Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in the

the answer I was looking for’ I

Axel stops walking and I run right into his back from the untimely

any, he was

and saw that he had taken me to another

ledge that was only a few feet away

keeping a good distance away

labored and I think Axel noticed because he told me

was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only

sky

away from the

sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was

least a million stars shining

I've never seen so many

star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it

to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought

staring

whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at

wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you

I finished.

his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked,

a look and sighed

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight forward

I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my parents had

morning church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy

into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her,

really talked about her

couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started

have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered,

make him relive the pain he felt growing

drugs and alcohol, he felt

seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was

was there everyday and she told me when I was

wasn't for his girlfriend at the

wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster,

but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting

put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out

He shook his head.

her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt

first time since Axel started talking about his past

were watery and my heart shattered to a

my arms around him,

him feel better so I

his broken pieces

suffocating me,

tried peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body on mine

winked causing me to

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer

nodded my head agreeing with

doesn't care if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that

had stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as

left us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us

teasingly, looking over

me a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered back

flooded my

help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly

the only one

have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

all over again, the sinking was back and

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

saw the bruises on

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone from your