Mated With Five Boys

"Sometimes you can't see yourself clearly until you see yourself through the eyes of others"- Ellen DeGeneres 

I stood there for a few moments, my back press against the shut door.

My head was whirling with questions and guilt.

I felt completely horrible about kneeing Axel.

He didn't deserve that, especially not after the fact he did save my life not once but twice, and if I didn't feel bad before, now Axel's saying I had put us both into danger somehow.

Knowing I had to do something, I opened my door and slowing made my way across the hall, dragging my feet across the soft carpet.

I knocked on Axel's door, the familiar anxiousness was crawling up my throat.

A few minutes went by and Axel still hadn't opened the door, which I don't blame him.

I wouldn't open the door either if I was him.

I was about to turn around and head back to my room when his door suddenly opens.

I reluctantly look up to Axel's face, it was blank as it always was.

I opened my mouth desperate to say something but my voice couldn't make it passed the knot in my throat.

Axel obviously was not in the mood for my games because he scoffed and began to shut the door in my face, but I quickly stopped it with my foot.

"Can we talk?" I muttered looking at him.

"I don't know, I'll let you know in four days." He spat, trying to close the door again.

I guess I did deserve that one.

"I'm sorry Axel, I know I was an ass to you."

I rushed out before he shut the door, but my apology didn't stop him from closing the door, leaving me alone in the hall.

"In fact, I'm more than ass, I'm like the queen of the donkeys."

I raised my voice so he could hear me through the door.

If he didn't want to talk he could at least listen.

"Granted you're not the kindest person in the world and you're rather bipolar but that doesn't excuse what I did? I spoke out loud.

"I don't honestly know why I kneed you, it's just you infuriate the living hell out me; I told him hoping he was listening.

"That sounded harsher than I meant it to be!" I facepalm.

Way to go Mia.

"I'm also sorry I ignored you, I know that wasn't cool I was just...scared."

My words got caught in my throat trying to tell him how I felt.

"I'm sorry If I hurt you."

I sighed defeated, it was no use.

If he didn't hate me before he definitely did now.

To my surprise, his door swung open revealing an amused Axel leaning against the door frame.

I couldn't help but notice he was now dressed in his regular attire indicating he was leaving.

"See this is the bipolar tendencies I mention earlier; I stated, giving him a weird look.

"Come on.’ Axel rolled his at me and started walking towards the stairs.

"Huh?"

I looked over at him confused.

"Let's go Mia.”He said slowly as if I was dumb.

"Where exactly are we going?"

I asked him, the last time I went with him things didn't end well.

"Stop asking so many questions and come on.’ He said irritably.

And against my better judgment, I found myself following behind him, I had absolutely no clue what I was getting myself into.

My stomach bubbled with a strange feeling of uneasiness or was it excitement? When we reached the bottom floor I was shocked when Axel held the front door open for me.

I gave him a curious look, but he wouldn't look down at me.

"Don't tell me you're getting soft on me Deacon.

I mocked him, smiling.

"Remind me not to do anything nice for you ever again."

He grunted, amusement clear in his voice.

I quickly walked to Axel's car, the cold weather nipping at my bare skin.

I could tell it was becoming late afternoon because the sky was swirling with shades of pink and orange.

I got into the car and listened to the quiet rumble as it came to life.

There was a thick tension between us as we sat in silence, Axel was focused intently on the road.

"It's not polite to stare,’ Axel said, looking at me from the corner of his eye.

"What do you know about polite?" I teased.

"Touché.’ He smirked.

"Where are we going?" I asked him.

"Downtown; he answered simply.

What are you up to Axel Deacon? "We're not doing something for gang right?"

I questioned, feeling nervous.

"No, it's just going to be us, Angel."

He said quickly calming my anxiousness.

"Hey, Axel?"

over

"What do you want?"

He muttered.

said earlier, the whole putting both our necks

you

I wondered out loud.

sigh, I was

tells anything I want

guess it's like a common bad boy code or

when I saw his pink

a different gang and since I kicked his ass the day

and since you being your stubborn self-had to open the door they now realize that you are associated with

come across features

so stupid; I whispered under my

door? Why couldn't I just listen to what Axel had said? "Don't beat yourself up, you

matter how

through the tension that was

Noah does in his free

I wondered.

"Yeah, she does."

on the

haven't you tried

pissing him off with my questions but I

I tried Mia! But that girl is more stubborn than you! Camila won't listen to anything I say! She thinks she can change him or whatever.’ Axel snapped at

felt

window trying to distract myself, I was trying to soak in all the scenery as

lost in observing the unfamiliar area it startles me when Axel takes a sudden sharp turn into a creepy side road and shuts off his

only one light pole halfway down the street but other than that it was

we weren't

like I'm about to kill

laughter rang

"Are you?"

I swallowed hard.

The humor left his voice as he

my options I could either sit here in the car all by myself with nothing but an eerie quietness as a company ina random part

decision, I pushed the car

and pull out a large black duffel bag, he pushed the trunk lid down forcefully

"What's in the bag."

give him the third degree, never taking

me and

eyes locked with mine, there was a mysterious shine

Axel started walking down the pothole-filled street, and of course, I chased after

could hear sirens going off in the background, probably a few streets

ominous back alley the more agitated I

either side of the road was what looked like old abandon buildings, that

and throws the duffel bag until the hard ground, he then nods

him a weird look but didn't say

and open the bag, investigating

"Paint?"

holding a

to do with paint?" I asked

"Whatever you want."

off the lid and drawing on the brick

do know that's illegal right?" I

also fun." He

a good girl to

out loud, I know how to have fun! I stood up straight with another can of black paint in my hands, I'll show him who doesn't know

the building, a few feet away Axel so I had enough

only light we had was the single lamp post behind

of paint being sprayed filled the air around us, I was actually surprised by how much

despite it being

dark eyes were on me the entire time I painted, a shiver ran up my body under his

He asked, his voice

bit’ I

of my eyes, I saw Axel shake off his jacket before walking

off of me in

holding open the jacket for

I'm fine but I decided not to fight him for

can of paint onto the ground and put my

jacket was big and baggy on me and Axel's aroma

up at him

"Who is that?"

looking at the painting I

had long

were kind and patience just I remember them to be and she

mother,’ I muttered, trying

looks like in the picture I had

"She's beautiful"

heard Axel whisper from

is." I

at what Axel had

a spade, like the ones you see on

noted about

Black

the name of your gang?" I already

He said, popping the

at him that sounded so weird for

funny?"

just wasn't expecting it’ I continued

yeah? Then what were

narrowed his

"I don't know."

I shrugged.

Hell Boyz, Diablo, literally anything

I listed out.

"Shut up."

smile plastered on his

head quickly snapped towards the

"Shit"

He cursed.

"What?"

looking in the

saw the cop car parked behind Axel's Mustang

officers with flashlights examining

feeling hit my stomach, luckily the cops still hadn't