Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

but I'm

curved

in his and squeezed

in the air, something different about him that I couldn’t put my

contact with me and he threw his gaze down again, staring at my hand

of my hand and it was a soothing gesture, but somehow

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

gonna happen

smile, saying, "Well, your body's gonna recover.Things might be hard at first but you're the strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll be back

he only replied with ‘you’.He said all those

go to college in the fall with

like we planned,"The smile on his face

hard and turned his face

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

we should do this

words caught me

him right, but that look on his

“What do you mean?"

has gotten way, way too far," he paused for a moment and let out

was he saying all this? Where did this

I croaked, 

that

I’m not

up to me as he said it, and he was pulling

happened was terrible, but like you said, I’m

way, I was determined to snap him out of it.We belong together, we were perfect for each other.It was no use trying

situation here," he pulled his hand away forcefully and raked

I snapped

that we were sitting on a hospital bed with my arm all hooked up

happen!" his breaths were ragged, but he was trying his best to pull

turned back to normal and he said, "I love you, Emma.I do.I always have and I always will.But my being with you is far too destructive, for you

You're just gonna give up on

some time

gone through this.We've got our future all planned up.I’m gonna go to college on the east

be there?"he cut me

I don’t get that job

stay here too.I'll go to college in the state

cut me off

you see?

"What's the problem?"

can't base our life decisions off of each other.That's not right.You have to do what’s best for you and I have to do what's best for me.I

can’t let me what? Hold you back?" I spat

your life away

not throwing my life away..." I paused and let out

right there,"he

are you

was too much too fast.Just a week ago, you told me you were pregnant.Then I thought we decided to get rid of the baby.But the next day you called me and said you can’t do it.And then I looked for you all over town and I couldn't find you, and then

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

anymore.You got your wish.Why can’t we just go back to the way

that was left here, but I

think I wished for this happen? Is that

it that way,"I shook my

as he said,

tried to reach for his hand but

back to the way they

he stepped into the room.It felt like my heart was being ripped apart and torn to pieces.I was so happy minutes ago and now I