Love Aint Always Pretty

Matrimonium

Translation: Marriage

Origin: Latin

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SAVANNAH'S POV

"Need help here!" Ingrid screams.

All of the bridesmaids started rushing closer towards me and we were obviously hurrying everything up.

"Stomach in." One says.

I did so.

"Goodness Savannah!" Another one whines.

I exhaled.

"You gained weight in just a week my dear!" The make up artist added.

"Look at your gown. It doesn't fit you anymore." Mom says to me.

I exhaled heavily and took a deep breath in as I feel my wedding gown finally zipped up. I don't know why I've gained weight on just a week's time.

"Stress eating." I answered.

Everyone in the room went back to what they were doing after helping me fit my dress. I just wish it won't peel off of me cos of my past. They were all in a hurry to finish with their make-up and their hairdos before the time of the wedding ceremony. My girl friends were all asking where is this and where is that. I didn't really feel any rush at all. Seeing everyone in this room to be getting ecstatic about the wedding makes me sad. I was even wondering if Nick and Dakota would attend.

Damon's mom puts the veil on me while my own mother fixes my mini crown. Ingrid scratches her neck and puckered her lips with her lipstick. I smiled at her and she looks beautiful.

"You look so lovely." Mom says.

"Thank you mom." I answered.

"I'm so proud Damon is marrying such a beautiful woman."

I smiled at her. "Thank you."

All of the guest were already in the venue and when I was done with everything, I quickly got into the white Rolls Royce that was parked right in front of the hotel. Damon picked it to be my wedding car because her mom says so. I sat down at the backseat with my mom right beside me as the car moves along the road.

"Nervous?" She asked.

I shake my head. "No."

"Honey, do you really love Damon?"

I turned my head to her and we stared at each other silently. I know my mom knows my answer to her question.

"Do you really wanna spend your lifetime with him?" She adds.

I sigh heavily.

"I know you still love Nick." She tells me. Mother really knows best.

I try not to cry. "Of course I love Damon." I say.

She stares at me eagerly.

"But there's no turning back now mom. The wedding's here. Everyone is expecting me to say yes. Everyone wants me and Damon to end up together. Dad too, he always wanted me to marry someone rich."

"You can always say no when you don't want to. Darling if you're not ready for any of this then don't force yourself to get involve into something that involves spending a lifetime with."

"Thanks for saying that mom but I've made up my mind." I tell her.

my temple. "You've been a very strong girl

look at everyone, I knew this is really it. I'm going to be tied down with Damon forever. Maybe not forever but for a

tells me as she walks out

"If you don't want to get married then I will understand

happiness is more important to me."

his arm, as the orchestra

them I didn't really know who, which was on Damon's side of the family friend. I was searching for Nick and I couldn't find a tall brownish-blondish guy with a sexy

married too fast." Dad speaks

come on dad. You

mad for

was my source of happiness but you took it all away. And now you want me to marry someone who doesn't

you happy. He's

need wealth to make

you're here now and don't you dare say no to him. Do you understand me Savannah?"

started but my mind was floating elsewhere. The priest was preaching something about marriage and happy family and how sacred this thing is that

feet. I wanted to run away and never look back and forget that this part of my life ever existed. If I say no to Damon, it'll ruin dad's name and he will blame me for this. Well fair enough, he ruined the life I had with Nick. But as much as I wanted to leave and go far away to stop this wedding, I don't have the

bride."

officially married now. I stare at my wedding ring and my heart sinks that I'm Mrs. Patricks and I'm not Mrs. Wilde. Damon pulls the veil off of my

He

love you."

at them clapping, seeing my mom crying and my dad too, made me realize that this is it. I'm tied. I'm married. I'm really

were inside the church and my eyes landed on the fifth row of chairs, I saw Nick and Dakota together. She was clapping along with the other people while Nick was just looking at me. I quickly looked away from his gaze because

•••••

"Hon?"

out suitcase. We finally landed London, where we

with you?" He

"Nothing. Just tired from

you take a rest? We'll tour around London this afternoon.

I nod.

to eat.

"Anything that is pasta."

you." He kissed my

is lovely, Damon always chooses something that is fancy and that would fascinate me. I don't hate him for that, I know

I was thinking something that is beachy but Damon's mom won't allow us to. As if she's here to spend the honeymoon with us. Damon's such a mama's boy and he can't say no to her. I hate it sometimes. It's like she's controlling him but good thing that she likes me for

get some rest before we'd tour around London in a while. The floor Im walking suddenly becomes all blurry and I reached for something to hold on

•••••

I groaned.

hear

he was sitting down on the side

we...." I looked around. "Are we in

the hotel room, you were already lying down on the floor. You got me all worried of you.

was because of the jet lag. Let's go? Can we leave now? I feel sick when I'm

doctor marches inside the room with a huge smile plastered on his

day. I see your wife is now up. How do

Gosh I need to get used

feeling okay."

"That

her findings doctor? How is my wife?"

She's two weeks pregnant." The

Pregnant. "I'm pregnant?" I asked

having morning sickness? Nauseated? Vomiting?

I didn't have those lately. Maybe you got it all wrong. we just landed London this morning. There

no mistake. You are

stays quiet and I didn't have sex with him for a month because we were both busy

I gaped.

Nick.

I still vaguely remember it well. I'm sure it's him. He's the father of my baby and not Damon. Oh god. Oh my

you doctor." Damon

went out of the room quietly and neither of us talked to each other. I know he knows when was the last time we did it. I'm sure about it but he's not saying anything to me. We headed out of the hospital and climbed inside his car. We drove around London

excited about this baby inside of me. He didn't say anything at all. He didn't talk about it and did not even congratulate me about being pregnant. But, how am I gonna tell Damon about the real father of my child? And how can I tell Nick

"You're hungry?" He asked.