Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in

not exactly the answer I was

run right into his back from the untimely

didn't budge any, he was like a

had taken me to another

that was

looking down slightly, keeping a good

and I think Axel noticed because he told me

fear, this was way

gently on my hand, sending me

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained to look

sky Angel,’ Axel said

my eyes away from the ledge and forced them to

my stomach dropping fear

stars shining

view was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in my

really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the

use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I

muttered, staring

it here; I whispered, lost in the

know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at

did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

want you to

I finished.

from his hands to look straight

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked,

me a look

birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight forward

people have told me before

church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby

into my mom's pregnancy something

are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it was like she never

couldn't save her: I watched

any more,’’ I whispered, I knew

relive the pain he felt

father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he

premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't

wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me

get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I didn't deserve

back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could,

think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like

He shook his head.

were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break

time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up

and my heart shattered

arms around him, pulling my

anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard

put his broken pieces back

kinda suffocating

tried peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing

enjoy your body on

me to roll my

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is

head

what color your skin is, your choice in

stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking about my

my dad left us before I was born; I told

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us friends

teasingly, looking over

me a dirty look but I heard

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by

flooded my

you got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized my

only one who

would have probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

out a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was

"He hit her Axel,"

my

bruises on her yesterday,’ I told

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

her with Angelo’s life