Mated With Five Boys

"Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character.’ - Albert Einstein 

"Sorry to interrupt but we need to go.’ Rylan's voice sounded on edge.

"Why?"

I asked, my cheeks burning with embarrassment.

"Noah's here.’ He looked up at Axel, silently having a conversation with their eyes.

"Camila's boyfriend?"

Kina asked confused.

Nobody answered Kina's question but Rylan looked down at her before looking back to Axel.

"Come on, we need to go."

Axel's voice was now hard and unattached.

Since the kiss, Axel has yet to look at me and I get the feeling he regretted kissing me.

I Know I'm not the best kisser but I didn't think it went awful, in fact, I thought it was the opposite of awful his lips were so soft and strong and the way they felt against mine was unexplainable.

I'm not sure what possessed me into letting him kiss me.

I don't understand why my skin doesn't crawl or my stomach clench when he touches me.

I'm confused by the way he looks at me, I can't tell if he likes me or hates my guts.

One minute he has me in a chokehold and the next he's kissing me, one minute he's saving my life and the next we are running away from the police.

Everything about Axel Deacon confuses the living hell out of me and I'm not sure I can handle that.

We started making our way to the nearest exit of the mall when a deep voice from behind us made us all stop dead in our tracks.

"Leaving so soon?"

His voice was cocky and crude as I remember it to be.

My heart started thumping faster and the memories started flooding back.

Axel was the first one to turn around and face him, then Rylan, followed by Kina.

I didn't want to turn around, I didn't want to face him.

"Exactly, we are."

Axel's voice was low and intimidating.

"Not on my account, I hope."

I could hear the smirk that was painted onto Noah's face.

I finally turned around to face Noah and the longer I looked at him the angrier I got.

My blood was boiling, I want nothing more than to punch him square in the nose but that probably wasn't the best choice with his 3 bodyguards standing behind him.

That's when I realized this was the first time I've seen Noah since my first day of school.

I could tell his left eye was bruised but it was almost fully healed now and he had various cuts scattered around his less than perfect face, but other than that he looked like his usual rotten self.

Remembering how helpless I felt with his hands on my body made me shaking in anger.

It scared me how much rage I was carrying with me, despite everything I was never was a violent person even though I had plenty of reason to be.

I think I was too scared to stand up for myself.

I was too scared of making things worse, I guess deep down I thought they were right, I was nothing more than a waste of space that deserved everything I got.

But something has changed, something about me has changed.

I didn't feel scared anymore, it had been replaced with a new but familiar emotion: Rage.

felt when my mom left me, the same rage that left me screaming into a pillow for hours straight, the same rage that plagued

company.’ Rylan cut in, glaring

narrowed slightly at Rylan, but they

you too good

friends.’ Rylan spat, practically heaving

was definitely something I didn't know about

looks in their eyes and I knew

looked away from Rylan and his eyes landed

wicked smile spread across his grimy face

"Hello, Mia."

of my name coming from his mouth made me want to get sick but stood still,

my place standing there staring at him with all the hate

day, I would love to have

smirked at me, licking his

that right there was enough to send

fists and I probably would have decked him tight then and there if Axel hadn't

Axel's fist connecting with Noah's cheek echoed in the

shock at the scene in front of

took, his gang members stood

What cowards.

floor from the collar of his jacket and brought his face right in

forgot

Axel chuckled unamused.

another black eye to match that pretty

even look at Mia again, I will make your life a living hell’ He threatened Noah, his

you going to do? Kill

blood escaping

slut for yourself.’ He

going to

voice was calm and steady, I even noticed the grin that

your last

before letting go of Noah's collar which

"Let's go."

towards us as he walked out the sliding double doors

looked over at Kina

what I used to look like? Scared and clueless? I don't want to be like that anymore, I don't want to be the

Axel out the mall, leaving Noah laying

moment as I watch Axel's shoulder muscle move as he walked I knew I saw another side of him that I could have gone my whole life without

scared of him which was strange, the Mia from a month

I couldn't be afraid of Axel after the night at the warehouse, not after he helped me be somewhat

but to wonder what happened to Axel? What happened to him that made him this

life? To where being in the streets and getting into fights or threatening people is the only way

that the whole gang leader thing was apart

seen it before, underneath that hard and rough shell of his,

regret kissing

him as we got

and I

"Do you?"

over

him?

resorted, not knowing

seat waiting for his answer, it looked like he was waging a battle with himself and when his face went blank,

I regret it,

spoke, not missing a

what he had said didn't

I

the rejection that hurt? Or maybe the disgusted look in eyes? It shouldn't hurt, I shouldn't care

"Why."

I pressed.

feel the knot in my throat forming but I refused to let it stop

my time, you are an insecure little

I can't believe I even

He snapped at me.

That one stung.

don't mean that,’ I

do you mean?