Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly

exactly the answer I was

run right into his

didn't budge any, he was

saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the bonfire

ledge that was only a few feet away from

down slightly, keeping a good distance

think Axel

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse

on my hand, sending me

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only

the sky

away from the ledge

of me, my stomach

to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations

breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars

really star gaze with all city lights but here,

go outside with your mom and

staring

I whispered, lost in the balls of

you know, everything.’ He spoke,

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

you to tell me

I finished.

nodded his head looking up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked,

a look

birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows,

gather from pictures and from what people have told me before

their first house with a baby boy on

into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing a

no one really talked about her it was

couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and

don't have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose

make him relive

my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he

couldn't look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me

he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was

I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the

to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife,

but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would

around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem

He shook his head.

I walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make

talking about his past

and my heart shattered

wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body close

say to make him feel

his broken pieces back together and maybe

suffocating me,

peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing away

your body on mine

causing me to

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

nodded my head agreeing with

is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you here

explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking about

before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

looking over

gave me a dirty look but I

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by

when Camila flooded my thoughts

you got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and

was the only one

would have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

all over

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

on her yesterday,’ I

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life if anyone from