Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the

answer I

right into his back from the untimely

budge any, he was like a cement

to another clearing, a little higher than where the

snapped to the ledge that was only a

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away

and I think Axel noticed because he

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being

hand, sending me

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained

sky Angel,’

the

me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly

be at least a million stars

seen so

city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere,

use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought

muttered, staring

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

know, everything.’ He

you did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

want you to

I finished.

looking up from his hands to look straight passed the

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

gave me a look and

giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

what I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my

they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the

into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing

because no one really talked

story short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his

more,’’ I whispered,

don't want to make him relive the pain

to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he

hospital for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she

I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me

enough to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed

just bring me right back, so I started fighting

eight.I was in

He shook his head.

her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but

talking about his past he finally

watery and my heart shattered to

wrapping my arms around him,

I could say to make him feel

could put his broken pieces back together and maybe

kinda suffocating

peeling himself

instantly backing

did enjoy your body on mine

winked causing me to

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is unforgiving”

my head

old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you

explained, surprisingly not feeling as

left us before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

looking over at

with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by

when Camila flooded my

I

was the only one who could

probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a weird

out a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger

"He hit her Axel,"

my

the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang