Mated With Five Boys

"Sometimes you can't see yourself clearly until you see yourself through the eyes of others"- Ellen DeGeneres 

I stood there for a few moments, my back press against the shut door.

My head was whirling with questions and guilt.

I felt completely horrible about kneeing Axel.

He didn't deserve that, especially not after the fact he did save my life not once but twice, and if I didn't feel bad before, now Axel's saying I had put us both into danger somehow.

Knowing I had to do something, I opened my door and slowing made my way across the hall, dragging my feet across the soft carpet.

I knocked on Axel's door, the familiar anxiousness was crawling up my throat.

A few minutes went by and Axel still hadn't opened the door, which I don't blame him.

I wouldn't open the door either if I was him.

I was about to turn around and head back to my room when his door suddenly opens.

I reluctantly look up to Axel's face, it was blank as it always was.

I opened my mouth desperate to say something but my voice couldn't make it passed the knot in my throat.

Axel obviously was not in the mood for my games because he scoffed and began to shut the door in my face, but I quickly stopped it with my foot.

"Can we talk?" I muttered looking at him.

"I don't know, I'll let you know in four days." He spat, trying to close the door again.

I guess I did deserve that one.

"I'm sorry Axel, I know I was an ass to you."

I rushed out before he shut the door, but my apology didn't stop him from closing the door, leaving me alone in the hall.

"In fact, I'm more than ass, I'm like the queen of the donkeys."

I raised my voice so he could hear me through the door.

If he didn't want to talk he could at least listen.

"Granted you're not the kindest person in the world and you're rather bipolar but that doesn't excuse what I did? I spoke out loud.

"I don't honestly know why I kneed you, it's just you infuriate the living hell out me; I told him hoping he was listening.

"That sounded harsher than I meant it to be!" I facepalm.

Way to go Mia.

"I'm also sorry I ignored you, I know that wasn't cool I was just...scared."

My words got caught in my throat trying to tell him how I felt.

"I'm sorry If I hurt you."

I sighed defeated, it was no use.

If he didn't hate me before he definitely did now.

To my surprise, his door swung open revealing an amused Axel leaning against the door frame.

I couldn't help but notice he was now dressed in his regular attire indicating he was leaving.

"See this is the bipolar tendencies I mention earlier; I stated, giving him a weird look.

"Come on.’ Axel rolled his at me and started walking towards the stairs.

"Huh?"

I looked over at him confused.

"Let's go Mia.”He said slowly as if I was dumb.

"Where exactly are we going?"

I asked him, the last time I went with him things didn't end well.

"Stop asking so many questions and come on.’ He said irritably.

And against my better judgment, I found myself following behind him, I had absolutely no clue what I was getting myself into.

My stomach bubbled with a strange feeling of uneasiness or was it excitement? When we reached the bottom floor I was shocked when Axel held the front door open for me.

I gave him a curious look, but he wouldn't look down at me.

"Don't tell me you're getting soft on me Deacon.

I mocked him, smiling.

"Remind me not to do anything nice for you ever again."

He grunted, amusement clear in his voice.

I quickly walked to Axel's car, the cold weather nipping at my bare skin.

I could tell it was becoming late afternoon because the sky was swirling with shades of pink and orange.

I got into the car and listened to the quiet rumble as it came to life.

There was a thick tension between us as we sat in silence, Axel was focused intently on the road.

"It's not polite to stare,’ Axel said, looking at me from the corner of his eye.

"What do you know about polite?" I teased.

"Touché.’ He smirked.

"Where are we going?" I asked him.

"Downtown; he answered simply.

What are you up to Axel Deacon? "We're not doing something for gang right?"

I questioned, feeling nervous.

"No, it's just going to be us, Angel."

He said quickly calming my anxiousness.

"Hey, Axel?"

looked over

"What do you want?"

He muttered.

whole putting

you

I wondered out loud.

annoyed sigh, I was certain he wasn't

anything I

like a common bad boy

saw

I kicked his ass the day he forced himself

his men and since you being your stubborn self-had to open the door they now realize that you are associated

I swear I saw a flash of regret come across features but it was

so stupid; I whispered under

I have open that door? Why couldn't I just listen to what Axel had said? "Don't beat yourself

how stupid it

tension that

Noah

I wondered.

"Yeah, she does."

on the wheel

you haven't you tried to stop

knew I was slowly pissing him off with my questions but I couldn't

Mia! But that girl is more stubborn than you! Camila won't listen to anything I say! She thinks she can change him

to shut up I felt the heavy

I was trying to soak in all the scenery as I

themselves visible.I was lost in observing the unfamiliar area it startles me when Axel takes a sudden sharp turn

only one light pole halfway down the street but

over at Axel like he was crazy, I thought we weren't doing any gang-related stuff? My heart

look like I'm about to

laughter rang

"Are you?"

I swallowed hard.

out the car Mia.’ The humor left

with nothing but an eerie quietness as a company ina random part of town I've never been too or my other option was to follow Axel blindly

the car door open and got

black duffel bag, he pushed the trunk lid down

"What's in the bag."

him the third degree, never taking my eyes

me and find

mine, there was a mysterious shine in

down the pothole-filled

in the background, probably a

ominous back alley the more agitated I

like old abandon buildings, that were probably once very

warning Axel stops walking and throws the duffel bag until the hard ground, he then nods to me, signaling for me

a weird look but didn't

open the bag, investigating

"Paint?"

up at Axel, holding a

are we going to do with

"Whatever you want."

the lid and drawing on the brick building in front

illegal

fun."

a good girl to have fun."

know how to have fun! I stood up straight with another can of black paint in my hands, I'll show him who doesn't

the can and started painting randomly on the building,

only light we had was the single

of paint being sprayed filled the air around us, I was actually surprised by how much I was

peaceful and calm, despite it

couldn't really concentrate however because Axel's dark eyes were on me the entire time I painted, a shiver ran up my body under his

you cold?" He asked, his voice

little bit’ I

corner of my eyes, I saw Axel shake off his jacket

gaze off of me in

says, holding open

was about to kindly decline and tell him I'm fine but I decided not

empty can of paint onto the ground and put my arms into the jacket that Axel was Still holding for

jacket was big and baggy on me and Axel's aroma

at him

"Who is that?"

looking at the

up at the woman I had made, she had long flowing

patience just I remember them to be and she wore a loose white blouse

I muttered, trying not to

was actually what she looks like in the picture I had back at

"She's beautiful"

Axel whisper from beside

she is." I

then looked over at what Axel had

you see on the game cards and underneath it was the initials

noted about

Black Spades." He

name of your gang?"

He said, popping

laughed slightly at him that sounded so weird for a gang

funny?"

wasn't expecting it’ I

what were

narrowed his eyes

"I don't know."

I shrugged.

Hell Boyz, Diablo, literally anything

I listed out.

"Shut up."

groaned, a small smile plastered

nowhere Axel's head quickly snapped

"Shit"

He cursed.

"What?"

in the same

the cop car

were two officers with

stomach, luckily the cops still hadn't noticed