Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

striding effortlessly in the rough

exactly the answer I was looking for’ I

walking and I run right into his

any, he was like a cement

to

ledge that was only a few feet away from

looking down slightly, keeping

and I think Axel noticed because he

fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway

hand, sending me

"Look up.’ He whispered.

eyes were only trained to

at the sky

the ledge and forced

gaped at the sight in front of me, my stomach dropping

had to be at least a million stars

view was breathtaking, I've never seen so many stars in my

all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere,

mom and look at the stars, I thought

muttered, staring at

here; I whispered, lost

sorry, for you know, everything.’ He spoke, looking

wasn't okay.’ I

"But, I forgive you."

over

still want you to

I finished.

from his hands to look

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

beginning’ I joked, trying

just gave me a look

me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight forward

I gather from pictures and from what people have told me before I was born

promising careers, they even had just boughten their first house

something happens to her, causing a

details are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it was like

but couldn't save her: I watched

to tell me any more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt

to make him relive the

father turned to drugs and alcohol, he felt

look at me without seeing the product of the devil, but I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he

premature birth and he never came to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I was five until she got pregnant herself and

father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would feed me and even sometimes give me baths when I really needed

the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife,

police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch,

the third hospital visit I was taken away from him and put into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was the

He shook his head.

break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does to this

about his past he

were watery and my heart shattered to a

my arms around him, pulling my body

wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so I just hugged him as hard

I was lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and maybe

suffocating

peeling

I mumbled, instantly backing away

did enjoy your body on

winked causing me to roll my eyes at

Stupid Axel.

mom, cancer is unforgiving” Axel spoke

head agreeing with

care if you are young or old, what color your skin is, your choice in religion, or the people that

had stage 4 leukemia, her body stopped reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking

before I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

make us friends

teasingly, looking over at

Never.’ He gave me a dirty look but I heard the sarcasm

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

my eyes wandered

flooded

Camila.’ I

one who

probably

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

out a breath feeling nervous all over again,

"He hit her Axel,"

whispered, my voice

bruises on her yesterday,’ I told

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

with Angelo’s life if anyone