Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in

I was looking for’

run right into his back from the

he didn't budge any, he was like a

looked around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the

the ledge that was only a few feet

keeping a

labored and I think Axel

was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in the

gently on my hand, sending me

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only

the sky Angel,’ Axel said

away from the ledge and

me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced with

be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations

view was breathtaking, I've never seen

really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like

mom and

muttered, staring at

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls

know, everything.’ He

did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

want you to tell

I finished.

looking up from his hands to look

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked, trying to

gave me a

mother died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows,

told me before I

morning church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her,

details are fuzzy because no one really talked

they saved me but couldn't save her:

me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

him relive the

to drugs and

of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked

my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until

it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even

old enough to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife,

multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he

taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because

He shook his head.

tried to break her, make her ship

first time since Axel started talking about his past he

eyes were watery and my heart

around him, pulling my

I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as

his broken pieces

suffocating me,

peeling

instantly backing away

enjoy your body

causing me to

Stupid Axel.

about your mom, cancer is unforgiving”

nodded my head agreeing

color your skin is, your

reacting to the medication; I explained,

us before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make

teasingly, looking

Never.’ He gave me a

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by the

Camila flooded my

you got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and

one who could do something about

would have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a weird

nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

bruises on

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

Angelo’s life