Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

shifted to

me apologise to

He said, and I smiled and looked at

use that word carelessly,

you will, so don’t bother,” I told him, and he held me

could feel his

“Please, Tamia.

easy on

tears welling up in his eyes, “I felt like a fool last

I was ashamed.

looked at me with disgust, and

alone and went to make out with a stranger, just

did not have the intention of touching

tell her it

to risk being weak and

will cost me a lot, but

okay with you being my strength,

couldn’t do it, and

I would go to the Whitewood pack and reject

feeling is alien to me,

and went to his knees and hugged

what to

I am confused.

stayed home as you insisted, but I had to honour Casper’s invite,” he said and continued to

Leo, I had never seen him cry or

He was perplexed.

had messed

my finger’s through his hair to calm him down, but I doubted my touch would ever

looked up at me

held me

find a way,

I will fight it.

will stay away from

promises that I knew he wouldn’t be

my blissful

to, I had to find a

have to prepare my mind to share him

was no way his wolf would

try, I could never let him touch me again because I knew he would do it out of duty and not

be without his touch

please,” He pleaded with

fate has already given up on us?”

share like

will fight it,” he

him, but I could not

attended the security meeting in the evening, and I dreaded having discussions with the

was

pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with Amanda on the

tore the

no way to hide an incident, especially when the woman had to

luna Linda of the Brent Pack asked

was in the same predicament as

was living with her

Kyle, refused to reject his fated because he knew

she has been a miserable

need to

It won’t get better.

cold

they have pups, and it is almost as if I am

am ever good for, meetings,” She said and took a huge

he was an ordinary pack member, not an

and move on, but unfortunately for us, they have to reject us or someone

we are

it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of fighting for.” She said, spelling out a truth I had

I asked

so neither of us feels

just make myself happy with flings and

ever really sticks around, and even though they claim to love me, they never try to

I just enjoy the affair and move on,” She said

he know?” I asked, and she