Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

I never thought in a million years that I would be spending Valentine’s Day in a Planned Parenthood clinic as a high school senior.  It was a lousy Saturday morning and I was sitting in that waiting room with my two best friends.We came in as soon as the doors opened at 9 AM.

After filling out an extensive form, I was brought into an examination room where they did a physical exam and an ultrasound on me.

The ultrasound determined that I was in fact, four and a half weeks pregnant.

It was living inside me for 32 days...That thing is 32 days old...  I was being administered by a female nurse, her name was Jackie, and she was very helpful.

She told me there are several ways I could do the procedure.

One of the ways was through a medical procedure, which meant taking an abortion pill or a shot.

Then she went on and told me about all the side effects.

"A medical abortion is a process, not an instant fix.It may take up to 48 hours after your visit for the medication to work.It can also entail heavy bleeding, intense cramping, and the passage of large clots,"she said.

"I'm explaining everything to you not to dissuade you from your decision.I’m just stating the facts.Are you with me?"

"Yes," I nodded.

"The other option is to get a surgical abortion.In which case, you will be put under anesthetic and the doctor would insert a small tube into the uterus, applying gentle suction, and remove the contents and lining of the uterus,"she paused for a moment to make sure I was still following her.

"The procedure itself takes around 10 minutes, but you need to get prepped for surgery so it will take about 4 to 5 hours in total.After the anesthetic has worn off and you have received your aftercare, you will need to be driven home,"

She told me to think over my options.

I could take a minute, or an hour, or even a couple of days.

But the thought of taking more time to let this thing inside me grow didn’t sit well with me.

I knew I couldn't keep it.

There was no point in prolonging the charade.

I told her I would just need a couple of minutes to talk to my girlfriends about it.

She was very supportive and she told me to take as much time as I need.

Going back out into the waiting room, I spotted Tiff and Carrie sitting carelessly on the sofa while watching the bad TV programs they put on.

"So?" they looked up at me as soon as they saw me.

"The nurse was really nice.She told me all my options .."I said as they scooted for me and I sat in between them.

"Okay, and?"

"I think I'll do the surgical procedure.It'll take about 4 or 5 hours in total but everything will be done at once.And I'll need someone to drive me home later,"

"Absolutely, we'll be here for you," Carrie squeezed my hand supportively.  

"What's the other option?"Tiff asked.

"A medical abortion by taking pills.She can give me one to take one right now and after 48 hours, I'll have to take another one at home and wait for it to work,"

"You don’t wanna do that? That sounds less painful,"Carrie said.

"No, I'm afraid I might mess it up.Taking pills was never my forte,"I stifled a dry laugh, but no one else was laughing.

 "That was a solid joke.I would laugh if the circumstances were different,"Tiff gave me a small, sorry smile.

"Anyway, the side effects of the pills sounded really bad.A lot of bleeding and blood clots and stuff,"

"Ouch..." they winced.

Blood clots...maybe that is what my little blip would turn into after I do the procedure.

32 day year old blood clot.

I wonder if it'll feel pain.

I wonder if it'll feel sad knowing that their mom and dad had decided to get rid of them like trash...  "So, you're sure about this?"

Carrie asked cautiously.

"Of course,"I shrugged.

was here today to hear my options, the different

didn't have

decided that this was the only way

with him, I couldn't wait

lying in bed trying to sleep, I couldn’t help but

and why did we hate it so much?  "Hey, Em, it's okay to not be sure.It is a big decision, you can still

hand again

can't," I

doesn’t want this baby.It’s a nuisance and it's

you?"Tiff

"What?"

you want this

side in me says no,

"But?"

love.Why is something that beautiful has to be so bad?"  My friends didn’t have an answer

Carrie bit her

tossed and turned thinking about this little thing inside me.When they did the ultrasound earlier, I saw the little blip in my stomach.They told me it was 32 days old.32 days.In just a couple of days when the blip turns 5 weeks old, they said I can start hearing the heartbeat.The heartbeat, guys...it's gonna have a heartbeat..." my voice cracked as tears began

and Carrie looked at each other before turning to look

too, and they didn’t know

just pulled me

my shoulder and chest, keeping me

me was thinking that maybe I can keep the baby.I can keep the paternity a secret.lan wouldn't get in trouble and I can always go to college later, take a

slightly and said, "Emma,

seen his face last

want to hear or have anything to do with this baby.All he cared about

conversation from last night, my heart was

never seen him so

out

high school student and you're going to

out about us, I can go to jail, Emma!

I was

this baby would ruin

do what was best for everyone, for

be happy being born into a world

little blip, but you have to

nurse?"I said as firmly as

for the procedure.I wanna do it

"But, Emma "

"Now.Please,"

into the examination room and told Nurse Jackie what my

didn't ask me if I was sure,

time someone asked me that question, I would have to question my own decision again and I was

went through all the possible

said and restrained myself from

wait outside for a couple more minutes, as she needed to prepare the room for the surgery.I went back out in the waiting

a doctor walking about and some nurses

Tiff and Carrie and they immediately held my

"You're good?"Carrie asked.

"Yeah,"I nodded.

your phone's been buzzing.I don’t know if

said as she handed my

it to the exam room

and it said ‘lan

been calling like, twenty

Tiff said again.

what he

on me and to make sure I was holding

but at

always knew the right thing to say

took a deep breath and

walked a few steps away

calling all day.Where are you?"he sounded

clinic.I'm getting ready

paused for a beat before continuing,