Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

has been shifted to this

let me apologise to you,

He said, and

that word

you will, so don’t bother,” I told him, and he

feel

“Please, Tamia.

isn’t easy on me,

with tears welling up in his

I was ashamed.

with disgust, and I

my luna alone and went to make out with a stranger, just

not have the intention of

to tell her it

being weak

a lot, but I

you being my strength, Tamia, but I

couldn’t do it,

to the Whitewood

because the feeling is alien to me,

help me out.” He said and went to his knees and hugged

know what

I am confused.

as you insisted, but I

Leo, I had never seen him

He was perplexed.

had messed up our

better judgment, I ran my finger’s through his hair to calm him down, but I doubted my

up at me and stood

held me to

will find a way,

I will fight it.

stay away from

making promises that I knew

hugged him, knowing my blissful life with him

of other lunas this had happened to, I had to find a way to make

prepare my mind

way his wolf would want to

I could never let him touch me again because I knew he would do it out of duty and

would rather be without his touch than

me, Tamia, please,” He pleaded with me sensing

has already given up on us?” I said, looking

you share like the other

it,” he said, and I

I did not believe him, but I could not dispute

meeting in the evening, and I dreaded having

was fated to Amanda,

pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with Amanda on the balcony making

he tore the top

was no way to hide an incident, especially when

Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent Pack asked

in the

living with her husband

Kyle, refused to reject his fated because he knew it would

Linda agree to it, and she has

need to be

It won’t get better.

went cold two years

it is almost as if

all I am ever good for, meetings,” She said and took a

I wished he was an ordinary pack

on, but unfortunately for us, they have to reject us or someone

way, we

fear the weakness that comes with the rejection, so they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of fighting for.” She said, spelling out a truth

you manage?” I asked her, and she

fate, so neither of us feels pain when they are together

make myself happy with flings and

one ever really sticks around, and even though they claim

enjoy the affair and move on,”

know?” I asked, and she