Love Aint Always Pretty

Matrimonium

Translation: Marriage

Origin: Latin

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SAVANNAH'S POV

"Need help here!" Ingrid screams.

All of the bridesmaids started rushing closer towards me and we were obviously hurrying everything up.

"Stomach in." One says.

I did so.

"Goodness Savannah!" Another one whines.

I exhaled.

"You gained weight in just a week my dear!" The make up artist added.

"Look at your gown. It doesn't fit you anymore." Mom says to me.

I exhaled heavily and took a deep breath in as I feel my wedding gown finally zipped up. I don't know why I've gained weight on just a week's time.

"Stress eating." I answered.

Everyone in the room went back to what they were doing after helping me fit my dress. I just wish it won't peel off of me cos of my past. They were all in a hurry to finish with their make-up and their hairdos before the time of the wedding ceremony. My girl friends were all asking where is this and where is that. I didn't really feel any rush at all. Seeing everyone in this room to be getting ecstatic about the wedding makes me sad. I was even wondering if Nick and Dakota would attend.

Damon's mom puts the veil on me while my own mother fixes my mini crown. Ingrid scratches her neck and puckered her lips with her lipstick. I smiled at her and she looks beautiful.

"You look so lovely." Mom says.

"Thank you mom." I answered.

"I'm so proud Damon is marrying such a beautiful woman."

I smiled at her. "Thank you."

All of the guest were already in the venue and when I was done with everything, I quickly got into the white Rolls Royce that was parked right in front of the hotel. Damon picked it to be my wedding car because her mom says so. I sat down at the backseat with my mom right beside me as the car moves along the road.

"Nervous?" She asked.

I shake my head. "No."

"Honey, do you really love Damon?"

I turned my head to her and we stared at each other silently. I know my mom knows my answer to her question.

"Do you really wanna spend your lifetime with him?" She adds.

I sigh heavily.

"I know you still love Nick." She tells me. Mother really knows best.

I try not to cry. "Of course I love Damon." I say.

She stares at me eagerly.

"But there's no turning back now mom. The wedding's here. Everyone is expecting me to say yes. Everyone wants me and Damon to end up together. Dad too, he always wanted me to marry someone rich."

"You can always say no when you don't want to. Darling if you're not ready for any of this then don't force yourself to get involve into something that involves spending a lifetime with."

"Thanks for saying that mom but I've made up my mind." I tell her.

kisses my temple. "You've been a very strong

car arrived outside the church and as I look at everyone, I knew this is really it. I'm going to be tied down with Damon forever. Maybe not forever but for

do great Savannah." Mom tells me as she walks out

then I will understand you.

"Your happiness is more

the car door for me and I stepped out. We stood right outside the church and I didn't really dated on talking to him because I still hate him for what he did. I hooked my arm on his arm, as the orchestra and choir sang while both of us were walking down the aisle with everyone's attention on us. I stare at Damon standing on the end of the aisle, looking so formal and so happy. Suddenly he wipes his

who, which was on Damon's side of the family friend.

fast." Dad speaks to

on dad. You wanted

are you still mad for

wouldn't get mad? You knew I loved Nick and you knew he was my source of happiness but you took it all away. And now you want me to

can make you happy. He's

need wealth to make

and don't you dare say no to him. Do you

and my dad handed my hand to Damon. I smiled ruefully at him and I took the seat right in front of the priest together with Damon. The ceremony started but my mind was floating elsewhere. The priest was preaching something about marriage and happy family and how sacred

that's on me. I wanted to throw this killing heels that were on my feet. I wanted to run away and never look back and forget that this part of my life ever existed. If I say no to Damon, it'll ruin dad's name and he will blame me for this. Well fair enough, he ruined the life I had with Nick. But

kiss the bride."

stare at my wedding ring and my heart sinks that I'm Mrs. Patricks and I'm not Mrs. Wilde.

you." He says after kissing

love you."

stare at them clapping, seeing my mom crying and my dad too, made me realize that this is it. I'm tied. I'm married. I'm really married and I just couldn't

church and my eyes landed on the fifth row of chairs, I saw Nick and Dakota together. She was clapping along with the other people while Nick was just looking at me. I quickly looked away from his gaze because it hurts me

•••••

"Hon?"

to Damon as he puts down out suitcase. We finally landed London, where we will be having our honeymoon.

wrong with you?"

"Nothing. Just

forehead, "Why don't you take a rest?

I nod.

be out grabbing something for us to eat. Do you want

"Anything that is pasta."

He kissed my cheeks before heading out

that we stayed in is lovely, Damon always chooses something that is fancy and that would fascinate me. I don't hate him for that, I know he

the balcony. I stare at the streets of London and I was amazed by this wondrous place. I wanted to go to Brazil for our honeymoon, I was thinking something that is beachy but Damon's mom won't allow us to. As if she's here to spend the honeymoon with us. Damon's such a mama's boy and he can't say no to her. I hate it

to get some rest before we'd tour around London in a while. The floor Im walking suddenly becomes all blurry and I reached for something to hold on to but there was nothing so I fell out of balance and dropped myself on the floor and everything around me went

•••••

I groaned.

I hear Damon's

on the side of my bed. We weren't inside the hotel room. I slowly pulled myself up

we...." I looked around. "Are

nods. "When I got back from the hotel room, you were already lying down on the floor. You got me all worried of

lag. Let's go? Can we leave now? I feel

the doctor marches inside the room with a huge smile plastered

wife is now up. How do you feel Mrs. Patricks?" The doctor asked me

Gosh I need to get used to

okay." I

smiles. "That

doctor? How is my wife?"

congratulations. She's two weeks pregnant." The

widened. Pregnant. "I'm pregnant?" I

morning sickness? Nauseated? Vomiting? Anything?"

you got it all wrong. we just landed London

mistake. You are indeed pregnant." The

him for a month because we were both busy with work

I gaped.

Nick.

vaguely remember it well. I'm sure it's him. He's the father of my baby and not Damon. Oh god.

you doctor."

sure about it but he's not saying anything to me. We headed out of the hospital and climbed inside his car. We drove around London

didn't say anything at all. He didn't talk about it and did not even congratulate me about being pregnant. But, how am I gonna tell Damon about the

"You're hungry?" He asked.