Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

mean, I still feel really weak, but I'm

smile curved up

hand in his and squeezed

different about him

me and he threw his gaze down again,

ran circles on the back of my hand and it was a soothing gesture, but somehow

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

gonna happen to

"Well, your body's gonna recover.Things might be hard at first but you're the strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll be back at school in no time, cheerleading or swimming, and hanging out with your

he only replied with ‘you’.He said all those nice things about me, but he didn’t say anything about us

to college in the fall with you,

like we planned,"The smile on his face turned to a

hard and turned his face

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

don’t think we

words caught

but that look on his face was clear as day.He

“What do you mean?"

has gotten way, way too far," he paused for a moment and let

way in over our heads,What was he saying? Why was he saying all this? Where did this come from? "Are you breaking up with

I croaked, 

after everything that we’ve

not

he said it, and he was pulling his hand away, but I

you.And okay, what happened was terrible, but like

way, I was determined to snap him out of it.We belong together, we were

of the situation here," he pulled his hand away forcefully and raked his

situation?" I snapped

at you! You almost died!" he stood up and yelled, pointing out the fact that we were sitting on a hospital bed

your entire life and future for me.I can't let that happen!" his breaths were ragged, but he was trying his

did, his voice turned back to normal and he said, "I love you, Emma.I do.I always have and I always will.But my being with you is far too destructive, for you and for me.I can't do that

gonna give up on us?"I asked in

if we take some time apart

what out? We've gone through this.We've got our future all planned up.I’m gonna go to college on

I won't be there?"he cut

job and I

can stay here too.I'll go

me off

you see? That's

"What's the problem?"

you and I have to do

Hold you back?" I spat when

throw your life away

away..." I paused and let

that’s the problem right there,"he stated

are you talking

I looked for you all over town and I couldn't find you, and then your friends called me and told me you were in an accident.Like, what the actual fuck?"he took a deep breath and looked up to

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

lost the baby, okay? I’m not pregnant anymore.You got your wish.Why

my best to hold on to whatever that was

Is that

way,"I shook

gaze turned cold as

his

Things just can't go back to the

this the moment he stepped into the room.It felt