Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the

I was

Axel stops walking and I run right into his back from the

budge any, he was like

he had taken me to another clearing, a little

eyes automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a

slightly, keeping a good distance away

was labored and I think Axel noticed

in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in

gently on my hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained

at the sky Angel,’

away from the ledge and forced them

sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear

million stars shining

never seen so many stars

York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the

use to go outside with your mom and

staring

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the

sorry, for you know, everything.’ He spoke,

did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you to tell me

I finished.

from his hands to look straight passed

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

me a look

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my

promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing a

details are fuzzy because no one really talked about

save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and unclenching

whispered, I knew how it felt

him relive the pain

father turned to drugs and

think it was more

for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and

with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me

get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying

away multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would

and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and

He shook his head.

I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt

started talking about his past he

watery and my

myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body

say to make him feel better so I

I could put his broken pieces

kinda suffocating

peeling himself

instantly backing

enjoy your body on

to roll my

Stupid Axel.

cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

nodded my head agreeing

doesn't care if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people

medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as

before I was

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make

looking over at

with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered back to the

Camila flooded my thoughts

Camila.’ I

was the only one who could do

have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a

feeling nervous all over

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

bruises on her yesterday,’

didn't you

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life if