Mated With Five Boys

"Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character.’ - Albert Einstein 

"Sorry to interrupt but we need to go.’ Rylan's voice sounded on edge.

"Why?"

I asked, my cheeks burning with embarrassment.

"Noah's here.’ He looked up at Axel, silently having a conversation with their eyes.

"Camila's boyfriend?"

Kina asked confused.

Nobody answered Kina's question but Rylan looked down at her before looking back to Axel.

"Come on, we need to go."

Axel's voice was now hard and unattached.

Since the kiss, Axel has yet to look at me and I get the feeling he regretted kissing me.

I Know I'm not the best kisser but I didn't think it went awful, in fact, I thought it was the opposite of awful his lips were so soft and strong and the way they felt against mine was unexplainable.

I'm not sure what possessed me into letting him kiss me.

I don't understand why my skin doesn't crawl or my stomach clench when he touches me.

I'm confused by the way he looks at me, I can't tell if he likes me or hates my guts.

One minute he has me in a chokehold and the next he's kissing me, one minute he's saving my life and the next we are running away from the police.

Everything about Axel Deacon confuses the living hell out of me and I'm not sure I can handle that.

We started making our way to the nearest exit of the mall when a deep voice from behind us made us all stop dead in our tracks.

"Leaving so soon?"

His voice was cocky and crude as I remember it to be.

My heart started thumping faster and the memories started flooding back.

Axel was the first one to turn around and face him, then Rylan, followed by Kina.

I didn't want to turn around, I didn't want to face him.

"Exactly, we are."

Axel's voice was low and intimidating.

"Not on my account, I hope."

I could hear the smirk that was painted onto Noah's face.

I finally turned around to face Noah and the longer I looked at him the angrier I got.

My blood was boiling, I want nothing more than to punch him square in the nose but that probably wasn't the best choice with his 3 bodyguards standing behind him.

That's when I realized this was the first time I've seen Noah since my first day of school.

I could tell his left eye was bruised but it was almost fully healed now and he had various cuts scattered around his less than perfect face, but other than that he looked like his usual rotten self.

Remembering how helpless I felt with his hands on my body made me shaking in anger.

It scared me how much rage I was carrying with me, despite everything I was never was a violent person even though I had plenty of reason to be.

I think I was too scared to stand up for myself.

I was too scared of making things worse, I guess deep down I thought they were right, I was nothing more than a waste of space that deserved everything I got.

But something has changed, something about me has changed.

I didn't feel scared anymore, it had been replaced with a new but familiar emotion: Rage.

my mom left me, the same rage that left me screaming into a pillow for hours straight, the same rage that plagued my heart with hate for so

company.’ Rylan cut

slightly at Rylan,

you too

friends.’ Rylan spat, practically

was definitely something I didn't know about

I knew it couldn't be just because what Noah

away from Rylan and his eyes

smile spread across his grimy face as his eyes looked

"Hello, Mia."

from his mouth made me want to get sick but stood still,

staring at him with all the

day, I would love

at me,

enough to send

I probably would have decked him tight then and there if

connecting with Noah's cheek echoed in the empty hallway of the

in shock at

just took, his gang members stood there in shock for

What cowards.

collar of his jacket and brought his face right in front of Noah's now bleeding

forgot who's in charge

Axel chuckled unamused.

another black eye to match that pretty one, I

talk too, touch, or even look at Mia again, I will make your

are you going

laughed, blood escaping his

the slut for yourself.’

to wish I'd

I even noticed

is your last

go of Noah's collar which sent him falling back

"Let's go."

us as he walked out the sliding double doors that

looked over at Kina who

to look like? Scared and clueless? I don't want

the mall, leaving Noah

he walked I knew I saw another side of

him which was strange, the Mia from a month ago would have probably started crying is she

of Axel after the night at the warehouse, not

but to wonder what happened to Axel?

he should live his life? To where being

gang leader thing was apart of him, but that wasn't all to

underneath that hard and rough shell of his,

you regret kissing

over at him as we got

and I just needed to know the

"Do you?"

looked over

kissing him? "I asked you

not

he was waging a battle with himself and when his face went blank, I knew which side

I regret it, I

spoke, not missing

said didn't affect me

I don't

that hurt? Or maybe the disgusted look in eyes? It shouldn't hurt, I shouldn't care what he

"Why."

I pressed.

could feel the knot in my throat forming but

my time, you are an insecure little girl, who

than average and I

He snapped at me.

That one stung.

know you don't mean that,’

do you mean?