Shadows of Destiny

03 A Clearer Picture ~Tamia~

I went on a run in the morning, and when I returned, the people looked at me strangely.

I did not need magic to know that news of the Alpha finding his fated had travelled.

Leo did not try to hide the attraction between him and Amanda.

I wonder if the pack members were happy that their Alpha would be stronger now that he had found his fated mate.

I wondered if they were concerned for me, for the pain I would endure, which might drive me insane eventually.

I honestly wondered whose side they would be on.

I jogged past the pack members and returned to my house.

Leo was having breakfast.

I had not spoken to him and did not plan to, because I had nothing to say.

I went to the bedroom to shower and dress up for the day; we had a meeting to attend together.

As much as I would rather sit it out, I had promised Luna Avery I would be there.

She was the closest I had to a friend, and I suspected my life would be like hers soon.

Avery’s husband, Alpha Max, found his fate three years ago, and they have lived together ever since.

Although she had never opened up to me about what was happening in her home, I knew she was broken.

He always attended parties with his fated and left Avery on her own.

She had found a way to cope.

She was faring better than Linda, who was in the same shoes as Avery, but I dreaded I would be able to manage.

I showered in a hurry.

For the first time, I did not spend time in the mirror in the toilet to dry my hair.

I did not feel like making an effort.

Even though Leo did not like make-up and revealing clothes, I tried to look nice under those circumstances, but I wasn’t feeling like it anymore.

Amanda was pretty.

There was no way I could compete with her because they were fated.

She could be the most unattractive being on earth, and he would still want her.

Fated love was fucked up that way.

The moment I walked into the room after taking my shower, I saw Leo sitting on the couch.

I ignored him and went to look for something simple to wear in the closet.

He came to me and wrapped his arms around me, then kissed his mark on my neck.

I pushed him off me.

“Don’t touch me after what you did last night,” I said through gritted teeth.

I was mad.

He had utterly embarrassed me and showed zero self-control.

“We did not go all the way, Tamia.

I broke it.

I held back.

As much as my body and wolf wanted to, I held back,” He said.

“Held back, as in you didn’t put your cock in her, but you did everything else,” I said, explaining his meaning of holding back, and he was silent.

“Get dressed.

We have a meeting to attend,” I told him, and he held onto me.

been shifted to this

let me apologise to you,

sorry,” He said, and I

that word

and I know you will, so don’t bother,” I told

could feel his

“Please, Tamia.

isn’t easy on

with tears welling up in his eyes, “I felt like a fool

I was ashamed.

me with disgust, and I

and went to make out with a stranger, just because fate

have the intention of touching

to tell her it wouldn’t

wanted to risk being weak and

it will cost me a lot, but I will

you being my strength, Tamia, but

do it, and

I would go to the Whitewood pack and reject

the feeling is

went to his knees

what to

I am confused.

just stayed home as you insisted, but I had to honour Casper’s invite,” he said and continued

had never seen him

He was perplexed.

messed

his hair to calm

up at me

held me to

find

I will fight it.

stay away from

Tamia,” he said, making promises that I knew he wouldn’t be able

him, knowing my blissful life with

the stories of other lunas this had happened to, I had to find

to prepare my mind to share him

would want

never let him touch me again because I

be without his touch than for him to touch me out

give up on me, Tamia, please,” He pleaded with me sensing

fate has already given

share like

fight it,” he

I could not dispute the fact that he meant what he

security meeting in the evening, and I dreaded having discussions

was fated to Amanda, and they had

the meeting, I heard pack members gossip about people seeing Leo with Amanda on the balcony

he tore the

way to hide an incident, especially when the woman

of the Brent Pack asked me,

in the same predicament as

with her husband

husband, Kyle, refused to reject his fated because he knew

and she

to be

It won’t get better.

bed went cold two

pups, and it is almost as

am ever good for, meetings,” She said and took

wished he was an ordinary pack member,

move on, but unfortunately for us, they have to reject

way, we

so they won’t do it, and since we are used goods, no one would deem us worthy of fighting for.” She said, spelling out a truth I

do you manage?” I asked her, and she

so neither of us feels pain when

myself happy with flings

and even though they claim to love me, they never try

move

know?” I asked, and