Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly

not exactly the answer I was looking for’ I

stops walking and I run right into his back

course, he didn't budge any,

he had taken me to another clearing,

snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet

looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away from the

think Axel

my own fear, this was way worse than being

on my hand, sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained

the sky Angel,’ Axel

away from the ledge and forced them to

me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed

million stars shining above me, the constellations painting the night

view was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in

York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of

read that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like this

staring

loved it here; I whispered,

everything.’ He spoke, looking down

wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

over at

want you to tell me

I finished.

up from his hands to look straight passed the

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked, trying to

gave me a look and

birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

what I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born

boughten their first house with

pregnancy something happens to

fuzzy because no one really talked about her it

story short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching

me any more,’’ I whispered,

him relive the pain

turned to drugs and alcohol, he

the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he

sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with

girlfriend at the time, she would feed

swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed

right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch,

was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started

He shook his head.

break her, make her

first time since Axel started talking about

eyes were watery and my heart shattered to a

around him, pulling my body close to

feel better so I just hugged him as

I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back

kinda suffocating me,

peeling himself

mumbled, instantly

did enjoy your body on mine

causing me to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

cancer

head agreeing with

you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that

to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking

before I was

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us friends

looking over

with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm in

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by

flooded

Camila.’ I rushed out

only one who could

would have probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a weird

a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

saw the bruises on her

didn't you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life