Love Aint Always Pretty

Chapter 95: 95 Perpetuity

Perpetuity

- the state of continuing forever or for a very long time

95

NICK'S POV

At first, I never actually believed in happy endings that it exist because based from my past, I thought my happy ending ended when Catherine died. I shut myself out from people and never have opened myself to anyone except my sister and Alec. Sometimes I shut my sister and Alec too. I knew from the very beginning that reality and fantasy are two different things.

But as I stand in the doorway of our bedroom and watch Savannah sleep, I knew my happy ending is already happening. She doesn't know I do this, but I do it every morning because she's the reason why I start my day, no matter how busy I am in the office.

It wasn't the first incident that I've done this, the first time was the morning that I first met her. I couldn't remember much from that night before because I was wasted as hell but the only thing I actually remembered was her and how I was lying on the floor of Tracy's dorm room, and Savannah was stroking my hair, telling me her name wasn't Catherine that it was Sa-van-nah. It's funny right now as I remember it, I guess it wasn't that funny that night cos I was really drunk.

When I woke up the following morning in Tracy's room, for some unknown reason, I honestly couldn't get her out of my head.

I thought she was just a dream until I saw her sleeping on top of her side of the bed. I watched her sleep for a while. I watched as her chest goes up and down as she breathes. I watched every corner of her body. I watched her eagerly that I was afraid of what I felt that moment, because the first time I laid my eyes on her was something I never felt when I first laid my eyes on Catherine. It scared me to death because as I stood on the side of her bed, she brought back so many feelings that had been foreign to me over the past eight years.

It frightened me that's why I didn't invite her to the frat party that night but still she showed up so beautifully wearing such simple outfit.

I always thought she looked like an angel, so beautiful and simple.

The second Savannah opened her eyes and looked at me, I knew she was going to be the one who'll bring me back to life but the only thing that was the problem to me was I didn't want to be brought back to life since I was comfortable protecting myself from experiencing what I experienced in the past. I'm frightened I might go through it again and I've tried to control my feelings that I was experiencing towards Savannah that day. But I couldn't control them if I'd wanted to. I know because I tried like hell. I tried so hard but I still failed.

When I finally kissed her at my old house back in town, I knew from that moment that I wanted much more than just kissing her. I wanted her mouth, her tongue, her hands, her body, her mind and the only reason stopping me was that I felt I was also wanting her heart. I was also wanting her love. I was also wanting her to feel what I was feeling and I was scared by it.

I was the best at lying to myself and convincing that I was strong enough to have her physically because I didn't want to her hurt again and I was sure as hell that I didn't want to hurt Savannah too.

I did anyways.

A lot of times.

More than once, even.

Now I plan to spend my lifetime making it up to her for what I've done. And when I think about how many times I've left her before, I guess I was pretty terrible for doing that without telling her after making love to her.

I think love is the biggest and strongest word there is in life. When you fall in love, you learn to forgive and forget all the mistakes they've done, you learn to put others first, you learn to make friends with the people you don't really like because they're related to your significant other and you learn to make sacrifices for yourself and for other people, heck you even learn to shut yourself out from people and push people away but then eventually you'll cave in to the feelings because it's stronger than what you think. So I guess, love is a big word.

Love...

I never actually thought love could find a way to me and Savannah.

I sit on the edge of the bed and I think she felt the bed shift because she opens her but not all the way. She pulls the bed covers over her head and rolls over.

"Wake up sleepyhead. We've got a plane to catch." I say.

"Hmmm..." she hums.

"Lissa is already whining downstairs. Come on babe. Let's go." I continued.

We've been together for over a year now still not married yet, and it's still difficult for me to wake her up early in the morning because she wasn't always a morning person.

"Savannah... wake up." I kiss the area of the blanket covering her ear.

She doesn't move nor answer me but she was groaning. I pulled the covers and slide in behind her, wrapping myself around her. Then her groan started becoming a soft moan.

"Babe..."

No answer.

"Babe c'mon we have a plane to catch."

That gets her attention cos she rolls over cautiously and pulls the covers from over our heads.

"What the hell do you mean we have a plane to catch?" She asked.

I grinned.

"Nick?" She asked.

when her sleep gets cuts off because I wake her

your luggage,

gazes at the clock behind me. "It's not even five o'clock in the morning

I nodded and smiled.

know how rare it is for me to have an entire day off

if you're punctual. I forgot to

smiles. "Good morning." She kisses

mattress several times

I began to sing this One Direction song that Lissa had been listening to every single day

throws the covers off of her. "I guess Lissa had been

I smile at her.

mad at me right

to stay irritated with you

The door quickly opens.

mom awake?"

was hard to wake her up but I did

daddy. Come on mom! Take

laugh and Savannah joins me

boss." I tell

I'm up. I'm going to take a shower." Savannah stands

good morning kiss?"

continuously and the both giggled. Savannah have a peck on

morning to you

my arm around Savannah's shoulder. "Why don't you go

cheek. "But since

as

you too." I

Lissa

"Yes sweetheart?"

it ready?"

is set. Don't be

Lissa nods happily.

•••••

and got into my private plane while the two stewards and three stewardesses welcomed us with a smile. I take a look outside the window and good thing the sun still hasn't showed up. No ray of sunlight hasn't even broken through the clouds just yet, and there's not very much to see at this point but Lissa kept

what are you always looking outside the window?"

her mommy buckles

The captain's door was open and

she's staring back at me, watching me eagerly with her beautiful appreciative smile spread across her

and I'm sort of excited for

smiled at her,

each other because she's as focused just like me. She keeps on gazing out when the rollers of the plane took off

took off earlier?" I

the 4AM clouds, and then looks back at

what I wanted them to see. "The first

her eyes

from up here and then

"Me?" Savannah asked.

and sunsets together. So I promised myself to bring you with me next time. I want you to experience

beautiful daddy?" Lissa

at her, "It's not something that I can

think you just have to experience it for yourself

turned their attention back to the window. Lissa unbuckled her seatbelt and rushed to Savannah's lap, her tiny palms pressed against the glass, and for five minutes straight, the two of them didn't move

outside of their windows and had

and I don't know how this is even possible but

faced me. Her eyes are filled with little tears, and she doesn't speak a word. She just reaches for my hand and I quickly unbuckled my seatbelt and transferred to the seat next to her

you." She says against my lips before pressing them

while Lissa's attention was still towards

love you too Savannah."

•••••

plane begins to stop moving and

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