Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in the rough

exactly the answer I was looking

stops walking and I run right into his back

any,

me to another clearing, a little higher than

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet away

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping

was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told me to

own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in

yanked gently on my hand, sending me

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only

sky Angel,’

my eyes away from the ledge and

stomach

to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations

seen so many stars in

gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it

with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd

staring at

have loved it here; I whispered,

know, everything.’ He

did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over

still want you

I finished.

his head looking up from his hands to look straight passed the

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked, trying

gave me a look and

giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight forward

from pictures and from what people have told me before I was

careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the

my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing

are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it was like she never

saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and

to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt

don't want to make him relive the pain he felt growing

her death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt

but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was reminded

for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and

was stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me

the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me

me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and

him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in

He shook his head.

Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make

since Axel started talking about

watery and my heart

wrapping my arms around

wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better

his

suffocating

peeling

instantly backing away from

enjoy your body on mine

winked causing me to roll my

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer

my head

are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in

to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I

my dad left us before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us

smiled teasingly, looking over at

a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed

Camila flooded my

got to help Camila.’ I rushed

one

probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

let out a breath feeling nervous all over

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

the bruises on

didn't you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone from