Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the rough

the answer I was looking for’

stops walking and I run right into his back from

he didn't budge any, he was like

taken me to another clearing, a little higher than

eyes automatically snapped to the ledge that was only

down slightly, keeping a good

I think Axel

was way worse than being on that glass walkway

hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained to look

the sky

eyes away from the ledge and forced them to look

me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away

to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting the

was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in my

it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in

to go outside with your mom

muttered, staring

loved it here; I whispered,

sorry, for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

you did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

over at

you

I finished.

from his hands to look straight passed the

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten

just gave me a look and sighed

me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

people have told me before I

just boughten their first house with a

months into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing a

details are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it was like she

her: I watched his

whispered, I knew how it felt

make him relive the pain he felt growing

death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he

the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was

aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five

my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the

enough to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I didn't

bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite,

was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started

He shook his head.

were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to

time since Axel started talking about his past he finally

eyes were watery and my

myself wrapping my arms around

him feel better so I just hugged him as hard as

was lucky I could put his broken pieces back

suffocating

tried peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing away

enjoy your body on mine

winked causing me to roll

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

nodded my head agreeing with

skin is, your choice in religion,

stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did

before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

smiled teasingly, looking

Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm in his

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered

flooded my

Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized

he was the only one who

have probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

let out a breath feeling nervous all over again,

"He hit her Axel,"

my

the bruises on her yesterday,’

you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your