Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in

not exactly the answer I

run right into his back from the

course, he didn't budge any, he was

to another clearing, a little higher than where the bonfire

eyes automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few

thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away

breathing was labored and I think Axel

I was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway

my hand, sending me to the

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only

at the sky

tore my eyes away from the ledge and forced them to look

gaped at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and

million stars shining above

breathtaking, I've never seen so

New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it

with your mom and look at the stars,

staring at

I whispered,

everything.’ He spoke, looking down at

you did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

want you to tell

I finished.

his head looking up from his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked, trying

a look and sighed

to me.’ Axel furrowed

I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I

church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens

one really talked about her it was like

they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched

tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew

make him relive the pain he

father turned to drugs and alcohol, he

it was more of the fact every time he looked at

aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford

his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes

much every night.He would scream

away multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and

third hospital visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started

He shook his head.

when I walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship

started talking about his past he finally looked up to

were watery and my

my arms around him,

say to make him feel better

I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back

suffocating me,

tried peeling

instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body

me to

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel

my head agreeing with

are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice

body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly

before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us friends

looking over

me a

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

sat in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by the

flooded

you got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and

was the only one

have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was

"He hit her Axel,"

my

bruises on her yesterday,’

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone