Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the rough

the answer I was looking for’ I said

stops walking and I run right

budge any, he

that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where

to the ledge that was only a few feet

slightly, keeping a good distance away from the

think Axel noticed because he told me to

was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in

on my hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only trained to look

at the sky

eyes away from the ledge and forced

my stomach dropping

had to be at least a million stars shining above

breathtaking, I've never seen so many

in New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was

to go outside with your mom and look

muttered, staring

I whispered, lost in

He spoke, looking

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you to tell me

I finished.

looking up from his hands

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

a look

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

told me

had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the way’ Axel laughed

something happens

talked about her it

but couldn't save her:

any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose

want to make him relive the pain

drugs and alcohol, he felt like God betrayed

the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was reminded of

my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until

be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me

and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife,

so I started

him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started

He shook his head.

Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit

talking about his past he

my heart shattered to a thousand

found myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling

I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him

put his broken pieces back together and

kinda suffocating

tried peeling

instantly

your body on

winked causing me to

Stupid Axel.

cancer is

my head

care if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people

I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as

left us before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us

looking over at

a dirty

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

sat in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back

when Camila flooded

to help Camila.’ I

the only one who could do something

would have probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a

over again, the sinking was back and stronger than

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

the bruises on her

didn't you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone from your