Love Aint Always Pretty

Brotherhood

- feelings of friendship, support, and understanding between people

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NICK'S POV

Dear Savannah,

Hey! How are you? I have been wondering how you've been since it's been roughly five years I haven't talked and seen you. As for me, I was busy taking care of Tracy at the hospital lately. She's been getting her meds and chemo. But don't worry, I still have time to write you a letter though and I promised myself to write you until I see you again. I just hope you're not getting tired of receiving all of my letters.

A few weeks from now you're turning twenty-seven. Every time I think about me being thirty-three, and how older I am from you, it just disgusts me of my age. I am really indeed too old for you. But we all know older guys are hotter. Haha ;) My wish for you, if ever I won't see you on your birthday cos I know you won't, is all the best for your future, with or without me. I know you could make it through wherever you go. I wish that I could finally spend your birthday with you again. A man can dream.

I have so many things to say to you that I wanna tell you personally but I can't cos you're faraway from me.

Every single day, I try to chase you, I try so hard to win you back, I try to ask my people to look for you, but why are you the one pulling yourself away from me? Why are you hiding from me? Are you sick and tired of everything I've done to you? If you are then tell me. I would rather hear you telling me the truth than wait for nothing. I love you so much and whenever I think about the things I've done I know I deserve this kind of pain I am going through. I just wish you're not hurting as bad as I am.

"Daddy!"

I pulled my head up and saw Dani running inside my office. I didn't know she'll be coming here tonight, I thought she was coming over tomorrow morning. She smiled her huge happy smile and then threw herself at me when she was close enough to my range. I briefly rubbed her back.

I smiled. "Hello baby."

She pulls herself away, "I missed you dad! Mommy misses you too."

"I missed you baby. Are you sleeping over here at daddy's tonight?"

"Yes!" She snaps. "I couldn't wait to see you so I came as soon as my class was done." She adds.

"Good thing I've prepared your favorite room for you. Now go tell Mrs. Matilda you're here. Have you eaten dinner?"

"Yes daddy. I did. Have you?"

I nod. "Yes baby."

She scans through the things on top of my desk. "You're writing to aunt Savannah again." She says.

I smiled at her, "Do you think she will love this color of the paper Im writing on?" I asked.

She nods. "Definitely!"

I smiled. "Now go get change."

I watch as Dani exits the room while she screams out, "I saw ice cream inside the fridge!"

"Dani your mom's gonna kill me once she'll find out! No ice cream for tonight sweetheart!" I yelled back as she exits my office.

"Mommy won't know dad!" She suddenly pops her head out from the opened door. "Plus it's my favorite ice cream. I love you!"

She leaves happily. I quickly smiled at how annoying and spoiled she is, just like her mother. I rested my back on my chair and took a deep breath in. I was almost finishing this letter I'm writing to Savannah. Actually I have never been a fan of writing love letters because I'm not really good at it. I write to her probably about anything I could think of or how my days at work would be or where I am when I'm currently writing her my letter.

The first letter I wrote to her, I honestly had many scratches of paper. I wasn't good, I tell you. I would always end up having erasures then I'd write the whole letter again because I don't want any mistake on it so I took a lot of hours writing it. It was pretty tiring but it was the only way to talk to her. Even though I know I've broken up with Dakota two years ago, I kind of gotten used to sending her love letters and for some reason it is cute.

Sometimes I wonder how Savannah is and I always wonder if Damon would still hurt her. It still gets me furious when I think about it. It still gets me mad when I think about her bruises. I never told Aries about it because she begged me not to. I tried to keep it to myself because she begged me and that she believed Damon won't hurt her again. I just wish he's not. It would hurt me every time I worry of her every day whenever I think about it.

Ever since I divorced Dakota, everything that we signed from the contract, I got all of it. Wealth, power and the company. I got everything I had to get and well, I'm not that selfish, Dakota also has her share from the company. It's originally from her mother and I am not that evil.

She later on found someone else, who's name is Hugh, when we divorced. I was happy for her. It isn't her daughter's father, it's someone she met in Starbuck's. Dani still calls and treats me her father and Dakota is planning on telling her the truth when she's old enough. I've learned to love Dani. It's as if she's the gift from God replacing my baby from Catherine that I've lost in the past. I'm jealous about my friends, they're all married and now having their kids of their own but here I am, still waiting for Savannah because she's the only woman I wanna have babies with. Thirty-three isn't too old. I could still wait because I want to wait for her.

Is Dani already with you? -Dakota

Yes. She just got here now. -Nick

That's good. Hugh wants to say hi to you by the way. Take care of Dani for me while I'm away. I trust you. Thanks Nick! -Dakota

I put my phone down on the table and rested my back against my chair. I massage my temples and continued writing this love letter for Savannah.

morning, I sent Dani to her museum field trip before heading to the office and she's always so happy when I'm the one driving her to any school related activities. She always tell her friends like that's

for a while. I had a long day and I'm already tired but it's only three in the

Knock knock knock...

"Mr. Wilde?"

male voice calls out from behind me but I didn't want to

don't want visitors coming into my

looks bangable by the

exactly who would say that when someone would visit me. It was Aries, no doubt who was standing near the door with a grin plastered on his face. I smiled back at him and starts walking closer. We hugged each other quickly and patted each other's back. I missed this fella even if I hated him for liking Savannah but despite that, there was no competition because he gave way to me all the time and I blame myself for taking advantage of it all. We haven't seen each other for almost three to four years. He doesn't even know about the letters

were such a strict boss."

softly. "Just tired. What's up?

got back from

England.

it. I wanted to ask him if he met up

came by to catch up with the lovely ladies. I didn't

sure you're not the

many times do I have to tell you that I didn't

felt relieve even though he already

you and you love her. I'm not that

her wedding and I couldn't all months and years and it leads to that night but I can never be sure though Damon already told me it wasn't his. So that could possibly be mine? I haven't seen Melissa

thinking she's yours?" Aries asked

don't know. Savannah didn't tell me anything." I answered. "Do you know who's the father? It's

"She didn't

he pulls his phone out from his pocket. I watch him as he reads a text message and he smiles right at his screen. I'm

doing here in New York by the way?"

around here. I was free today and I have a surprise for

weird. You never give me surprises." I

I will. How about we have dinner

I look at him.

"Nick come on I'm never gonna go gay. I love pussies.

I laugh with him.

acting all weird." I say with a smile, recovering from

not. So, tonight.

I nod. "Great."

I gotta go. Still need

don't you let your assistant do that for

"I'm

not like that either. It's just between us, you're the one

again. "You're the one who doesn't

I grin.

go, man. See you later." He says and

"Later."

chair. I wasted my entire time sitting down and just staring at Savannah's photo on her Facebook account. She hasn't updated it that much and her last post was almost six

to the museum to fetch Dani. I walked around for a while, taking a little tour myself. I haven't gone to any museums when I was a kid, because my father didn't go with me. As I kept strolling around, I found a little girl crying in a corner. Her hair was blondish-brownish like mine but

eyes kept moving around the entire place searching. She could be looking for her mommy or her daddy. She looks up

there. Why are

"I'm lost." She weeps.

you with? Are you looking for your

She wipes her

been looking for

here. I'll help you look for your mommy. What's your name?" I began to tame her down,

"Lissa."

"I'm Nick. It's

nice to meet you too. My dad's name

cuteness, "So we have

She slightly smiles.

any better. "Are you British? You

her head sideways. "No. I just

I nod.

calls out

gave me a quick hug and pulled herself away as

daddy?" Dani asked.