Love Aint Always Pretty

Amour

- a sexual relationship or a secret love affair: usually an illicit love affair

Origin: Latin

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NICK'S POV

A few days before Savannah's bachelorette party...

I could still hear Savannah so clearly as I close my eyes when she told me she's marrying someone. I gaze at the invitation card uninterestedly. I still couldn't believe she's getting married. I just don't want her to marry yet, I know I am being selfish right now because Damon is already making her happy and Damon has filled the empty spaces that I left.

I know I'm selfish when it comes to Savannah. I know I always want Savannah all to myself but at the same time I also push her away because I always end up thinking that I will never be good enough for her because of my past. I'm scared about the future that she's gonna have with me.

My life has changed since I left her and even though we're far away from each other, she's all I think about all the time. She doesn't know but I come around NYU before just to check on her. I would look at her from a distant or outside the university's lot. A lot has changed in my life and that would include Dakota. I didn't really want to marry her but I knew I had to because I needed it. I needed he money.

I know I did something terrible. I know this is not a great idea to become easily rich. Marrying someone rich as hell so I could get rich too is undeniably unforgivable. But even though I'll appear as a cunt in front of everyone for what I did, I only did this for Savannah. I did this to be worthy of her in front of her parents because I'll have money on my own and I'll have a position in one of the huge companies in New York.

Everything just happened too fast that time and I don't know how to say no to Mrs. Devaloines' last will that she asked from me because since she helped me a lot on what I had to know. She has been my second mother and when she died, I promised her to maintain the legacy her company has. She said, someday she wants me to run the company and maybe rename it.

Everything was so quiet around the house tonight. I sit down on my office at home with a bottle of vodka on top of my desk and a few papers needed to read. I haven't really tried to read them all because I'm bothered about this invitation card that's laid before me. I take a look at it as I massaged my temples while my head rumbles heavily with the thought of Savannah about to get married and it's not with me.

My door suddenly opens wide while Dakota steps in, rubbing her stomach.

"Aren't you going to bed?" She asked.

I fixed myself and sat down straight on my chair. "In a while."

I quickly grabbed the invitation card tk hide it from her because I don't want to attend in Savannah's day.

"What's that you're hiding?" She asked and quickly walked to my table.

She snatched it from my hand.

"Oh." She snaps. "It's a wedding invitation." She opens it right away and reads its content.

She gapes.

"Savannah Canterbury and Damon Patricks' wedding?" She exclaims

I stared at her as she puts it back down on the desk. "The Damon Patricks? Wow. I didn't know he was her boyfriend. That woman."

My brows furrowing.

"Well, how exciting! Don't you think? We should definitely go. I think its going to be a marvelous wedding of the year." Dakota states.

I started jotting down a few notes on the papers on top of my desk to ignore Dakota who's annoying my me time. I hate it when she comes here uninvited. I couldn't think straight and she would always bug me almost every single night to just be with her. She hates it when I don't sleep in one bed with her and I don't know why she's acting as if she's my legal wide when she is not.

"Nick." She calls out.

I slightly pulled my head up to him.

long here?"

put my eyes back down

so busy." She

at her briefly

going to join me on the bed?" She asked. "It's been a

sighed and tried to

on." she

again and your pregnancy is very risky." I tell

my back. She massages my shoulders and finally wrapped her entire arms around me but I didn't try pull myself away because I don't want her to throw some ridiculously annoying tantrums

it." I

so horny." She whispers to my ear as

her arms away from me and stood from the chair. She stares at me angrily and we always do this every night whenever she comes in here

come on! We're married. We can still have sex again." She

that night. You took advantage of it and I didn't tell your mother about

laughs humorlessly. "So you're saying I raped

"Yeah. You did."

someone new and I was terribly hurt that time. I drowned myself with alcohols that led to that sinful unwanted night. I didn't know we could do it and I didn't want to do it with Dakota either but everything was so blurry that night and adrenaline was rushing in my veins, I was horny as hell

on Nick!" She

But no."

of you being my husband if you're not gonna have sex with me!"

isn't only because of sex. Are you really being

arched an eyebrow. "You think I'm fucking

your stomach is. You expect me to fuck you like

this is only a contract marriage. We act like a married couple in front of everybody but we are not

hand up in midair and suddenly slapped my cheek. "How

she's now dead?! I should've known

I need the money, so what?"

eyebrow at me and damn as hell

me by acting as if I was your baby's father

her head

it to you because she knows you can never handle it. I've been through

and was about to slap me but I quickly grabbed her wrist and stopped her.

even think about slapping me again or so help me god

"Go. File an annulment. Let's see who's going to be poor

company. The day before your mother died, she knew I was more capable than you."

she trusts me more than you. What a shame, to think she's your biological mother and I've only met her in a short while, but she gave everything to me to save

away

I stare at impassively.

You're not allowed to do that. It's on the contract! You fucking signed it! Three years is three years

this stupid thing we're doing. If it isn't for your money, I wouldn't stick on this three year contract with you. Just make sure

out of the room while stomping her feet angrily and slammed the door behind her. I quickly poured myself another glass of

•••••

day of

top of my desk as I try to read the board member's presentation a while

Tracy calling...

sis." I

"Busy?" She chimed.