Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the

I was looking for’ I said

I run right

any, he was

he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a

slightly, keeping a good

labored and I think Axel noticed

was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on

my hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only

at the sky Angel,’

away from the ledge and forced them

in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced with

to be at least a million stars shining

never seen so many

York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like

to go outside with your mom

muttered, staring

whispered, lost in the balls

for you know, everything.’ He spoke,

wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

over at

still want you to

I finished.

nodded his head looking up from his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten

just gave me a look and

to me.’ Axel furrowed his

what people have told me before I was born my parents had the picture-perfect

just boughten their first house with a baby boy

into my mom's pregnancy something happens

really talked

couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching

to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to

make him relive the

turned to drugs and alcohol, he

couldn't look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of

3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me

I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would

when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every

tried running away multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and

away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses

He shook his head.

her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and

time since Axel started talking about

and my

arms around him, pulling my body close to

I could say to make him feel better so

his broken pieces back together and maybe mine

suffocating me,

tried peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing away

your body

causing me to roll

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

my head

is, your choice in religion, or the people that need

had stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually

my dad left us before I was born; I told

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us

looking over at

you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by the

Camila flooded my thoughts

Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly

only one

probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a weird

all over again, the sinking

"He hit her Axel,"

my

the bruises on her yesterday,’ I told

didn't you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

life if anyone