Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in

not exactly the answer I was looking

I run right into his

any, he was

around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing,

that

looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away from

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed because

I was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than

sending

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only

sky Angel,’ Axel

tore my eyes away from the ledge and forced

at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away

had to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations

I've never seen so many stars in my

all city lights but here,

you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like

staring

whispered,

know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

over at

still want you to tell

I finished.

nodded his head looking up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to

me a look and sighed

to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

and from what people have told me before I was

even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy

mom's pregnancy something happens

one really talked about her it was like she never

her: I watched

any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it

to make him relive

my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like God

seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was reminded

my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was

it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give

would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I didn't deserve to

right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch

put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was

He shook his head.

when I walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does to

Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up

were watery and my heart shattered to a

found myself wrapping my arms around him,

him feel better so I just hugged

put his broken pieces back together and maybe mine

kinda suffocating me,

tried peeling

instantly

enjoy your body on mine

winked causing me to roll

Stupid Axel.

cancer is unforgiving” Axel

head agreeing with

your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need

I explained, surprisingly not feeling

my dad left us before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us friends

teasingly, looking

a dirty look but I heard the

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

sat in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky,

Camila flooded my thoughts

Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly

only one who

would have probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

nervous all over again, the sinking was back and

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

didn't you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

life if anyone from your gang got