Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

shifted to

me apologise to you,

and I

that word carelessly,

I know you will,

feel his

“Please, Tamia.

easy on me,

with tears welling up in his eyes, “I felt

I was ashamed.

looked at me with disgust, and I couldn’t

and went to make out with a stranger, just because

have the

wanted to tell

wanted to risk being weak and reject

will cost me a lot,

with you being my strength, Tamia,

it, and

up this morning thinking I would go to the Whitewood pack and reject her,

because the feeling is alien to me, but

to his knees and hugged my legs while he

know what to

I am confused.

just stayed home as you insisted, but I

I had known Leo, I had never seen him cry

He was perplexed.

had messed up our

calm him down, but I doubted my touch would ever be enough

at me and

held me

find a way,

I will fight it.

will stay away from

Tamia,” he said, making promises that I knew he wouldn’t

hugged him, knowing my blissful life with him

of other lunas this had happened to, I had to

prepare my mind to share

no way his wolf would want to stay away or

willing as I was to try, I could never let him touch me again because I

touch than for him to touch

up on me, Tamia, please,” He pleaded

has already given up on us?” I said, looking at

share like the other Alphas,

fight it,” he said, and I

but I could not

the security meeting in the evening, and I dreaded having discussions with the lunas

by now that Leo was fated to Amanda, and

pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with Amanda

heard he tore the top of her

was no way to hide an incident, especially when the woman

Tamia?” luna Linda of the

in the same predicament

living with her husband

fated because

made Linda agree to it, and she has been a miserable drunk ever

need to be brave,

It won’t get better.

bed went cold two years

it is almost as if I am not in

good for, meetings,” She

I wished he was an ordinary pack

us, they have to reject us or someone stronger challenge

way, we

it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem

I asked her,

of us feels pain when they are together

just make myself happy with

even though they claim to love me,

just enjoy the affair and move on,”

know?” I