Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in

exactly the answer I

Axel stops walking and I run right into his back from the

he didn't budge any,

that he had taken me to

snapped to the ledge that

slightly, keeping a good distance away from the

Axel noticed because he told

way worse than being on that glass

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only trained to look

the sky Angel,’ Axel

tore my eyes away from the ledge and forced them to

stomach dropping fear

stars shining above me, the constellations painting the night

view was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in my

hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the

go outside with your mom and

staring at

it here; I whispered, lost in

everything.’ He spoke, looking down

did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

want you to

I finished.

looking up from his hands to look straight

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying

me a look and

to me.’ Axel furrowed his

what I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my parents

first house with a baby boy on the way’ Axel

something happens to her, causing

details are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it was like she never

couldn't save her: I

have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

to make him relive the pain

father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was

aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with

stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time,

wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream

I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch

I was around eight.I

He shook his head.

life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with

the first time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up to

my

wrapping my arms around him, pulling

to make him feel better so I

I could put his broken pieces back together and

suffocating me,

tried peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing

your

causing me to

Stupid Axel.

cancer is unforgiving” Axel

nodded my head agreeing with

or old, what color your skin is, your

the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually

left us before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us friends

smiled teasingly, looking over at

Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered back to

flooded my thoughts

help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized

he was the only one who could do something

probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

out a breath feeling nervous all over again,

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

the bruises on

didn't you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

life