Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the

I was

walking and I run right into his back from the

course, he didn't budge any, he was

me to another

that was only a few feet away

looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away

I think Axel noticed because

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in the

hand, sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained to

the sky Angel,’ Axel said

the ledge and forced them to

of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly

stars shining above me, the constellations

view was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars

star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like

to go outside with your mom and look at the

muttered, staring at

I whispered, lost in

He spoke,

did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

want you to tell me

I finished.

looking up from his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

a look and

me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

have told me

careers, they even had just boughten their first house with

pregnancy something happens to her, causing

because no one really talked about her it was like she

couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started

I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose

him relive the

death, my father turned to drugs and

at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of

me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I

living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me

beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at

time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick,

him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was

He shook his head.

kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does

started talking about his past he finally

eyes were watery and my

arms around him, pulling my body close

there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel

was lucky I could put his broken

suffocating

peeling himself

mumbled, instantly

enjoy your

to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

about your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

head

if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that

stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly

my dad left us before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us

looking over at

you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back

flooded my thoughts

got to help Camila.’ I rushed out

he was the only one

would have probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

let out a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

bruises on her

didn't you

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life if