Mated With Five Boys

"Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character.’ - Albert Einstein 

"Sorry to interrupt but we need to go.’ Rylan's voice sounded on edge.

"Why?"

I asked, my cheeks burning with embarrassment.

"Noah's here.’ He looked up at Axel, silently having a conversation with their eyes.

"Camila's boyfriend?"

Kina asked confused.

Nobody answered Kina's question but Rylan looked down at her before looking back to Axel.

"Come on, we need to go."

Axel's voice was now hard and unattached.

Since the kiss, Axel has yet to look at me and I get the feeling he regretted kissing me.

I Know I'm not the best kisser but I didn't think it went awful, in fact, I thought it was the opposite of awful his lips were so soft and strong and the way they felt against mine was unexplainable.

I'm not sure what possessed me into letting him kiss me.

I don't understand why my skin doesn't crawl or my stomach clench when he touches me.

I'm confused by the way he looks at me, I can't tell if he likes me or hates my guts.

One minute he has me in a chokehold and the next he's kissing me, one minute he's saving my life and the next we are running away from the police.

Everything about Axel Deacon confuses the living hell out of me and I'm not sure I can handle that.

We started making our way to the nearest exit of the mall when a deep voice from behind us made us all stop dead in our tracks.

"Leaving so soon?"

His voice was cocky and crude as I remember it to be.

My heart started thumping faster and the memories started flooding back.

Axel was the first one to turn around and face him, then Rylan, followed by Kina.

I didn't want to turn around, I didn't want to face him.

"Exactly, we are."

Axel's voice was low and intimidating.

"Not on my account, I hope."

I could hear the smirk that was painted onto Noah's face.

I finally turned around to face Noah and the longer I looked at him the angrier I got.

My blood was boiling, I want nothing more than to punch him square in the nose but that probably wasn't the best choice with his 3 bodyguards standing behind him.

That's when I realized this was the first time I've seen Noah since my first day of school.

I could tell his left eye was bruised but it was almost fully healed now and he had various cuts scattered around his less than perfect face, but other than that he looked like his usual rotten self.

Remembering how helpless I felt with his hands on my body made me shaking in anger.

It scared me how much rage I was carrying with me, despite everything I was never was a violent person even though I had plenty of reason to be.

I think I was too scared to stand up for myself.

I was too scared of making things worse, I guess deep down I thought they were right, I was nothing more than a waste of space that deserved everything I got.

But something has changed, something about me has changed.

I didn't feel scared anymore, it had been replaced with a new but familiar emotion: Rage.

my mom left me, the same rage that left me screaming into a pillow

you're not the best company.’ Rylan cut in, glaring hard

narrowed slightly at Rylan, but they quickly filled

you too good friend.’ Noah

are not even close to friends.’ Rylan spat, practically heaving at

I didn't know about that

and Axel both had murderous looks in their eyes and I knew it couldn't

carelessly looked away from Rylan and his eyes landed on

across his grimy face as

"Hello, Mia."

made me want to

staring at

a great time the other day,

me,

right there was enough to send

balled into fists and I probably would have decked him

fist connecting with Noah's cheek echoed in the empty

gasp in shock at the scene in front

members stood there in shock

What cowards.

jerked Noah off the floor from the collar of his jacket and brought his face right in front of Noah's now bleeding

think you forgot who's in charge

Axel chuckled unamused.

want another black eye to match that pretty one, I suggest you make yourself invisible.’ Axel seethed

Mia again, I will make your life

are you going

laughed, blood escaping his

just want the slut for yourself.’ He continued,

going to wish

steady, I even noticed the

your last

letting go of Noah's collar which sent him falling

"Let's go."

out the sliding double doors

over at Kina

used to look like? Scared and clueless? I don't want to be like that anymore, I don't want to

followed Axel out the mall, leaving

as I watch Axel's shoulder muscle move as he walked I knew I saw another

was strange, the Mia from a month ago would have probably started crying

afraid of Axel after the night at the warehouse, not after he helped me be somewhat okay

stared at his back I couldn't help but to wonder

where he thinks this how he should live his life? To where being in the streets and getting into fights or threatening people

knew that the whole gang leader thing was apart of him, but that wasn't all to

seen it before, underneath that hard and rough shell

you regret

looking over at him as we

I just needed

"Do you?"

over at

regret kissing him? "I asked

not knowing the

he was waging a battle with himself and when his face went blank, I knew

regret it, I

not missing

had said didn't affect me

did hurt, I don't know why it

that hurt? Or maybe the disgusted look in eyes? It shouldn't hurt, I shouldn't care

"Why."

I pressed.

feel the knot in my throat forming but I refused to

not worth my time, you are an insecure little

and I

He snapped at me.

That one stung.

know you don't mean that,’

you mean? Of course,