Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in

answer I was looking for’

and I run right into his back from the

he didn't budge any,

had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than

snapped to the ledge that was only a

breath thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away from

Axel noticed

this was way worse than

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to the

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only trained to look

the sky Angel,’ Axel

eyes away from the ledge and forced them

the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away

had to be at least a million stars shining above me, the

I've never seen so many stars in my

to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in

your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd

staring at

loved it here; I whispered, lost in the

He

you did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over at

you to tell

I finished.

from his hands to look straight passed

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked,

just gave me a look

giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking

from pictures and from what people have told me before I was

they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the

something happens to her, causing

one really talked

saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw

whispered,

to make him relive the

drugs and alcohol, he felt like God

the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he

was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got

father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and

much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed

would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but

I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and wouldn't

He shook his head.

treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my

talking about his past he finally

were watery and my heart shattered to a

my arms around him, pulling my body

wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as

If I was lucky I could put his broken pieces

suffocating me,

tried peeling

instantly

did enjoy your

me to roll my

Stupid Axel.

your mom, cancer is

head agreeing

old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that

explained, surprisingly not feeling as

us before I was

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

teasingly, looking

Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to

when Camila flooded

to help Camila.’ I rushed

only one who could do something

have probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a

feeling nervous all over again, the

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

saw the bruises on her yesterday,’ I told

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if