Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly

not exactly the answer I

Axel stops walking and I run right into his back from the untimely

course, he didn't budge any, he

to another clearing, a little higher than where

eyes automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet

looking down slightly, keeping

think Axel noticed

I was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that

on my hand, sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only trained

sky Angel,’ Axel

the ledge and

me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced

be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations

view was breathtaking, I've never seen so

with all city lights but here, in the middle

to go outside with your mom and look at the

staring

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost

for you know, everything.’ He spoke,

you did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

over

want you to tell

I finished.

his head looking up from his hands to look

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten

gave me a look

giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows,

I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was

even had just boughten their first

my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing

really talked about

me but couldn't save her: I watched

tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it

to make him relive the

to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked

sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived

stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and

enough to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his

time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite,

was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and

He shook his head.

tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does to

since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up to

eyes were watery and my heart shattered to

around him, pulling my body close to

him feel better so I just hugged him as hard

I was lucky I could put his broken

suffocating

peeling

instantly

enjoy your

me to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is

nodded my head

is, your choice in religion, or the people that

had stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as

my dad left us before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us friends

looking over

Be friends with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm in

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered back to the sky,

flooded my thoughts

got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and

only one who

would have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

let out a breath feeling nervous all over again,

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

on her yesterday,’

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life if