Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly

not exactly the answer I was

and I run right into his

he didn't budge any, he was like a cement

he had taken me to another

snapped to the ledge that was only a few

keeping

I think Axel noticed because he told

this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained to

the sky Angel,’

tore my eyes away from the ledge and forced them to

the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear

at least a million stars shining above me, the

breathtaking, I've never seen

really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere,

your mom

staring at

it here; I whispered, lost in

everything.’ He spoke, looking down at

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over at

you to tell

I finished.

head looking up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked, trying to

me a

to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows,

from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my

first house with

my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing a

are fuzzy because no one really talked about

but couldn't save her: I

me any more,’’ I whispered, I

want to make him relive the pain he felt growing

father turned to drugs

look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was

my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday

be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths when I

swinging pretty much every night.He

I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever

him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out

He shook his head.

when I walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off

the first time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked

my heart shattered to a thousand

found myself wrapping my arms around him,

there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so

If I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together

suffocating me,

tried peeling

I mumbled, instantly

did enjoy your body

to roll

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel

my head

color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you here

stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking about

before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make

smiled teasingly, looking over

with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered back to the sky, still

flooded my

you got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized

one

probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

nervous all over again, the sinking

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang got