Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the

I

right into

budge any, he was like a cement

looked around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than

the ledge that was only

looking down slightly, keeping a good

I think Axel

was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse

yanked gently on my hand, sending me

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained to look

the sky

from the ledge and forced them to

gaped at the sight in front of me, my stomach

least a million stars

seen so many stars

really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere,

that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like

muttered, staring at

have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of

you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down

did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

you to tell me

I finished.

looking up from his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked,

me a look and

giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows,

pictures and from what people have told me before

just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the way’ Axel

into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing

really talked

couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching

whispered, I knew how it felt to lose

make him relive the pain he felt

her death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol,

without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he

months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she

my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed

swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying

me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was

the third hospital visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and wouldn't

He shook his head.

I walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make

time since Axel started talking about his past

and my heart shattered to

my arms around him, pulling my

to make him feel better so I just

could put his broken pieces back together

suffocating me,

tried peeling

mumbled, instantly backing

did enjoy your body

winked causing me to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

my head

or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or

body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking about

my dad left us before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us friends

smiled teasingly, looking over at

me a dirty look but I

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered back to the

Camila flooded my thoughts

I rushed out and instantly realized

the only one who could do

probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger than

"He hit her Axel,"

my

the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

didn't you

Axel yelled, standing up.

her with Angelo’s life if