookies, gummy worms, popcorn, and some other stuff that is to my own liking.
Nick was busy picking some perfect sauce for the pasta he'll be making tonight while I searched for a milk for me to drink. It may sound crazy but I usually choose the most beautiful milk container and that's how I choose milk aside from it being low fat. I head back to where the gummies were and every single thing was just deliciously tempting to buy.
"Hi. Excuse me dear." An old woman who wore a red trench coat approached me.
I smiled. "Hi ma'm. Can I be of any help?"
I sounded like a saleslady.
"Oh don't worry about me. I am more worried about you." She holds my arm.
I paused. "Me?"
She nods and looks over at Nick. "Why are you with that man?"
I looked over at Nick and he watches me talking to this old woman. I stared back at her and she looked so serious. "You should be careful around him." She says.
"I should be careful? With Nick?"
She nods again. "Yes dear."
She's the third person to tell me to be careful around Nick. Why? What's with Nick that I should really be careful about? What's Nick hiding from me?
"W-why?" I asked.
"Cos he's a--"
"Something going on here?"
She was cut off of what she was going to tell me by Nick. How'd he came here so fast? Nick stands right next to me and stares at the old woman then at me.
I shake my head. "No. She was just asking for directions where the fruits are."
Nick stares at the old woman intently and she looks back at him with fear in her eyes. He starts telling her where the fruits were placed and she hurriedly walks away but her eyes were glued to me.
"Do you know her?" I asked him.
"Yeah. She's Mrs. Tonkin. Her husband died cos of a stray bullet in New Year's."
He turned to me. "Done picking your gummies?"
I smiled. "Almost. Just a second."
Late that afternoon, while Nick was busy preparing for our dinner, I headed out of my room to help him and then I stared at his bedroom door. I looked at the stairs if he would come up but he wasn't. I slowly marched my way near his door and slowly opened it. I wanted to see how his room looks like. I wanted to compare his old room grin the one has at the frat house.
I noticed that his walls were all white, there were no curtains and the bedsheets were dark blue. I see a few picture
so perfect for each other. Nick was smiling on the first picture, and I've never seen that smile before. I've never seen him smile like that at
told me once about her old best friend. The fourth photo, Catherine and Nick were with Alec. They were posing some wacky faces. Nick seemed so happy with her. The last frame was a solo picture of Catherine. I grabbed it as my tears were filling my eyes. I'm crying cos I'm hurt. I'm crying cos I
Catherine..." I
were falling down on my face. He's still in love with her. He'll always
that old woman was about to say. I would want to ask Nick about it but what if he'll just get mad that I asked him. The way that old woman looked at Nick, it's like he's at fault. It's like he
still thinking about what that old woman said and then about how beautiful Catherine was too. I think Nick didn't notice that I was bothered or somewhat like that cos he's used to the both of us getting quiet all of a sudden. Dinner was lovely as always and we had a little talk. We washed the dishes together and
very touching that made me tear up like a baby. Nick, who was sitting down right next to me, kept handing me tissues. One ply after the other. I think he's laughing at
are so emotional when it comes
beautiful movie and don't you dare fight with me about it." I pointed my finger out to him and
finish it cos I was crying too much so I wanted to finish this
finished the
"You took some from
some drinks for you?" I asked him while I was
"Anything." He says.
and he was
I pulled out a pack then headed out of he kitchen as I
"Beer?" I smiled.
did you get
fridge. That means she wants to be drank." I say as I
beers had a gender
down on the couch right next to him and placed the pack
I don't drink much."
finishing it all? We're just going to take
me towards his direction so I could face him. "You were never a
I smile. "Peer pressure."
you wear
need no lecture,
got
You're too old and I'm
least I'm
my hands away from my face
off while brushing my fingers
Oh god.
been a very
That's sexy.
Nick. It's scary. It's like Christian Grey." I
and kissed my temple. "I'm just joking. Do you really want to
it was. I watched it anyways cos Nick seems to be interested on it. It could
That question is once
seemed so focused on the tv and would laugh under his throat when something funny would come up. I look back ahead
"What's wrong?" He asked.
at
sure?"
at him as I placed my head on his shoulder. "Let's just
same time. He turned off the tv and stood right before me as I crossed my legs over the table. The living room was dim and the only light around us was coming from the patio outside on the front
my carriage?"
his arms to his side.
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