Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

Damn you, Mr.Hayes! Damn you and your charming good looks and your piercing brown eyes and your delicious kisses.Damn you! 

All weekend long I was haunted by thoughts of Mr.Hayes and our car ride together.The worst part was that I couldn't tell my two best friends about it.If only I could discuss the situation and talk my feelings out with them, I wouldn’t be so tortured. 

I met up with Tiff and Carrie the day after the party.It was Saturday afternoon and we were getting food at the mall.They were filling me in on things that I missed out on while I was on the second floor master bedroom playing seven minutes in heaven.And then I told them about my make-out sessions with Ryan, and how I wasn’t ready for anything too serious.

They thought it was because I haven't moved on from Zach.But the truth was, I couldn't move on from Mr.Hayes.

I didn't say anything, though.I let them think what they think.I didn’t want to get Mr.Hayes in trouble and I didn't want to jinx any chance that we might end up together.

Wait, does this mean...I like, like Mr.Hayes? Like, like him-like him? 

"So, what are you gonna tell him?" Carrie’s voice broke my daydreaming.

"What? Tell who what?" my eyes snapped immediately.

"Ryan.What are you gonna tell him when you see him at school on Monday? He probably thinks that you still have the hots for him,"

"Yeah, especially looking at all those hickeys on your neck.Damn girl,"

I blushed instantly at the mention of my neck.I woke up in the morning and saw various, and I meant numerous, hickeys all over my neck.The worst part though, was that I wasn’t sure who gave it to me.It could Ryan, or it could be Mr.Hayes...or both.

"I guess I'll tell him the truth,"

I sighed before continuing, "The kiss was a spur of the moment thing, and I’m not looking for anything serious, and that I don't see him that way,"

"Aw, poor kid’s gonna get his heart broken," Tiff commented.

"But it's better than stringing him along," Carrie replied.

"Yeah, just be quick and clear about it, Em.Put him out of his misery,"

After the car ride with Mr.Hayes, I realized how much I didn’t have real feelings for Ryan.It wouldn't be right to just leave him hanging, especially when he was nothing but nice to me.He kept texting me all day, asking me where I was and how I was feeling.I figured the best way to do this was to talk to him at school, face to face.

I just had to tell him quick and clear...

"Hey, Ryan.Listen, you're an amazing guy.You're funny, and sweet, and you're really cute.But the thing is, I don’t feel that way about you.I’m sorry if I led you on.But I just have to tell you, I'm not looking for anything serious right now and I just don't see you in that way.I'm sorry,"

I was practicing that speech all morning long as I made my way to school.My plan was to talk to Ryan during lunch, and avoid him at all costs before that.After dealing with Ryan, I figured I could start sorting things out with Mr.Hayes.

I didn’t even know where to begin with Mr.Hayes.

What would he say about that kiss in his car? Did it mean something to him? And would it be enough to risk everything in his life? I was just walking aimlessly to my lockers, when I saw Ryan walking my way on the corner of my eye.

I wasn't ready to face him right now, I quickly turned to my heels and took the nearest exit before he could see me.

I was too busy running away from Ryan, I didn’t realize I was walking towards the art studio.

I hid behind a large pillar so that Ryan wouldn't see me as he walked by.

I let out a relieved sigh as soon as he went away.

"I had a really good time last Friday night," suddenly I heard a familiar voice.

I whipped my head around and I saw Ms.Diaz standing next to Mr.Hayes.They were alone in the art room, and I managed to keep myself hidden behind the door so they wouldn't see me.Ms.Diaz was beaming at him, batting her eyelashes ferociously.Mr.Hayes drank his coffee and gave her a small smile.

glad you did,"Mr.Hayes replied, though

was definitely different.I was still sore all

and Mr.Hayes remained

things, purposefully brushing

eyed him from head to toe like she was hungry

she said lowly, but I could hear it.  I made sure I was out of sight when Ms.Diaz walked out of the art studio, sashaying down the

felt a pang in my chest and my lips

course, they went on a date Friday

course, they probably

were two gorgeous, consenting

Of course they would.

head of the

the wall like he did

the same dirty words and kissed her with

and air was

than when

idea, but my feet had stepped towards the art room

shocked to see me, his eyes widened and

"Emma?"

sleep with her?" I

eyes and his

sleep with

was

breath before letting

does it matter,

to me.Please answer

"We...did have sex,"

before or after you kissed me

"Emma — slow down,"

"Tell me,"

"It was after,"

have sex with someone

you were—" he stopped to take his hair in frustration

for you.But this is wrong and that's that.We don't have to talk about this any longer.It is what it is.What I do

was flat and

with every word, I felt my heart shatter into tiny little pieces.  "So the

spur of the moment thing," he paused for a moment before continuing, "Emma, please, try

said as

"Emma..."

just some play thing for you, aren't I? It was fun having the around, wasn’t it? The fact that we're not allowed to be together excites

tone was stern and he sounded

I couldn't help myself.I was upset

else would

that fell to my cheeks and turned to my heels.I didn't want him to see me like this.All weak and teary

for me once more, but I was

was a stupid, stupid girl.”Why would someone like Mr.Hayes think twice about a girl like me? Of course it

your mascara? Are you okay?" Tiff

minutes later by my lockers.I was trying my hardest to hide the fact that I was a sobbing mess, but of