Mated With Five Boys

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart."- Helen Keller 

A couple of days had passed since the day at the warehouse, and I've been avoiding Axel like the black plague hence.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't constantly on edge everywhere I went.

I've been waking up with nightmares the past four nights over the past events.

And to top it off I'm practically walking on eggshells around Rylan.

I want to tell him everything that happened, but Axel said to keep my mouth shut.

Axel as continuously tried to talk to me but I somehow always find a way to evade him.

I could tell he was growing annoyed with my constant diversions because he's always sending glares at my direction whenever do we manage to be in the same room, or knocking on my door, that I now kept locked.

And don't get me started on the text messages.

He also refuses to teach me how to fight until and I quote "love myself."

Which is oddly poetic for someone like Axel, who is a freaking gang leader and all.

I still can't believe it, but at the same time, I can.

I knew when I first saw Axel he was nothing but trouble, I just didn't know it would be this much trouble.

Camila has made herself extremely scarce for the last week, I haven't seen her around the house much, I talked to Angelo about it and he said she's been stay with her friend.

Something about that didn't settle right with me, but I didn't say anything.

I wonder what Angelo would say if he knew who his sister's boyfriend really was? Camila had been in school but you'd never noticed, the girl that was once a fiery red girl was now a deeper, darker, a sadder shade of red.

I remember the beginning of the week she was furious at me, sending death stares from across the gym floor but as the week progressed she only looked at me with dull eyes.

I got up from my bed and walked over to the mirror that hung on the sliding doors of the closet.

Axel's words kept haunting me, I couldn't help but think maybe he was right, even though I would never admit it out loud.

For the last four days, I've been standing in front of my mirror topless, staring out myself.

And when I could finally look at myself without tears threatening to spill out my eyes I was only left feeling anger and frustration.

I definitely didn't love myself, I'm not sure if I ever fully could, however, I wasn't as repulsed with my body as I was before.

My fingertips grazed the smooth scar that runs up the side of my stomach, it was at least three inches long.

I winced and pushed the memories out of my head.

I hated the hold my past had on me, letting me know it wasn't dead every chance it got.

"Mia, are you in there?" Rylan’s voice asked.

"We need to talk." He said sternly, knocking on the door.

I quickly put my hoodie back over my body and unlocked my door, opening it to come face to face with Rylan.

He was standing in front of me with determination written on his face.

I watched as walked into my room, not once taking his eyes off me.

"You need to tell me what's going on" He said sharply.

"Camila hasn't been home in days, and when she is here it's only for a few hours until she's gone again.

You've locked yourself in this room, not bothering to come out unless it's for school.

And Axel has been antsy and I've never seen Axel antsy.’ I've never seen this side of Rylan, he was usually so carefree, comedic and relaxed but you would have never guessed looking at him now.

"I can't! I whispered, looking at the wooden floor.

"Mia please, I'm begging you cupcake; Rylan spoke softly.

It was that moment I felt myself give in, I was going to have Rylan what happened eventually anyway.

"You can't tell any one; I stated to him.

"I won't.’ He nodded his head.

"I'm serious Rylan I'm trusting you, don't make me regret it."

I gave him a pointed look.

"I promise, I won't say a word"

I sat down on my bed and patted the spot next to me, Rylan took the hint and pulped down beside me.

I took one last deep breath before letting the cat out the bag.

I told him everything, from what happened the first day of school to the day at the warehouse.

Truth be told it felt good telling someone, a small weight was lifted.

I was still nervous that Rylan wouldn't believe what I was saying was the truth but I tried not thinking about that.

"I'm sorry I lied to you, I didn't know what to do,’ I muttered, fidgeting with my fingers.

"I'm not mad at you."

He told me, catching me off guard.

"Really?"

My head snapped up to his.

The determination that was once on his face was now replaced with sadness and remorse but his eyes held nothing but the fire of seven suns.

Rylan was pretty much vibrating rage, but I could see he was trying to control it.

Suddenly Rylan sprung off my bed and marched across the hall to Axel's room, I quickly followed after him.

When I got to him he was already pounding on Axel's door.

"Ry no!"

I shouted at him, he promised not to say anything.

I was silently praying Axel wasn't home, that he would be out wandering the streets or something but of course he wasn't.

door open slightly but I guess Rylan got impatient cause he roughly pushed it open fully."How could let this

Rylan snapped at Axel.

by him and look rather annoyed that he

black sweats that hung loosely on his waist, not that I was

was just weird seeing him in something other than

were most

"You told him?"

snapped to

spoke before I had the chance to

Rylan narrowing

certain there was going to be a bloodbath right here in the hallway but instead, Axel just rolled his dark chocolate

"You."

not being as calm as he was

"We need to talk."

gritting

"Alone"

eyes snapping back to

take a

I blurted out.

out of there way to avoid someone that probably means they don't want

care

narrowed his eyes at me, I could tell I was testing

her alone,’ Rylan said deadly, standing

Do you remember what happened last time you tried to protect

sneered walking up to Rylan, rage

Why would I need protecting? If I stayed away from

hell happened last time? So

"Do what he says."

a defeated sigh, his words brought

"What? No way!"

stubbornly watching the two

was about to say something but was cut off by footsteps coming up the

to see who it was

shocked all of us when we

a family

us all downstairs in

continued, giving us all a

all nodded our heads in

Rylan, giving him

what

few moments, Rylan

on you.’ He smoldered before

to me? What am I missing here? I was about

"Mia"

out,

repeated now

"This isn't over Angel."

boring into

your breath; I said a lot more confident than I felt underneath

his bedroom door before following me down the stairs, I

quickly rushed into the kitchen, saying that Wyatt is going to have a breakdown if

and saw Kina, Phoenix, Indy, and

empty chair by Phoenix and sat it down next to me, sandwiching me between them and Angelo was

Rylan because Axel was basically sitting on top

play a game? I was hyper-aware of his closeness, it was making me squirmy and I knew he noticed because he looked over at me with a smirk

small gasp as my shoulder accidentally bumped into his, sending little sparks down to

like an eternity Wyatt came into the

onto the kitchen table, dust flew off the box,

you,’ Rylan

She looked away embarrassed, her cheeks

guys ready to

Wyatt cockily asked everyone.

their heads or in Phoenix's case:

opened the box, throwing it over

the games begin.’ He spoke with a wicked grin on his face Jntbloloidaiciciaidaiok "You dirty

at Indy as he landed on her property for the third time in

cost

smirked evilly at

the

"Fuck Monopoly!"

walking out

that's why we stopped having family

laughed, shaking his

"What a diva"

Indy smiled.

go talk

up and

game was filled with him cursing and muttering under his

actually really fun and I enjoyed

was on fire, I quickly looked down and saw Axel

at it, my

at him with a confused look on my face,

but his

starts heading towards the stairs, still holding onto

nearly fell out of my chair not expecting the abrupt

back at the table their confused faces

"What are you doing?"

he toed

you it

the smirk on his

scene like that? Everyone was watching.’ I huffed as we made it to the

"I don't care."

said simply, his hand

I do,'

like

He snapped.

his words, I tried to remove my hand from him again but he still wouldn't let go I just wanted to go to

I told

looked at me amused, humor shining in his

on earth is his problem? Why can't he pick an emotion and stick with

He taunted me.

him made my blood boil like he knew

"Fine.

wants

me, not expecting me to have