Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in

not exactly the answer I was

walking and I run right into his back from the

any, he was like a

that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than

ledge that was only

slightly, keeping a good distance away from the

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told me

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained to

at the sky Angel,’ Axel

away from the ledge

at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and

a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting

never seen

really star gaze with all city lights but here, in

you use to go outside with your mom and

staring at

loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of

sorry, for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

over

you to tell

I finished.

nodded his head looking up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked,

just gave me a look and

birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

told me before I was born my parents had

boughten their first house with a baby boy on the

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens

are fuzzy because no one really talked about her

but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching

I whispered, I

don't want to make him relive the pain he

turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

but I think it was more of the fact every time he

came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got

wasn't for his girlfriend at the time,

wasted and come home swinging pretty much

running away multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I

third hospital visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred

He shook his head.

eleven when I walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship

time since Axel started talking about his

were watery and my

around him, pulling my body close to

knew there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I

I could put his broken pieces

kinda suffocating me,

tried peeling

I mumbled, instantly backing away

did enjoy your body on

winked causing me to roll my

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is

nodded my head agreeing

color your skin is, your choice in religion,

stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional

us before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

looking over at

me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed

flooded

I rushed out and instantly realized

the only one who could do something

have probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

nervous all over again, the sinking was

"He hit her Axel,"

my

bruises on

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life if