Mated With Five Boys

"Sometimes you can't see yourself clearly until you see yourself through the eyes of others"- Ellen DeGeneres 

I stood there for a few moments, my back press against the shut door.

My head was whirling with questions and guilt.

I felt completely horrible about kneeing Axel.

He didn't deserve that, especially not after the fact he did save my life not once but twice, and if I didn't feel bad before, now Axel's saying I had put us both into danger somehow.

Knowing I had to do something, I opened my door and slowing made my way across the hall, dragging my feet across the soft carpet.

I knocked on Axel's door, the familiar anxiousness was crawling up my throat.

A few minutes went by and Axel still hadn't opened the door, which I don't blame him.

I wouldn't open the door either if I was him.

I was about to turn around and head back to my room when his door suddenly opens.

I reluctantly look up to Axel's face, it was blank as it always was.

I opened my mouth desperate to say something but my voice couldn't make it passed the knot in my throat.

Axel obviously was not in the mood for my games because he scoffed and began to shut the door in my face, but I quickly stopped it with my foot.

"Can we talk?" I muttered looking at him.

"I don't know, I'll let you know in four days." He spat, trying to close the door again.

I guess I did deserve that one.

"I'm sorry Axel, I know I was an ass to you."

I rushed out before he shut the door, but my apology didn't stop him from closing the door, leaving me alone in the hall.

"In fact, I'm more than ass, I'm like the queen of the donkeys."

I raised my voice so he could hear me through the door.

If he didn't want to talk he could at least listen.

"Granted you're not the kindest person in the world and you're rather bipolar but that doesn't excuse what I did? I spoke out loud.

"I don't honestly know why I kneed you, it's just you infuriate the living hell out me; I told him hoping he was listening.

"That sounded harsher than I meant it to be!" I facepalm.

Way to go Mia.

"I'm also sorry I ignored you, I know that wasn't cool I was just...scared."

My words got caught in my throat trying to tell him how I felt.

"I'm sorry If I hurt you."

I sighed defeated, it was no use.

If he didn't hate me before he definitely did now.

To my surprise, his door swung open revealing an amused Axel leaning against the door frame.

I couldn't help but notice he was now dressed in his regular attire indicating he was leaving.

"See this is the bipolar tendencies I mention earlier; I stated, giving him a weird look.

"Come on.’ Axel rolled his at me and started walking towards the stairs.

"Huh?"

I looked over at him confused.

"Let's go Mia.”He said slowly as if I was dumb.

"Where exactly are we going?"

I asked him, the last time I went with him things didn't end well.

"Stop asking so many questions and come on.’ He said irritably.

And against my better judgment, I found myself following behind him, I had absolutely no clue what I was getting myself into.

My stomach bubbled with a strange feeling of uneasiness or was it excitement? When we reached the bottom floor I was shocked when Axel held the front door open for me.

I gave him a curious look, but he wouldn't look down at me.

"Don't tell me you're getting soft on me Deacon.

I mocked him, smiling.

"Remind me not to do anything nice for you ever again."

He grunted, amusement clear in his voice.

I quickly walked to Axel's car, the cold weather nipping at my bare skin.

I could tell it was becoming late afternoon because the sky was swirling with shades of pink and orange.

I got into the car and listened to the quiet rumble as it came to life.

There was a thick tension between us as we sat in silence, Axel was focused intently on the road.

"It's not polite to stare,’ Axel said, looking at me from the corner of his eye.

"What do you know about polite?" I teased.

"Touché.’ He smirked.

"Where are we going?" I asked him.

"Downtown; he answered simply.

What are you up to Axel Deacon? "We're not doing something for gang right?"

I questioned, feeling nervous.

"No, it's just going to be us, Angel."

He said quickly calming my anxiousness.

"Hey, Axel?"

over

"What do you want?"

He muttered.

what you said earlier, the whole putting both our necks at

you

I wondered out loud.

annoyed sigh, I was certain he wasn't going to

anything

like a common

eyes widen when I saw his pink lips part to

the day he forced himself on you he has

his men and since you being your stubborn self-had to open the door they now realize that you are associated

I swear I saw a flash of regret come across features but

stupid; I whispered

Why couldn't I just listen to what Axel had said? "Don't beat yourself up, you thought you were doing the

how stupid

slicing through the tension that was

know what Noah

I wondered.

"Yeah, she does."

grip on

you haven't you tried

I was slowly pissing him off with my questions

Mia! But that girl is more stubborn than you! Camila won't listen to anything I say! She thinks she

I felt the heavy atmosphere that settled in the

window trying to distract myself, I was trying to soak in all the scenery as I could, the streets lights were illuminating my face as drove passed

were already making themselves visible.I was lost in observing the unfamiliar area it startles me

was only one light pole halfway down the

over at Axel like he was crazy, I thought we weren't doing any gang-related stuff? My heart started beating faster by the

like I'm about to

rang

"Are you?"

I swallowed hard.

The humor left his voice

my options I could either sit here in the car all by myself with nothing but an eerie quietness as a company ina random part of town I've never been too or my other option was to follow Axel blindly to who

decision, I pushed the car door open and got

and pull out a large black duffel bag, he pushed the trunk lid down

"What's in the bag."

never taking my eyes

and

eyes locked with mine, there was a

the pothole-filled street, and of course, I chased after

hear sirens going off in the background, probably a

down the ominous back alley the more agitated

of the road was what looked like old abandon buildings, that were probably once very occupied

throws the duffel bag until the hard

gave him a weird look but

the bag,

"Paint?"

up at Axel, holding a can of

going to do with paint?"

"Whatever you want."

grabbing a black can, shaking it before popping off the lid and drawing on the brick building in

illegal right?"

fun."

too much of a good girl to have fun."

loud, I know how to have fun! I stood up straight with another can

the building, a few feet away Axel so I

light we had was the single lamp post

air around us, I was actually surprised by how much I

peaceful and calm, despite it

however because Axel's dark eyes were on me the

He asked,

little bit’

Axel shake off his jacket before walking

took his gaze off

open the

decline and tell him I'm fine but I decided not to fight him

and put my arms into the jacket that Axel was Still holding

jacket was big and baggy on me and Axel's aroma quickly filled

smiled up at him as

"Who is that?"

looking at

had

patience just I remember them to be and she wore a loose white blouse and black

trying not to

she looks like in the picture I had

"She's beautiful"

Axel whisper

is."

then looked over at what Axel

like the ones you see on the game cards and underneath it was

noted

for Black Spades."

name of your gang?" I already the

He said,

that sounded so weird for a

so funny?" He

expecting it’ I continued to

what were you

narrowed his

"I don't know."

I shrugged.

Boyz, Diablo,

I listed out.

"Shut up."

a small smile plastered on his

head quickly snapped towards the direction of

"Shit"

He cursed.

"What?"

looking in the

I saw the cop car parked behind Axel's

two officers with flashlights examining

my stomach, luckily the cops still hadn't noticed our