Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the rough

I was looking for’ I said

and I run right into his back from the untimely

didn't budge any, he was

and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the bonfire

snapped to the ledge that was

looking down slightly, keeping a good

think Axel noticed because he told me

way worse than being on that glass

sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained to

sky Angel,’ Axel said

away from the

stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was

million stars shining above me, the

breathtaking, I've never seen so many

it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here,

go outside with your mom and look

muttered, staring

have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

sorry, for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

you did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

still want you

I finished.

from his hands to look

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

a look and sighed

giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows,

what I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my parents

just boughten their first house

mom's pregnancy something happens to

details are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it was like she

short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and unclenching

I whispered, I knew how it felt

relive

turned to drugs and alcohol,

look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was

see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself

probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give

home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife,

bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would

away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was

He shook his head.

Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She

about

watery and my heart shattered to

around him, pulling my body

to make him feel better so

could put his

suffocating

peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing away

did enjoy your

to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer is unforgiving”

nodded my head agreeing with

or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you here

medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking about my

dad left us before I was

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us friends

looking

friends with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered

flooded

help Camila.’ I rushed

the only one

have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

nervous all over again, the sinking was back

"He hit her Axel,"

my

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’ I told

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang