Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

shifted to

me apologise

sorry,” He said, and I smiled

not use that word carelessly,

do it again, and I know you will, so don’t bother,” I told

feel his

“Please, Tamia.

isn’t easy on

his eyes, “I felt like a fool

I was ashamed.

disgust, and

went to make out with a stranger,

did not have the intention of

tell her it

risk being weak

it will cost me a lot, but I will still

was okay with you being my strength, Tamia, but

do it,

woke up this morning thinking I would go to the Whitewood pack and reject

cannot explain why because the feeling is alien to me, but

and went to his knees and

don’t know what

I am confused.

you insisted, but I had

I had known Leo, I had never seen him cry or show

He was perplexed.

messed up our

I ran my finger’s through his hair to calm

up at me and

held me

find a

I will fight it.

will stay away from

said, making promises that I knew he wouldn’t be

blissful life with him

other lunas this had happened to, I had to find a way to

mind to share

was no way his wolf would want to stay away or

never let him touch me again because I knew he would do it out of duty and

case, I would rather be without his touch than for him to

Tamia, please,” He pleaded with

when fate has already given

you share like

it,” he said,

but I could not dispute the

in the evening, and I dreaded having discussions with

was fated to Amanda, and they

I heard pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with Amanda on

heard he tore the top of her

no way to hide an incident, especially when the woman had to

are you handling it, Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent

was in the

was living with her husband

reject his fated because he knew it would weaken

agree to it, and she has

to be brave,

It won’t get better.

cold

almost as if I am not in the

good for, meetings,” She said and took a huge gulp of

he was an ordinary pack

him and move on, but unfortunately for us, they have to reject us or someone stronger

way, we

fear the weakness that comes with the rejection, so they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no

you manage?” I asked her, and she

so neither of us

myself happy with flings and

and even though they claim to love me, they

I just enjoy the affair and move on,” She said

know?” I asked, and