Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the rough

I was looking for’ I said

and I run right into his

any, he was

and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet away

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good

was labored and I think Axel noticed because he

fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway

on my hand, sending me

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained to

the sky Angel,’ Axel said

the ledge and forced them to

gaped at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear

had to be at least a million stars

view was breathtaking, I've never seen

all city

you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I

muttered, staring at

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

know, everything.’ He

wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

want you to tell me

I finished.

head looking up from his hands to look straight

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to

gave me a

to me.’ Axel furrowed his

what people have told me before I

morning church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy

something happens to her,

talked about her

me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started

more,’’ I whispered,

to make him relive

my father turned to drugs

seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was reminded

mother's sister, was there everyday and

be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give

pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I

just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was just

taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I

He shook his head.

Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make

about his past he

my heart shattered to a

arms around him, pulling

wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard as I

could put his broken pieces back together

suffocating me,

tried peeling

instantly backing away

did enjoy your

me to

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

my head agreeing

care if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the

her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did

my dad left us before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make

looking

with you? Never.’ He gave me a

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still

when Camila flooded

help Camila.’ I rushed out and

one who could do

probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

saw the bruises on

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life