Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in the

answer I was

and I run right into his back from

he didn't budge any, he was like

to another clearing,

snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet

slightly, keeping a good distance away from

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed because he

was way

on my hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only

sky Angel,’ Axel said

away from the ledge

stomach dropping

million stars shining above

view was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in

to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like

your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like

staring

here; I whispered,

you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

want you to tell me

I finished.

from his hands to look straight passed the

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked,

gave me a look

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his

people have told me before I was born my parents had

first house with a baby boy on the way’ Axel laughed

something happens to her, causing

talked

short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started

have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose

want to make him relive the pain he felt

death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt

product of the devil, but I think it

my mother's sister, was there everyday and she

be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths when I really

much every night.He would scream at me

just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch,

third hospital visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was

He shook his head.

her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break

Axel started talking about his past he finally

and my

my arms around him,

anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as

his broken pieces back together

kinda suffocating

tried peeling himself

instantly backing

your

winked causing me to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel

nodded my head agreeing with

what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or

medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional

my dad left us before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

smiled teasingly, looking over

Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm in his

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered back to the

Camila flooded my thoughts

got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and

was the only one who

probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

all over again, the sinking was back and

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

saw the bruises on

didn't you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang got