Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly

answer I was looking

Axel stops walking and I run right into his back from

didn't budge any, he was like

he had taken me to another clearing,

to the ledge that was

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away

I think Axel noticed because

this was way worse than being on that

gently on my hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only trained

at the sky Angel,’

away from the ledge and forced them to look

my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away

a million stars shining above me, the constellations

I've never seen so many stars

New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city

that you use to go outside with your mom and look

staring

loved it here; I whispered, lost in the

you know, everything.’ He spoke,

wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you to

I finished.

from his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked, trying to

me a look

mother died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows,

from what people have told me before I was born

even had just boughten their first house with

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing a

one really talked about her it was

story short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched

any more,’’ I whispered, I knew

want to make him relive the pain he

father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

but I think it was more of the

once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until

I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give

would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I didn't deserve

multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch

away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses

He shook his head.

break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never

about his past he finally

were watery and my heart shattered to a

arms around him, pulling my body

to make him feel better so

his broken pieces back

suffocating me,

peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body

causing me to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is

my head agreeing with

is,

leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as

left us before I was

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make

teasingly, looking

you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

eyes wandered back to

Camila flooded my

you got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized my

only one who could do

would have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

on her

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life