Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the

I was looking for’ I said

Axel stops walking and I run right into

course, he didn't budge any, he was like a cement

me to another clearing, a little

eyes automatically snapped to the ledge that was only

down slightly, keeping a good

and I think Axel noticed because he told

my own fear, this was way worse

sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained to look

at the sky Angel,’

tore my eyes away from the ledge and forced

me, my stomach dropping

at least a million stars shining

breathtaking, I've never seen

really star gaze with all city lights but

that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like

staring

here; I whispered, lost

you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

over

want you to tell

I finished.

looking up from his hands to look straight passed

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked,

gave me a look and sighed

birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows,

and from what people have told me

first house with a baby boy on the way’ Axel

into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing

no one really talked about her it was like she never

her: I watched

have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how

to make him relive the pain he felt

my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt

the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact

sister, was there everyday and she told me

dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would

that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed

so I started

and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and wouldn't

He shook his head.

her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to

the first time since Axel started talking about his past

watery and my heart shattered to a

around him, pulling my

could say to make him feel

If I was lucky I could put his broken

suffocating me,

peeling

instantly

your body on

winked causing me to

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is

my head agreeing

care if you are young or old, what color your skin is,

her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as

us before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

looking

gave me a dirty look but I heard the

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered back to the sky, still

flooded my thoughts

Camila.’ I rushed

the only one who

have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger than

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

on her yesterday,’ I

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

her with Angelo’s life if anyone from