Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly

I was looking for’ I

I run right into his back from the untimely

budge any,

looked around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing,

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet

looking down slightly, keeping

think Axel noticed because he told me

way worse than being on that glass

yanked gently on my hand, sending

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained to look

at the sky

my eyes away from the ledge and forced them to

the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly

a million stars shining above

seen so

New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but

with your mom and look at

staring at

here; I whispered, lost in the balls

you know, everything.’ He spoke,

you did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

over

want you to

I finished.

head looking up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked,

a look and

to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows,

from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my parents had the picture-perfect

even had just boughten their first house

into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing

no one really talked about her

but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw

have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

relive

my father turned to drugs and

product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he

3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant

for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give

start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I didn't

me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick,

hospital visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because

He shook his head.

life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does

Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up

and my heart shattered

my arms around

there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so

could put his

suffocating me,

peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly backing

your body

winked causing me to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

about your mom, cancer

nodded my head agreeing

is, your

stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking about my

left us before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us

teasingly, looking over

you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

eyes wandered back to

when Camila flooded

to help Camila.’ I

the only one who could do

have probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

on her yesterday,’ I told

didn't you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone from