Mated With Five Boys

"Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character.’ - Albert Einstein 

"Sorry to interrupt but we need to go.’ Rylan's voice sounded on edge.

"Why?"

I asked, my cheeks burning with embarrassment.

"Noah's here.’ He looked up at Axel, silently having a conversation with their eyes.

"Camila's boyfriend?"

Kina asked confused.

Nobody answered Kina's question but Rylan looked down at her before looking back to Axel.

"Come on, we need to go."

Axel's voice was now hard and unattached.

Since the kiss, Axel has yet to look at me and I get the feeling he regretted kissing me.

I Know I'm not the best kisser but I didn't think it went awful, in fact, I thought it was the opposite of awful his lips were so soft and strong and the way they felt against mine was unexplainable.

I'm not sure what possessed me into letting him kiss me.

I don't understand why my skin doesn't crawl or my stomach clench when he touches me.

I'm confused by the way he looks at me, I can't tell if he likes me or hates my guts.

One minute he has me in a chokehold and the next he's kissing me, one minute he's saving my life and the next we are running away from the police.

Everything about Axel Deacon confuses the living hell out of me and I'm not sure I can handle that.

We started making our way to the nearest exit of the mall when a deep voice from behind us made us all stop dead in our tracks.

"Leaving so soon?"

His voice was cocky and crude as I remember it to be.

My heart started thumping faster and the memories started flooding back.

Axel was the first one to turn around and face him, then Rylan, followed by Kina.

I didn't want to turn around, I didn't want to face him.

"Exactly, we are."

Axel's voice was low and intimidating.

"Not on my account, I hope."

I could hear the smirk that was painted onto Noah's face.

I finally turned around to face Noah and the longer I looked at him the angrier I got.

My blood was boiling, I want nothing more than to punch him square in the nose but that probably wasn't the best choice with his 3 bodyguards standing behind him.

That's when I realized this was the first time I've seen Noah since my first day of school.

I could tell his left eye was bruised but it was almost fully healed now and he had various cuts scattered around his less than perfect face, but other than that he looked like his usual rotten self.

Remembering how helpless I felt with his hands on my body made me shaking in anger.

It scared me how much rage I was carrying with me, despite everything I was never was a violent person even though I had plenty of reason to be.

I think I was too scared to stand up for myself.

I was too scared of making things worse, I guess deep down I thought they were right, I was nothing more than a waste of space that deserved everything I got.

But something has changed, something about me has changed.

I didn't feel scared anymore, it had been replaced with a new but familiar emotion: Rage.

I felt when my mom left me, the same rage that left me screaming into a pillow

company.’ Rylan

at Rylan, but they quickly filled with

to see you too good friend.’

even close to friends.’

something I didn't know about

both had murderous looks in their eyes and I knew it couldn't be just because what

carelessly looked away from Rylan and his eyes landed

face as his eyes

"Hello, Mia."

sound of my name coming from his mouth made me want to get sick but stood still,

there staring at him with all

time the other day, I would love

at me, licking

there was enough to

and I probably would have decked him tight then and there if Axel hadn't had beat

sound of Axel's fist connecting with Noah's cheek echoed in the empty

at the scene in front

fell to the ground from the blow he just took, his gang members stood there in shock for a few moments before looking back up at

What cowards.

jacket and brought his face right in

you forgot

Axel chuckled unamused.

pretty one,

at Mia again, I will make your

going

laughed, blood escaping his

want the slut for yourself.’ He

going to wish I'd kill

noticed

your

of Noah's collar which sent

"Let's go."

towards us as he walked out the sliding

over at Kina who looked

help but wonder: is that what I used to look like? Scared and clueless? I don't want to be like that anymore, I don't want to be

mall, leaving Noah

I watch Axel's shoulder muscle move as he walked I knew I saw another side of him

from a month ago would have probably started crying is she saw what just

crazy as it sounds I couldn't be afraid of Axel after the night

wonder

he thinks this how he should live his life? To where being in the streets and

was apart of

hard and rough shell of his, there is a decent

regret kissing

looking over at him as

I just

"Do you?"

looked over

I regret kissing him?

resorted, not knowing the

answer, it looked like he was waging a battle with himself and

do I regret it,

not

what he had said didn't affect me or

hurt, I don't know why it

the rejection that hurt? Or maybe the disgusted look in eyes? It shouldn't hurt, I shouldn't care what he thinks,

"Why."

I pressed.

but I refused to

time, you are an insecure

less than average and I can't believe I even

He snapped at me.

That one stung.

you don't mean that,’ I

you mean? Of course,