Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly

the answer I was looking for’ I

and I run right into his back from

he didn't budge any, he was like a

had taken me to another clearing,

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet away

thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good

and I think Axel noticed because he told me

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that

sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only

the sky

my eyes away from the ledge

of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced with

to be at least a million stars shining

breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars

York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in

that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought

staring

have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

want you to tell

I finished.

his head looking up from his hands to look straight passed

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked, trying

me a look

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his

what I gather from pictures and from what people have told me

just boughten their first house with a baby

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her,

no one really talked about her it was like she never

but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw

any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it

make him relive the pain he felt

turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt

of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he

sister, was there everyday and she told me when

with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she

much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed

started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could,

and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the

He shook his head.

walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me

the first time since Axel started talking about

were watery and my heart shattered to a

wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body close

anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged

could put his broken pieces back

suffocating me,

peeling

mumbled, instantly

did enjoy your body

to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

about your mom, cancer

head agreeing

if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or

the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did

dad left us before I was born; I told

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us

smiled teasingly, looking

you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky,

when Camila flooded my thoughts

help Camila.’ I rushed out

the only one

have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

the bruises on her yesterday,’

you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang got