Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in

not exactly the answer I

walking and I run right

he didn't budge any, he was

taken me to another clearing,

the ledge that was only

down slightly, keeping a good

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told

this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in

gently on my hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only

the sky Angel,’ Axel

the ledge and forced them to

of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed

million stars shining above me, the constellations painting the night

seen

city

that you use to go outside with your mom and look at

muttered, staring at

here; I whispered, lost in

everything.’ He spoke, looking down

did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you

I finished.

head looking up from his hands to look

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten

gave me a

mother died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed

told me before

just boughten their first house with a baby boy on

mom's pregnancy something happens to

are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it

save her:

me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt

want to make him relive the pain he

turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like God

of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked

months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford

father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me

start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every

back, so I started fighting back.I would

I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses

He shook his head.

her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She

started talking about his past he

were watery and my heart shattered

around him, pulling my

say to make him feel

was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together

kinda suffocating me,

peeling

I mumbled, instantly backing away

your body on mine

winked causing me to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

cancer

nodded my head

your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that

the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking about my

dad left us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us

smiled teasingly, looking over at

Never.’ He gave me a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed

when Camila flooded my thoughts

to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly

only one who could do something about

have probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’

didn't you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life