Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the

I was looking for’

I run right into

he didn't budge any, he was like a

that he had taken me to another clearing,

ledge that was

down slightly, keeping a good distance away from the

was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told me

in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that

sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained to

the sky Angel,’

tore my eyes away from the ledge and

my stomach dropping

to be at least a million stars shining above me,

breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in

York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but

read that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars,

staring

whispered, lost in the

for you know, everything.’ He spoke,

wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

over at

want you

I finished.

his head looking up from his hands to look straight passed

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked,

me a look

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed

people have told me before

boughten their first house with a baby boy on the way’ Axel

my mom's pregnancy something happens to her,

really talked about her it was like she

save her: I

more,’’ I whispered, I knew how

relive the pain he felt

father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt

but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked

was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford taking

I was stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed

when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I didn't deserve

running away multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started

I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I

He shook his head.

first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make

since Axel started talking about his past he

eyes were watery and my

wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body close

feel better so I just hugged him as hard as I

could put his broken pieces back together and maybe mine

suffocating me,

tried peeling

instantly backing

your body on mine

me to

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer

nodded my head agreeing with

or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you

explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as

dad left us before I was

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us

teasingly, looking over

with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky,

Camila flooded my

I rushed out and instantly realized

was the only one who could do something

would have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

over again, the sinking was back and

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life if anyone from your