Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in

exactly the answer I was looking for’ I

Axel stops walking and I run right into his back from the

he didn't budge any, he was like a cement

saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the

that was only a few

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good

think Axel noticed because

own fear, this was way worse than being

on my hand, sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained to

at the sky Angel,’ Axel

the

of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed

a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting

I've never seen so many

really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it

with your mom and look at the stars, I

muttered, staring at

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

want you

I finished.

looking up from his hands to look

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked,

gave me a

Axel

gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born

they even had just boughten their first house

pregnancy something happens to her,

really talked about her it was like she

short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and

I whispered, I knew how

want to make him relive the

turned to drugs and alcohol,

couldn't look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was reminded

premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford taking care

his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths when I

come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I

just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was just

I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like

He shook his head.

Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with

first time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked

were watery and my heart shattered to

found myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling my

say to make him feel better so I

I was lucky I could put his

suffocating

peeling

mumbled, instantly backing

did enjoy your

winked causing me to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

nodded my head agreeing

are young or old, what color your skin is,

stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained,

left us before I was born; I told

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us friends

teasingly, looking over at

me a dirty look but I

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered back to the

Camila flooded my thoughts

to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized my

the only one who could do something

have probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a weird

breath feeling nervous all over again,

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’ I told

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang got