Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly

the answer I was looking

right into his back from the untimely

any, he was like

looked around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher

eyes automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet away

down slightly, keeping a good

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed

my own fear, this was way worse than being on

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained

sky Angel,’ Axel

from the ledge and forced

of me, my stomach dropping fear

had to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting

breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in my

star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle

your mom and look at the stars,

staring

here; I whispered, lost

know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

over at

you to

I finished.

up from his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked,

me a

died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

have told me before I was born my parents had

church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with

into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing a

details are fuzzy because no one really talked about

saved me but couldn't save her:

have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose

don't want to make him relive the pain he felt

turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more

for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was

I was stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would

start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I

right back, so I started

and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was

He shook his head.

treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all

the first time since Axel started talking about his past

my heart shattered to a

around him, pulling my body close to

say to make him feel better so I just

his broken pieces back together and maybe

kinda suffocating me,

peeling himself

instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body

to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer is unforgiving”

my head agreeing

skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you here

leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly

us before I was born; I told

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make

looking over

Be friends with you? Never.’ He gave me a

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered back to the sky,

flooded my

got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and

the only one who could do

would have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger than

"He hit her Axel,"

my

bruises on

didn't you

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone