Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the rough

answer I was looking for’

right

any,

saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where

automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a

looking down slightly, keeping

I think Axel noticed because

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being

gently on my hand, sending

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained

the sky Angel,’

away from the ledge and forced

sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear

had to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting

seen so many stars in

star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere,

that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like

muttered, staring at

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost

He spoke, looking down at his

wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

over

want you to tell me

I finished.

nodded his head looking up from his hands

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked,

a look and sighed

to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight forward

I gather from pictures and from what people have told

just boughten their first house with

mom's pregnancy something happens

are fuzzy because no one really talked about

they saved me but couldn't save her: I

don't have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

relive

father turned to drugs and

think it was more of the fact every

after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me

father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give

the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I didn't deserve to

bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but

visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses

He shook his head.

her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my

Axel started talking about his past he

my heart shattered to a

myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body

say to make him feel better so

If I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and maybe mine

kinda suffocating me,

peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing away

your

to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

cancer

head agreeing

color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need you

had stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking

before I was born; I told

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us friends

teasingly, looking over

you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed

Camila flooded my

Camila.’ I rushed out and

one who could do something

have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a

a breath feeling nervous all over again, the

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

on her yesterday,’ I told

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from