Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

has been shifted to this

me apologise to you,

am sorry,” He said, and

not use that word carelessly,

and I know you will, so don’t bother,” I told him, and

feel

“Please, Tamia.

easy

welling up in his eyes, “I felt like

I was ashamed.

looked at me with disgust, and I couldn’t

make out with a stranger, just because

not have the intention

tell

to risk being weak and reject

lot, but

with you being my strength,

couldn’t do it, and I still

up this morning thinking I would go to the Whitewood pack and reject

the feeling is alien to

said and went to his knees and hugged my

know what to

I am confused.

as you insisted, but I had

had known Leo, I had never seen him

He was perplexed.

messed up

finger’s through his hair to calm him down, but I doubted my touch

up at me and stood

me

find

I will fight it.

will stay

making promises that I knew

him, knowing my blissful life with him

stories of other lunas this had happened to, I had to

prepare my mind to share him

no way his wolf would want

was to try, I could never let him touch me again because I knew he would do it out of duty

case, I would rather be without his touch

on me, Tamia, please,”

given up on us?” I said, looking

you share like the other

fight it,” he

I did not believe him, but I could not dispute the fact that he

security meeting in the evening, and

Leo was fated to Amanda, and they had hooked

heard pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with Amanda

tore the top

was no way to hide an incident, especially when the woman had to leave

Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent Pack asked me, and I shook my

in the same

with her husband and his

refused to reject his fated because he knew

made Linda agree to it, and she has been a

need to be brave,

It won’t get better.

cold two

they have pups, and it is almost as

ever good for, meetings,” She said and took

an ordinary pack member,

and move on, but unfortunately for us, they have to reject us or someone

way, we are

rejection, so they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of fighting

you manage?” I

fate, so neither of us feels pain when

myself happy with flings and

one ever really sticks around, and even though they claim to love me,

just enjoy the affair and move

I asked, and she