Love Aint Always Pretty

Matrimonium

Translation: Marriage

Origin: Latin

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SAVANNAH'S POV

"Need help here!" Ingrid screams.

All of the bridesmaids started rushing closer towards me and we were obviously hurrying everything up.

"Stomach in." One says.

I did so.

"Goodness Savannah!" Another one whines.

I exhaled.

"You gained weight in just a week my dear!" The make up artist added.

"Look at your gown. It doesn't fit you anymore." Mom says to me.

I exhaled heavily and took a deep breath in as I feel my wedding gown finally zipped up. I don't know why I've gained weight on just a week's time.

"Stress eating." I answered.

Everyone in the room went back to what they were doing after helping me fit my dress. I just wish it won't peel off of me cos of my past. They were all in a hurry to finish with their make-up and their hairdos before the time of the wedding ceremony. My girl friends were all asking where is this and where is that. I didn't really feel any rush at all. Seeing everyone in this room to be getting ecstatic about the wedding makes me sad. I was even wondering if Nick and Dakota would attend.

Damon's mom puts the veil on me while my own mother fixes my mini crown. Ingrid scratches her neck and puckered her lips with her lipstick. I smiled at her and she looks beautiful.

"You look so lovely." Mom says.

"Thank you mom." I answered.

"I'm so proud Damon is marrying such a beautiful woman."

I smiled at her. "Thank you."

All of the guest were already in the venue and when I was done with everything, I quickly got into the white Rolls Royce that was parked right in front of the hotel. Damon picked it to be my wedding car because her mom says so. I sat down at the backseat with my mom right beside me as the car moves along the road.

"Nervous?" She asked.

I shake my head. "No."

"Honey, do you really love Damon?"

I turned my head to her and we stared at each other silently. I know my mom knows my answer to her question.

"Do you really wanna spend your lifetime with him?" She adds.

I sigh heavily.

"I know you still love Nick." She tells me. Mother really knows best.

I try not to cry. "Of course I love Damon." I say.

She stares at me eagerly.

"But there's no turning back now mom. The wedding's here. Everyone is expecting me to say yes. Everyone wants me and Damon to end up together. Dad too, he always wanted me to marry someone rich."

"You can always say no when you don't want to. Darling if you're not ready for any of this then don't force yourself to get involve into something that involves spending a lifetime with."

"Thanks for saying that mom but I've made up my mind." I tell her.

kisses my temple. "You've been a very strong

it. I'm going to be tied down with Damon forever. Maybe not forever but for a long time. I'm going to spend my life with Damon. With Damon and

tells me as

married then I will understand

is more important to me."

turn to walk down the aisle, dad opened the car door for me and I stepped out. We stood right outside the church and I didn't really dated on talking to him because I still hate him for what he did. I hooked my arm on his arm, as the orchestra and choir sang while both of us were walking down the aisle with everyone's attention on us. I stare at Damon standing on

people that were in here and most of them I didn't really know who, which was on Damon's side of the family friend. I was searching for Nick and I couldn't

fast." Dad

dad. You

mad for

wouldn't get mad? You knew I loved Nick and you knew he was my source of happiness but you took it all away. And now you want me to marry someone who

can make you happy. He's

to

to him. Do you understand me Savannah?"

reached the end of the aisle and my dad handed my hand to Damon. I smiled ruefully at him and I took the seat right in front of the priest together with Damon. The ceremony started

of my life ever existed. If I say no to Damon, it'll ruin dad's name and he will blame me for this. Well fair enough, he ruined the life I had with Nick. But as much as I wanted to leave and go

may kiss the bride." the priest says

ring and my heart sinks that I'm Mrs. Patricks and I'm not Mrs. Wilde. Damon pulls the veil off of my face and

you." He says

you."

and my dad too, made me realize that this is it. I'm tied. I'm married. I'm really married

and Dakota together. She was clapping along with the other people while Nick

•••••

"Hon?"

turned my head to Damon as he puts down out suitcase. We finally landed London, where we will

wrong with you?"

"Nothing. Just tired

a rest? We'll tour

I nod.

us to eat. Do you

"Anything that is pasta."

He kissed my cheeks before heading out of

presidential room that we stayed in is lovely, Damon always chooses something that is fancy and that would fascinate me. I

us to. As if she's here to spend the honeymoon with us. Damon's such a mama's boy and he can't say no to her. I hate it sometimes. It's like she's controlling him but good

dizzy and I'm sure this was the effects of jet lag. I walked my way back inside and headed to the bed to get some rest before we'd tour around London in a while. The floor

•••••

I groaned.

hear

holding my hand tight while he was sitting down on the side of my bed. We weren't inside the

Are we...." I looked around. "Are we in the

nods. "When I got back from the hotel room, you were already lying down on the floor. You got me all worried of you. Are you okay?

this was because of the jet lag. Let's go? Can we leave now? I

marches inside the room

is now up. How do you feel

I need to get used to people calling

okay." I

"That is

doctor? How is my wife?" Damon

congratulations. She's two weeks pregnant." The

eyes widened. Pregnant. "I'm pregnant?"

sickness? Nauseated? Vomiting?

Maybe you got it all wrong.

are indeed

stays quiet and I didn't have sex with him for a month because we were both busy with work and preparing the wedding. Two weeks. Two goddamn weeks ago.

I gaped.

Nick.

still vaguely remember it well. I'm sure

you doctor."

each other. I know he knows when was the last time we did it. I'm sure about it but he's not saying anything to me. We headed out of the hospital and climbed inside his car. We drove around London for a while and I was sitting down the passenger seat silently as I look right outside of my window

this baby inside of me. He didn't say anything at all. He didn't talk about it and did not even congratulate me about being pregnant. But, how am I gonna tell Damon about the real father of my child? And how can I tell Nick that he's the father of this

"You're hungry?" He asked.