Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

has been shifted to this

me apologise

am sorry,” He said, and I

use that word carelessly,

and I know you will, so

feel

“Please, Tamia.

isn’t easy on

tears welling up in his eyes, “I felt like a fool last

I was ashamed.

looked at me with disgust, and I couldn’t

left my luna alone and went to make out with a

did not have the intention of

to tell

to risk being weak

will cost me a lot, but I will still have

with you being my strength, Tamia, but I

couldn’t do it, and

this morning thinking I would go to the

explain why because the feeling is alien to me, but

out.” He said and went to

know what to do, my

I am confused.

just stayed home as you insisted, but I had

had known Leo, I had never seen

He was perplexed.

messed up

hair to calm him down, but I doubted my touch would ever be

up at me and

held me to

find

I will fight it.

will stay away

said, making promises that I knew he wouldn’t be able to

hugged him, knowing my blissful life

lunas this had happened to, I had to find a way to

my mind to share

his wolf would want

could never let him touch me again because I knew he would do it out

I would rather be without his touch than for him

give up on me, Tamia, please,” He

I when fate has already given up on us?” I said, looking at

you share like

it,” he said,

him, but I could not dispute the fact that he meant what he was

in the evening, and I dreaded having discussions

had travelled by now that Leo was

meeting, I heard pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with Amanda on

the

when

Linda of the Brent

the same predicament

living with her husband and

fated because he knew it

Linda agree to it, and she

to

It won’t get better.

bed went cold

and it is almost as if I am not

meetings,” She said and took a huge gulp of

wished he was an ordinary pack member,

him and move on, but unfortunately for us, they have to reject us

way, we

the weakness that comes with the rejection, so they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of fighting for.” She said, spelling out a truth I had known for a

manage?” I asked her,

neither of us feels pain when they are together

myself happy

one ever really sticks around, and even though they claim to love me, they never try to challenge the

and move on,” She said and

he know?” I asked,