Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in

the answer I was looking for’

run right into his back from

course, he didn't budge any, he was like a

taken me to another clearing, a little higher

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a

slightly, keeping a good distance away

and I think Axel noticed because he told

way worse than being

my hand, sending

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained

the sky Angel,’ Axel

away from the ledge

my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced with

had to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting

was breathtaking, I've never seen so

New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it

mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd

staring

it here; I whispered, lost in the balls

you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

you did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you to tell me

I finished.

nodded his head looking up from his hands to look straight passed

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

joked, trying to lighten

gave me a

mother died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight forward

what people have told

just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the way’

my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing a

talked

couldn't save her: I watched his jaw

have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose

to make him relive the pain he

turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt

product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at

not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived

his girlfriend at the time,

much every night.He

right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could,

him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like

He shook his head.

into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she

Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up to

my

myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling

feel better so I just hugged him

lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and maybe

suffocating

tried peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly backing away

your body on

causing me to

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel

head

are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion,

the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling

us before I was born; I told

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

smiled teasingly, looking over at

a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm in his

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered back

Camila flooded

Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized

he was the only one who

probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a

nervous all over again, the sinking was back

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

on her yesterday,’ I told

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang