Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in

not exactly the answer I was looking for’ I

right into his back from

budge any, he was like

had taken me to

snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet away

slightly, keeping a good distance away from

think Axel noticed because he

own fear, this was way worse than

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained to

at the sky Angel,’

my eyes away from the ledge

the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear

a million stars shining

never seen so

to really star gaze with all city lights

with your mom and look at the stars, I

muttered, staring

I whispered, lost in the balls of

for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at

did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

want you

I finished.

head looking up from his hands to look

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

just gave me a

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed

have told me

careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing a

fuzzy because no one really talked about her it was like

saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started

I whispered, I

don't want to make him relive

her death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

but I think it was more of the fact

my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I

girlfriend at the time, she

beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would

bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but

away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt

He shook his head.

to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still

Axel started talking about his past he

watery and my heart shattered to a

around him, pulling my body close

could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him

his broken

suffocating me,

peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly

enjoy your

to roll my

Stupid Axel.

about your mom, cancer is

head agreeing with

color your skin is, your

to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as

us before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

smiled teasingly, looking

you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

eyes wandered back to the sky,

flooded my thoughts

I

only one who could do something about

have probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

nervous all over again, the sinking

"He hit her Axel,"

my

on

didn't you

Axel yelled, standing up.

life if anyone from your gang