Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the rough

answer I was

Axel stops walking and I run right into his back

budge any, he was like a

saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher

that was only

thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away

I think Axel noticed because

own fear, this was way worse than being

sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained to

at the sky

the ledge and forced

front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly

be at least a million stars shining above me, the

breathtaking, I've never seen so

it's hard to really star gaze with all city

that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought

muttered, staring at

whispered, lost in the balls

for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

you to tell me

I finished.

from his hands to look

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked, trying to lighten

gave me a look and

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed

pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my parents

first house with a

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens

are fuzzy because no one really talked

story short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and unclenching

don't have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt

him relive the pain he felt growing

her death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like God betrayed

me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me

premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she

wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she

swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his

would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was just too

taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and wouldn't listen to

He shook his head.

kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit

since Axel started talking about his

my

arms around

say to make him feel better so I just hugged him

was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together

kinda suffocating

tried peeling

mumbled, instantly backing

did enjoy your body on

to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer is

nodded my head agreeing

what color your skin is,

her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking

dad left us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us friends

teasingly, looking over

with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

silence, my eyes wandered back to the

Camila flooded

Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized my

the only one who could do something about

probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

a breath feeling nervous all over

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’

didn't you

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone