Love Aint Always Pretty

Amour

- a sexual relationship or a secret love affair: usually an illicit love affair

Origin: Latin

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NICK'S POV

A few days before Savannah's bachelorette party...

I could still hear Savannah so clearly as I close my eyes when she told me she's marrying someone. I gaze at the invitation card uninterestedly. I still couldn't believe she's getting married. I just don't want her to marry yet, I know I am being selfish right now because Damon is already making her happy and Damon has filled the empty spaces that I left.

I know I'm selfish when it comes to Savannah. I know I always want Savannah all to myself but at the same time I also push her away because I always end up thinking that I will never be good enough for her because of my past. I'm scared about the future that she's gonna have with me.

My life has changed since I left her and even though we're far away from each other, she's all I think about all the time. She doesn't know but I come around NYU before just to check on her. I would look at her from a distant or outside the university's lot. A lot has changed in my life and that would include Dakota. I didn't really want to marry her but I knew I had to because I needed it. I needed he money.

I know I did something terrible. I know this is not a great idea to become easily rich. Marrying someone rich as hell so I could get rich too is undeniably unforgivable. But even though I'll appear as a cunt in front of everyone for what I did, I only did this for Savannah. I did this to be worthy of her in front of her parents because I'll have money on my own and I'll have a position in one of the huge companies in New York.

Everything just happened too fast that time and I don't know how to say no to Mrs. Devaloines' last will that she asked from me because since she helped me a lot on what I had to know. She has been my second mother and when she died, I promised her to maintain the legacy her company has. She said, someday she wants me to run the company and maybe rename it.

Everything was so quiet around the house tonight. I sit down on my office at home with a bottle of vodka on top of my desk and a few papers needed to read. I haven't really tried to read them all because I'm bothered about this invitation card that's laid before me. I take a look at it as I massaged my temples while my head rumbles heavily with the thought of Savannah about to get married and it's not with me.

My door suddenly opens wide while Dakota steps in, rubbing her stomach.

"Aren't you going to bed?" She asked.

I fixed myself and sat down straight on my chair. "In a while."

I quickly grabbed the invitation card tk hide it from her because I don't want to attend in Savannah's day.

"What's that you're hiding?" She asked and quickly walked to my table.

She snatched it from my hand.

"Oh." She snaps. "It's a wedding invitation." She opens it right away and reads its content.

She gapes.

"Savannah Canterbury and Damon Patricks' wedding?" She exclaims

I stared at her as she puts it back down on the desk. "The Damon Patricks? Wow. I didn't know he was her boyfriend. That woman."

My brows furrowing.

"Well, how exciting! Don't you think? We should definitely go. I think its going to be a marvelous wedding of the year." Dakota states.

I started jotting down a few notes on the papers on top of my desk to ignore Dakota who's annoying my me time. I hate it when she comes here uninvited. I couldn't think straight and she would always bug me almost every single night to just be with her. She hates it when I don't sleep in one bed with her and I don't know why she's acting as if she's my legal wide when she is not.

"Nick." She calls out.

I slightly pulled my head up to him.

long here?"

sure." I put my eyes back down on

always so

her

the bed?" She asked. "It's been a while since the last time we had sex

and tried to ignore her

Come on." she

and your pregnancy

my back. She massages my shoulders and finally wrapped her entire arms around me but I didn't try pull myself away because I don't want her to throw some ridiculously annoying tantrums again. I started acting as if I was busy reading the papers laid out before me and continued ignoring

stop it." I

Im so horny." She whispers to my ear as she

me and stood from the chair. She stares at me angrily

come on! We're married. We can still have sex

drunk that night. You took advantage of it

laughs humorlessly. "So you're saying I

"Yeah. You did."

found out that Savannah was dating someone new and I was terribly hurt that time. I drowned myself with alcohols that led to that sinful unwanted night. I didn't know we could do it and I didn't want to do it with Dakota either but everything was so blurry that night and adrenaline was rushing in my

on Nick!" She

sorry. But no."

of you being my husband if you're not gonna have sex with

only because of sex. Are you really being serious right now?"

eyebrow. "You

expect me to fuck you like that? That was one night. A long long time ago. So please have a little shame

a long drink. "And don't forget that this is only a contract marriage. We act like a married couple in

and suddenly slapped my cheek. "How dare you?!" She raised

now that's what you're gonna say to me cos she's now dead?! I

money, so

me and damn as hell I

You got a good benefit from me by acting as if I was your baby's father while I got a benefit from you cos of your money."

shakes her head in

didn't give it to you because she knows you can never handle it. I've been through a lot Dakota and you don't know half of it."

to slap me but I quickly grabbed

so help me god I will file an annulment."

an annulment. Let's see who's

dying company. The day before your mother died, she knew I was more capable than

means she trusts me more than you. What a shame, to think she's your biological mother and I've only met her in a short while, but she gave everything to me to save you from the shameful

her hand away from me.

I stare at impassively.

it! Three years is three years Nick!" She points a finger at my face while

on this three year contract with you. Just make sure I get a good share out of this Dakota. Three years and your company is mine. You signed the contract your own mother

my chest. She marches out of the room while stomping her feet angrily and slammed the door behind her. I quickly poured myself another glass of vodka and just stared right outside the window behind

•••••

day of

top of my desk as I try to read

Tracy calling...

hello sis."

"Busy?" She chimed.