Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

shifted

apologise to you,

am sorry,” He said, and I smiled and looked

not use that

know you will, so don’t bother,” I told him, and he

feel his

“Please, Tamia.

isn’t easy

He said with tears welling up in his eyes,

I was ashamed.

at me with disgust, and I couldn’t blame

my luna alone and went to make out with a stranger, just because fate willed

have the intention of touching

to tell her it wouldn’t

being weak

me a lot, but

okay with you being my strength,

do it,

up this morning thinking I would go to the Whitewood pack and reject her,

feeling is alien

to his

know what to do,

I am confused.

stayed home as you insisted, but I had to honour

Leo, I had never seen him cry or show this amount

He was perplexed.

messed up

my better judgment, I ran my finger’s through his hair to calm him

looked up at me and

held me to

find a

I will fight it.

will stay away from

promises that I

my blissful life with him was

the stories of other lunas this had happened to, I had to find a

have to prepare my mind to share him with

was no way his wolf would want to stay away or

try, I could never let him touch me again because I knew he would do it

that case, I would rather be without his touch than for him to touch me out

on me, Tamia, please,” He

fate has already given up on us?” I said, looking

share

he said, and

course, I did not believe him, but I could not dispute the fact that

meeting in the evening, and I dreaded having discussions with the lunas

news had travelled by now that Leo was fated to

gossip about people seeing Leo with

heard he tore the top of

no way to hide an incident, especially when the

handling it, Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent Pack asked me, and I shook

in the same predicament

with her husband and his

his fated because he knew it would weaken his

made Linda agree to it, and she has been

to

It won’t get better.

bed went cold two

have pups, and it is almost as if I am not

good for, meetings,” She said and took a huge gulp

an ordinary pack

move on, but unfortunately for us, they

we

and since we are used goods, no

I asked her,

us feels pain when they

happy with

really sticks around, and even though they claim

enjoy the affair and move on,” She said

he know?” I asked, and