Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

shifted to this

me apologise to you,

and I smiled and looked at

use that word carelessly,

you will, so don’t bother,” I told him, and he held me

could feel

“Please, Tamia.

easy

tears welling up in his

I was ashamed.

me with disgust, and I

left my luna alone and went to make out with

have the intention of

tell her it

being

it will cost me a lot, but I will still

okay with you being my strength,

do it,

would go to the

why because the feeling is alien to me,

He said and went to his knees and hugged

know what to

I am confused.

but I had to honour

known Leo, I had never seen him cry or show this amount of vulnerability and

He was perplexed.

had messed up

hair to calm him down, but I doubted my touch would ever be enough

up at me

held me to his

will find a way,

I will fight it.

will stay away from

said, making promises that I knew he wouldn’t be able

my blissful life with him was

happened to, I had to find

have to prepare my mind to share

was no way his wolf would want to stay away or

me again

that case, I would rather be without his touch than for him to touch me out

give up on me, Tamia, please,” He pleaded with me sensing my

can I when fate has already given up on us?” I said, looking

you share like the other Alphas,

he said, and I

believe him, but I could not dispute the fact that he meant what he

the security meeting in the evening, and I dreaded having discussions with the

now that Leo was fated to

gossip about people seeing Leo with Amanda

he tore the top of her

was no way to hide an incident, especially when the

luna Linda of the Brent Pack

the same predicament as

her husband and

his fated because he knew

to it, and she has been a miserable drunk ever

to

It won’t get better.

cold two

have pups, and it is almost as if

all I am ever good for, meetings,” She said and

he was an

they have

we are

with the rejection, so they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no

you manage?” I asked her, and she

fate, so neither of us feels pain when they are together

happy

one ever really sticks around, and even though they claim to love

I just enjoy the affair and move on,” She said and drank

he know?” I