Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the

I was looking

and I run right into his back from

he didn't budge any,

he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the bonfire

snapped to the ledge that was only a

looking down slightly, keeping

I think Axel noticed

in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in

hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained to look

sky

eyes away from the ledge and forced

front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly

stars shining above me, the constellations painting the night

never seen

with all city lights but

mom and look at

staring

it here; I whispered, lost in

sorry, for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

over at

want you to

I finished.

his hands to look straight passed

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked, trying to

gave me a look and

birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his

I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my parents had

morning church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the way’ Axel

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens to

one really talked about her it was like

couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and unclenching

any more,’’ I whispered, I

make him relive the pain he felt

my father turned to drugs and alcohol,

product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time

to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt

my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me

swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was

just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could,

around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses

He shook his head.

her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off

talking about his

my heart shattered to

found myself wrapping my arms around him,

knew there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard as

was lucky I could put his broken pieces back

kinda suffocating

peeling

I mumbled, instantly backing away

your body on mine

winked causing me to roll

Stupid Axel.

cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

head agreeing with

skin is, your

had stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not

my dad left us before I was

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make

teasingly, looking over

friends with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

silence, my eyes wandered back

flooded

Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly

he was the only one

would have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

breath feeling nervous all over

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

the bruises on her

didn't you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone