Mated With Five Boys

"Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character.’ - Albert Einstein 

"Sorry to interrupt but we need to go.’ Rylan's voice sounded on edge.

"Why?"

I asked, my cheeks burning with embarrassment.

"Noah's here.’ He looked up at Axel, silently having a conversation with their eyes.

"Camila's boyfriend?"

Kina asked confused.

Nobody answered Kina's question but Rylan looked down at her before looking back to Axel.

"Come on, we need to go."

Axel's voice was now hard and unattached.

Since the kiss, Axel has yet to look at me and I get the feeling he regretted kissing me.

I Know I'm not the best kisser but I didn't think it went awful, in fact, I thought it was the opposite of awful his lips were so soft and strong and the way they felt against mine was unexplainable.

I'm not sure what possessed me into letting him kiss me.

I don't understand why my skin doesn't crawl or my stomach clench when he touches me.

I'm confused by the way he looks at me, I can't tell if he likes me or hates my guts.

One minute he has me in a chokehold and the next he's kissing me, one minute he's saving my life and the next we are running away from the police.

Everything about Axel Deacon confuses the living hell out of me and I'm not sure I can handle that.

We started making our way to the nearest exit of the mall when a deep voice from behind us made us all stop dead in our tracks.

"Leaving so soon?"

His voice was cocky and crude as I remember it to be.

My heart started thumping faster and the memories started flooding back.

Axel was the first one to turn around and face him, then Rylan, followed by Kina.

I didn't want to turn around, I didn't want to face him.

"Exactly, we are."

Axel's voice was low and intimidating.

"Not on my account, I hope."

I could hear the smirk that was painted onto Noah's face.

I finally turned around to face Noah and the longer I looked at him the angrier I got.

My blood was boiling, I want nothing more than to punch him square in the nose but that probably wasn't the best choice with his 3 bodyguards standing behind him.

That's when I realized this was the first time I've seen Noah since my first day of school.

I could tell his left eye was bruised but it was almost fully healed now and he had various cuts scattered around his less than perfect face, but other than that he looked like his usual rotten self.

Remembering how helpless I felt with his hands on my body made me shaking in anger.

It scared me how much rage I was carrying with me, despite everything I was never was a violent person even though I had plenty of reason to be.

I think I was too scared to stand up for myself.

I was too scared of making things worse, I guess deep down I thought they were right, I was nothing more than a waste of space that deserved everything I got.

But something has changed, something about me has changed.

I didn't feel scared anymore, it had been replaced with a new but familiar emotion: Rage.

rage I felt when my mom left me, the same rage that left me screaming into a pillow for hours straight, the same rage

company.’ Rylan

Rylan, but they quickly

you too good friend.’ Noah

even close to friends.’ Rylan spat, practically

I didn't know about that happened between

looks in their eyes and I knew it couldn't be just because

Rylan and his

grimy face as his eyes looked

"Hello, Mia."

name coming from his mouth made me want to get sick but stood still, I

standing there staring at him with all

time the other day, I would

me, licking

that right there was enough to send me over the

have decked him tight then and

connecting with Noah's cheek echoed in the empty hallway of the

heard Kina gasp in shock at the

just took, his gang members stood there in shock for

What cowards.

Noah off the floor from the collar of his jacket and brought his face right in front of Noah's now bleeding

forgot who's in charge

Axel chuckled unamused.

black eye to match that pretty one, I suggest you make yourself invisible.’

or even look at Mia again, I will make your life a living hell’ He threatened Noah,

you going to do?

laughed, blood escaping

want the slut for yourself.’ He continued, coughing

to

steady, I even noticed the grin that started to form on his

your last

which sent

"Let's go."

snapped towards us as he walked out the sliding double doors that

over at Kina who

help but wonder: is that what I used to look like? Scared and clueless? I don't want

the mall, leaving Noah laying on the

moment as I watch Axel's shoulder muscle move as he walked I knew I saw another side of him that I could have gone my whole life without

from a month

sounds I couldn't be afraid of Axel after the night at the warehouse, not after he

help but to wonder what happened to Axel? What happened to him

he thinks this how he should live his life? To where being in

the whole gang leader thing was

it before, underneath that hard and rough shell of his, there is

regret

over at him as we got into the

bugging me and I just

"Do you?"

over

kissing him? "I

not knowing the

stared at Axel, practically on the edge of my seat waiting for his answer, it looked like he was waging a battle with himself and when

regret it, I hated

not missing

he had said didn't affect me or didn't hurt, I'd

it did hurt, I don't

that hurt? Or maybe the disgusted look in eyes? It shouldn't hurt, I shouldn't care what he thinks,

"Why."

I pressed.

knot in my throat forming but I refused

worth my time, you are an insecure little girl, who has mommy

I can't

He snapped at me.

That one stung.

mean that,’

mean?