Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in the rough

answer I was looking for’ I

right into his back

course, he didn't budge any, he was like

had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the bonfire

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet away from

keeping a good distance

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told me

was way worse than being on that glass

hand, sending me to the

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained to

at the sky Angel,’

eyes away from the ledge and forced them to

my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced with

at least a million stars

view was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in my

New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere,

outside with your mom and

staring

would have loved it here; I whispered,

everything.’ He spoke, looking down at

wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you to

I finished.

his head looking up from his hands to look straight passed

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked, trying to lighten the

just gave me a look and sighed

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

from what people have told me before I was born my parents had

church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the

mom's pregnancy something happens to her,

really talked

saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and unclenching

whispered, I knew

make him relive the

death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol,

the devil, but I think it

for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until

father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths when

old enough to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed

me right back, so I started fighting back.I

I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the

He shook his head.

her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does to

time since Axel started talking about his past he finally

my

arms around him, pulling my body

make him feel

put his broken pieces back

kinda suffocating me,

peeling himself

instantly backing away

enjoy your body on mine

me to roll my

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

nodded my head agreeing

doesn't care if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the

leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling

my dad left us before I was

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us

teasingly, looking over at

a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to

Camila flooded my thoughts

got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized my

he was the only one who could do something about

probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

didn't you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

life if