Mated With Five Boys

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart."- Helen Keller 

A couple of days had passed since the day at the warehouse, and I've been avoiding Axel like the black plague hence.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't constantly on edge everywhere I went.

I've been waking up with nightmares the past four nights over the past events.

And to top it off I'm practically walking on eggshells around Rylan.

I want to tell him everything that happened, but Axel said to keep my mouth shut.

Axel as continuously tried to talk to me but I somehow always find a way to evade him.

I could tell he was growing annoyed with my constant diversions because he's always sending glares at my direction whenever do we manage to be in the same room, or knocking on my door, that I now kept locked.

And don't get me started on the text messages.

He also refuses to teach me how to fight until and I quote "love myself."

Which is oddly poetic for someone like Axel, who is a freaking gang leader and all.

I still can't believe it, but at the same time, I can.

I knew when I first saw Axel he was nothing but trouble, I just didn't know it would be this much trouble.

Camila has made herself extremely scarce for the last week, I haven't seen her around the house much, I talked to Angelo about it and he said she's been stay with her friend.

Something about that didn't settle right with me, but I didn't say anything.

I wonder what Angelo would say if he knew who his sister's boyfriend really was? Camila had been in school but you'd never noticed, the girl that was once a fiery red girl was now a deeper, darker, a sadder shade of red.

I remember the beginning of the week she was furious at me, sending death stares from across the gym floor but as the week progressed she only looked at me with dull eyes.

I got up from my bed and walked over to the mirror that hung on the sliding doors of the closet.

Axel's words kept haunting me, I couldn't help but think maybe he was right, even though I would never admit it out loud.

For the last four days, I've been standing in front of my mirror topless, staring out myself.

And when I could finally look at myself without tears threatening to spill out my eyes I was only left feeling anger and frustration.

I definitely didn't love myself, I'm not sure if I ever fully could, however, I wasn't as repulsed with my body as I was before.

My fingertips grazed the smooth scar that runs up the side of my stomach, it was at least three inches long.

I winced and pushed the memories out of my head.

I hated the hold my past had on me, letting me know it wasn't dead every chance it got.

"Mia, are you in there?" Rylan’s voice asked.

"We need to talk." He said sternly, knocking on the door.

I quickly put my hoodie back over my body and unlocked my door, opening it to come face to face with Rylan.

He was standing in front of me with determination written on his face.

I watched as walked into my room, not once taking his eyes off me.

"You need to tell me what's going on" He said sharply.

"Camila hasn't been home in days, and when she is here it's only for a few hours until she's gone again.

You've locked yourself in this room, not bothering to come out unless it's for school.

And Axel has been antsy and I've never seen Axel antsy.’ I've never seen this side of Rylan, he was usually so carefree, comedic and relaxed but you would have never guessed looking at him now.

"I can't! I whispered, looking at the wooden floor.

"Mia please, I'm begging you cupcake; Rylan spoke softly.

It was that moment I felt myself give in, I was going to have Rylan what happened eventually anyway.

"You can't tell any one; I stated to him.

"I won't.’ He nodded his head.

"I'm serious Rylan I'm trusting you, don't make me regret it."

I gave him a pointed look.

"I promise, I won't say a word"

I sat down on my bed and patted the spot next to me, Rylan took the hint and pulped down beside me.

I took one last deep breath before letting the cat out the bag.

I told him everything, from what happened the first day of school to the day at the warehouse.

Truth be told it felt good telling someone, a small weight was lifted.

I was still nervous that Rylan wouldn't believe what I was saying was the truth but I tried not thinking about that.

"I'm sorry I lied to you, I didn't know what to do,’ I muttered, fidgeting with my fingers.

"I'm not mad at you."

He told me, catching me off guard.

"Really?"

My head snapped up to his.

The determination that was once on his face was now replaced with sadness and remorse but his eyes held nothing but the fire of seven suns.

Rylan was pretty much vibrating rage, but I could see he was trying to control it.

Suddenly Rylan sprung off my bed and marched across the hall to Axel's room, I quickly followed after him.

When I got to him he was already pounding on Axel's door.

"Ry no!"

I shouted at him, he promised not to say anything.

I was silently praying Axel wasn't home, that he would be out wandering the streets or something but of course he wasn't.

got impatient cause he roughly pushed it

Rylan snapped at Axel.

by him and look rather annoyed that

that hung loosely on his waist,

weird seeing him in something other than his leather jacket and

most definitely

"You told him?"

snapped to me

Rylan spoke before I had the chance to say

Rylan narrowing

in the hallway but instead, Axel just rolled his dark chocolate eyes at Rylan before bring his attention

"You."

fumed, not being as calm as

"We need to talk."

said gritting his

"Alone"

his eyes

take a

I blurted out.

of there way to avoid someone that probably means they don't

care

eyes at me, I could tell I was testing his

deadly, standing in front of me

remember what happened last time

sneered walking up to Rylan,

me? Why would I need protecting? If I stayed away from Axel there shouldn't be a

the hell happened last time? So

"Do what he says."

words brought

"What? No way!"

stubbornly watching the two boys glared at

about to say something but was cut off by

to see who it was

of us when we saw it was

us have a family game night;

us all

continued, giving us all a weird

nodded our heads in unison letting

watched as Kina smiled shyly at Rylan, giving him one last

what she did but

few

you.’

happen to me? What am I missing here? I was about to follow Rylan down the stairs but Axel

"Mia"

called out, his

I repeated now facing

"This isn't over Angel."

boring

breath; I said a lot more confident than I felt underneath his

me down the stairs, I didn't take

finally hit the main floor Angelo quickly rushed into the kitchen, saying that Wyatt is going

Kina, Phoenix, Indy, and Rylan

and of course, Axel grabbed the empty chair by Phoenix and sat it down next

to scoot closer to Rylan because

suppose to play a game? I was hyper-aware of his closeness, it was making me squirmy and I knew he noticed because he looked over at me with a smirk

out a small gasp as my shoulder accidentally

eternity Wyatt came into the room holding the game

the game onto the kitchen table, dust

you,’ Rylan

embarrassed, her cheeks

you guys ready to

Wyatt cockily asked everyone.

nodded their heads or

the box, throwing it over his

games begin.’ He spoke with a wicked grin on his face Jntbloloidaiciciaidaiok "You

Indy as he landed on her property for the

to cost

smirked evilly at

stood up from his chair and flipped the bored of

"Fuck Monopoly!"

walking

that's why we stopped having

shaking his

"What a diva"

Indy smiled.

should go talk to

up and walking

couldn't help but laugh at him, the whole game was filled with him cursing and muttering under his breath every time

was actually really fun and

of nowhere, my hand felt like it was on fire, I quickly looked down and saw Axel had put his hand on

looking at it, my

on my face, Axel noticed me

tried pulling my hand from his but his grip would tighten

Axel stands up and starts heading towards

nearly fell out of my chair not expecting the abrupt

back at the table their confused faces matched my

"What are you doing?"

he toed

it wasn't over

the smirk

scene like that? Everyone was watching.’ I huffed as we

"I don't care."

his hand still wrapped around

I do,' I

sounds like

He snapped.

him again but he still wouldn't let go I just wanted to go to

I told him

just looked at me amused, humor shining in his

on earth is his problem? Why can't he pick an emotion and

He taunted me.

him made my blood boil like he knew all the tight

"Fine.

he wants me to make him,

at me, not expecting me to have