Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the rough

I was looking

walking and I run right into his back from the untimely

didn't budge any, he was like a

looked around and saw that he had taken me to another

to the ledge that was only a few feet away

keeping a

was labored and I think Axel noticed because

was way worse than being on that glass walkway

my hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained to look

the sky Angel,’

the ledge and forced

of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and

to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting the night

view was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars

it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like pure

your mom and look at the stars, I thought

muttered, staring at

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost

everything.’ He

wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you to tell me

I finished.

his head looking up from his hands to look straight

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked, trying to lighten the

a look and

giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight

told me before I was born my

they even had just boughten their first house with a

pregnancy something happens to her,

really talked about her it was like she never

story short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started

tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

make him relive the pain he felt

her death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt like

at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more

was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until

dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even

began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster, I

but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch

I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights

He shook his head.

Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does to

since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up to

eyes were watery and my heart shattered to

arms around him, pulling my body close to

feel better so I just hugged

could put his broken pieces back together and maybe mine

suffocating me,

tried peeling

instantly backing

did enjoy your body

causing me to roll my

Stupid Axel.

cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

my head

if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or

the medication; I explained, surprisingly

left us before

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us friends

looking

gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm in

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to the sky, still amazed

flooded my

got to help Camila.’ I

one who could do something

probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me

let out a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

bruises on her yesterday,’ I

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone