Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

been shifted to this

apologise to you,

said, and I

use that word

know you will, so don’t bother,” I

could feel

“Please, Tamia.

easy on me,

He said with tears welling up in his eyes,

I was ashamed.

looked at me with disgust, and

left my luna alone and went to make out

did not have the intention

to tell her it wouldn’t

wanted to risk being weak

me a lot, but I will still have

with you being my strength, Tamia,

it, and I

thinking I would go to the Whitewood pack and reject her, but

because the feeling is

me out.” He said and went to his knees

don’t know what to do,

I am confused.

stayed home as you insisted, but I had to honour Casper’s invite,” he said and continued to

the years I had known Leo, I had never seen him cry

He was perplexed.

had messed up our

finger’s through his hair to calm

looked up at me

held me to his

find a

I will fight it.

will stay away

promises that I knew he wouldn’t be

hugged him, knowing my blissful life with him was

of other lunas this had happened to, I had to

have to prepare my mind to share him with

no way his wolf would want to stay away or reject

I was to try, I could never let him touch me again because I knew he would do it out

that case, I would rather be without his touch than for him to touch me out of

please,”

has already given up

won’t make you share like the other Alphas,

will fight it,” he said, and

believe him, but I could not dispute the

security meeting in the evening, and I dreaded

Leo was fated to Amanda, and they had hooked

meeting, I heard pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with

he tore the top

when the woman had to leave the balcony

Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent Pack

the same predicament

living with her husband

refused to reject his fated because he knew it would

it, and she has been a

to be

It won’t get better.

cold

and it is almost as if I am not in

good for, meetings,” She said and took a huge gulp of her

he was an ordinary pack member, not an

move on, but unfortunately for us, they have to reject us or someone stronger challenge them

we are

rejection, so they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of fighting for.” She said, spelling out a truth I had known for a

I asked her, and

of us

happy with flings and

ever really sticks around, and even though they claim to love me, they never try to challenge

and move on,” She said

know?” I asked,