Love Aint Always Pretty

Amour

- a sexual relationship or a secret love affair: usually an illicit love affair

Origin: Latin

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NICK'S POV

A few days before Savannah's bachelorette party...

I could still hear Savannah so clearly as I close my eyes when she told me she's marrying someone. I gaze at the invitation card uninterestedly. I still couldn't believe she's getting married. I just don't want her to marry yet, I know I am being selfish right now because Damon is already making her happy and Damon has filled the empty spaces that I left.

I know I'm selfish when it comes to Savannah. I know I always want Savannah all to myself but at the same time I also push her away because I always end up thinking that I will never be good enough for her because of my past. I'm scared about the future that she's gonna have with me.

My life has changed since I left her and even though we're far away from each other, she's all I think about all the time. She doesn't know but I come around NYU before just to check on her. I would look at her from a distant or outside the university's lot. A lot has changed in my life and that would include Dakota. I didn't really want to marry her but I knew I had to because I needed it. I needed he money.

I know I did something terrible. I know this is not a great idea to become easily rich. Marrying someone rich as hell so I could get rich too is undeniably unforgivable. But even though I'll appear as a cunt in front of everyone for what I did, I only did this for Savannah. I did this to be worthy of her in front of her parents because I'll have money on my own and I'll have a position in one of the huge companies in New York.

Everything just happened too fast that time and I don't know how to say no to Mrs. Devaloines' last will that she asked from me because since she helped me a lot on what I had to know. She has been my second mother and when she died, I promised her to maintain the legacy her company has. She said, someday she wants me to run the company and maybe rename it.

Everything was so quiet around the house tonight. I sit down on my office at home with a bottle of vodka on top of my desk and a few papers needed to read. I haven't really tried to read them all because I'm bothered about this invitation card that's laid before me. I take a look at it as I massaged my temples while my head rumbles heavily with the thought of Savannah about to get married and it's not with me.

My door suddenly opens wide while Dakota steps in, rubbing her stomach.

"Aren't you going to bed?" She asked.

I fixed myself and sat down straight on my chair. "In a while."

I quickly grabbed the invitation card tk hide it from her because I don't want to attend in Savannah's day.

"What's that you're hiding?" She asked and quickly walked to my table.

She snatched it from my hand.

"Oh." She snaps. "It's a wedding invitation." She opens it right away and reads its content.

She gapes.

"Savannah Canterbury and Damon Patricks' wedding?" She exclaims

I stared at her as she puts it back down on the desk. "The Damon Patricks? Wow. I didn't know he was her boyfriend. That woman."

My brows furrowing.

"Well, how exciting! Don't you think? We should definitely go. I think its going to be a marvelous wedding of the year." Dakota states.

I started jotting down a few notes on the papers on top of my desk to ignore Dakota who's annoying my me time. I hate it when she comes here uninvited. I couldn't think straight and she would always bug me almost every single night to just be with her. She hates it when I don't sleep in one bed with her and I don't know why she's acting as if she's my legal wide when she is not.

"Nick." She calls out.

I slightly pulled my head up to him.

take long here?" She

I put my eyes

always so

glared at her

you going to join me on the bed?" She asked. "It's been a while since the last time we

tried to ignore

Come on."

you again and your pregnancy is very risky."

stood behind my back. She massages my shoulders and finally wrapped her entire arms around me but I didn't try pull myself away because I don't want her to throw some ridiculously annoying tantrums again. I started acting as if I was busy reading the papers laid out before me and continued ignoring her while she's

stop it."

Im so horny." She whispers to my ear as she bites

her arms away from me and stood from the chair. She stares at me angrily and we always do this every night whenever she comes in here with her raging

can still have

drunk that night. You took advantage of it and I didn't tell your

humorlessly. "So you're saying

"Yeah. You did."

led to that sinful unwanted night. I didn't know we could do it and I didn't want to do it with Dakota either but everything was so blurry that night and adrenaline was rushing in my veins, I was horny as hell since I was seeing Savannah in Dakota so

on Nick!"

no." I

of you being my husband if you're not gonna have

sex. Are you

arched an eyebrow. "You think I'm

You expect me to fuck you like that? That was one night. A

a long drink. "And don't forget that this is only a contract marriage. We act like a married couple in front of everybody but we are not legally married. You're lucky enough I saved your ass from shame." I

raised her hand up in midair and suddenly slapped my cheek.

say to me cos she's now dead?! I should've known better! You're really hungry for

money, so

at me and damn as hell I

got a good benefit from me by acting as if I was your baby's father while I got a benefit from you cos of

shakes her head

didn't give it to you because she knows you can never

was about to slap me but I quickly grabbed her wrist and

so help me

"Go. File an annulment. Let's see who's

not handling the company, you'll go poor too. You're thankful I'm saving your dying company. The day

means she trusts me more than you. What a shame, to think she's your biological mother and I've only met her

away from me.

I stare at impassively.

the contract! You fucking signed it! Three years is three years Nick!" She

on this three year contract with you. Just make sure I get a good share out

and slammed the door behind her. I quickly poured myself another glass of vodka and just stared right outside the

•••••

day of Savannah's

rings on top of my desk as I try

Tracy calling...

sis."

"Busy?" She chimed.