Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

has been shifted to this

apologise

and I smiled and

not use that word

means you won’t do it again, and I know you will, so don’t bother,” I told him,

feel

“Please, Tamia.

easy on

up in his eyes,

I was ashamed.

looked at me with disgust, and I couldn’t blame

alone and went to make out

the intention of

wanted to tell her it wouldn’t

wanted to risk being

a lot, but

with you being my strength,

do it, and I

to

the feeling is alien to me, but I can’t,

out.” He said and went to

know what to do,

I am confused.

you insisted, but I had to honour Casper’s invite,” he said and

the years I had known Leo, I had never seen him cry or show this

He was perplexed.

messed up

my finger’s through his hair to calm him down, but I

up at me and stood

me

will find

I will fight it.

stay away from

that I knew he wouldn’t be able

him, knowing my blissful

the stories of other lunas this had happened to, I had to find a way

mind to

way his wolf would want to stay away or

him touch me

touch than for him to touch me

me, Tamia, please,” He pleaded with me

when fate has already given up on us?”

make you share like the other

will fight it,” he said, and

not believe him, but I could not dispute the fact

the security meeting in the evening, and I dreaded having discussions

news had travelled by now that Leo was fated to Amanda, and

I heard pack members gossip about people

the top of her

way to hide an incident, especially when the woman had to leave the

it, Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent Pack asked me, and I shook

the same

living with her husband and his

husband, Kyle, refused to reject his fated because he knew

to it, and she has been a miserable drunk

to be brave,

It won’t get better.

cold

almost as if I am not in the

I am ever good for, meetings,” She said and

an ordinary pack member, not an

him and move on, but unfortunately for us, they have to

way, we are

we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of fighting for.” She said, spelling out a truth I had known for a

do you manage?” I asked her, and she

us

just make myself happy with flings and

ever really sticks around, and even though they claim to love me, they never

I just enjoy the affair and move

know?” I