Mated With Five Boys

"We understand death only after it has placed its hands on someone we love."- Anne L.de Stael 

 "Mia, wake up!" Whispered a soft, hushed voice.

In fact, it was so hushed I almost had thought I was just hearing things.That was until out of nowhere a loud door slam pierced through the silent hallway from the room right next to ours, creating enough force to vibrate the old wooden floors which we were laying on.

"Mia! Please wake up! I'm scared!"Panic flooding the little girl's voice.

l automatically knew who it was that was calling for me.

"Holly, where are you?" I whispered back, trying to look through the pitch-black room.

The foster people we live with don't allow us to have the lights on after 7:30.

Trust me, I learned that lesson the hard way.

You see, if you have the lights on after the restricted time, you'll get punished.

The punishments are plainly decided on how drunk Mrs. and Mr. Rockwell were that night.

On a good night, punishments usually consist of not allowed to go to sleep until they decide they worked you lang enough or going a couple of nights without dinner, sometimes both.

But if they start drinking the punishments become more violent.

Mrs. Rockwell has never psychically abused any of the kids here but better yet she sits back and watches her husband do all the work, smiling.

I remember the first time James Rockwell hit me, I wanted to drop to my knees and cry out for my mother, but I didn't.

You see when you've been in the system as long as I have you learn how to control showing your emotions.

Because people like James and Martha thrive on seeing you break down, they get off on it.

"Come here, you stupid bitch!"

Mrs.Rockwell sneered at me.

"No, I'm sorry, whatever I did wrong I won't do it again! I promise!"

I begged her.

"Damn right you won't do it again!"

Martha laughed, the malevolent smile on her face sent horrid chills up my spine.

body in waves that were even making

fat ass up here,

allowed one

was going to beat out my chest when I heard Mr.Rockwell's heavy footsteps slowly come

increase, and my lungs started

to the second floor he had to hold the walls on either side

dirtier than mine, and I didn't think

walked over to me a crooked smile started to form on his face, showing

of alcohol was nauseating on Mrs.Rockwell, James was on a totally

what do

gripped my wrist in his dirty,

over my body slowly, I could basically

her room after curfew,

Martha's voice sounded entertained.

just had to go to the

to explain but was quickly stopped by the hard slapped that was placed on my left

my face

your room after 9 oclock,

echoed

allowed to

made him even angrier because his free hand, that wasn't death gripping my wrist, started to travel up and down my

made my

his hand left the sides of my stomach and then clasped around

to act tough huh? beg me, beg me to stop, you useless excuse for a

and tighter around my neck,

were pleading

I wanted

was when I was younger, my mother would lay out blankets

outside for hours looking up at the stars, she once told me that for every star

we die our souls leave our bodies, and float into the universe, shining for the

now I know stars are nothing more than balls of gas, I really hope you're watching

right now I've never felt

"Over here."

soft voice filled the quiet

toed around all the other sleeping kids, laying on the ground on their

she's

I've been here for two months and fifteen