Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the

the answer I was looking for’ I said

Axel stops walking and I run right into his back from

didn't budge any, he was like

taken me to

ledge that was only a few feet

looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away

was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told me to

in my own fear, this was way worse than being on

my hand, sending me

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained to

the sky Angel,’ Axel said

the ledge and forced them to

of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed

stars shining above me, the constellations

view was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in

all city lights but here, in the middle of

read that you use to go outside with your mom and look at

muttered, staring

it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of

for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down

wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over at

still want you to

I finished.

from his hands

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten

just gave me a

me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born

careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on

mom's pregnancy something happens to

really talked about her it

couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching

more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

him relive the

my father turned to drugs and alcohol,

the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was reminded

and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told

his girlfriend at the time, she would feed

come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I didn't deserve

police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and

visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because

He shook his head.

I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does

started talking about his

were watery and my heart shattered

wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body close to

feel better so I just hugged him as hard as I

lucky I could put his broken

suffocating

peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing

your body on

me to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer is unforgiving”

nodded my head agreeing with

are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you

stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did

my dad left us before I was

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us friends

looking over at

gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the

Camila flooded my thoughts

you got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized

only one who could do something about

probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

all over again, the sinking was back and stronger than

"He hit her Axel,"

my

on her yesterday,’

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang