Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in

I was looking for’ I

stops walking and I run right into his back from the untimely

budge any, he was like a cement

and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a

snapped to the ledge that was only a

down slightly, keeping a good distance

Axel noticed because he told

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in

hand, sending me

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained to look

sky Angel,’ Axel

tore my eyes away from the ledge and

of me, my stomach dropping

a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting

was breathtaking, I've never seen so many

hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here,

read that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd

staring at

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down

did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over

you to tell me

I finished.

from his hands

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten

a look

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his

people have told me before

they even had just boughten their first house with a

mom's pregnancy something

details are fuzzy because no one really talked

her: I watched his jaw started

to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it

to make him relive the pain he felt

drugs and alcohol, he felt like

me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was

because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived

with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes

much

running away multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was just

from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and wouldn't

He shook his head.

her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to

the first time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked

eyes were watery and my

wrapping my arms around him, pulling

him feel better so

could put his broken pieces back together and maybe mine

suffocating

peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing away

enjoy your body

me to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

cancer

nodded my head agreeing with

is, your choice in religion, or the

reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling

us before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us friends

smiled teasingly, looking over

friends with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed

when Camila flooded

to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized my

was the only one who could

would have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

all over again, the sinking was back and

"He hit her Axel,"

my

the bruises on

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life if