Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

I never thought in a million years that I would be spending Valentine’s Day in a Planned Parenthood clinic as a high school senior.  It was a lousy Saturday morning and I was sitting in that waiting room with my two best friends.We came in as soon as the doors opened at 9 AM.

After filling out an extensive form, I was brought into an examination room where they did a physical exam and an ultrasound on me.

The ultrasound determined that I was in fact, four and a half weeks pregnant.

It was living inside me for 32 days...That thing is 32 days old...  I was being administered by a female nurse, her name was Jackie, and she was very helpful.

She told me there are several ways I could do the procedure.

One of the ways was through a medical procedure, which meant taking an abortion pill or a shot.

Then she went on and told me about all the side effects.

"A medical abortion is a process, not an instant fix.It may take up to 48 hours after your visit for the medication to work.It can also entail heavy bleeding, intense cramping, and the passage of large clots,"she said.

"I'm explaining everything to you not to dissuade you from your decision.I’m just stating the facts.Are you with me?"

"Yes," I nodded.

"The other option is to get a surgical abortion.In which case, you will be put under anesthetic and the doctor would insert a small tube into the uterus, applying gentle suction, and remove the contents and lining of the uterus,"she paused for a moment to make sure I was still following her.

"The procedure itself takes around 10 minutes, but you need to get prepped for surgery so it will take about 4 to 5 hours in total.After the anesthetic has worn off and you have received your aftercare, you will need to be driven home,"

She told me to think over my options.

I could take a minute, or an hour, or even a couple of days.

But the thought of taking more time to let this thing inside me grow didn’t sit well with me.

I knew I couldn't keep it.

There was no point in prolonging the charade.

I told her I would just need a couple of minutes to talk to my girlfriends about it.

She was very supportive and she told me to take as much time as I need.

Going back out into the waiting room, I spotted Tiff and Carrie sitting carelessly on the sofa while watching the bad TV programs they put on.

"So?" they looked up at me as soon as they saw me.

"The nurse was really nice.She told me all my options .."I said as they scooted for me and I sat in between them.

"Okay, and?"

"I think I'll do the surgical procedure.It'll take about 4 or 5 hours in total but everything will be done at once.And I'll need someone to drive me home later,"

"Absolutely, we'll be here for you," Carrie squeezed my hand supportively.  

"What's the other option?"Tiff asked.

"A medical abortion by taking pills.She can give me one to take one right now and after 48 hours, I'll have to take another one at home and wait for it to work,"

"You don’t wanna do that? That sounds less painful,"Carrie said.

"No, I'm afraid I might mess it up.Taking pills was never my forte,"I stifled a dry laugh, but no one else was laughing.

 "That was a solid joke.I would laugh if the circumstances were different,"Tiff gave me a small, sorry smile.

"Anyway, the side effects of the pills sounded really bad.A lot of bleeding and blood clots and stuff,"

"Ouch..." they winced.

Blood clots...maybe that is what my little blip would turn into after I do the procedure.

32 day year old blood clot.

I wonder if it'll feel pain.

I wonder if it'll feel sad knowing that their mom and dad had decided to get rid of them like trash...  "So, you're sure about this?"

Carrie asked cautiously.

"Of course,"I shrugged.

I was here today to hear my options,

I didn't have a choice

decided that this was the only

first, I agreed with him, I couldn't wait to get it

lying in bed trying to sleep, I couldn’t help but

so much?  "Hey, Em, it's okay to not

squeezed my hand again and caressed

can't," I sighed

nothing else to think about.lan doesn’t want this baby.It’s a nuisance and it's just gonna cause trouble for

do you?"Tiff asked

"What?"

you want this

logical side in me says

"But?"

little baby.It's a product of our love.Why is something that beautiful has to be so bad?"  My friends didn’t

sighed while Carrie bit her

it was 32 days old.32 days.In just a couple of days when the blip turns 5 weeks old, they said I can start hearing the heartbeat.The heartbeat, guys...it's gonna have a heartbeat..." my voice cracked

each other before turning to

eyes too, and they

they just pulled me close into a

faces snuggled my shoulder and

can always go to college later, take a gap year like you, Tiff.A part of me was thinking that it wouldn't be so bad.That would be inconvenient, sure, but wouldn't that be

deep breath, Carrie pulled away slightly and said, "Emma, have you told lan that you’ve

his face last night,"I

baby.All he cared about was

from last night, my heart was breaking

never seen him

the words he said out loud,

you're a high school student and you're going

If people found out about us, I can go to

was

this baby would

for everyone, for me, for lan, for

be happy being born into a world where no one

blip,

you call the nurse?"I said as firmly as

ready for the procedure.I

"But, Emma "

"Now.Please,"

back into the examination room and told Nurse Jackie what my

if I was sure, and I was glad she

own decision again and I was tired of She went on and told me about the steps for

the

said and

wait outside for a couple more minutes, as she needed to prepare the room for the surgery.I went

and some nurses passing

sat back down with Tiff and Carrie and

"You're good?"Carrie asked.

"Yeah,"I nodded.

don’t know if you

as she handed

couldn't bring it to the exam room so she

and

been calling like,

Tiff said again.

didn’t know what he

to

to him, but at

the right thing to

I took a deep breath and grabbed the

walked a few steps away from my

been calling all day.Where

clinic.I'm getting ready to...you

a beat