Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the rough

not exactly the answer I was

I run right into his back from the

course, he didn't budge any,

had taken me to another

ledge that was only a few feet away from

looking down slightly, keeping a good

and I think Axel noticed because he told me to

was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that

on my hand, sending

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained

the sky

the ledge and

my stomach dropping fear suddenly

a million stars shining

breathtaking, I've never seen so many

in New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city

you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd

staring

loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of

sorry, for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

you to

I finished.

from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked, trying to

a

Axel

told me before I was

just boughten their first

something happens to her, causing a

really talked

couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and

any more,’’ I whispered, I knew

to make him relive the pain he

death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more

was in the hospital for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was

living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at

pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I

I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I

I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like

He shook his head.

Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off

the first time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked

were watery and my heart shattered to a thousand

arms around him, pulling

I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him

was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together

kinda suffocating

tried peeling

mumbled, instantly

your body on

to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

about your mom, cancer is

my head

are young or old, what color your skin is,

4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling

left us before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us

looking

you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered back to the sky, still

flooded my

help Camila.’ I rushed

one who

would have probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a

all over again, the sinking was

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

the bruises on

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your