Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the rough

the answer I was looking

I run right into

didn't budge any, he

taken me to another clearing,

to the ledge that was

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance

labored and I think Axel noticed

own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in

sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained to

the sky

tore my eyes away from the ledge and forced them

in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced with

million stars shining above me, the constellations

never seen so many

it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like pure

that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I

muttered, staring

whispered, lost

know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at his

did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

want you

I finished.

nodded his head looking up from his hands

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked,

me a look

giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows,

what people have told me before I was

church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a

into my mom's pregnancy something happens to her,

one really talked about her it

saved me but couldn't save her: I

tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew

to make him relive the pain he felt growing

drugs and alcohol, he felt like God betrayed

seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact

see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until

stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time,

pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I

right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he

him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and wouldn't listen to

He shook his head.

and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to

talking about his past he finally

and my heart shattered to a

found myself wrapping my arms around him,

say to make him feel better so I just

could put his broken pieces back together and

kinda suffocating me,

tried peeling

instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body on mine

causing me to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

cancer

my head agreeing

color your skin is, your choice in religion, or

to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as

left us before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

does this make us friends

smiled teasingly, looking over at

Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm in his

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered back to the

Camila flooded

I rushed out and

the only one who could do something about

would have probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

the bruises on her yesterday,’ I

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your