Mated With Five Boys

"Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character.’ - Albert Einstein 

"Sorry to interrupt but we need to go.’ Rylan's voice sounded on edge.

"Why?"

I asked, my cheeks burning with embarrassment.

"Noah's here.’ He looked up at Axel, silently having a conversation with their eyes.

"Camila's boyfriend?"

Kina asked confused.

Nobody answered Kina's question but Rylan looked down at her before looking back to Axel.

"Come on, we need to go."

Axel's voice was now hard and unattached.

Since the kiss, Axel has yet to look at me and I get the feeling he regretted kissing me.

I Know I'm not the best kisser but I didn't think it went awful, in fact, I thought it was the opposite of awful his lips were so soft and strong and the way they felt against mine was unexplainable.

I'm not sure what possessed me into letting him kiss me.

I don't understand why my skin doesn't crawl or my stomach clench when he touches me.

I'm confused by the way he looks at me, I can't tell if he likes me or hates my guts.

One minute he has me in a chokehold and the next he's kissing me, one minute he's saving my life and the next we are running away from the police.

Everything about Axel Deacon confuses the living hell out of me and I'm not sure I can handle that.

We started making our way to the nearest exit of the mall when a deep voice from behind us made us all stop dead in our tracks.

"Leaving so soon?"

His voice was cocky and crude as I remember it to be.

My heart started thumping faster and the memories started flooding back.

Axel was the first one to turn around and face him, then Rylan, followed by Kina.

I didn't want to turn around, I didn't want to face him.

"Exactly, we are."

Axel's voice was low and intimidating.

"Not on my account, I hope."

I could hear the smirk that was painted onto Noah's face.

I finally turned around to face Noah and the longer I looked at him the angrier I got.

My blood was boiling, I want nothing more than to punch him square in the nose but that probably wasn't the best choice with his 3 bodyguards standing behind him.

That's when I realized this was the first time I've seen Noah since my first day of school.

I could tell his left eye was bruised but it was almost fully healed now and he had various cuts scattered around his less than perfect face, but other than that he looked like his usual rotten self.

Remembering how helpless I felt with his hands on my body made me shaking in anger.

It scared me how much rage I was carrying with me, despite everything I was never was a violent person even though I had plenty of reason to be.

I think I was too scared to stand up for myself.

I was too scared of making things worse, I guess deep down I thought they were right, I was nothing more than a waste of space that deserved everything I got.

But something has changed, something about me has changed.

I didn't feel scared anymore, it had been replaced with a new but familiar emotion: Rage.

that left me screaming into a pillow for hours straight, the same rage that

best company.’ Rylan cut in, glaring

Rylan,

you too good

are not even close to friends.’ Rylan spat,

didn't know about that happened

eyes and I knew it couldn't be just because what Noah had done to

looked away from Rylan and his eyes landed

across his grimy face as his eyes looked

"Hello, Mia."

coming from his mouth made me want to get sick but stood

at him with all

day, I would love to have

me, licking

was enough to

into fists and I probably would have decked him tight then and there if Axel hadn't had beat me

of Axel's fist connecting with Noah's cheek echoed in the empty hallway of

at the scene in front

the blow he just took, his gang members stood

What cowards.

floor from the collar of his jacket and brought his face right in

forgot

Axel chuckled unamused.

to match that pretty one, I suggest you

even look at Mia again, I will make your life a living hell’

are you going

blood escaping

slut for yourself.’

going to wish I'd kill

noticed the grin that started to form on his

your last

before letting go of Noah's collar which sent him falling back to the hard

"Let's go."

walked out the sliding double

Kina

but wonder: is that what I used to look like? Scared and clueless? I don't want to be

followed Axel out the mall, leaving Noah laying on

moment as I watch Axel's shoulder muscle move as he walked I knew

of him which was strange, the Mia from a month ago would have probably started crying is she saw what

Axel after the night at the warehouse, not after he helped me be somewhat

wonder what happened to Axel? What happened to him

how he should live his life? To where being in the streets and getting into fights or threatening people is the only way to get

knew that the whole gang leader thing was apart of him, but that wasn't

shell of his,

regret

over at him as

was bugging me and I just needed

"Do you?"

over at

I regret kissing him? "I

resorted, not knowing

looked like he was waging

I regret it, I hated

spoke, not missing

I said that what he had said didn't affect me

did hurt, I don't know

the disgusted look in eyes? It shouldn't hurt, I shouldn't care what he

"Why."

I pressed.

but I refused

my time, you are

than average and I can't

He snapped at me.

That one stung.

know you don't mean that,’ I

mean?