Mated With Five Boys

"I thought about how there are two types of secrets: the kind you want to keep in, and the kind you don't dare to let out"- Ally Carter 

English the next day still in shock after what Camila had told me.

Noah threatened her with Angelo's life, what kind of monster does that? I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place, the only person I knew who could handle this situation couldn't be told, not like I would want to talk to him anyway.

I thought about going to Rylan or even Rose but I'm not sure how much good it would do, it would just put them in danger.

Even if we did somehow stop Noah who's to say another one of his guys would start where he left off? But I couldn't sit around and let Camila be punching bag either.

I remember her saying that Noah wasn't going to stop sending people after me and from what I saw the other night I believed her.

I was terrified to leave my room and I constantly felt like I was being watched.

Axel said I should tell Samantha that I can't take the job, which I considered doing, but then I remember it was Axel who said it and instantly disagreed.

If I get enough money I could buy a plane ticket back to New York, sure I'll be homeless but at least I wouldn't have to worry about gangs or looking over my shoulder everywhere I go.

Mrs.Porter was rambling about some literature assignment that was due next week.

I tried paying attention to her but between everything that was going on in my head and the intense stare that I knew was coming from Axel, I couldn't really concentrate.

I knew that the unwavering stare was coming for him because for the past day that's all he has been doing.

It's quite creepy really.

I could tell he has been stepping on eggshells around me ever since he read my journal.

He probably didn't know if I was going to scream at him or break down in tears.

The truth is I could yell at Axel until I was red in the face but it would do no good, the damage is done, I was never one to cry over spilled milk.

Unless it was chocolate.

Now that Axel has read my journal he's acting differently around me now, he asks me if I need rides to school or if I want him to wait in my room until I fall asleep.

Of course, I decline and tell him to leave me alone but that doesn't stop him from acting like I'm fine china or something.

It honestly makes me feel worse, I don't need his or anybody's else pity.

I didn't write those things down for attention or to show off how miserable my life was.

I psychically cringed thinking about the things Axel most had read in that book.

I'll admit some things in that journal are a little over dramatic even though they're all true events but I guess when you're that sad, no inconvenience is a minor inconvenience.

When it's one disaster after another you stop looking at it as a bad day but more as the world is out to get you.

I remember waking up most days feeling so sad that I forgot what it's like not to be and now thinking back on it, isn't that the sad part? From the age of seven, all the way until I was fifteen was when I shrugged the most with my panic attacks, at first it was over normal things people were nervous about like public speaking, meeting new people or even the dark.

But slowly and surely the triggers were over smaller events like people looking at me for a millisecond too long, people raising their voices even if it was direct towards me or even what I was going to have for dinner that night.

I felt like I was fighting for my life every day, my seven year old self didn't know then how to control my breathing or not to focus on the constricting of my rib cage.

I wanted to ask what was happening to me but I learned at young age that just because somethings happen doesn't mean we talk about it.

It might make someone uncomfortable.

I also learned at a young age to not have compassion for anyone that doesn't outrage.

"Mr.Deacon, what are you doing?"

Said Mrs.Porter, bring me out of my thoughts.

I looked over my shoulder towards Axel's desk, curious as to what she was talking about.

That's when I noticed Axel marching straight at me.

My eyes widen when he grabbed my wrist and pulled me towards the classroom door.

"Mr.Deacon you cannot just leave class!"

Mrs.Porter yelled.

Axel stopped walk and turned to face her, his expression was annoyed and unbothered.

"Do you ever shut up?"

He asked, giving her an irritated look.

I gasp slightly and practically pleaded with her to stop him with my eyes but she did nothing but gape at him as he pulled me into the hallway.

"You can't talk to a teacher that way!"

I hissed at him.

"We need to talk."

He ignored my statement which made me roll my eyes.

"Are you ready to tell me what I want to know?"

I asked, raising my eyebrows at him.

"Of course not."

He shook his head.

about; I said, turning to walk

a minute would

huffed, grabbing

"Don't.touch.me."

but Axel

hate me forever Angel.’

pulling his hand off of

are you

hallway towards one the guys I recognize seeing the night at the

before returning

I asked him.

making my head spin and it took all the willpower I

"Fine"

said through gritted

"Fine, what?"

snapped

tell you whatever you want to know He sighed

"Really?"

I said in shock.

tingled when Axel pressed his body into mine, making my back hit

brown eyes searched mine, I wasn't sure what he was trying to find and I

me something.’ He whispered

"What's that?"

trying not

to promise you'll

down

in a dazed state, looking at his lips, which I instantly snapped myself

your childhood then we will be even and we can go back to not being friends instead of enemies,’ I told him, standing up a

rising to my cheeks when Axel rested his forehead against mine, I wanted to curse myself for enjoying

of the people in the world, of course, it had to be Axel Deacon who made my stomach lurch

are you doing to me,

whispered so low that I don't think I was supposed to hear

desire to push Axel away from

because I had no clue what I should say in a situation like

struggle I felt

I wasn't

Axel back way slightly but I could still feel his breath

ignore him and focus on the message that Wyatt

are you in? My immediate thoughts were no, I wasn't going to some random bonfire but when Axel snatched my phone out of my hands and

can't tell me

I huffed out.

"I said no Mia"

his eyes at me, almost daring

you say.’ I felt the

clench his jaw, obviously not

being so serious but I didn't think that would had been

pain in the ass, do you

sound annoyed but I saw the amusement in his

a pain everywhere

I rolled my eyes.

shaking his head at me, I couldn't help the smile that erupted on my face,

though, you're

was long gone from

"Yes, I am."

gave him a

there will be too many

said through

"I'm going, Axel."

narrowed my eyes at

around all the time Mia! I have shit I need to

blazing

asked you

rumbled lowly, his eyes turned hard and

something but right as his lips parted the bell rang

chance to slip

to get my bag

apologized for Axel's lack of social skills and for causing

you with a small smile

was grateful not to find Axel waiting for me, that boy is getting me into more trouble by

would go to this stupid bonfire, all because

Stupid Axel.

CAROLINE! BUMP BUMP

at the top of his lungs, dancing in

he would reach up and pinch Phoenix cheeks, who was driving

NEVER SEEMED

He continued.

the scene in front of me, I think Wyatt was trying to annoy him but it

INCLINED!

from beside me, reaching

THEY NEVER

They sang in unison.

six o'clock and after Wyatt had a five-minute temper tantrum, he demanded that I rode

with Rylan, Kina, and Angelo but Wyatt was having