Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

been shifted to

apologise to

and I smiled and looked at

that

won’t do it again, and I know you will, so don’t bother,” I told him, and

feel

“Please, Tamia.

isn’t easy

said with tears welling up in his eyes,

I was ashamed.

me with disgust,

make out with a stranger, just because fate willed

have the intention of touching

tell her

being weak and reject

will cost me a lot,

was okay with you being my strength, Tamia, but

couldn’t do it, and I still

up this morning thinking I would go to the Whitewood pack and reject

feeling is alien

went to his knees and hugged my legs while he

don’t know what to do, my

I am confused.

insisted, but I had to honour Casper’s

known Leo, I had never seen him cry or show this amount of

He was perplexed.

had messed up

through his hair to calm him down, but I doubted my touch would

at

held me

find a

I will fight it.

stay

Tamia,” he said, making promises that I knew he wouldn’t

him, knowing my blissful

stories of other lunas this had happened to, I had to find a way to make

have to prepare my mind to share him

was no way his wolf would want to stay away or

me again because

rather be without his touch than for him to touch me

me, Tamia, please,” He pleaded with

already given up on

make you share like the other Alphas,

it,” he

I did not believe him, but I could not dispute the

in the evening, and I dreaded having discussions with the

by now that Leo was fated to Amanda,

pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with Amanda on the

heard he tore the top of her

no way to hide an incident, especially when

Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent Pack asked me, and I shook my

the

was living with her husband and

Kyle, refused to reject his fated because he

made Linda agree to it, and she has been a miserable

need to be

It won’t get better.

went cold two years

almost as if I am not in

all I am ever good for, meetings,” She said and took a huge

an ordinary pack member,

but unfortunately for us, they have

way, we are

do it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of fighting for.” She

manage?” I asked

of us feels pain when they are

happy with flings

really sticks around, and even though they claim to love me, they never try to challenge the

move on,”

I asked, and