Mated With Five Boys

"We understand death only after it has placed its hands on someone we love."- Anne L.de Stael 

 "Mia, wake up!" Whispered a soft, hushed voice.

In fact, it was so hushed I almost had thought I was just hearing things.That was until out of nowhere a loud door slam pierced through the silent hallway from the room right next to ours, creating enough force to vibrate the old wooden floors which we were laying on.

"Mia! Please wake up! I'm scared!"Panic flooding the little girl's voice.

l automatically knew who it was that was calling for me.

"Holly, where are you?" I whispered back, trying to look through the pitch-black room.

The foster people we live with don't allow us to have the lights on after 7:30.

Trust me, I learned that lesson the hard way.

You see, if you have the lights on after the restricted time, you'll get punished.

The punishments are plainly decided on how drunk Mrs. and Mr. Rockwell were that night.

On a good night, punishments usually consist of not allowed to go to sleep until they decide they worked you lang enough or going a couple of nights without dinner, sometimes both.

But if they start drinking the punishments become more violent.

Mrs. Rockwell has never psychically abused any of the kids here but better yet she sits back and watches her husband do all the work, smiling.

I remember the first time James Rockwell hit me, I wanted to drop to my knees and cry out for my mother, but I didn't.

You see when you've been in the system as long as I have you learn how to control showing your emotions.

Because people like James and Martha thrive on seeing you break down, they get off on it.

"Come here, you stupid bitch!"

Mrs.Rockwell sneered at me.

"No, I'm sorry, whatever I did wrong I won't do it again! I promise!"

I begged her.

"Damn right you won't do it again!"

Martha laughed, the malevolent smile on her face sent horrid chills up my spine.

body in waves that were even making

ass up

her hand in my long brown hair, that was dirty because we are only allowed one shower a week, and pulled as hard as

my heart was going to beat out my chest when I heard Mr.Rockwell's heavy footsteps slowly come up to the second

and my lungs started

the second floor he had to hold the walls on either side of him to prevent him from losing his

hair was dirtier than mine, and I didn't

crooked smile started

if I thought the smell of alcohol was nauseating

do we

laughed and gripped my wrist in his

I could basically see the devil coming out

of her room after curfew, honey.What should

Martha's voice sounded entertained.

just had to go

to explain but was quickly stopped by the hard slapped that was

winced as my face began

your room after 9

angry voice echoed in

I wasn't allowed to go to the bathroom

me not reacting to Mr.Rockwell made him even angrier because his free hand, that wasn't death gripping my wrist, started to travel up

feeling made my

left the sides of my stomach and then

me, beg me to

my neck,

lungs were pleading for

wanted to cry, I wanted to fight,

that crossed my mind before everything went black was when I was younger, my mother

up at the stars, she once told me that for every star my eye could see, that it was the soul of someone's

our bodies, and float into the universe, shining for the people they love back

course, now I know stars are nothing more than balls of gas, I really hope you're watching over

I've

"Over here."

voice filled the quiet

other sleeping kids, laying

kid under the Rockwell's care, she's been

for