Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in

not exactly the answer I was looking

I run right

he didn't budge any, he was

looked around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than

that

looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away

I think Axel

my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway

on my hand, sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained to

at the sky Angel,’ Axel said

tore my eyes away from the ledge and forced them to

of me, my stomach dropping fear

stars shining above

I've never seen

gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle

you use to go outside with your mom and look at the

muttered, staring at

loved it here; I whispered,

He spoke, looking down at

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you to tell me

I finished.

up from his hands to look straight passed the

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked, trying to

a look

to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I

even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the way’

mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing a

because no one really talked

but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching

don't have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose

don't want to make him relive the

to drugs and alcohol, he felt like God

look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he

premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when

it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed

would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a

but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever

the third hospital visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was

He shook his head.

eleven when I walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does to

the first time since Axel started talking about

watery and my heart shattered to a thousand

my arms around him,

wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged

I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and

kinda suffocating me,

tried peeling

I mumbled, instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body on

winked causing me to roll

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is

nodded my head agreeing with

or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people

explained, surprisingly not

dad left us before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us friends

smiled teasingly, looking over at

you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

comfortable silence, my eyes wandered

when Camila flooded

got to help Camila.’ I rushed

the only one who could

would have probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

nervous all over again, the sinking was back

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

on her

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

life if anyone from your gang got