Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the rough

the answer I

right into his back from the untimely

he didn't budge any, he was

looked around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little

ledge that was only a

down slightly, keeping a good

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed because he

this was way worse than being on that glass walkway

my hand, sending me to the ground

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only

sky Angel,’ Axel

the ledge

sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced

least a million stars shining above me, the constellations

breathtaking, I've never seen

it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was

read that you use to go outside with your mom and

staring at

have loved it here; I whispered, lost in

know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down

you did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

over

you to

I finished.

nodded his head looking up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked, trying

a

me.’ Axel

people have told me before I

their first house with a baby boy on

pregnancy something

details are fuzzy because no one really talked

save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and unclenching

tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how

to make him relive the

drugs

the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he

my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I

with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me

to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much

so I started fighting back.I

and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights

He shook his head.

her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home

started talking about his past he finally looked up

and my heart shattered to a

arms around

could say to make him feel better so I just hugged

could put his

kinda suffocating

peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing away

enjoy your body on mine

winked causing me to roll my

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel

my head

old, what color your skin is, your choice

had stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional

dad left us before I was born; I told

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us

teasingly, looking over at

Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

in a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered

Camila flooded

got to help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized

the only one who could

probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a weird

over again, the sinking was back and stronger than

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

on her yesterday,’ I told

didn't you

Axel yelled, standing up.

life if anyone from your