Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

has been shifted to this

apologise to

and I smiled

not use that word carelessly,

means you won’t do it again, and I know you will, so don’t bother,” I

could feel

“Please, Tamia.

easy on

He said with tears welling up in his eyes, “I felt like a

I was ashamed.

with disgust,

went to make out with a stranger, just because

did not have the

tell her it

risk being weak

lot,

you being

do it, and I still

morning thinking I would go to the Whitewood pack and

why because the feeling is alien to

help me out.” He said and went to his knees and hugged my legs while he

don’t know what to do, my

I am confused.

home as you insisted, but I had to honour Casper’s

seen

He was perplexed.

had messed

I ran my finger’s through his hair to calm him down, but I doubted my

at me

me

find

I will fight it.

stay away

making promises that I knew he wouldn’t be able to

him, knowing my blissful life with him was

had happened to,

prepare my mind to share

was no way his wolf would want to stay away or reject

never let him touch me again because I

would rather be without his touch than

up on me, Tamia, please,” He pleaded with me

already given up on us?” I said, looking

you share like the

will fight it,” he

him, but I could not dispute the fact that he meant what he

meeting in the evening, and I dreaded having discussions

by now that Leo was fated

meeting, I heard pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with

heard he tore the

incident, especially when the woman

it, Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent Pack asked me,

the same predicament as

living with her

refused to reject his fated because he knew it would weaken his

it, and she has been a miserable drunk ever

to be brave,

It won’t get better.

went cold two years

pups, and it is almost as if I am not in

am ever good for, meetings,” She said

he was an ordinary pack

on, but unfortunately for us, they have to reject us

we are

comes with the rejection, so they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of

manage?” I

claimed his fate, so neither of us feels

myself happy

one ever really sticks around, and even though they claim

enjoy the affair and move on,” She said and drank more

he know?” I asked, and