Mated With Five Boys

"Sometimes you can't see yourself clearly until you see yourself through the eyes of others"- Ellen DeGeneres 

I stood there for a few moments, my back press against the shut door.

My head was whirling with questions and guilt.

I felt completely horrible about kneeing Axel.

He didn't deserve that, especially not after the fact he did save my life not once but twice, and if I didn't feel bad before, now Axel's saying I had put us both into danger somehow.

Knowing I had to do something, I opened my door and slowing made my way across the hall, dragging my feet across the soft carpet.

I knocked on Axel's door, the familiar anxiousness was crawling up my throat.

A few minutes went by and Axel still hadn't opened the door, which I don't blame him.

I wouldn't open the door either if I was him.

I was about to turn around and head back to my room when his door suddenly opens.

I reluctantly look up to Axel's face, it was blank as it always was.

I opened my mouth desperate to say something but my voice couldn't make it passed the knot in my throat.

Axel obviously was not in the mood for my games because he scoffed and began to shut the door in my face, but I quickly stopped it with my foot.

"Can we talk?" I muttered looking at him.

"I don't know, I'll let you know in four days." He spat, trying to close the door again.

I guess I did deserve that one.

"I'm sorry Axel, I know I was an ass to you."

I rushed out before he shut the door, but my apology didn't stop him from closing the door, leaving me alone in the hall.

"In fact, I'm more than ass, I'm like the queen of the donkeys."

I raised my voice so he could hear me through the door.

If he didn't want to talk he could at least listen.

"Granted you're not the kindest person in the world and you're rather bipolar but that doesn't excuse what I did? I spoke out loud.

"I don't honestly know why I kneed you, it's just you infuriate the living hell out me; I told him hoping he was listening.

"That sounded harsher than I meant it to be!" I facepalm.

Way to go Mia.

"I'm also sorry I ignored you, I know that wasn't cool I was just...scared."

My words got caught in my throat trying to tell him how I felt.

"I'm sorry If I hurt you."

I sighed defeated, it was no use.

If he didn't hate me before he definitely did now.

To my surprise, his door swung open revealing an amused Axel leaning against the door frame.

I couldn't help but notice he was now dressed in his regular attire indicating he was leaving.

"See this is the bipolar tendencies I mention earlier; I stated, giving him a weird look.

"Come on.’ Axel rolled his at me and started walking towards the stairs.

"Huh?"

I looked over at him confused.

"Let's go Mia.”He said slowly as if I was dumb.

"Where exactly are we going?"

I asked him, the last time I went with him things didn't end well.

"Stop asking so many questions and come on.’ He said irritably.

And against my better judgment, I found myself following behind him, I had absolutely no clue what I was getting myself into.

My stomach bubbled with a strange feeling of uneasiness or was it excitement? When we reached the bottom floor I was shocked when Axel held the front door open for me.

I gave him a curious look, but he wouldn't look down at me.

"Don't tell me you're getting soft on me Deacon.

I mocked him, smiling.

"Remind me not to do anything nice for you ever again."

He grunted, amusement clear in his voice.

I quickly walked to Axel's car, the cold weather nipping at my bare skin.

I could tell it was becoming late afternoon because the sky was swirling with shades of pink and orange.

I got into the car and listened to the quiet rumble as it came to life.

There was a thick tension between us as we sat in silence, Axel was focused intently on the road.

"It's not polite to stare,’ Axel said, looking at me from the corner of his eye.

"What do you know about polite?" I teased.

"Touché.’ He smirked.

"Where are we going?" I asked him.

"Downtown; he answered simply.

What are you up to Axel Deacon? "We're not doing something for gang right?"

I questioned, feeling nervous.

"No, it's just going to be us, Angel."

He said quickly calming my anxiousness.

"Hey, Axel?"

looked over

"What do you want?"

He muttered.

the whole putting both our

you mean

I wondered out loud.

an annoyed sigh, I was certain

tells anything I

guess it's like a common

eyes widen when I saw his pink lips part

a different gang and since I kicked his ass the day he forced

men and since you being your stubborn self-had to

come

I whispered

have open that door? Why couldn't I just listen to what Axel had said? "Don't beat yourself

how

slicing through the tension that was almost

Noah does in his

I wondered.

"Yeah, she does."

grip on

haven't you

pissing him off

won't listen to anything I say! She thinks she

time to shut up I felt

trying to distract myself, I was trying to soak in all the scenery as I could, the streets lights were illuminating my

already making themselves visible.I was lost in observing the unfamiliar area it startles me when Axel takes a sudden sharp turn into a creepy side road and shuts off his

halfway down the street but

weren't

I'm about to

laughter rang

"Are you?"

I swallowed hard.

car Mia.’ The humor left his voice

nothing but an eerie quietness as a

decision, I pushed the car

large black duffel bag, he pushed the trunk lid down forcefully clicking

"What's in the bag."

give him the third degree, never taking my

me and find

there was a

started walking down the pothole-filled street, and of course, I chased after

hear sirens going off in the background, probably a few

the ominous

either side of the road was what looked like old abandon buildings, that were probably once

until the hard ground, he then nods to me, signaling

gave him a weird look but didn't say

open the bag, investigating the contents

"Paint?"

Axel, holding a can of spray

to do with paint?"

"Whatever you want."

shaking it before popping off the lid and drawing on the brick building in front

know that's illegal right?"

also fun."

tell me you're too much of a good girl to have

out loud, I know how to have fun! I stood up straight with another can of black paint

on the building, a

had was the single lamp post

sound of paint being sprayed filled the air around us, I was actually surprised by how much I was

despite it being a

me the entire time I painted, a

cold?" He asked, his

little bit’ I

I saw Axel shake off

his gaze off

says, holding open

kindly decline and tell him I'm fine but

ground and put my arms into

was big and baggy on me and Axel's aroma quickly

at him as

"Who is that?"

at the painting I

she had long flowing hair and a loving smile on her

were kind and patience just I remember them to be and she wore a loose white blouse and black

I muttered, trying not

was actually what she looks like in the picture I had back at the

"She's beautiful"

whisper

she is." I

over at what

on the game cards and underneath it

noted about

Black Spades."

your gang?" I already

He said,

laughed slightly at him that sounded

funny?" He

I just wasn't expecting it’

yeah? Then what

narrowed his eyes at

"I don't know."

I shrugged.

Hell Boyz, Diablo, literally

I listed out.

"Shut up."

a small smile

Axel's head quickly snapped towards

"Shit"

He cursed.

"What?"

in

the cop car parked behind Axel's Mustang in the

were two officers with flashlights

my stomach, luckily the cops still hadn't