Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the rough

I

walking and I run right into his

he didn't budge any, he was like a cement

looked around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet away from

keeping a

was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told me

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only

sky Angel,’

away from the ledge and forced

sight in front of me, my stomach

least a million stars shining above me,

I've never seen so many stars in my

New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle

outside with your mom and look at the

muttered, staring at

whispered, lost in the

know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over

still want you

I finished.

from his hands to look

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to

gave me a look

Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

from what people have told me before I was born my parents had the

had just boughten their first house with

my mom's pregnancy something happens to her,

one really talked about her it was like she never

her: I watched his jaw started clenching

tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt

to make him relive

turned to drugs and alcohol, he

the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he

months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself

with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and

pretty much every night.He would scream

tried running away multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was just

think I was around eight.I was

He shook his head.

her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to

Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up

eyes were watery and my heart shattered to

my arms around him, pulling my

wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better

put his broken pieces back

kinda suffocating

tried peeling himself

instantly backing away from

did enjoy your

me to

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel

my head

what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you here on

stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I

before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us friends

looking

friends with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

sat in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by the

when Camila flooded

you got to help Camila.’ I rushed out

he was the only one

would have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a weird

feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

bruises on her yesterday,’

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life