Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the rough

the answer I was

Axel stops walking and I run right into his

didn't budge any, he was like

had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the

eyes automatically snapped to the ledge that

keeping a good distance away from the

was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told me to

my own fear, this was way worse

sending

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained

the sky Angel,’ Axel

my eyes away from the ledge and forced them

front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly

to be at least a million stars

never seen so many

in New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle

use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought

muttered, staring at

here; I whispered, lost in

for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

you to tell me

I finished.

his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked, trying to

me a look and sighed

died giving birth to me.’ Axel

gather from pictures and from what people have told

careers, they even had just boughten their first house with

into my mom's pregnancy something happens

are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it was

saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw

don't have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered,

relive the pain he felt growing

her death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt

seeing the product of the devil, but I think it

he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I

dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at

enough to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much

time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick,

from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like

He shook his head.

kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does to

time since Axel started talking about his past he

were watery and my heart shattered to a

my arms around him, pulling my

there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as

If I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back

suffocating me,

tried peeling

I mumbled, instantly backing

did enjoy your body on

me to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

cancer

head agreeing

is, your choice in religion, or the people that need

I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did

us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

teasingly, looking over

me a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered back to the sky, still

flooded my

to help Camila.’ I rushed

was the only one who could

have probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a weird

breath feeling nervous all over again,

"He hit her Axel,"

my

bruises on her

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone