Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

I never thought in a million years that I would be spending Valentine’s Day in a Planned Parenthood clinic as a high school senior.  It was a lousy Saturday morning and I was sitting in that waiting room with my two best friends.We came in as soon as the doors opened at 9 AM.

After filling out an extensive form, I was brought into an examination room where they did a physical exam and an ultrasound on me.

The ultrasound determined that I was in fact, four and a half weeks pregnant.

It was living inside me for 32 days...That thing is 32 days old...  I was being administered by a female nurse, her name was Jackie, and she was very helpful.

She told me there are several ways I could do the procedure.

One of the ways was through a medical procedure, which meant taking an abortion pill or a shot.

Then she went on and told me about all the side effects.

"A medical abortion is a process, not an instant fix.It may take up to 48 hours after your visit for the medication to work.It can also entail heavy bleeding, intense cramping, and the passage of large clots,"she said.

"I'm explaining everything to you not to dissuade you from your decision.I’m just stating the facts.Are you with me?"

"Yes," I nodded.

"The other option is to get a surgical abortion.In which case, you will be put under anesthetic and the doctor would insert a small tube into the uterus, applying gentle suction, and remove the contents and lining of the uterus,"she paused for a moment to make sure I was still following her.

"The procedure itself takes around 10 minutes, but you need to get prepped for surgery so it will take about 4 to 5 hours in total.After the anesthetic has worn off and you have received your aftercare, you will need to be driven home,"

She told me to think over my options.

I could take a minute, or an hour, or even a couple of days.

But the thought of taking more time to let this thing inside me grow didn’t sit well with me.

I knew I couldn't keep it.

There was no point in prolonging the charade.

I told her I would just need a couple of minutes to talk to my girlfriends about it.

She was very supportive and she told me to take as much time as I need.

Going back out into the waiting room, I spotted Tiff and Carrie sitting carelessly on the sofa while watching the bad TV programs they put on.

"So?" they looked up at me as soon as they saw me.

"The nurse was really nice.She told me all my options .."I said as they scooted for me and I sat in between them.

"Okay, and?"

"I think I'll do the surgical procedure.It'll take about 4 or 5 hours in total but everything will be done at once.And I'll need someone to drive me home later,"

"Absolutely, we'll be here for you," Carrie squeezed my hand supportively.  

"What's the other option?"Tiff asked.

"A medical abortion by taking pills.She can give me one to take one right now and after 48 hours, I'll have to take another one at home and wait for it to work,"

"You don’t wanna do that? That sounds less painful,"Carrie said.

"No, I'm afraid I might mess it up.Taking pills was never my forte,"I stifled a dry laugh, but no one else was laughing.

 "That was a solid joke.I would laugh if the circumstances were different,"Tiff gave me a small, sorry smile.

"Anyway, the side effects of the pills sounded really bad.A lot of bleeding and blood clots and stuff,"

"Ouch..." they winced.

Blood clots...maybe that is what my little blip would turn into after I do the procedure.

32 day year old blood clot.

I wonder if it'll feel pain.

I wonder if it'll feel sad knowing that their mom and dad had decided to get rid of them like trash...  "So, you're sure about this?"

Carrie asked cautiously.

"Of course,"I shrugged.

ironic that I was here today to hear my options, the

I didn't have a

that this

couldn't wait

bed trying to sleep, I couldn’t help

we hate it so much?  "Hey, Em, it's okay to not be sure.It is a big decision, you can still

squeezed my hand again

I sighed bitterly,

doesn’t want this baby.It’s a nuisance and it's just gonna cause trouble for

do you?"Tiff asked

"What?"

want

in me says no,

"But?"

little baby.It's a product of our love.Why is something that beautiful has to be so bad?"  My friends didn’t have an answer for

while Carrie bit her

they did the ultrasound earlier, I saw the little blip in my stomach.They told me it was 32 days old.32 days.In just a couple of days when the blip turns 5 weeks old,

each other before

eyes too, and they

me close into a

shoulder and chest,

I can keep the baby.I can keep the paternity a secret.lan wouldn't get in trouble and I can always go to college later, take a gap year like you, Tiff.A part of me was thinking that it wouldn't be so bad.That would

said, "Emma, have you told lan that you’ve been

have seen his face last night,"I scoffed

this baby.All he

last night, my heart was breaking into pieces

never seen him so

said out loud, although

school student and

fucking teacher! If people found out about us, I can go to jail, Emma! Do you know that?

I was

would

had to do what was best for everyone, for me, for lan,

be happy being born into a world where no one

sweet little blip, but you have

call the nurse?"I said

ready for the procedure.I wanna do

"But, Emma "

"Now.Please,"

back into the examination room and told Nurse Jackie what my

me if I was

would have to question my own decision again and I was

went through all the possible problems and after

nodded at everything she said and restrained

couple more minutes, as she needed to prepare the room for

a doctor walking about and some nurses passing

sat back down with Tiff and

"You're good?"Carrie asked.

"Yeah,"I nodded.

your phone's been buzzing.I don’t know if you wanna

handed my

the exam room so she was holding onto it

and it

calling

Tiff said again.

didn’t know what he

me and to make sure I was holding up my end of

feel like talking to him, but at the same time I was

the right thing to say to

and

a few steps away from my friends and

I've been calling all day.Where

clinic.I'm getting ready

a beat before continuing,