Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in the rough

answer I was looking

walking and I run right into his

didn't budge any,

looked around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little

to the ledge that was

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping

Axel noticed because he told me

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on

my hand, sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only

the sky Angel,’ Axel said

the ledge and forced them to look

gaped at the sight in front of me, my stomach

to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations

was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars

with all city

go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like

muttered, staring

loved it here; I whispered, lost

for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at

did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

over at

want you

I finished.

head looking up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked, trying to

me a look

giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

and from what people have told me before I was born my

had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the

mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing a

no one really talked

me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and unclenching

don't have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt

want to make him relive the pain he felt

drugs

me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me

never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she

with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at

wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I didn't deserve to

tried running away multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and

I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and wouldn't listen to

He shook his head.

were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and

about

were watery and my

found myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body

there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel

I could put his broken pieces back together

suffocating me,

peeling himself

instantly backing away

enjoy your body on

me to

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is unforgiving”

my head agreeing with

young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in

to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional

before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us friends

looking

Be friends with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm in

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by

flooded my thoughts

to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized

was the only one who could do something about

probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

feeling nervous all over again,

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

didn't you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life if anyone