Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

shifted

me apologise to you,

said, and I smiled and

that word carelessly,

won’t do it again, and I know you will, so don’t bother,” I told him, and he

could feel his

“Please, Tamia.

isn’t easy on

tears welling up in his eyes, “I felt like a fool last

I was ashamed.

looked at me with disgust, and I couldn’t

luna alone and went to make out with a

have the intention of touching

to tell

risk being weak and reject

will cost me a lot, but

okay with you being my

couldn’t do it, and I

to the Whitewood pack and

cannot explain why because the feeling is alien to

help me out.” He said and went to his knees and hugged

don’t know what

I am confused.

but I had to honour Casper’s invite,” he said and continued

seen him cry or show this amount of

He was perplexed.

had messed up

his hair to calm him down, but I

up at me

held me

find a way,

I will fight it.

will stay away from

promises that I knew he wouldn’t be

blissful life with him

stories of other lunas this had happened to, I had to find a way to

to prepare my mind to share him

way his wolf would want to stay

me again

rather be without his touch than for

Tamia, please,” He pleaded with

given up on

won’t make you share like

fight it,” he said, and

I did not believe him, but I could not dispute the

attended the security meeting in the evening, and I dreaded having discussions with the lunas in

travelled by now that Leo was fated to Amanda,

I heard pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with Amanda on the balcony making

heard he tore the top of her

was no way to hide an incident, especially when the woman had

of the Brent

was in the same predicament as

was living with her husband

husband, Kyle, refused to reject his fated because he knew

agree to it, and she has been

to

It won’t get better.

went cold two

it is almost as if I am not in

for, meetings,” She said and took

wished he was an ordinary pack

would reject him and move on, but unfortunately for us, they have to reject us or someone

we are

we are used goods, no one would deem

do you manage?” I asked her, and

of us feels pain when they

just make myself happy with flings and

they claim to love me,

just enjoy the affair and move on,” She

know?” I asked, and