Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the rough

I was looking for’ I said

walking and I run right into

course, he didn't budge any, he

me to another clearing, a

ledge that was only a

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping

labored and I think Axel

was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse

hand, sending

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained to

at the sky Angel,’ Axel

tore my eyes away from the ledge

me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced

be at least a million stars shining

I've never seen so many stars

really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle

outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like

muttered, staring

here; I whispered, lost in the

you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you

I finished.

from his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten

gave me a look

to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

have told

boughten their first

into my mom's pregnancy something

are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it was

me but couldn't save her:

have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose

make him relive the

drugs and alcohol, he felt like

the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every

for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford

with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths

to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I

so I started fighting back.I would punch,

into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and wouldn't

He shook his head.

life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home

Axel started talking about

were watery and my heart shattered to

my arms around him, pulling my

him feel better

I could put his broken

kinda suffocating

peeling

mumbled, instantly backing away

did enjoy your

winked causing me to

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is

head

your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people

her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as

dad left us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us friends

smiled teasingly, looking over

gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm in his

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by the

flooded my thoughts

got to help Camila.’ I rushed

was the only one who could do something about

probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

out a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was

"He hit her Axel,"

my

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’

didn't you

Axel yelled, standing up.

life if anyone from your gang got