Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in the

I was looking for’

I run right into his back from the

didn't budge any, he

taken me to another clearing, a little higher than

the ledge that was

down slightly, keeping a good distance away from the

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed because he told me to

was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being

hand, sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained to

the sky Angel,’ Axel

away from the ledge and forced them to

at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and

million stars shining above me, the

was breathtaking, I've never seen so many

really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like pure

that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I

muttered, staring at

it here; I whispered, lost in

for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you to tell

I finished.

up from his hands

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked,

gave me a

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

what people have told me before I was born my parents had the picture-perfect

had just boughten their first house with

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens

talked about her it was like she never

but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching

tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose

don't want to make him relive the pain he felt growing

her death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol,

but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me

the hospital for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't

living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes

start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that

time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch,

from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred

He shook his head.

her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to

the first time since Axel started talking about his past

and my heart shattered to a thousand

wrapping my arms around him, pulling

make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard

his broken

kinda suffocating

peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing away

your

to roll my

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is

head

what color your skin is, your

body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as

us before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us

teasingly, looking over

you? Never.’ He gave me a

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by

flooded my thoughts

help Camila.’ I

he was the only one who

have probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

let out a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger than

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

on her

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your