Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in

the answer I was looking for’

run right into his back from the

he didn't budge any,

had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet away from

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good

labored and I think Axel noticed because he

own fear, this was way worse than being on that

sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only

at the sky Angel,’ Axel

the ledge and forced them

gaped at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear

million stars shining

breathtaking, I've never seen so many

all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like

read that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars,

muttered, staring at

it here; I whispered, lost in

know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at

did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

you to

I finished.

his head looking up from his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked,

gave me a look and sighed

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight forward

people have told me before

just boughten their first

months into my mom's pregnancy something

because no one really talked about her it was like

saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and unclenching

any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to

relive the pain he felt

to drugs and

but I think it was more of the fact

birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me

I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths when I really needed

home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I didn't deserve to

police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was just too

hospital visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the

He shook his head.

Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She

the first time since Axel started talking about his past he

were watery and my heart shattered to a

wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body close

there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel

I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and maybe

kinda suffocating me,

peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing away from

enjoy your body on

me to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

about your mom, cancer is unforgiving”

nodded my head

color your skin is, your choice in religion,

her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking about my

my dad left us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us friends

teasingly, looking

He gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm in

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky,

flooded my

Camila.’ I

one who

would have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

the bruises on her yesterday,’ I told

didn't you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life if anyone from