Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly

I was looking for’ I said

Axel stops walking and I run right

didn't budge any, he was like a cement

saw that he had taken me to

ledge that

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away from

Axel noticed because he told me

fear, this was way worse

my hand, sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only

sky Angel,’ Axel

from the

in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed

had to be at least a million stars shining

I've never seen so many stars in

gaze with all city lights but here,

read that you use to go outside with your mom and

muttered, staring

here; I whispered, lost in the balls of

He spoke, looking

wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

over

you to tell

I finished.

from his hands to look straight

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked, trying to

a look and

to me.’ Axel furrowed

gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was

had just boughten their first house

something

are fuzzy because no one really talked about her

short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his

don't have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

him relive the pain he

father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

product of the devil, but I think it was more of the

premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and

his girlfriend at the

come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I didn't deserve to

but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch,

taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses

He shook his head.

when I walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does

started talking about his

eyes were watery and my heart shattered

arms around

anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard as I

I was lucky I could put his broken pieces

kinda suffocating me,

peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing away

did enjoy your body

me to roll

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

head

doesn't care if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your

stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as

us before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us

teasingly, looking

with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered back

flooded

Camila.’ I

only one who could do something about

would have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

let out a breath feeling nervous all over again,

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

the bruises on her yesterday,’

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone from your