Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

effortlessly in the

the answer I was looking for’ I

and I run right into his

any, he

and saw that he had taken me to another

to the ledge that was only a few feet away

keeping a

I think Axel

own fear, this was way worse than

gently on my hand, sending me to the ground where

"Look up.’ He whispered.

my eyes were only trained to

sky Angel,’ Axel said

the

in front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was replaced with

a million stars

I've never seen so many stars in my

star gaze with all city lights but here, in

you use to go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd like

muttered, staring at

here; I whispered, lost in the balls of exploding

know, everything.’ He

you did wasn't okay.’

"But, I forgive you."

looked over at

want you to

I finished.

nodded his head looking up from his

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked, trying to lighten the

gave me a

Axel

gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born my

careers, they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy on the way’ Axel laughed

pregnancy something

really talked about her it was like she

but couldn't save her: I watched his jaw started clenching and

have to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose a

relive the pain he felt

death, my father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt

me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked

me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when

I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed

when the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at

back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch

taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the "problem

He shook his head.

Rose's life, Rylan and I were her first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off

first time since Axel started talking about his past he finally looked

watery and my heart shattered to

arms around him, pulling my body

him feel better so I just hugged

put his

kinda suffocating

peeling

I mumbled, instantly backing

did enjoy your body on

me to roll my

Stupid Axel.

about your mom, cancer

nodded my head agreeing

skin is, your choice in religion, or the

I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually

us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make

teasingly, looking

friends with you? Never.’ He gave me a

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

a comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to

flooded

help Camila.’ I rushed

was the only one

have probably gone to

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

me a weird

all over again, the sinking

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my

saw the bruises on

you tell

Axel yelled, standing up.

he threatened her with Angelo’s life if anyone from your