Love Aint Always Pretty

Matrimonium

Translation: Marriage

Origin: Latin

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SAVANNAH'S POV

"Need help here!" Ingrid screams.

All of the bridesmaids started rushing closer towards me and we were obviously hurrying everything up.

"Stomach in." One says.

I did so.

"Goodness Savannah!" Another one whines.

I exhaled.

"You gained weight in just a week my dear!" The make up artist added.

"Look at your gown. It doesn't fit you anymore." Mom says to me.

I exhaled heavily and took a deep breath in as I feel my wedding gown finally zipped up. I don't know why I've gained weight on just a week's time.

"Stress eating." I answered.

Everyone in the room went back to what they were doing after helping me fit my dress. I just wish it won't peel off of me cos of my past. They were all in a hurry to finish with their make-up and their hairdos before the time of the wedding ceremony. My girl friends were all asking where is this and where is that. I didn't really feel any rush at all. Seeing everyone in this room to be getting ecstatic about the wedding makes me sad. I was even wondering if Nick and Dakota would attend.

Damon's mom puts the veil on me while my own mother fixes my mini crown. Ingrid scratches her neck and puckered her lips with her lipstick. I smiled at her and she looks beautiful.

"You look so lovely." Mom says.

"Thank you mom." I answered.

"I'm so proud Damon is marrying such a beautiful woman."

I smiled at her. "Thank you."

All of the guest were already in the venue and when I was done with everything, I quickly got into the white Rolls Royce that was parked right in front of the hotel. Damon picked it to be my wedding car because her mom says so. I sat down at the backseat with my mom right beside me as the car moves along the road.

"Nervous?" She asked.

I shake my head. "No."

"Honey, do you really love Damon?"

I turned my head to her and we stared at each other silently. I know my mom knows my answer to her question.

"Do you really wanna spend your lifetime with him?" She adds.

I sigh heavily.

"I know you still love Nick." She tells me. Mother really knows best.

I try not to cry. "Of course I love Damon." I say.

She stares at me eagerly.

"But there's no turning back now mom. The wedding's here. Everyone is expecting me to say yes. Everyone wants me and Damon to end up together. Dad too, he always wanted me to marry someone rich."

"You can always say no when you don't want to. Darling if you're not ready for any of this then don't force yourself to get involve into something that involves spending a lifetime with."

"Thanks for saying that mom but I've made up my mind." I tell her.

"You've been a very strong

I knew this is really it. I'm going to be tied down with Damon forever. Maybe not forever but for a long time. I'm going to

tells me

want to get married then I will understand you.

happiness is more important to me."

orchestra and choir sang while both of us were walking down the aisle with everyone's attention on us. I stare at Damon standing on the end of the aisle, looking so formal and so happy. Suddenly he wipes his tears, God he

in here and most of them I didn't really know who, which was on Damon's side of the family friend. I was searching for Nick and I couldn't find a tall brownish-blondish guy with a sexy beard on his face among

you to get married too fast." Dad speaks to me which catches

on dad. You wanted

you still mad for

Nick and you knew he was my source of happiness but you took it all away. And now you want me to marry someone who doesn't even make me happy." I speak whisperingly as the flashes of the cameras

you

need wealth to make me happy, I'm

now and don't you dare say no to him. Do you understand me Savannah?"

hand to Damon. I smiled ruefully at him and I took the seat right in front of the priest together with Damon. The ceremony started but my mind was floating elsewhere. The priest was preaching something about marriage and happy family and how sacred this thing is that we were having right now but I didn't really paid attention to

to throw this killing heels that were on my feet. I wanted to run away and never look back and forget that this part of my life ever existed. If I say no to Damon, it'll ruin dad's name and he will blame me for this. Well fair enough, he ruined the life I had with Nick. But as much as I wanted to leave and go far away to stop this wedding, I don't

kiss the bride."

we were officially married now. I stare at my wedding ring and my heart sinks that I'm Mrs. Patricks and I'm not Mrs. Wilde. Damon

love you." He says

you." I say

everyone else and as I stare at them clapping, seeing my mom crying and my dad too, made me realize that this is it. I'm tied. I'm married. I'm really married and I just couldn't believe it. An hour ago I was still Miss Canterbury but now

the people that were inside the church and my eyes landed on the fifth row of chairs, I saw Nick and Dakota together. She was clapping along with the other people while Nick was just looking at me. I quickly looked away

•••••

"Hon?"

finally landed London, where we will

with you?"

"Nothing. Just tired from the

rest? We'll

I nod.

out grabbing something for us to eat. Do you want anything?"

"Anything that is pasta."

He kissed my cheeks before heading out of

chooses something that is

us to. As if she's here to spend

sure this was the effects of jet lag. I walked my way back inside and headed to the bed to get some rest before we'd tour around London in a while. The floor Im walking suddenly becomes all blurry and I reached for something to hold on

•••••

I groaned.

I hear

hand tight while he was sitting down on the side of my bed. We weren't inside the hotel

looked around. "Are

down on the floor. You

was because of the jet lag. Let's go?

and the doctor marches inside the room with a

up. How do you feel Mrs. Patricks?" The doctor

Gosh I need to get

feeling okay." I

"That is

her findings doctor? How is my wife?" Damon

congratulations. She's two weeks pregnant."

Pregnant. "I'm pregnant?" I asked in

you having morning sickness? Nauseated? Vomiting? Anything?" He

my head sideways. "No. I didn't have those lately. Maybe you got it

no mistake. You are indeed pregnant." The

stays quiet and I didn't have sex with him for a month because we were both busy

I gaped.

Nick.

still vaguely remember it well. I'm sure

doctor."

last time we did it. I'm sure about it but he's not saying anything to me. We headed out of the hospital and climbed inside his car. We drove around London for a while and I was sitting down the passenger seat silently as I look right outside of my

at all. He didn't talk about it and did not even congratulate me about being pregnant. But, how am I gonna tell Damon about the real father of my child? And how can I tell

"You're hungry?" He asked.