Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

shifted to

apologise to you,

He said, and I

that

won’t do it again, and I know you will, so don’t bother,” I

could feel

“Please, Tamia.

easy on

tears welling up in his eyes,

I was ashamed.

looked at me with disgust, and I couldn’t

luna alone and went to make out with a stranger, just because fate

the intention of touching

wanted to tell her it wouldn’t

wanted to risk being weak and reject

me a lot, but I

with you being my strength,

it, and I still

up this morning thinking I would go to the Whitewood pack

explain why because the feeling is alien to me,

help me out.” He said and went to his

what

I am confused.

should have just stayed home as you insisted, but I had to honour Casper’s invite,” he said and

I had known Leo, I had never seen him

He was perplexed.

had messed

calm him down, but I doubted my touch would ever

at me

held me to his

will find

I will fight it.

stay

he said, making promises that I knew

my blissful life

the stories of other lunas this had happened to, I

mind to

would

could never let him touch me again because I knew he would do it out

case, I would rather be without his touch than for him to touch

not give up on me, Tamia, please,” He pleaded with me sensing

can I when fate has already given up on us?” I

make you share like the other Alphas,

fight it,” he said, and

I could not dispute the fact that he meant what

in the evening, and I dreaded having discussions with the lunas

now that Leo was fated to Amanda, and they had

heard pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with Amanda on the balcony

he tore the top of

incident, especially when the woman had to leave the balcony looking

luna Linda of the Brent Pack asked me, and I

the same

with her

his fated because he knew it would

it, and she has been a miserable drunk

need to be

It won’t get better.

bed went cold two years

it is almost as if I am not in

She said and took

an ordinary pack member, not

us, they have to reject us or

way, we

are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of fighting for.” She

I asked her,

of us feels pain when

happy with flings and

and even though they claim to love me,

I just enjoy the affair and move on,” She said and drank more

I asked, and she