Love Aint Always Pretty

Matrimonium

Translation: Marriage

Origin: Latin

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SAVANNAH'S POV

"Need help here!" Ingrid screams.

All of the bridesmaids started rushing closer towards me and we were obviously hurrying everything up.

"Stomach in." One says.

I did so.

"Goodness Savannah!" Another one whines.

I exhaled.

"You gained weight in just a week my dear!" The make up artist added.

"Look at your gown. It doesn't fit you anymore." Mom says to me.

I exhaled heavily and took a deep breath in as I feel my wedding gown finally zipped up. I don't know why I've gained weight on just a week's time.

"Stress eating." I answered.

Everyone in the room went back to what they were doing after helping me fit my dress. I just wish it won't peel off of me cos of my past. They were all in a hurry to finish with their make-up and their hairdos before the time of the wedding ceremony. My girl friends were all asking where is this and where is that. I didn't really feel any rush at all. Seeing everyone in this room to be getting ecstatic about the wedding makes me sad. I was even wondering if Nick and Dakota would attend.

Damon's mom puts the veil on me while my own mother fixes my mini crown. Ingrid scratches her neck and puckered her lips with her lipstick. I smiled at her and she looks beautiful.

"You look so lovely." Mom says.

"Thank you mom." I answered.

"I'm so proud Damon is marrying such a beautiful woman."

I smiled at her. "Thank you."

All of the guest were already in the venue and when I was done with everything, I quickly got into the white Rolls Royce that was parked right in front of the hotel. Damon picked it to be my wedding car because her mom says so. I sat down at the backseat with my mom right beside me as the car moves along the road.

"Nervous?" She asked.

I shake my head. "No."

"Honey, do you really love Damon?"

I turned my head to her and we stared at each other silently. I know my mom knows my answer to her question.

"Do you really wanna spend your lifetime with him?" She adds.

I sigh heavily.

"I know you still love Nick." She tells me. Mother really knows best.

I try not to cry. "Of course I love Damon." I say.

She stares at me eagerly.

"But there's no turning back now mom. The wedding's here. Everyone is expecting me to say yes. Everyone wants me and Damon to end up together. Dad too, he always wanted me to marry someone rich."

"You can always say no when you don't want to. Darling if you're not ready for any of this then don't force yourself to get involve into something that involves spending a lifetime with."

"Thanks for saying that mom but I've made up my mind." I tell her.

kisses my temple. "You've been a very strong girl

this is really it. I'm going to be tied down with

Mom tells me as she walks out

to get married then I will understand

"Your happiness is more important

did. I hooked my arm on his arm, as the orchestra and choir sang while both of us were walking down the aisle with everyone's attention on us. I stare at Damon standing on the end of the aisle, looking so formal and so

people that were in here and most of them I didn't really know who, which was on Damon's side of

too fast."

come on dad. You

are you still mad for what I've

I loved Nick and you knew he was my source of happiness but you took it all away. And now you want me to marry someone who doesn't even make me happy."

can make you

need money dad. I don't need wealth to make me happy, I'm not you." I exhaled

you dare say no to him. Do you understand me Savannah?" He asked while takes a grip on my

and I took the seat right in front of the priest together with Damon. The ceremony started but my mind was floating elsewhere. The priest was preaching something

of my life ever existed. If I say no to Damon, it'll ruin dad's name and he will blame me for this. Well fair enough, he ruined the life I had with Nick. But as much

bride."

I'm Mrs. Patricks and I'm not Mrs.

He says after

love you." I say

faced everyone else and as I stare at them clapping, seeing my mom crying and my dad too, made me realize that this is it. I'm tied. I'm married. I'm really married and

the church and my eyes landed on the fifth row of chairs, I saw Nick and Dakota together. She was clapping along with the other people while Nick was just looking at me. I

•••••

"Hon?"

he puts down out suitcase. We finally landed London, where

with you?"

shake my head. "Nothing. Just tired from the long

"Why don't you take a rest? We'll tour around London this

I nod.

something for us to eat. Do you want

"Anything that is pasta."

you." He kissed

bathroom and took a pee. The presidential room that we stayed in is lovely, Damon always chooses something that is fancy and that would fascinate me. I don't hate him for that, I know he

go to Brazil for our honeymoon, I was thinking something that is beachy but Damon's mom won't allow us to. As if she's here to spend the honeymoon with us. Damon's such a mama's boy and he can't

walked my way back inside and headed to the bed to get some rest before we'd tour around London in a while. The floor Im walking suddenly becomes all blurry and I reached for something

•••••

I groaned.

I hear Damon's

side of my bed. We weren't inside the hotel

I looked around. "Are

already lying down on the floor. You got

of the jet lag. Let's go? Can we leave now? I feel

wide and the doctor marches inside the room with a huge smile plastered

do you feel Mrs. Patricks?" The doctor asked me

I need to get used to people calling

feeling okay."

"That is

findings doctor? How is

weeks pregnant."

"I'm pregnant?" I asked in

sickness?

head sideways. "No. I didn't have those lately. Maybe you got it all wrong. we just

You are indeed pregnant." The doctor

with him for a month because we were both busy with work and preparing the wedding. Two weeks.

I gaped.

Nick.

weeks ago. During the bachelorette party. I still vaguely remember it well. I'm

you doctor."

it. I'm sure about it but he's not saying anything to me. We headed out of the hospital and climbed inside his car. We drove around London for a while and I was sitting down the passenger seat silently

and did not even congratulate me about being pregnant. But,

"You're hungry?" He asked.