Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the

not exactly the answer I was

and I run right into

budge any, he

and saw that he had taken me to

ledge that was only a few feet away

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away from the

and I think Axel noticed because

in my own fear, this was way worse than being on

on my hand, sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only

sky Angel,’ Axel said

the ledge and forced them to look

sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear

had to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting the night

never seen so many stars

York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like

outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought

muttered, staring

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

for you know, everything.’ He

you did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

over

want you to tell

I finished.

from his hands to look straight

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked, trying to

a look

birth to me.’ Axel

have told

careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a

into my mom's pregnancy something

one really talked about her

saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his

me any more,’’ I whispered, I

make him relive the pain

my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like God betrayed

product of the devil, but I think it was more of

me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there

be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend

and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster,

me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite,

the third hospital visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I

He shook his head.

I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does to this

first time since Axel started talking about his past

were watery and my heart

found myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body

I could say to make him feel better so

If I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back

suffocating me,

tried peeling

I mumbled, instantly backing away

enjoy your body

causing me to

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer

head agreeing

skin is, your choice

to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not

left us before I was

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make

looking over at

you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered back

flooded

Camila.’ I

he was the only one who could

probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

all over again, the sinking was back and stronger

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life if anyone from your