Mated With Five Boys

"Sometimes you can't see yourself clearly until you see yourself through the eyes of others"- Ellen DeGeneres 

I stood there for a few moments, my back press against the shut door.

My head was whirling with questions and guilt.

I felt completely horrible about kneeing Axel.

He didn't deserve that, especially not after the fact he did save my life not once but twice, and if I didn't feel bad before, now Axel's saying I had put us both into danger somehow.

Knowing I had to do something, I opened my door and slowing made my way across the hall, dragging my feet across the soft carpet.

I knocked on Axel's door, the familiar anxiousness was crawling up my throat.

A few minutes went by and Axel still hadn't opened the door, which I don't blame him.

I wouldn't open the door either if I was him.

I was about to turn around and head back to my room when his door suddenly opens.

I reluctantly look up to Axel's face, it was blank as it always was.

I opened my mouth desperate to say something but my voice couldn't make it passed the knot in my throat.

Axel obviously was not in the mood for my games because he scoffed and began to shut the door in my face, but I quickly stopped it with my foot.

"Can we talk?" I muttered looking at him.

"I don't know, I'll let you know in four days." He spat, trying to close the door again.

I guess I did deserve that one.

"I'm sorry Axel, I know I was an ass to you."

I rushed out before he shut the door, but my apology didn't stop him from closing the door, leaving me alone in the hall.

"In fact, I'm more than ass, I'm like the queen of the donkeys."

I raised my voice so he could hear me through the door.

If he didn't want to talk he could at least listen.

"Granted you're not the kindest person in the world and you're rather bipolar but that doesn't excuse what I did? I spoke out loud.

"I don't honestly know why I kneed you, it's just you infuriate the living hell out me; I told him hoping he was listening.

"That sounded harsher than I meant it to be!" I facepalm.

Way to go Mia.

"I'm also sorry I ignored you, I know that wasn't cool I was just...scared."

My words got caught in my throat trying to tell him how I felt.

"I'm sorry If I hurt you."

I sighed defeated, it was no use.

If he didn't hate me before he definitely did now.

To my surprise, his door swung open revealing an amused Axel leaning against the door frame.

I couldn't help but notice he was now dressed in his regular attire indicating he was leaving.

"See this is the bipolar tendencies I mention earlier; I stated, giving him a weird look.

"Come on.’ Axel rolled his at me and started walking towards the stairs.

"Huh?"

I looked over at him confused.

"Let's go Mia.”He said slowly as if I was dumb.

"Where exactly are we going?"

I asked him, the last time I went with him things didn't end well.

"Stop asking so many questions and come on.’ He said irritably.

And against my better judgment, I found myself following behind him, I had absolutely no clue what I was getting myself into.

My stomach bubbled with a strange feeling of uneasiness or was it excitement? When we reached the bottom floor I was shocked when Axel held the front door open for me.

I gave him a curious look, but he wouldn't look down at me.

"Don't tell me you're getting soft on me Deacon.

I mocked him, smiling.

"Remind me not to do anything nice for you ever again."

He grunted, amusement clear in his voice.

I quickly walked to Axel's car, the cold weather nipping at my bare skin.

I could tell it was becoming late afternoon because the sky was swirling with shades of pink and orange.

I got into the car and listened to the quiet rumble as it came to life.

There was a thick tension between us as we sat in silence, Axel was focused intently on the road.

"It's not polite to stare,’ Axel said, looking at me from the corner of his eye.

"What do you know about polite?" I teased.

"Touché.’ He smirked.

"Where are we going?" I asked him.

"Downtown; he answered simply.

What are you up to Axel Deacon? "We're not doing something for gang right?"

I questioned, feeling nervous.

"No, it's just going to be us, Angel."

He said quickly calming my anxiousness.

"Hey, Axel?"

over

"What do you want?"

He muttered.

the whole putting both

you mean

I wondered out loud.

out an annoyed sigh, I was certain

never tells anything

guess it's like a common

eyes widen when I saw his pink lips part

kicked his ass the day he forced himself on you he

at the warehouse was one of his men and since you being your stubborn self-had to open the door they now realize that you are associated

swear I saw a flash of regret come across features but it was quickly replaced with a blank

I whispered

I have open that door? Why couldn't I just listen to what Axel had said? "Don't beat yourself up, you thought you were

matter how stupid

the tension that was almost suffocating

what Noah does in

I wondered.

"Yeah, she does."

on

haven't you

off with my questions but I

girl is more stubborn than you! Camila won't listen to anything I say! She

shut up I felt the heavy atmosphere that settled in the

trying to soak in all the scenery as I could, the streets lights were illuminating

in observing the unfamiliar area it startles me when Axel takes a sudden sharp turn into a creepy

the street but other than that it was

at Axel like he was crazy, I thought we weren't doing any gang-related stuff? My heart started beating faster by the

like I'm about to

laughter rang

"Are you?"

I swallowed hard.

left his voice as he shut

by myself with nothing but an eerie quietness as a company ina random part of town I've never been too or my other option

making my decision, I pushed the car door open

trunk and pull out a large black duffel bag, he pushed the trunk lid down forcefully clicking it

"What's in the bag."

him the third degree, never taking my eyes off

me and

mine, there was

Axel started walking down the pothole-filled street, and of course, I

sirens going off in the background, probably a few streets back on

we walked down the ominous back

of the road was what looked like old abandon buildings, that were

the hard ground, he then

him a weird look but didn't

the bag, investigating the contents of

"Paint?"

looked up at Axel, holding

do with paint?" I

"Whatever you want."

shaking it before popping off the lid and drawing on

know that's illegal right?"

also fun."

much of a good girl to have fun." He smirks at

up straight with another can of black paint in my hands, I'll show him who doesn't know how to

the can and started painting randomly on the building, a few

was the single lamp

sprayed filled the air around us, I was actually surprised by how much I was

calm, despite

however because Axel's dark eyes were on me the entire time I painted, a shiver ran up my

you cold?" He asked,

little bit’ I

my eyes, I saw Axel shake off his jacket before walking over

off of me

says, holding open

him I'm fine but I decided not to

paint onto the ground and put my arms into the jacket that

leather jacket was big and baggy on me

at him

"Who is that?"

asked, looking at the painting I

had made, she had long

and patience just I remember them to

mother,’ I muttered, trying not to get

she looks like in the picture I had back at the

"She's beautiful"

whisper

is."

then looked over at what

you see on the

I noted about

for Black Spades."

that the name of your gang?" I already

He said, popping

that sounded

so funny?" He

I just wasn't expecting it’

Then what were you

his

"I don't know."

I shrugged.

Serpents, Hell Boyz, Diablo, literally anything

I listed out.

"Shut up."

small smile plastered on

head quickly snapped towards the direction

"Shit"

He cursed.

"What?"

asked, looking in the same

I saw the cop car parked behind Axel's

two officers with flashlights examining the

feeling hit my stomach, luckily the cops still hadn't noticed