Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly

I was looking for’ I said

right into his back from

budge any, he was

had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where

that was only a

down slightly, keeping a good distance away

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told

was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in the

on my hand, sending me to the

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained to look

at the sky Angel,’ Axel said

the ledge and

at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced

a million stars shining above

never seen so many

to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere,

to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought

muttered, staring at

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost

He spoke, looking

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you

I finished.

looking up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked, trying to

just gave me a look

birth to me.’ Axel

gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my parents had the picture-perfect

first house with a baby

pregnancy something happens

really talked about her it

save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and unclenching

don't have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

make him relive

drugs and

look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was reminded

birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until

wasn't for his girlfriend at

swinging pretty much

tried running away multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and

the third hospital visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what

He shook his head.

I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me

time since Axel started talking about his

watery and my heart shattered to

arms around him, pulling my body close

feel better so I just hugged him as

I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together

suffocating me,

peeling

instantly

your

to

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is

my head

what color your skin is, your choice

medication; I explained, surprisingly not

dad left us before I was

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us friends

looking over

Be friends with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed

Camila flooded my thoughts

I rushed out and instantly realized

only one who could do

would have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a

feeling nervous all over

"He hit her Axel,"

my

the bruises on

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang got