Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the rough

not exactly the answer I was looking for’

right into his back from

didn't budge any, he

taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where

to the ledge that was only a few feet

looking down slightly, keeping

and I think Axel noticed because he told me

own fear, this was way worse

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained to look

sky Angel,’ Axel said

tore my eyes away from the ledge and

sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced with

be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting the night

I've never seen so many stars in my

to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in

outside with your mom and look at the stars, I

staring at

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost

for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over at

you

I finished.

looking up from his hands to look straight passed

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked, trying to lighten the

gave me a look and

giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed

gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my

their first house with a

into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing

no one really talked

but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw

me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew

to make him relive the pain he felt growing

father turned to drugs and alcohol, he

I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was

3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't

stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths

when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed

me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I

from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I

He shook his head.

I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another

time since Axel started talking about his

eyes were watery and my

arms around

anything I could say to make him feel

was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and

suffocating me,

tried peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing away from

your body on

winked causing me to

Stupid Axel.

cancer is unforgiving”

my head agreeing with

your skin is, your choice in religion, or the

her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained,

my dad left us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make

teasingly, looking

a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed

when Camila flooded

Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized

he was the only one who could do something about

have probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a weird

all over again,

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

saw the bruises on her

didn't you

Axel yelled, standing up.

her with Angelo’s life if