Love Aint Always Pretty

Eternal

- having no beginning and no end in time; lasting forever; existing at all times; always true or valid; seeming to last forever

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NICK'S POV

When I think about the day that I married Savannah, I couldn't help but smile at every detail of it.

I would always and proudly say that it was indeed one of the greatest and most fulfilling days of my life.

One of the best days that I would say I'm proud of having been through.

I still remember how The Plaza looked that day with all the wedding decorations Savannah wanted, I let her choose all the things she wanted because it's her dream wedding, of course I helped around with the decision making too.

I still remember how her hair was done, how beautiful she was on her wedding dress and how amazing she was when she walked down the aisle.

God, I still remember how she was amazingly gorgeous that day. She was perfect. Everything was perfect that day.

Of course, Lissa and Dani looked pretty on their dress too since they were the ones who picked it.

I remember how nervous I was back then before the wedding started. I remember standing next to Cameron, Alec and Aries at the end of the aisle while they teased me on not forgetting to say my I Do.

I remember that we were waiting for her to walk through the doors when Cameron grabbed my shoulder and leaned over closer then whispered something to me.

He said, "I never liked you."

I chuckle to myself and noticed that Aries and Alec were laughing too.

I whispered back to his ear, "I know."

He grins at my answer, "I'm glad you're aware of that."

I bent my head down and smiled ruefully at myself. "Always has been."

"But then I realized how you love my sister so dearly." He whispers back and I know he was serious about it.

I nod.

"You're the only one who met my high standards for Savannah, Nick. I'm happy it's you." He adds.

"How about me?" Aries asked.

"Shut up Aries. You're such a freaking womanizer. I wouldn't want to worry about my sister." Cameron says.

All of us laughed.

But I was happy hearing that coming from Cameron, despite what happened to us in the past when we were both in college, even before I met Savannah, he still said those words to me even though he hated me and I know he means what he said because he's here beside me and I know he's not lying about it. Plus, it means a lot on my part hearing that coming from Cameron.

"I'm thankful you didn't let her go Nick. I'm thankful you stayed with her. I'm thankful you saved her." He adds.

"She's the one who saved me Cameron." I tell him.

"If you're worried about your past, I don't really care about it or what you did. You've got my vote now. Well, I guess five out of five. Ingrid told me about that before." He chuckles and I laugh softly with him.

"I love her Cameron." I say firmly.

"I know." He answered.

long. I've lost and left her a lot of times.

Cameron looks at me.

"Ever." I say firmly.

in everything she does. I thought it was unhealthy at first that I was falling in love with her but I realized that I was just depriving myself from what love has in store for me and Savannah. I enclosed myself and pulled myself away from her a lot of times and I was hurting her even if I didn't want

loved her too much and I can finally be with her and that she can be mine all

down the aisle with her father. That time to me, she looked like an angel on our wedding. She was too beautiful, too beautiful that I couldn't stop myself from looking at her. Too beautiful that I couldn't stop myself from being much more in love with

her tears would fall. Every step she takes closer to me, my heart would beat ridiculously fast and I would

time he knew he's sure that he made the right decision for Savannah and I made sure he did. I remember

ear before the priest had to say something. She said, "I'd have

her temple, "You're beautiful. I love you." That's all I could

even though she left us, I know she's watching us from above right now and I know she's insanely happy that me and Savannah finally ended together. If she was only here

ten months ago when we found

Again.

work and we just have Lissa. Even though Lissa wants a baby sister or brother so bad, we just couldn't have one more yet. We weren't really trying not to have a baby. As what Savannah would always tell Lissa, if it will happen,

did.

the three of us found out, we were

stop asking Savannah every single day about when she's going to deliver it out. Every time she comes home after her class, she would hug Savannah right away and she would put her ear close to

I was excited as well, at the same time I was also

of everything bad that could possibly happen to her and to our baby. I'm worried as hell that the past would happen to us or

as the baby begins to cry on

she gives birth because she wanted to surprise us on the day of her delivery.

A boy.

A baby boy.

father again

baby boy just like

up

something. I thought to

while wiping her tears from

and wiped her sweat on

Say something else Nick.

you want to name our baby?" She

know she's tired but she's

you want to name

boy and was smiling at him while her eyes were

"Vance." I say.

naming him Stanley but Vance would be nice too."

my second name.

Vance?" She

Savannah. Vance.

and says, "Vance Stanley." She insist we name

And I love it.

cos she wants it

walks over to Savannah and lays Vance in her arms. She begins to cry out and I was amazed

experience what I've experienced in life. I don't want that to happen to him. I don't want him to close himself from people and stop himself from loving others. I

have ruined any ability that I have to feel what

says, wanting me move

to her on the bed. She hands Vance next to me, and my hands are shaking as I extend them to her though I try to hide it. But I fully

this when I held

my eyes for a while and release a slow breath before finding enough

touches gently on to my