Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

weak, but I'm feeling

smile curved up his

my hand in his and squeezed it

was something in the air, something different about him that I couldn’t put my

keep eye contact with me and he

ran circles on the back of my hand and it was a soothing gesture, but

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

gonna happen

hard at first but you're the strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll be back at school in no time,

said all those nice things about me, but he didn’t

college in the fall with you, right?"I asked

on his face turned to a

turned his face away

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

think we

words caught me

hearing him right, but that look on his face was clear as

“What do you mean?"

far," he paused

was he saying all this? Where did

I croaked, 

after everything that we’ve been

I’m not good

and he

talking about? I love you.And okay, what happened was terrible, but like you said, I’m still here.We can work through this,"I

way, I was determined to snap him out of it.We belong

of the situation here," he pulled his hand away forcefully

I

stood up and yelled, pointing out the fact that we were sitting on a hospital bed with my arm all

your entire life and future for me.I can't let that happen!" his breaths were ragged, but

love you, Emma.I do.I always have and I always will.But my

what? You're just gonna give up on us?"I asked

best if we take some time apart to figure everything out,"he said

We've gone through this.We've got our future all planned up.I’m gonna go to

if I won't be there?"he

I don’t get that job and I have

stay here too.I'll go to college in the state

cut me

you see? That's the

"What's the problem?"

right.You have to do what’s best for you and I have to do what's best for me.I can’t hold

me what? Hold you back?" I spat when he couldn't finish his

let you throw your life away from me,"he replied

and let out

that’s the problem right there,"he stated again.

you

then I looked for you all over town and I couldn't find you, and then your friends called me and told me you were in an accident.Like, what the actual fuck?"he took a deep

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

the baby, okay? I’m not pregnant anymore.You got your wish.Why

trying my best to hold on to whatever that was left here, but I

Is

way,"I shook my head quickly, but

gaze turned cold as he said,

reach for his hand

happens again? Things just can't go back to the way they were anymore, Emma.We've been

even look at me.I was losing him, or maybe I already did.He had decided on this the moment he stepped into the room.It felt like my heart was being ripped apart and