Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

been shifted

me apologise to

sorry,” He said, and I smiled

not use that word carelessly,

again, and I know you will, so don’t bother,”

could feel his

“Please, Tamia.

isn’t easy on me,

in his eyes, “I felt

I was ashamed.

me with disgust, and

left my luna alone and went to make out with a stranger, just because fate willed

not have the intention of touching

tell her it wouldn’t

wanted to risk being weak

lot, but I will still have

was okay with you being

couldn’t do it, and

up this morning thinking I would go to the Whitewood pack and reject her, but I

why because the feeling is

He said and went to his knees and hugged my

what

I am confused.

stayed home as you insisted, but I had to honour Casper’s invite,” he said and continued to

seen him cry or show this amount of vulnerability

He was perplexed.

messed

my finger’s through his hair to calm him down,

at me and

me to his

will find a way,

I will fight it.

will stay away

making promises that I knew

knowing my blissful life with

to, I had to find a

to prepare my mind to share him

way his wolf would want to stay away

I could never let him touch me again because I knew he would do it out of duty

rather be without his touch than for him to touch me out of

give up on me, Tamia, please,”

already given up

you share like the other

he

not believe him, but I could not dispute the fact that he meant what

the evening, and I dreaded having discussions

Leo was fated to Amanda, and

I heard pack members gossip about people

the top

no way to hide an incident, especially when the woman had to leave the

of the

the same predicament

living with her husband and

Kyle, refused to reject his fated because he knew

Linda agree to it, and she has been a

to

It won’t get better.

went cold two years

is almost

I am ever good for, meetings,” She said and took a huge

I wished he was an ordinary

him and move on, but unfortunately for us, they have to reject us or someone stronger

we are

since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of fighting for.” She said, spelling out a truth I had

I asked her, and

so neither of us feels pain when

myself happy with flings

sticks around, and even though they claim to love

I just enjoy the affair and move on,”

I asked, and she