Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

shifted

apologise to

and I smiled and looked at

that

means you won’t do it again, and I know you will, so don’t bother,” I told him, and

feel

“Please, Tamia.

easy on me,

his eyes, “I felt like

I was ashamed.

me with disgust, and I

went to make out with a stranger, just because fate

the intention

to tell her it

wanted to risk being weak and

me a lot, but I will still

with you being my strength, Tamia, but I

it, and

this morning thinking I would go to the

because the feeling is alien to

out.” He said and went to his knees and

what to do,

I am confused.

I had to honour Casper’s invite,” he said and

known Leo, I had never seen him cry or show this amount of vulnerability and

He was perplexed.

had messed up our

my finger’s through his hair to calm him down, but I doubted my touch would ever

looked up at me

me to his

find a

I will fight it.

will stay away from

making promises that I knew he wouldn’t

hugged him, knowing my blissful

of other lunas this had happened to, I

prepare my mind

no way his wolf would want to stay away or

could never let him touch me again because I knew he would do it out of duty and not

without his touch than for him to touch

please,” He pleaded with me sensing

when fate has already given up on us?” I said, looking

you share like the other Alphas,

will fight it,” he said,

him, but I could not dispute the fact that he meant what

and I dreaded having discussions with the

was fated to Amanda, and they had hooked

about people seeing Leo

tore the top of

especially when the woman had to

are you handling it, Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent Pack asked me, and I shook

was in the same predicament as

living with her husband and his

reject his fated because

it, and she has been a miserable

need to be brave,

It won’t get better.

went cold two years

it is almost as if I am

good for, meetings,” She said and

wished he was an ordinary

on, but unfortunately for us, they

we

weakness that comes with the rejection, so they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of

do you manage?” I

us feels

make myself happy with flings and

sticks around, and even though they claim

just enjoy the affair and move on,” She said and drank more

know?” I asked, and she