Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the

I was looking

right into

he didn't budge any, he was like

me to another clearing, a

to the ledge that was only

slightly, keeping a

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed

own fear, this was way worse than being on that

on my hand, sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only

at the sky Angel,’ Axel said

away from the ledge and forced them to

sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed

be at least a million stars shining above me,

was breathtaking, I've never seen so

all city lights

mom and look

muttered, staring at

whispered, lost in

He spoke, looking down at his

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over

want you to tell me

I finished.

from his hands

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked,

gave me a look and

birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

from what people have told me before I was

just boughten their first house with a

my mom's pregnancy something

one really talked about her it

saved me but couldn't save her: I watched

have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew

relive the pain he felt

to drugs and alcohol, he felt

look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked

only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got

I was stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend

get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at

police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was just

eight.I was in and out

He shook his head.

tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit

talking about his past he finally looked up

and my heart shattered to

my arms around him, pulling my body close to

to make him feel better so I just hugged him as

I could put his broken pieces back together

suffocating

tried peeling himself

mumbled, instantly

did enjoy your body

me to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

head agreeing

are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you

4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking

dad left us before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us friends

smiled teasingly, looking

gave me a

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed

when Camila flooded

help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized my

only one who

would have probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

all over again,

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

on her yesterday,’ I

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

her with Angelo’s life if