Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in

answer I was looking

Axel stops walking and I run right into his back from the untimely

course, he didn't budge any,

to another clearing, a little higher than where the bonfire

snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet away

keeping a

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told

my own fear, this was way worse than being

sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only trained

the sky Angel,’ Axel

eyes away from the ledge and forced

at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced

a million stars shining above me, the constellations

was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in my

gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of

go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like this

staring

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

He

did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

over at

still want you to tell

I finished.

nodded his head looking up from his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten

a look and

mother died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed

from pictures and from what people have told me

first house with a baby boy

mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing

are fuzzy because no one really talked about

story short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started

any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt

him relive the pain

father turned to drugs and

without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me

birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford taking

his girlfriend at the time, she

and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would

away multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was just too

into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and wouldn't

He shook his head.

tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does to

about his past he

eyes were watery and my heart shattered to a thousand

myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling my

feel better so I just

I could put his broken pieces back together and

kinda suffocating

peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly backing away

enjoy your body on mine

me to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer

nodded my head agreeing

what color your skin is, your choice in religion,

4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking about

my dad left us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us friends

smiled teasingly, looking

Never.’ He gave me a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed

flooded

to help Camila.’ I rushed out and

only one who

probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

all over again, the sinking was back and

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

life