Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

shifted to this

me apologise to

sorry,” He said, and I smiled

not use that word

you will, so don’t bother,” I told him, and he held me

feel his

“Please, Tamia.

isn’t easy on me,

with tears welling up in his eyes, “I felt like a

I was ashamed.

looked at me with disgust, and

luna alone and went to make out

not have the intention of touching

wanted to tell

risk being weak and reject

it will cost me a lot, but I will still

with you being my strength, Tamia, but

it, and

to the Whitewood

the feeling is alien to me,

and went to his knees and hugged

don’t know what to do,

I am confused.

have just stayed home as you insisted, but I had to honour Casper’s invite,” he said and continued to

I had never seen

He was perplexed.

had messed up our

hair to calm him down, but I doubted my touch would ever be enough

at

me

will find a way,

I will fight it.

stay

Tamia,” he said, making promises that I knew he wouldn’t be

him, knowing my blissful life with

to, I had to find a way to make it

prepare my mind to share him

wolf would want to stay

touch me again because I knew he would do it out

I would rather be without his touch than

not give up on me, Tamia, please,” He pleaded with

has already given up on us?” I said,

share like the other

fight it,” he said, and I

I did not believe him, but I could not dispute the fact that he meant what

security meeting in the evening, and I dreaded having discussions with the lunas in

by now that Leo was fated to Amanda,

heard pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with Amanda on the balcony

tore the top of her

was no way to hide an incident, especially when the woman had

you handling it, Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent

was in the same predicament

was living with her

refused to reject his fated because he knew it would weaken

Linda agree to it, and she has been a miserable

to be

It won’t get better.

bed went cold two

and it is almost as if

good for, meetings,” She

an ordinary pack

us, they have to reject us or someone stronger challenge

way, we are

the rejection, so they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy

you manage?” I asked her, and

his fate, so neither of us feels pain when they are together

happy with

ever really sticks around, and even though they claim

the affair and move on,” She said and drank

know?” I asked, and