Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in

exactly the answer I

Axel stops walking and I run right into his back from

didn't budge any,

saw that he had taken me to another

snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet

down slightly, keeping a good distance

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told

I was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only

at the sky Angel,’ Axel

from the ledge and forced them to

stomach dropping fear suddenly

least a million stars

was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in

gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it

with your mom and look at

muttered, staring

here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

you did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

want you

I finished.

up from his hands to look straight passed

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked, trying to

gave me a look and sighed

giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows,

and from what people have told me before

boughten their first house with a baby boy on the way’ Axel

my mom's pregnancy something happens

talked about

they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched

tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it

to make him relive the

my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like God betrayed

product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time

mother's sister, was there everyday and she

my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths when I really needed

beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster,

right back, so I started fighting back.I would

foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like

He shook his head.

treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still

time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up to

and my

wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body close to

wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as

I was lucky I could put his broken

kinda suffocating me,

peeling himself

instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body

to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

head agreeing with

skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you

stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually

us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us

smiled teasingly, looking over

with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered

when Camila flooded

to help Camila.’ I rushed

one who could do

probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a weird

breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was

"He hit her Axel,"

my

bruises on

you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life