Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the

answer I was looking for’ I said

Axel stops walking and I run right into his back

didn't budge any, he was

me to another clearing, a little

eyes automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet

thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away from

labored and I think Axel

was way worse than being on that glass

on my hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained

the sky Angel,’ Axel said

my eyes away from the ledge and forced

my stomach dropping fear suddenly

had to be at least a million stars

view was breathtaking, I've never seen so many

New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city

with your mom

muttered, staring at

I whispered, lost in

He

did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

over

want you to tell me

I finished.

his head looking up from his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked, trying

a look and

Axel

told me before I was born my

morning church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a

pregnancy something happens to her, causing a

are fuzzy because no one really talked about her

saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and

me any more,’’ I whispered, I

make him relive the pain

father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like God

of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he

see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five

stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed

would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream

time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was just

around eight.I was

He shook his head.

Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does

Axel started talking about his past

my

wrapping my arms around him,

knew there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged

If I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together

kinda suffocating me,

tried peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly

did enjoy your body on

winked causing me to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

nodded my head

young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the

4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained,

dad left us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make

looking over

you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

comfortable silence, my eyes wandered

flooded my

Camila.’ I rushed

was the only one who

probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a weird

breath feeling nervous all over again, the

"He hit her Axel,"

my

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’ I told

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone