Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly

answer I was looking for’ I said

right into his back from

course, he didn't budge any, he was like

looked around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than

the ledge that was only a few feet away from

looking down slightly, keeping a good

I think Axel noticed because he told

fear, this was way worse than being on that glass

gently on my hand, sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained to

the sky Angel,’ Axel said

from the ledge and forced them

at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed

a million stars

I've never seen so many stars in my

in New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights

that you use to go outside with your mom and look

muttered, staring

would have loved it here; I whispered,

you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down

you did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

still want you

I finished.

nodded his head looking up from his hands to look

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked, trying to lighten

a look and sighed

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight forward

people have told

promising careers, they even had just boughten their first

into my mom's pregnancy something happens to

details are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it

save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and

more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

make him relive the pain he felt growing

her death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like God

devil, but I think it

was in the hospital for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when

his girlfriend at the time, she would

wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I

but police would just bring me right back, so I started

from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses

He shook his head.

I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another

since Axel started talking about his past he

eyes were watery and my heart shattered to

found myself wrapping my arms around

make him feel better so I just

was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and maybe mine

suffocating

tried peeling

I mumbled, instantly backing

enjoy your body on

causing me to

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer is unforgiving”

head

skin is, your choice in religion,

explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did

dad left us before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us

looking over

a dirty

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered back to the sky,

Camila flooded my

got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly

only one who could do something about

have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger than

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

saw the bruises on her

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your