Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

weak, but I'm feeling much better now

smile curved up his

and squeezed it gently,

the air, something different about him that

me and he threw his gaze

hand

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

gonna happen to us

recover.Things might be hard at first but you're the strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll be back at school in no time, cheerleading or swimming, and hanging out with your friends.You'll

replied with ‘you’.He said all those nice things

the fall with you, right?"I

we planned,"The smile on his

hard and turned his face away

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

we should do

caught

on his face was clear as day.He

“What do you mean?"

gotten way, way too far," he paused for a

saying? Why was he saying all this? Where

I croaked, 

everything that

not good for

me as he said it, and he was

happened was terrible, but

it was that was making him act this way, I was determined to snap him out of it.We belong together, we were perfect for each other.It was no use trying to

of the situation here," he pulled his hand away forcefully

situation?" I

yelled, pointing out the fact that we were sitting on a hospital bed with my arm all hooked up to

can't let that happen!" his breaths were ragged, but he was trying his best

to normal and he said, "I love you, Emma.I do.I always have and I always will.But my being with you is far too destructive, for you and for me.I can't

You're just gonna give up

think it's best if we take some time apart

our future all planned up.I’m gonna

if I won't be there?"he cut me off

if I don’t get that job

I can stay here too.I'll go to college in the

cut me off

see? That's the

"What's the problem?"

decisions off of each other.That's not right.You have to do what’s best for you and

Hold you back?" I spat when he couldn't finish

your life away

I paused and let out a

that’s the problem right

you talking

you can’t do it.And then I looked for you all over

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

not pregnant anymore.You got your wish.Why can’t we

was left here, but I guess I

for this happen? Is that what

mean it that way,"I shook my head quickly, but it

as he said,

to reach for his hand

this happens again? Things just can't go back to the way they were anymore, Emma.We've been through too

or maybe I already did.He had decided on this the moment he stepped into the room.It felt like my