Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the

the answer I was

and I run right into his back from

he didn't budge any, he was like a

saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than where the bonfire

snapped to the ledge that was only a

down slightly, keeping a good distance away from the

think Axel

I was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that

hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only

sky Angel,’ Axel said

the

in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was

a million stars shining

I've never seen so many

to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was

that you use to go outside with your mom and

muttered, staring

I whispered, lost

for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking down at

wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

want you to tell

I finished.

from his hands to

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked, trying to lighten

gave me a look and

giving birth to me.’ Axel

I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I

had just boughten their first house

into my mom's pregnancy something

are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it

but couldn't save her: I watched his

don't have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it

don't want to make him relive the pain he felt growing

my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

devil, but I think it was more of the fact

was in the hospital for 3 months after my premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I

his girlfriend at the time,

was old enough to start school, that's when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He

police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting

and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out

He shook his head.

eleven when I walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She

about his past he finally

watery and my

arms around him, pulling my body close to

knew there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as

could put his broken pieces back

kinda suffocating me,

tried peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly backing away from

did enjoy your body

causing me to

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is

nodded my head agreeing

if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people

to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking about my

before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make us friends

smiled teasingly, looking over at

gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm in his

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

wandered back to the

flooded

to help Camila.’ I rushed out

the only one

would have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

over again, the sinking was back

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’

you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone from your