Mated With Five Boys

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart."- Helen Keller 

A couple of days had passed since the day at the warehouse, and I've been avoiding Axel like the black plague hence.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't constantly on edge everywhere I went.

I've been waking up with nightmares the past four nights over the past events.

And to top it off I'm practically walking on eggshells around Rylan.

I want to tell him everything that happened, but Axel said to keep my mouth shut.

Axel as continuously tried to talk to me but I somehow always find a way to evade him.

I could tell he was growing annoyed with my constant diversions because he's always sending glares at my direction whenever do we manage to be in the same room, or knocking on my door, that I now kept locked.

And don't get me started on the text messages.

He also refuses to teach me how to fight until and I quote "love myself."

Which is oddly poetic for someone like Axel, who is a freaking gang leader and all.

I still can't believe it, but at the same time, I can.

I knew when I first saw Axel he was nothing but trouble, I just didn't know it would be this much trouble.

Camila has made herself extremely scarce for the last week, I haven't seen her around the house much, I talked to Angelo about it and he said she's been stay with her friend.

Something about that didn't settle right with me, but I didn't say anything.

I wonder what Angelo would say if he knew who his sister's boyfriend really was? Camila had been in school but you'd never noticed, the girl that was once a fiery red girl was now a deeper, darker, a sadder shade of red.

I remember the beginning of the week she was furious at me, sending death stares from across the gym floor but as the week progressed she only looked at me with dull eyes.

I got up from my bed and walked over to the mirror that hung on the sliding doors of the closet.

Axel's words kept haunting me, I couldn't help but think maybe he was right, even though I would never admit it out loud.

For the last four days, I've been standing in front of my mirror topless, staring out myself.

And when I could finally look at myself without tears threatening to spill out my eyes I was only left feeling anger and frustration.

I definitely didn't love myself, I'm not sure if I ever fully could, however, I wasn't as repulsed with my body as I was before.

My fingertips grazed the smooth scar that runs up the side of my stomach, it was at least three inches long.

I winced and pushed the memories out of my head.

I hated the hold my past had on me, letting me know it wasn't dead every chance it got.

"Mia, are you in there?" Rylan’s voice asked.

"We need to talk." He said sternly, knocking on the door.

I quickly put my hoodie back over my body and unlocked my door, opening it to come face to face with Rylan.

He was standing in front of me with determination written on his face.

I watched as walked into my room, not once taking his eyes off me.

"You need to tell me what's going on" He said sharply.

"Camila hasn't been home in days, and when she is here it's only for a few hours until she's gone again.

You've locked yourself in this room, not bothering to come out unless it's for school.

And Axel has been antsy and I've never seen Axel antsy.’ I've never seen this side of Rylan, he was usually so carefree, comedic and relaxed but you would have never guessed looking at him now.

"I can't! I whispered, looking at the wooden floor.

"Mia please, I'm begging you cupcake; Rylan spoke softly.

It was that moment I felt myself give in, I was going to have Rylan what happened eventually anyway.

"You can't tell any one; I stated to him.

"I won't.’ He nodded his head.

"I'm serious Rylan I'm trusting you, don't make me regret it."

I gave him a pointed look.

"I promise, I won't say a word"

I sat down on my bed and patted the spot next to me, Rylan took the hint and pulped down beside me.

I took one last deep breath before letting the cat out the bag.

I told him everything, from what happened the first day of school to the day at the warehouse.

Truth be told it felt good telling someone, a small weight was lifted.

I was still nervous that Rylan wouldn't believe what I was saying was the truth but I tried not thinking about that.

"I'm sorry I lied to you, I didn't know what to do,’ I muttered, fidgeting with my fingers.

"I'm not mad at you."

He told me, catching me off guard.

"Really?"

My head snapped up to his.

The determination that was once on his face was now replaced with sadness and remorse but his eyes held nothing but the fire of seven suns.

Rylan was pretty much vibrating rage, but I could see he was trying to control it.

Suddenly Rylan sprung off my bed and marched across the hall to Axel's room, I quickly followed after him.

When I got to him he was already pounding on Axel's door.

"Ry no!"

I shouted at him, he promised not to say anything.

I was silently praying Axel wasn't home, that he would be out wandering the streets or something but of course he wasn't.

impatient cause he roughly

Rylan snapped at Axel.

look rather annoyed that he

sweats that hung loosely on his waist, not that I was staring or

just weird seeing him in something other than his leather jacket and

were most

"You told him?"

eyes snapped to

you, not her’ Rylan spoke before I had the chance to say

over Rylan narrowing his

right here in the hallway but instead, Axel just rolled his

"You."

not being as

"We need to talk."

said gritting his

"Alone"

finished, his eyes snapping back to

take a hint

I blurted out.

that probably means they don't want to talk; I

don't care

at me, I could

said deadly, standing in front

protect her? Do you remember what happened last time you tried to protect someone or do you need me

up to Rylan, rage obvious in his

Why would I need protecting? If I stayed away

the hell happened last time? So

"Do what he says."

released a defeated sigh, his words brought

"What? No way!"

stubbornly watching the two boys glared at

say something but was cut off by footsteps coming up

to see who it was coming up the

shocked all of us when we saw it was

a family game night; Kina muttered

all downstairs in

giving us all a weird

all nodded our heads in unison letting her know we

watched as Kina smiled shyly at Rylan, giving

what she did but

few moments, Rylan

on you.’ He smoldered before walking

was about to

"Mia"

out, his

repeated now

"This isn't over Angel."

boring into

breath; I said a lot more confident than I felt

when I heard him shut his bedroom door before following me down the stairs,

kitchen, saying that Wyatt is going to have a breakdown if we don't

Phoenix, Indy, and Rylan already sitting

course, Axel grabbed the empty chair by Phoenix and sat it down next

Rylan because Axel was basically

play a game? I was hyper-aware of his closeness, it was making me squirmy and I knew he noticed

small gasp as my shoulder accidentally bumped into

an eternity Wyatt came into the room holding

quickly threw down the game onto the kitchen table, dust flew off the box, causing

Rylan told

She looked away embarrassed, her

guys

Wyatt cockily asked everyone.

everyone nodded their heads or in Phoenix's case:

opened the box, throwing it over

spoke with a wicked grin on his

her property

to cost you 50

evilly

flipped the bored of the

"Fuck Monopoly!"

cursed, walking out the

we stopped having family game

shaking

"What a diva"

Indy smiled.

should go

signed getting up and walking

him, the whole game was filled with him cursing and muttering under his breath every time he landed on

actually really fun and

it was on fire, I quickly looked down and saw Axel had put

my

at him with a confused look on my face, Axel noticed

hand from his but his grip would tighten not

Axel stands up and starts heading towards the stairs, still holding onto

of my chair not expecting the

at the table their confused faces matched my

"What are you doing?"

he toed me

you it wasn't over

could hear the smirk on

was watching.’ I huffed as

"I don't care."

simply, his hand still wrapped around

I do,' I

like your

He snapped.

slightly at his words, I tried to remove my hand from him again but he still wouldn't let go I just wanted to go

go,’ I told

just looked at me amused, humor shining

he pick an emotion

He taunted me.

he knew all the tight bottoms

"Fine.

shoulders, if he wants me

eyebrows at me, not expecting me