Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly

the answer I was looking

stops walking and I run right

didn't budge any, he was like a

looked around and saw that he had taken me to

that was only

keeping a good

I think Axel noticed because

this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in the

hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained to

the sky Angel,’

the ledge and forced them

of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and

a million stars shining above me,

I've never seen so many stars

York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the

use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd

muttered, staring

it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

everything.’ He spoke, looking

you did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

want you to

I finished.

looking up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to

just gave me a look and sighed

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight forward

what people have told me before

careers, they even had just boughten their first

pregnancy something

details are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it was like she

but couldn't save her:

whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

to make him relive

father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like God betrayed

but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me

birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt

for his girlfriend at the

come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a

would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick,

I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights

He shook his head.

tried to break her, make her ship me off to another

first time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked

were watery and my heart shattered to a thousand

my arms around

wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard as

If I was lucky I could put his broken

suffocating

tried peeling

I mumbled, instantly

did enjoy your body on

to

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer

nodded my head agreeing

doesn't care if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you here on

had stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not

dad left us before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make

smiled teasingly, looking

Never.’ He gave me a dirty

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered back to

flooded

to help Camila.’ I rushed out and

one who could

probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a

let out a breath feeling nervous all over

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life