Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

shifted to this

apologise to you,

said, and I smiled and looked

not use that word carelessly,

means you won’t do it again, and I know you will, so

could feel his

“Please, Tamia.

easy on me,

with tears welling up in his eyes, “I felt like a

I was ashamed.

me with disgust, and

and went to make out with a stranger, just because

the intention

tell

being weak and

cost me a lot, but I will

you being my

it,

to the Whitewood pack and reject her, but

why because the feeling is alien to me, but

He said and went to his knees and hugged my

don’t know what to do,

I am confused.

I had to

years I had known Leo, I had never seen him cry or show this amount of vulnerability

He was perplexed.

messed up

through his hair to calm him down, but I doubted my

up at me and

held me to his

will find

I will fight it.

will stay

I knew he wouldn’t be

hugged him, knowing my blissful

of other lunas this had happened to, I had to find a way

mind to share

no way his wolf would

him touch me again because I knew he would do

that case, I would rather be without his touch than for him to touch me out

not give up on me, Tamia, please,” He pleaded with me sensing my

I when fate has already given up on us?”

you share

fight it,” he

course, I did not believe him, but I could not dispute the

in the evening, and

travelled by now that Leo was fated to Amanda,

people seeing Leo with Amanda on the balcony

heard he tore the

to hide an incident, especially when the woman had to leave the

Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent Pack asked me, and I shook

in the same predicament as

living with her husband and his

husband, Kyle, refused to reject his fated because he knew it would

she has been a miserable drunk ever

need to be brave,

It won’t get better.

cold two years

pups, and it is almost as if I am not in

ever good for, meetings,” She said and took a huge gulp of

was an

they have to reject us

we are

the rejection, so they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no

you manage?” I asked

fate, so neither of us feels pain when

make myself happy with

around, and even though they claim to love me, they never try to

the affair and move on,” She said and drank

I asked, and