Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly

answer I was

and I run right into his back from the

didn't budge any, he was

around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few

looking down slightly, keeping a good distance

and I think Axel noticed because

way worse than being on that glass

yanked gently on my hand, sending me

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained to

sky Angel,’ Axel

from the ledge

my stomach

had to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting the

was breathtaking, I've never seen so many

all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like pure

mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like this

staring

I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down

you did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

over

still want you to tell

I finished.

his hands to look

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

gave me a look and sighed

birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

what people have told

even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the way’

into my mom's pregnancy something happens to

no one really talked

they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching

whispered, I knew how it felt

him relive the

turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he

and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she

living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at

to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife,

just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I

I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that

He shook his head.

to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does to this

time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up

and my

my arms around him, pulling my body close

I could say to make him feel better so

I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and maybe mine

suffocating me,

tried peeling

mumbled, instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body

winked causing me to

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is

my head agreeing with

old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that

body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as

my dad left us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us friends

looking

He gave me a dirty look but I heard the

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered back to the sky,

Camila flooded my

Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized

one who could do something about

probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a

nervous all over

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

the bruises on her

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

life if anyone from