Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

has been shifted to

me apologise to you,

sorry,” He said, and I smiled and looked at

that word carelessly,

again, and I know you will, so don’t bother,” I

feel his

“Please, Tamia.

easy on

He said with tears welling up in his

I was ashamed.

disgust, and I couldn’t

alone and went to make out with

have the intention of touching

to tell her

wanted to risk being weak and reject

will cost me a lot, but I will still

you being my strength, Tamia,

do it, and

woke up this morning thinking I would go to the Whitewood

the feeling is alien to me, but I

out.” He said and went to his knees and

what to do, my

I am confused.

insisted, but I had to honour Casper’s

Leo, I had never seen him cry or show this

He was perplexed.

messed up

finger’s through his hair to calm

up at me and stood

held me

will find a way,

I will fight it.

will stay away from

that I knew

my blissful life with him

the stories of other lunas this had happened to, I had to find a way to

mind to

way his wolf would want to stay away or

I could never let him touch me again because I knew he would

I would rather be without his touch than for him to touch me

Tamia, please,”

already given up on us?” I said,

won’t make you share like

it,” he

could not dispute the fact that he meant what he was

attended the security meeting in the evening, and I dreaded having

by now that Leo was fated to Amanda,

about people seeing

heard he tore the top of

incident, especially when the woman had to leave the balcony looking

you handling it, Tamia?” luna Linda of the Brent Pack asked

in the same predicament

with her husband and his

Kyle, refused to reject his fated because he knew it would

Linda agree to it, and she has been

need to

It won’t get better.

cold two years

almost as if

good for, meetings,” She said and took a

he was an ordinary pack member, not an

but unfortunately for us, they have to

way, we

comes with the rejection, so they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no one would

I asked

so neither of us feels pain when they are together

myself happy with flings and

really sticks around, and even though they claim to love me, they

the affair and move on,” She said

he know?” I asked,