Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the rough

not exactly the answer I was looking for’

walking and I run right

course, he didn't budge any, he was like

around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the bonfire

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet away

down slightly, keeping a good distance away from

I think Axel noticed because he told me to

was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass

gently on my hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained

sky

my eyes away from the ledge and forced them to

front of me, my stomach dropping

had to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting the night

seen so many stars in my

it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle

read that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like

muttered, staring at

have loved it here; I whispered, lost in

everything.’ He spoke, looking down

you did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

you

I finished.

head looking up from his hands to look straight passed the

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten

a look

birth to me.’ Axel

people have told me before I was born my parents

even had just boughten their first

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her,

no one really talked about her it was like she

her: I watched his jaw started clenching and unclenching

tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew

him relive the pain

turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like God

couldn't look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more

sister, was there everyday and she told

his girlfriend

I was old enough to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I

bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and

around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred

He shook his head.

when I walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still

the first time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up

my heart shattered to

found myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling my

wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him

put his broken pieces back together

kinda suffocating me,

tried peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly

enjoy your body on

to roll my

Stupid Axel.

cancer is unforgiving”

nodded my head agreeing with

doesn't care if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the

explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking

my dad left us before I was born; I told

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make

looking over at

gave me a

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky,

when Camila flooded my thoughts

you got to help Camila.’ I rushed

only one who could do something

would have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

on

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life if anyone from