Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

shifted

let me apologise

sorry,” He said, and I

use that

again, and I know you will, so don’t bother,” I told

feel his

“Please, Tamia.

isn’t easy on

tears welling up in his

I was ashamed.

looked at me with disgust, and I couldn’t

left my luna alone and went to make out with a stranger, just because fate willed

not have the intention of touching

to tell her

wanted to risk being

will cost me a lot, but

was okay with you being my strength, Tamia,

do it, and

thinking I would go to the Whitewood pack and reject her, but

because the feeling is

me out.” He said and went to his knees and hugged my legs

know what to do, my

I am confused.

should have just stayed home as you insisted, but I had to honour Casper’s invite,” he said and

I had never seen him cry or show this amount of vulnerability and

He was perplexed.

messed up our

judgment, I ran my finger’s through his hair to calm him down, but I doubted my touch would ever be enough

looked up at me and stood

me

will find a

I will fight it.

will stay away from

Tamia,” he said, making promises that I knew he wouldn’t be able

him, knowing my blissful life with him was

stories of other lunas this had happened to, I had to find a

have to prepare my mind to share him with

way his wolf would want to stay away or

him touch me

rather be without his touch than for him to touch me

on me, Tamia, please,” He pleaded with me sensing my

already given up on

share like the other Alphas,

it,” he

believe him, but I could not dispute the fact that he meant

the evening, and I dreaded having discussions with the lunas

by now that Leo was fated to

about people seeing Leo with

he tore the

no way to hide an incident, especially when the

are you handling it, Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent Pack

the same predicament

her husband and

his fated because he knew it would weaken

she has been a

to be brave,

It won’t get better.

went cold

pups, and it is almost as

meetings,” She

I wished he was an ordinary pack member,

but unfortunately for us, they

we

no one would deem us worthy of fighting

you manage?” I asked her, and she

so neither of us feels pain

happy with flings and

really sticks around, and even though they claim to love me, they never try to challenge

affair and move on,” She said and drank

know?” I