Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the

the answer I was looking for’

walking and I run right into his back from the untimely

he didn't budge any, he

looked around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the

snapped to the ledge that was only a few

looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away from

was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told me to

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass

hand, sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained to look

the sky Angel,’ Axel said

tore my eyes away from the ledge and forced them

front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed

to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting

never seen

with all city lights but here, in

read that you use to go outside with your mom and

muttered, staring at

here; I whispered, lost

everything.’ He spoke, looking down at

wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over

want you

I finished.

head looking up from his hands to look straight

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to

just gave me a look

birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my

church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy

something happens to her, causing a

talked about

save her: I watched his jaw

whispered, I knew how it

want to make him relive the pain he

her death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

the devil, but I think it was

was in the hospital for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself

his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths

that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed

I started fighting back.I would punch, kick,

put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and

He shook his head.

break

first time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked

my heart shattered to

around him, pulling my

feel better so

could put his

kinda suffocating

tried peeling himself

mumbled, instantly

enjoy your body

to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel

my head agreeing with

you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the

medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking

dad left us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

looking over at

He gave me a dirty

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

eyes wandered

Camila flooded my thoughts

I rushed out and instantly

only one who could do something

would have probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

breath feeling nervous all over again, the

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang