Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the

not exactly the answer I was

and I run right into his back from

any, he was like

looked around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing,

eyes automatically snapped to the ledge that

looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away

was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told me to

I was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass

gently on my hand, sending me to the

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only

sky Angel,’

away from the ledge

at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping

had to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations

I've never seen so many stars

York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in

your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd

staring at

have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

for you know, everything.’ He spoke,

wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you to tell me

I finished.

nodded his head looking up from his hands to look straight passed

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked, trying

just gave me a look and sighed

me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows,

and from what people have told me before I was born my

just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the

into my mom's pregnancy something happens

fuzzy because no one really talked about her it

they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and

any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to

make him relive the pain he

to drugs and alcohol, he felt

devil, but I think it was more of the fact

was in the hospital for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived

it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and

was old enough to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife,

would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite,

into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and

He shook his head.

first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home

talking about his past he finally looked up

my heart shattered to

around him, pulling my

anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard as

I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together

kinda suffocating me,

tried peeling

I mumbled, instantly backing away

did enjoy your body

me to roll

Stupid Axel.

about your mom, cancer is

nodded my head agreeing

skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you here on

her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional

before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make

teasingly, looking over at

Never.’ He gave me a

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky,

Camila flooded my thoughts

Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly

the only one who could do

would have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a weird

nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger

"He hit her Axel,"

my

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life