Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the rough

the answer I was

run right into his back from the

budge any, he was

me to another clearing,

to the ledge that was only

looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away from

Axel noticed because he told

I was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse

gently on my hand, sending

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only trained

at the sky Angel,’ Axel

from the ledge and forced them to look

front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was

a million stars shining above me, the constellations

breathtaking, I've never seen so many

hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like pure

mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like

muttered, staring

loved it here; I whispered, lost

know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

want you

I finished.

from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked,

a look and

birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

what people have told me before I was born

their first house with a baby boy on the way’ Axel

into my mom's pregnancy something happens

no one really talked about her

save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and

me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew

relive

drugs and alcohol, he felt like God betrayed

without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked

aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with

father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the

much

but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was just

think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and wouldn't listen

He shook his head.

her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home

the first time since Axel started talking about

eyes were watery and my heart shattered

myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body

I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged

If I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and

suffocating

tried peeling himself

instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body

causing me to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel

head agreeing with

is, your choice in religion, or the

the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as

left us before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make

looking over

with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back

flooded my

you got to help Camila.’ I rushed out

one who could do something

probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

out a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

bruises on her yesterday,’ I

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life if anyone