Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the

I was

walking and I run right into his back from the

budge any, he was like a

that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the bonfire

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only

down slightly, keeping

labored and I think Axel noticed because he told me

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass

hand, sending me

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only

sky Angel,’

the ledge and forced them to look

my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced

million stars shining above me,

breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars

star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like

go outside with your mom and look

muttered, staring at

here; I whispered, lost in

He

did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over at

want you to

I finished.

from his hands to look

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked, trying

me a

mother died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my parents had the picture-perfect

first house with

my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing

no one really talked about

story short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching

don't have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it

don't want to make him relive the

drugs and

seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of

sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five

I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths when I really needed

home swinging pretty much every night.He

back, so I started fighting back.I would

third hospital visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and wouldn't listen to

He shook his head.

to break her, make her

time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked

and my

my arms around him, pulling my body close to

to make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard as

put his broken

suffocating

peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body on mine

winked causing me to

Stupid Axel.

cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

my head agreeing with

is, your choice

stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I

dad left us before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make

teasingly, looking

Be friends with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

sat in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the

Camila flooded my

got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly

only one who could

probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

on her

you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

life