Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in the

the answer I was

I run right into his back from

didn't budge any, he was like a

he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the

that was only a few feet

slightly, keeping a good distance away from

think Axel

was way

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to the

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained

at the sky Angel,’ Axel

from the ledge and forced them to look

at the sight in front of me, my stomach

least a million stars shining

I've never seen so

to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was

that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like

staring at

have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the

everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

still want you to tell

I finished.

his head looking up from his hands to look straight passed the

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked, trying to

me a look

to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight forward

people have told me before I was

they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her,

because no one really talked about her

save her: I watched his jaw started clenching

to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it

want to make him relive the pain he

drugs and alcohol, he felt

the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at

to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford taking care

for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give

wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I

multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was

foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out

He shook his head.

I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does to

talking about his past he finally

were watery and my heart shattered to a

found myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body close to

make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard as I

put his broken

kinda suffocating

tried peeling

I mumbled, instantly backing away

enjoy your body on

winked causing me to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

nodded my head

care if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the

leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not

before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us friends

smiled teasingly, looking over

He gave me a

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to

flooded my

I rushed

was the only one who could do

probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

let out a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

the bruises on

you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang got