Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly

the answer I was looking for’ I

walking and I run right into

any, he was

to another clearing, a

eyes automatically snapped to the ledge that was only a few

slightly, keeping a good distance away from

labored and I think Axel noticed because he told

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse

hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only

sky Angel,’ Axel

my eyes away from the ledge and forced them to look

me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was

a million stars shining above

seen so many stars in

city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like

mom and

staring at

whispered, lost in the balls

for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

you did wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

over

want you

I finished.

up from his hands

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked,

just gave me a

Axel furrowed his

from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my parents had

they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the way’

into my mom's pregnancy something happens

because no one really talked about her it

story short they saved me but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started

don't have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt

make him relive the pain he felt

to drugs and alcohol, he felt like God betrayed

look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of

only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I

wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths

began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I

me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and

hospital visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem kid"that started fights and wouldn't listen to

He shook his head.

I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still

time since Axel started talking about his past he

were watery and my heart shattered to a thousand

wrapping my arms around him, pulling

wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard as

was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and maybe

kinda suffocating me,

peeling himself

instantly backing away from

your body

to roll my

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer

my head agreeing

color your skin is,

her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as

us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make

smiled teasingly, looking over at

me a dirty look

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered back to

Camila flooded

I

was the only one who

have probably gone to Axel

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

nervous all over again, the sinking was back and

"He hit her Axel,"

my

the bruises on

didn't you

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your gang got