Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

shifted to

apologise

said, and I smiled and looked at

use that word carelessly,

do it again, and I know you will, so don’t bother,” I told him, and he held me

feel

“Please, Tamia.

easy on me,

in his eyes, “I felt

I was ashamed.

looked at me with disgust, and

left my luna alone and went to make out with a stranger, just because fate willed

not have the intention

to tell her it wouldn’t

being weak and reject

cost me a lot, but I will still

with you being

do it, and I

go to the Whitewood pack and reject her, but I

the feeling is alien to me, but

me out.” He said and went to his knees and

what to do, my

I am confused.

but I had to honour Casper’s

never seen him cry

He was perplexed.

had messed

his hair to calm him down,

up at me and stood

me to

find a

I will fight it.

will stay away

Tamia,” he said, making promises that I knew he wouldn’t

knowing my blissful life with him

stories of other lunas this had happened to, I had to find a way to make it

to prepare my mind to share

no way his wolf would want to stay

could never let him touch me again because

that case, I would rather be without his touch than for him to touch

up on me, Tamia, please,” He pleaded with me sensing

can I when fate has already given up on us?” I said, looking at

make you share like the other Alphas,

it,” he said,

course, I did not believe him, but I could not dispute the fact that he meant what he was

evening, and I dreaded having discussions with

Leo was fated to Amanda, and they had

meeting, I heard pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with Amanda on the balcony

heard he tore the top of her

incident, especially when the woman had to

Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent Pack asked me, and I shook

was in the

living with her husband and his

husband, Kyle, refused to reject his fated because he knew

to it, and she has

to be

It won’t get better.

bed went cold two years

pups, and it is almost as

meetings,” She said and took

wished he was an ordinary pack

would reject him and move on, but unfortunately for us, they have to reject us

we

they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of fighting for.” She said, spelling out

you manage?” I asked

fate, so neither of us feels

happy with flings and

one ever really sticks around, and even though they claim to love me, they

I just enjoy the affair and move on,”

I asked, and