Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

been shifted to this

me apologise to you,

am sorry,” He said, and I

that word

and I know you will, so don’t bother,”

could feel his

“Please, Tamia.

easy

his eyes, “I felt like a fool last

I was ashamed.

looked at me with disgust, and I

left my luna alone and went to make out with a stranger,

did not have the intention

wanted to tell her it wouldn’t

risk being

lot, but I will

was okay with you being my strength,

couldn’t do it, and

this morning thinking I would go to the Whitewood pack

cannot explain why because the feeling is alien to me, but I can’t,

and went to his knees

don’t know what to do, my

I am confused.

just stayed home as you insisted, but I had to honour Casper’s invite,” he said

had known Leo, I had never seen him cry or show

He was perplexed.

messed up

better judgment, I ran my finger’s through his hair to calm him

at

me to his

find a

I will fight it.

will stay away

I

him, knowing my blissful

stories of other lunas this had happened to, I had to find a way to make it

have to prepare my mind to

no way his wolf would want

I could never let him touch me again because

touch than for him

please,” He

when fate has already given up on us?” I said,

won’t make you share

will fight it,” he said, and I

not believe him, but I could not

the evening, and I dreaded having discussions with the

by now that Leo was fated to Amanda, and

people seeing Leo with Amanda on the

the top of

incident, especially when the woman had to leave the balcony looking

are you handling it, Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent Pack asked

the

was living with her husband

fated because he knew

Linda agree to it, and she has been a miserable

need to be brave,

It won’t get better.

cold two years

it is almost as if

I am ever good for, meetings,” She said and took a huge gulp of her

an

and move on, but unfortunately for us, they have to reject us

way, we

won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of fighting for.” She said, spelling out a truth I had known for

do you manage?” I asked her,

fate, so neither of us feels pain when they

make myself happy with flings

around, and even though they claim

just enjoy the affair and move on,” She said and

he know?” I