Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the rough

answer I was looking for’ I said

I run right into his back from

didn't budge any, he was like a cement

around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little

to the ledge that was only

slightly, keeping

Axel noticed

own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in

on my hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained

sky Angel,’ Axel said

away from the

at the sight in front of me, my stomach

least a million stars

never seen so many stars

York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here,

mom and look at the stars, I thought

muttered, staring

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls

know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at

wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over at

want you to

I finished.

up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked, trying

just gave me a look and

Axel furrowed

have told me before I was born my parents had the picture-perfect

even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the way’ Axel

something happens to

one really talked about her it was like

her: I watched his jaw started clenching and unclenching

I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

make him relive the pain

drugs and

me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more

in the hospital for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford

if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give

school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife,

just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch,

third hospital visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I

He shook his head.

kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with

Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up to

watery and my heart shattered to a

wrapping my arms around him,

I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard as I

put his broken pieces back together and maybe

kinda suffocating me,

peeling

mumbled, instantly backing away

your

to roll my

Stupid Axel.

cancer is unforgiving” Axel

nodded my head

color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you here

medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually

dad left us before I was born; I told

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us friends

looking over at

a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed

when Camila flooded

got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly

only one who could do something about

probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was

"He hit her Axel,"

my

bruises on her yesterday,’

you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

life if anyone from