Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in

I was looking for’ I

walking and I run right into his back from

he didn't budge any,

he had taken me to

the ledge that was only a few feet away

down slightly, keeping a good distance away from the

I think Axel noticed because

this was way worse than being on that

sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only

at the sky Angel,’

the ledge and forced them to

stomach dropping fear suddenly

at least a million stars shining above

view was breathtaking, I've never seen

to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it

with your mom and look at

staring at

loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls

you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over at

want you to tell me

I finished.

his head looking up from his hands

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

me a look and

to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

from what people have told me before I

morning church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby

into my mom's pregnancy something happens

no one really talked about her

they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started

whispered, I knew

relive the pain he felt

drugs and

think it was more of the

not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford

with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the

get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed

bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick,

visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and wouldn't listen

He shook his head.

were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off

talking about his past he finally looked up to

eyes were watery and my heart shattered to a

my arms around him, pulling my

to make him feel better so I

If I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back

kinda suffocating me,

peeling himself

instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body on mine

winked causing me to

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer

nodded my head agreeing

or old, what color your skin is,

leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as

dad left us before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

teasingly, looking

you? Never.’ He gave me a

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by

flooded

I rushed out and instantly realized

the only one who could do

have probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger than

"He hit her Axel,"

my

the bruises on

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life if