Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the

answer I was looking for’

walking and I run right into his back from

any, he

saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher

ledge that was

looking down slightly, keeping

think Axel noticed because he told me

I was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse

on my hand, sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained to

the sky Angel,’ Axel

away from the ledge and

at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced

million stars shining above me, the constellations painting the night

never seen so many

really star gaze with all city lights but here, in

to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd

staring

whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at

did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

over at

still want you to tell

I finished.

his hands

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked, trying to lighten the

a look

mother died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed

people have told me

morning church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on

pregnancy something happens to her,

one really talked about her it was

short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and unclenching

tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose

him relive

my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt

product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me

there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was

dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me

the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me

so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I

was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses

He shook his head.

treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all

time since Axel started talking about

eyes were watery and my heart shattered to a thousand

around him, pulling my body

say to make him feel

If I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and maybe

suffocating

tried peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly backing

did enjoy your body

me to

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel

nodded my head agreeing

what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the

reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling

us before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make

teasingly, looking

a

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered

flooded my

to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized

the only one who could

would have probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger than

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

on her yesterday,’ I

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang