Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the rough

exactly the answer I was looking for’ I said

stops walking and I run right into his back from the

didn't budge any, he

he had taken me to another

eyes automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few

thinned looking down slightly, keeping

I think Axel noticed because he told me

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only trained

at the sky Angel,’

from the ledge and

my stomach dropping

to be at least a million stars shining

was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in

all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like pure

to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I

muttered, staring at

whispered, lost in

everything.’ He

wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over

still want you to tell me

I finished.

looking up from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

me a look and

me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

from pictures and from what people have told me

even had just boughten their first house

my mom's pregnancy something happens to

are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it was like she never

saved me but couldn't save her: I

I whispered, I knew how it

want to make him relive the pain he felt growing

turned to drugs and

it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was

months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and

girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths when

much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I didn't deserve

tried running away multiple time but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could,

and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the

He shook his head.

eleven when I walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she

first time since Axel started talking about his past he

were watery and my heart shattered to

arms around him, pulling my body close

could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard

was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and maybe

kinda suffocating me,

tried peeling

instantly backing

your body on mine

causing me to roll my

Stupid Axel.

cancer is unforgiving”

nodded my head agreeing with

is, your choice in religion,

4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually

us before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

teasingly, looking

with you? Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed

flooded my

help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized

one who could do something about

would have probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

feeling nervous all over

"He hit her Axel,"

my

on her yesterday,’ I

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang