Mated With Five Boys

"Sometimes you can't see yourself clearly until you see yourself through the eyes of others"- Ellen DeGeneres 

I stood there for a few moments, my back press against the shut door.

My head was whirling with questions and guilt.

I felt completely horrible about kneeing Axel.

He didn't deserve that, especially not after the fact he did save my life not once but twice, and if I didn't feel bad before, now Axel's saying I had put us both into danger somehow.

Knowing I had to do something, I opened my door and slowing made my way across the hall, dragging my feet across the soft carpet.

I knocked on Axel's door, the familiar anxiousness was crawling up my throat.

A few minutes went by and Axel still hadn't opened the door, which I don't blame him.

I wouldn't open the door either if I was him.

I was about to turn around and head back to my room when his door suddenly opens.

I reluctantly look up to Axel's face, it was blank as it always was.

I opened my mouth desperate to say something but my voice couldn't make it passed the knot in my throat.

Axel obviously was not in the mood for my games because he scoffed and began to shut the door in my face, but I quickly stopped it with my foot.

"Can we talk?" I muttered looking at him.

"I don't know, I'll let you know in four days." He spat, trying to close the door again.

I guess I did deserve that one.

"I'm sorry Axel, I know I was an ass to you."

I rushed out before he shut the door, but my apology didn't stop him from closing the door, leaving me alone in the hall.

"In fact, I'm more than ass, I'm like the queen of the donkeys."

I raised my voice so he could hear me through the door.

If he didn't want to talk he could at least listen.

"Granted you're not the kindest person in the world and you're rather bipolar but that doesn't excuse what I did? I spoke out loud.

"I don't honestly know why I kneed you, it's just you infuriate the living hell out me; I told him hoping he was listening.

"That sounded harsher than I meant it to be!" I facepalm.

Way to go Mia.

"I'm also sorry I ignored you, I know that wasn't cool I was just...scared."

My words got caught in my throat trying to tell him how I felt.

"I'm sorry If I hurt you."

I sighed defeated, it was no use.

If he didn't hate me before he definitely did now.

To my surprise, his door swung open revealing an amused Axel leaning against the door frame.

I couldn't help but notice he was now dressed in his regular attire indicating he was leaving.

"See this is the bipolar tendencies I mention earlier; I stated, giving him a weird look.

"Come on.’ Axel rolled his at me and started walking towards the stairs.

"Huh?"

I looked over at him confused.

"Let's go Mia.”He said slowly as if I was dumb.

"Where exactly are we going?"

I asked him, the last time I went with him things didn't end well.

"Stop asking so many questions and come on.’ He said irritably.

And against my better judgment, I found myself following behind him, I had absolutely no clue what I was getting myself into.

My stomach bubbled with a strange feeling of uneasiness or was it excitement? When we reached the bottom floor I was shocked when Axel held the front door open for me.

I gave him a curious look, but he wouldn't look down at me.

"Don't tell me you're getting soft on me Deacon.

I mocked him, smiling.

"Remind me not to do anything nice for you ever again."

He grunted, amusement clear in his voice.

I quickly walked to Axel's car, the cold weather nipping at my bare skin.

I could tell it was becoming late afternoon because the sky was swirling with shades of pink and orange.

I got into the car and listened to the quiet rumble as it came to life.

There was a thick tension between us as we sat in silence, Axel was focused intently on the road.

"It's not polite to stare,’ Axel said, looking at me from the corner of his eye.

"What do you know about polite?" I teased.

"Touché.’ He smirked.

"Where are we going?" I asked him.

"Downtown; he answered simply.

What are you up to Axel Deacon? "We're not doing something for gang right?"

I questioned, feeling nervous.

"No, it's just going to be us, Angel."

He said quickly calming my anxiousness.

"Hey, Axel?"

over

"What do you want?"

He muttered.

earlier, the whole putting

you mean

I wondered out loud.

I was certain he wasn't going to

never tells anything I want

it's like a common bad boy

I saw his pink lips part to

kicked his ass the day he forced himself on you he has been sending his

of his men and since you being your stubborn self-had to open the door they

and I swear I saw a flash of regret come across features but it was quickly replaced with

stupid; I whispered under

I have open that door? Why couldn't I just listen to what Axel had said? "Don't beat yourself up, you

how

slicing through the tension that was almost

Noah does in

I wondered.

"Yeah, she does."

grip on the wheel

you tried to

I was slowly pissing him off with my questions but I couldn't stop

I tried Mia! But that girl is more stubborn than you! Camila won't listen to anything

was time to shut up I felt the heavy atmosphere that settled

the window trying to distract myself, I was trying to soak in all the scenery as I could, the streets lights were illuminating my face as

already set and darkness was creeping into the sky, the stars were already making themselves visible.I was lost in observing the unfamiliar area it startles me when Axel takes

one light pole halfway down the street but other than that it was completely

I thought we weren't doing any gang-related stuff? My heart started beating faster by

look like I'm about

rang in

"Are you?"

I swallowed hard.

The humor left

I could either sit here in the car all by myself with nothing but an eerie quietness as a company ina random part of town I've

making my decision, I pushed the car door open and

a large black duffel bag, he pushed the trunk

"What's in the bag."

give him the third degree, never taking my eyes off

and find

with mine, there

walking down the pothole-filled street, and of course, I

in the background, probably a few streets back on

walked down the ominous back alley the more agitated

the road was what looked like old abandon buildings, that were probably

and throws the duffel bag until the hard ground, he then nods to me, signaling for

weird look but

and open the bag, investigating the

"Paint?"

at Axel, holding a can of spray

do with paint?" I asked

"Whatever you want."

before popping off the lid and drawing on the

illegal right?" I

also fun." He

a good girl to have fun." He smirks at

how to have fun! I stood up straight with another can of black paint in my hands, I'll show him who doesn't know how

painting randomly on the building, a few feet away Axel

we had was

around us, I was actually surprised by how much

peaceful and calm, despite it

dark eyes were on me the entire time I painted, a shiver ran up my body under his

He asked, his

bit’

the corner of my eyes, I saw Axel shake off his jacket before

his gaze off of me in

open the jacket for

kindly decline and tell him I'm fine but I decided not

paint onto the ground and put my

jacket was big and baggy on me and Axel's aroma quickly filled my

up at him as

"Who is that?"

at

had long flowing hair and

remember them to be and she wore a loose white blouse

muttered, trying not to get

what she looks like in the picture I

"She's beautiful"

Axel whisper

she is."

over at what Axel

a spade, like the ones you see on the

noted about

Black Spades." He

that the name of your gang?" I already the

said, popping the

that sounded so

so funny?" He

expecting it’ I continued to

Then what were

narrowed his eyes

"I don't know."

I shrugged.

Serpents, Hell Boyz,

I listed out.

"Shut up."

groaned, a small smile plastered

snapped

"Shit"

He cursed.

"What?"

in the

the cop car parked

two officers with flashlights examining the

luckily the cops still