Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

been shifted to

let me apologise

sorry,” He said, and I

that

won’t do it again, and I know you will, so don’t bother,” I told him, and he

could feel

“Please, Tamia.

isn’t easy on

with tears welling up in his eyes, “I felt like a

I was ashamed.

with disgust, and I

alone and went to make out with a

have the intention

tell

risk being weak and reject

lot, but I will

with you being my strength, Tamia, but

it,

to the Whitewood pack and reject her, but

because the feeling is alien to me, but I

and went to his

know what to do, my

I am confused.

just stayed home as you insisted, but I had to honour Casper’s invite,”

had never seen him cry or show this amount of vulnerability

He was perplexed.

messed

finger’s through his hair to calm him down, but I doubted my touch would ever be enough

looked up at me

held me

will find

I will fight it.

stay away from

promises that I knew he

hugged him, knowing my blissful life with him

stories of other lunas this had happened to, I had to find a way to make it

prepare my mind to share him with

wolf would want to stay away or reject

me again because I knew he would

be without his touch than for him to touch me out

Tamia, please,”

can I when fate has already given

share like the

will fight it,” he

I did not believe him, but I could not dispute

and I dreaded having

Leo was fated to

the meeting, I heard pack members gossip about people seeing Leo

the top of her

to hide an incident, especially when the woman had to leave the

you handling it, Tamia?” luna Linda of the

in the

living with her husband and his

fated because he knew it would weaken

it, and she

need to be

It won’t get better.

went cold two years

have pups, and it is almost as if I am not in

She said and took a huge gulp of

was an

on, but unfortunately for us, they

we

the weakness that comes with the rejection, so they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of fighting for.” She said, spelling out a truth I had known for

do you manage?” I

claimed his fate, so neither of us feels pain when they

happy with flings

around, and even though they claim to love me, they never

just enjoy the affair and move on,” She said

know?” I asked, and