Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the

answer I was looking for’

Axel stops walking and I run right into his

didn't budge any, he was like a cement

and saw that he had taken me to

the ledge that was only

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away from the

Axel noticed because he told

I was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway

my hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained to look

sky Angel,’ Axel said

away from the ledge and forced

in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced

to be at least a million stars shining

view was breathtaking, I've never seen so many

with all city

that you use to go outside with your mom and

staring

it here; I whispered, lost in the

you know, everything.’ He

wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

over

you to tell

I finished.

from his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

just gave me a look and sighed

birth to me.’ Axel

and from what people have told

their first house with a baby boy on

into my mom's pregnancy something

because no one really talked about her it

me but couldn't save her:

me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose

don't want to make him relive the pain he

turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

couldn't look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was reminded

to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was

if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would

enough to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He

right back, so I started fighting

eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the

He shook his head.

to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all

Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up to

my heart shattered to a

arms around

knew there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I

put his broken pieces

suffocating

peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing away

enjoy your body on

winked causing me to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

about your mom, cancer is

my head agreeing

skin is, your choice in religion, or the people

explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as

my dad left us before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us

smiled teasingly, looking over at

gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm in

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the

when Camila flooded

Camila.’ I rushed

he was the only one who could do something

probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

all over again, the sinking was back

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

bruises on her yesterday,’

didn't you

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life