Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in

answer I

stops walking and I run right into his back from the untimely

course, he didn't budge any, he was like a

that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where

to the ledge that

down slightly, keeping a

think Axel noticed because he told me

in my own fear, this was way worse

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only

the sky Angel,’ Axel said

from the ledge

my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced

to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting

I've never seen so many

it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but

your mom

muttered, staring

here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

sorry, for you know, everything.’ He

wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

you to

I finished.

nodded his head looking up from his hands to look straight

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked,

me a

giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

have told me before I

their first house with a

months into my mom's pregnancy something

one really talked about her it

story short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his

don't have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I

make him relive the pain he felt

to drugs and alcohol, he

but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked

he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford taking care of

was stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me

wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I didn't

so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever

was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because

He shook his head.

her like shit, I tried to break her, make

about his past he finally looked up

watery and my heart shattered to a thousand

found myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling my

there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard as I

his

suffocating

peeling

instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body

to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

about your mom, cancer is unforgiving”

nodded my head

your skin is,

her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained,

us before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us friends

looking over

Never.’ He gave me a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still

when Camila flooded my thoughts

I rushed out and instantly

he was the only one who could do

have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

nervous all over again, the sinking was back and

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone