Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly

I

stops walking and I run right into his

course, he didn't budge any, he

me to another clearing, a little higher

the ledge that was only a few feet

thinned looking down slightly, keeping a good distance away

Axel noticed because he told me

was frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being

yanked gently on my hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

only trained

at the sky Angel,’ Axel

away from the ledge and forced

me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and

at least a million stars shining above me,

view was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars

really star gaze with all city lights but here, in

that you use to go outside with your mom and look at the

muttered, staring

it here; I whispered, lost in the balls

know, everything.’ He

did wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

still want you to tell me

I finished.

up from his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying to lighten the

just gave me a

me.’ Axel furrowed his

pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my parents

church, promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house

something

details are fuzzy because no one really talked about

couldn't save her: I watched his jaw

any more,’’ I whispered,

don't want to make him relive the

her death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol,

me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me

premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and couldn't afford

stuck living with my father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at

would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was a monster,

just bring me right back, so I started fighting

around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was

He shook his head.

was eleven when I walked into Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never

Axel started talking about his past he finally looked up

my heart

wrapping my arms around him, pulling my body

there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I

was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and

kinda suffocating

peeling himself

mumbled, instantly backing away

enjoy your body on

causing me to

Stupid Axel.

about your mom, cancer

my head agreeing

you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in

medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I

us before I was born;

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make

smiled teasingly, looking over at

Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered

flooded my

help Camila.’ I rushed out and instantly realized my

the only one who could do

probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me a

over again, the sinking was back and

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

bruises on

didn't you tell me

Axel yelled, standing up.

her with Angelo’s life