Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in

I

I run right into

budge any, he was

to another clearing, a little higher than where

to the ledge that was only a few feet away

thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away from

Axel

I was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being

on my hand, sending me to the

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained

sky Angel,’ Axel said

tore my eyes away from the ledge and forced them to

gaped at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away

stars shining above me, the

was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in my

city lights but here, in

to go outside with your mom and look

muttered, staring

have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the

you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over

still want you to tell me

I finished.

from his hands to look straight passed the

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked, trying to

a look and

birth to me.’ Axel furrowed

told me before I was

church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the way’ Axel laughed

pregnancy something happens to her, causing

because no one really talked about her it was like she

short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching

me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

make him relive the

drugs and

I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he

for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I

was stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and

would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much

police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick,

taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses

He shook his head.

tried to break her, make her

time since Axel started talking about his

and my heart shattered to a

found myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body

make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard as

his broken pieces back together

suffocating

peeling

instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body on

winked causing me to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer

my head agreeing

or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion,

leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not

us before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make

teasingly, looking over

Be friends with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the

flooded my thoughts

got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly

one who could do

probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger

"He hit her Axel,"

my

bruises on her

you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

life