Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly

I

walking and I run right into his back from the

any, he was like a cement

saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than

that was

slightly, keeping

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed because

fear, this was way worse than

hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained

the sky Angel,’

from the ledge and forced

sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed

least a million stars shining above

breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in

gaze with all city lights but here, in the

that you use to go outside with your mom and look at

staring at

it here; I whispered, lost

know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down

did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

still want you to

I finished.

head looking up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

from the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

me a look and

to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

what I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I

they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on

into my mom's pregnancy something happens

because no one really talked about her it was like

saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started

I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

want to make him relive the pain

death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol,

me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more

not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford taking care of

for his girlfriend at

swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying

started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was

think I was around eight.I was in and out what

He shook his head.

kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt

started talking about his past he finally looked up

were watery and my

found myself wrapping my arms around

him feel better so I just

was lucky I could put his broken pieces

suffocating

tried peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly backing away

your body

winked causing me to roll

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is unforgiving”

my head

color your skin is, your choice in religion,

stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I

dad left us before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make

smiled teasingly, looking over at

friends with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

eyes wandered back

Camila flooded my

help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized

the only one who could

would have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

let out a breath feeling nervous all over

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

bruises on her

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

her with Angelo’s life if anyone from