Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in the rough

not exactly the answer I was looking for’ I said

run right into his back

any, he was

and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away from

and I think Axel noticed because he told

my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only trained to

at the sky Angel,’ Axel said

my eyes away from the ledge and forced them to

gaped at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was

at least a million stars shining above

was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars

all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere,

you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars,

muttered, staring

it here; I whispered, lost in the

sorry, for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

over at

want you

I finished.

his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

gave me a look

to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

what people have told me before

they even had just boughten their first house with a

pregnancy something happens to her,

one really talked about her it was like she

short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw

to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it

make him relive the pain he felt growing

death, my father turned to drugs and

look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the

was in the hospital for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told

father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed

began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me

time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch,

I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights

He shook his head.

to break her, make her ship me off

started talking about his

were watery and my heart shattered to a

wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body close

make him feel better so I

If I was lucky I could put his

suffocating

peeling himself

instantly

your body on mine

winked causing me to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

cancer is

my head

young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or

stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking about my

dad left us before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us friends

smiled teasingly, looking over

He gave me a dirty look but I

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

sat in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the

Camila flooded my

to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly

the only one who

probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a

all over again, the

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

the bruises on her yesterday,’

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your