Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly

answer I was looking for’ I said

walking and I run right into his back from the

didn't budge any, he was like

saw that he had taken me to

the ledge that was only

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping a

Axel noticed because

my own fear, this was way

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained

sky

from the ledge and forced

me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly

to be at least a million stars shining above me, the

never seen so many stars in my

with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it

outside with your mom and look at

muttered, staring at

here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

He spoke, looking down

you did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

want you to

I finished.

up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked, trying to lighten the

a look and sighed

Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

what people have told me before I was born

just boughten their first house with a baby

into my mom's pregnancy something happens to

details are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it was

her: I

any more,’’ I whispered, I

don't want to make him relive the pain

drugs and alcohol, he felt like

at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he

once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my

stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes

began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that

right back, so I started fighting back.I

from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that

He shook his head.

break her, make

the first time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up to

were watery and my heart shattered to

wrapping my arms around him,

feel better so I just hugged him as

lucky I could put his broken pieces

kinda suffocating me,

peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly

did enjoy your

me to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer

my head agreeing

what color your skin is, your choice in

stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did

my dad left us before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us

looking

gave me a

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

sat in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by

Camila flooded

Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized my

he was the only one who could do something

probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

out a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger than

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

bruises on her yesterday,’

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang