Mated With Five Boys

"We understand death only after it has placed its hands on someone we love."- Anne L.de Stael 

 "Mia, wake up!" Whispered a soft, hushed voice.

In fact, it was so hushed I almost had thought I was just hearing things.That was until out of nowhere a loud door slam pierced through the silent hallway from the room right next to ours, creating enough force to vibrate the old wooden floors which we were laying on.

"Mia! Please wake up! I'm scared!"Panic flooding the little girl's voice.

l automatically knew who it was that was calling for me.

"Holly, where are you?" I whispered back, trying to look through the pitch-black room.

The foster people we live with don't allow us to have the lights on after 7:30.

Trust me, I learned that lesson the hard way.

You see, if you have the lights on after the restricted time, you'll get punished.

The punishments are plainly decided on how drunk Mrs. and Mr. Rockwell were that night.

On a good night, punishments usually consist of not allowed to go to sleep until they decide they worked you lang enough or going a couple of nights without dinner, sometimes both.

But if they start drinking the punishments become more violent.

Mrs. Rockwell has never psychically abused any of the kids here but better yet she sits back and watches her husband do all the work, smiling.

I remember the first time James Rockwell hit me, I wanted to drop to my knees and cry out for my mother, but I didn't.

You see when you've been in the system as long as I have you learn how to control showing your emotions.

Because people like James and Martha thrive on seeing you break down, they get off on it.

"Come here, you stupid bitch!"

Mrs.Rockwell sneered at me.

"No, I'm sorry, whatever I did wrong I won't do it again! I promise!"

I begged her.

"Damn right you won't do it again!"

Martha laughed, the malevolent smile on her face sent horrid chills up my spine.

thin body in waves that

up

wrapped her hand in my long brown hair, that was dirty because we are only allowed one shower a week, and pulled as hard as she

when I heard Mr.Rockwell's heavy footsteps slowly come up to the

increase, and my lungs started burning

floor he had to hold the walls on either side of him to prevent

was dirtier than mine, and I didn't think that

a crooked smile started

nauseating on Mrs.Rockwell, James was on a totally new

do we have

laughed and gripped my wrist in his dirty,

raked over my body slowly, I could basically

out of her room after curfew, honey.What should

Martha's voice sounded entertained.

had to go to

stopped by the

my face began

your room after 9

echoed in

one told me I wasn't allowed to go to the

made him even angrier because his free hand, that wasn't death gripping my wrist, started to

disgusting feeling made my

of my stomach and then

tough huh? beg me, beg me to stop, you useless excuse for

tighter and tighter around my neck, squeezing his dirty

lungs were

to cry, I wanted to fight, I

that crossed my mind before everything went black was when I was younger, my mother would lay out blankets in the

told me that for every star my eye could see, that

and float into the universe, shining for the people they love back on earth, watching over them and making

are nothing more than balls of gas, I really

right now I've never

"Over here."

filled

all the other sleeping kids, laying

the Rockwell's care, she's

I've been here for two months and fifteen