Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the rough

answer I was looking for’

I run right into his back from the untimely

budge any, he was like a cement

and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a

eyes automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few feet

looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away from the

breathing was labored and I think Axel noticed because

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained to look

at the sky Angel,’

from the ledge

of me, my stomach dropping fear

stars shining above me, the

seen so many stars

all city lights but here, in the

your mom

muttered, staring at

loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls of

sorry, for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

still want you

I finished.

head looking up from his hands to look straight passed

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

me a look

birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my parents had the

promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy

my mom's pregnancy something happens to her, causing

really talked about her

couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and unclenching

any more,’’ I whispered, I knew

to make him relive the pain he felt

my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he

look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of

my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with

I was stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths when I really needed

much every night.He would scream at me

me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but

visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses

He shook his head.

walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my

the first time since Axel started talking about his

my heart

arms around him, pulling my body close to

knew there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard

lucky I could put his broken

kinda suffocating

tried peeling himself

instantly backing away from

did enjoy your

causing me to roll

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel

nodded my head

or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people

4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking

us before I was

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make

smiled teasingly, looking

you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by

flooded

help Camila.’ I

one

have probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and stronger

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

bruises on her yesterday,’ I

didn't you

Axel yelled, standing up.

threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your