Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in the rough

not exactly the answer I

Axel stops walking and I run right into his back

course, he didn't budge any,

around and saw that he had taken me to another clearing, a little

ledge that was only a few

down slightly, keeping a good

and I think Axel noticed

in my own fear, this was way worse than

on my hand, sending me to the ground where he

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained to look

at the sky

from the ledge and forced them to look

gaped at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and

million stars shining above me, the constellations painting

view was breathtaking, I've never seen

New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like pure

your mom and look at the stars, I thought

muttered, staring

have loved it here; I whispered, lost in

you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

you did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over

want you to tell

I finished.

looking up from his hands to look straight passed

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

the beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten

me a look and sighed

mother died giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight forward

have told

their first house with a baby boy on the

mom's pregnancy something happens to

one really talked about her it was like she never

story short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started

to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to

relive the

turned to drugs and

I think it was more of

premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I

if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths when I really

come home swinging pretty much

would just bring me right back, so I started fighting

and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in

He shook his head.

tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home

since Axel started talking about his past he

were watery and my heart shattered

around him, pulling my body close to

wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I

If I was lucky I could put his

kinda suffocating me,

peeling himself

I mumbled, instantly backing

your body

causing me to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer

nodded my head

care if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that need

medication; I explained,

before I was

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us

teasingly, looking over at

He gave me a dirty look but

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed by the

Camila flooded

you got to help Camila.’ I rushed out

one who could do something

probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

out a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back and

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

on her yesterday,’ I told

didn't you

Axel yelled, standing up.

life if anyone