Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the rough

answer I was looking for’ I

walking and I run right

course, he didn't budge any, he was like

saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the

eyes automatically snapped to the ledge that

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping a

think Axel noticed

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway

gently on my hand, sending

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained to

sky Angel,’

eyes away from the ledge and forced them to

stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was

to be at least a million stars shining above me, the

view was breathtaking, I've never seen

in New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of

mom and look at the stars,

muttered, staring

I whispered, lost in the

He spoke, looking down at

you did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

want you

I finished.

from his hands to look straight passed the

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked, trying to lighten

just gave me a look and

birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows,

from what people have told me before I was born my parents had

church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing

one really talked about her

but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started

me any more,’’ I whispered, I

him relive the

my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

but I think it was more of the fact every time he

and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford

living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would

would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would

multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch

was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses

He shook his head.

were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off

Axel started talking about his past

my

found myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body close

could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as

I could put his broken pieces back together and maybe mine

kinda suffocating me,

tried peeling

instantly backing away

your body on mine

to roll

Stupid Axel.

cancer is unforgiving”

head agreeing

if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion,

reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I

left us before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us

looking over at

me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm in

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered

when Camila flooded

help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized my

only one who could do

probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

all over again, the sinking was back and

"He hit her Axel,"

my

bruises on her yesterday,’ I told

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

her with Angelo’s life if anyone from