Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the rough

exactly the answer I was looking

Axel stops walking and I run right

course, he didn't budge any,

to

the ledge that was only a few feet

thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance

and I think Axel noticed

own fear, this was way worse than being

hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only

sky Angel,’ Axel said

eyes away from the ledge

sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was

be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting the

seen

York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere,

to go outside with your mom and look at the

staring

loved it here; I whispered, lost

everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

over at

you to tell

I finished.

looking up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to

a

mother died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

people have told me before

boughten their first house with a baby

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens

no one really talked about her it was like she never

save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and

have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I

want to make him relive the

drugs and alcohol, he felt like God betrayed

but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was reminded of

months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford taking care of

I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me

home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I

away multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite,

I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I

He shook his head.

foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all

since Axel started talking about his past

eyes were watery and my heart shattered to a

arms around

anything I could say to make him feel better so

lucky I could put his broken pieces back

kinda suffocating me,

tried peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly

your body on

causing me to roll my

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer is unforgiving”

my head agreeing

color your skin is, your choice

leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional

us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us friends

teasingly, looking over at

you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back

Camila flooded my

you got to help Camila.’ I rushed

only one who could do

would have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a

let out a breath feeling nervous all over again, the

"He hit her Axel,"

my

the bruises on her yesterday,’ I told

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your