Mated With Five Boys

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them.Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it"- Rabindranath Tagore 

"What are you doing here?"

I quickly looked over, my panic fading.

"Making sure you stay out of trouble? Axel smirked over at me, the light from the flames bouncing off his face.

"I don't need a babysitter.’ I huffed out, looking away from him and at the fire.

"That's debatable."

He grunted.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I asked, slightly offended.

"This place is crawling with Noah's men” He said lowly, his eyes focusing on the ground.

"You were worried about me."

I teased, looking over at him.

"Don't go getting a big head, it's not like we are friends or anything.'' He chuckled which caused his laugh lines to show.

"Right because you haven't spilled your guts yet"

I reminded him, Axel just rolled his eyes in response.

"Well, what do we have here?"

Axel's voice was laced with amusement.

My eyes followed to where Axel was looking and that's when I saw Kina and Rylan irrupting from the darkness the woods, holding hands.

Well that dirty scoundrel, no wonder I couldn't find him! I instantly jumped up to my feet at the sight of Rylan, I need his help with Camila.

If things were different I'd probably be more happy for him and Kina, but this was life or death.

"Woah, Woah, Woah."

Axel jumped up.

"Where are you going?"

He asked standing in front of me, blocking my path.

"Move, I need to talk to Rylan; I stated, trying to step around him but he just moved with me causing me to let out an irritated breath.

"You got me instead."

Axel huffed, his eyes turning into slits.

"I can't tell you! You've got to move, the longer I wait the worse it's going to get."

I wanted to smack his chest but I didn't.

"What are you talking about?"

His eyes searched my face looking for answers.

"Move!"

I hissed, stomping my foot on the dirt.

"Come with me first."

He stated, his eyes holding a mysterious glint.

"I can't"

I couldn't control the whine that escaped my throat.

"Please Mia.’ Axel's eyes bored into mine, his dark irises swirling with different emotions.

I looked over at Rylan and saw him laughing at something Kina had said, her eyes were shining bright with content.

I'll let them have just a few more moments of happiness.

I looked back over at Axel and gave in, I couldn't say no the look on his face.

"Just a few minutes, okay?"

I told him.

He nodded his head in agreement, grabbing my hand and hauling me somewhere into the darkness of the woods.

My hand tingled something that happened often when Axel touched me.

I followed Axel blindly into the tall trees, slapping branches out from my face from time to time.

I could barely see anything with the treetops blocking out most of the moonlight which caused me to stumble on fallen branches.

I now understand why everyone falls in horror movies, they can't freaking see anything.

"Where are we going?"

I asked him.

"We're almost there"

stated, striding effortlessly in the

not exactly the answer I was looking

walking and I run right into

he didn't budge any, he

had taken me to another clearing, a little higher than

the ledge that was only a few feet away from

keeping

was labored and I think Axel noticed because

frozen in my own fear, this was way worse than being on that glass walkway in the

my hand, sending me to

"Look up.’ He whispered.

were only

at the sky Angel,’

tore my eyes away from the ledge and forced them to look

front of me, my stomach dropping fear suddenly washed away and was

had to be at least a million stars shining above me, the constellations painting the night

never seen so

in New York, it's hard to really star gaze with all city lights but here, in the middle of nowhere, it was like

go outside with your mom and look at the stars, I thought you'd

muttered, staring

would have loved it here; I whispered, lost in the balls

everything.’ He spoke, looking down at

wasn't

"But, I forgive you."

over

want you to tell

I finished.

his hands

"Where do I begin?"

He thought out loud.

I joked, trying to

me a look and sighed

giving birth to me.’ Axel furrowed his eyebrows, looking straight forward

from what people have told me before I was

they even had just boughten their first house with a baby boy

my mom's pregnancy something happens to her,

details are fuzzy because no one really talked about her it was

me but couldn't save her: I

more,’’ I whispered, I knew how it felt to lose

him relive

her death, my father turned to drugs

I think it was more of the fact every time he looked at me he was reminded of

to see me, not once.I only know because my aunt, my mother's sister, was there everyday and she told me when I was older.I lived with my aunt until I

father, I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for his girlfriend at the time, she would

the beatings began.He would get wasted and come home swinging pretty much every night.He would scream at me saying I killed his wife, that I was

but police would just bring me right back, so I started fighting back.I would punch, kick, bite, and scratch whatever I could, but he was just too

into foster care, I think I was around eight.I was in and out what felt like hundred houses because I was

He shook his head.

first foster kids.I treated her like shit, I tried to break her, make her ship me off to another home but she never did.She dealt with all my bullshit and still does

about his past he

were watery and my heart shattered to

found myself wrapping my arms around him, pulling

there wasn't anything I could say to make him feel better so

lucky I could put his broken pieces back together and

kinda suffocating

tried peeling

mumbled, instantly

enjoy your body

me to roll my eyes

Stupid Axel.

sorry about your mom, cancer is

nodded my head agreeing

is, your choice in religion, or the

reacting to the medication; I explained, surprisingly not feeling as emotional as I usually did talking about my

my dad left us before I was born; I

"That's so fucked"

He said angrily.

this make

looking

gave me a dirty look but

"You're right, that's absurd."

I played along.

comfortable silence, my eyes wandered back to

flooded my

you got to help Camila.’ I rushed out

the only one who could do something about

probably gone

"And Angelo."

I put in.

"Why?"

gave me

out a breath feeling nervous all over again, the sinking was back

"He hit her Axel,"

my voice

saw the bruises on

you

Axel yelled, standing up.

life if anyone from your gang got