Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

feel really weak, but I'm feeling much

small smile curved up his

my hand in his and squeezed it gently, saying,

the air, something different about him that I couldn’t put my

with me and he threw his gaze down again, staring

thumb ran circles on the back of my hand and it was a soothing gesture, but

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

happen to us

first but you're the strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll be back at school in no time, cheerleading or swimming,

but he only replied with ‘you’.He said all those nice things about

go to college in the fall with you,

his face turned to a

his face away

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

we should

words caught me

I thought I wasn’t hearing him right, but that look on his face was clear as day.He was

“What do you mean?"

think we have to stop.This has gotten way, way too far," he paused for

we're doing.We're way in over our heads,What was he saying? Why was he saying all this? Where did this come from? "Are you breaking

I croaked, 

that we’ve

I’m not good

and he was pulling his hand

love you.And okay, what happened was terrible, but

act this way, I was determined to snap him out of it.We belong together, we were perfect for each other.It

here," he pulled his hand

I

at you! You almost died!" he stood up and yelled, pointing out the fact that we were sitting on a

up your entire life and future for me.I can't let that happen!" his breaths were ragged, but he was trying his best to

his voice turned back to normal and he said, "I love you, Emma.I do.I always have and I always will.But my being with you is far too destructive, for you

just gonna give

it's best if we take some time apart

this.We've got our future all planned up.I’m gonna go to college on the east coast and you'll be

if I won't be there?"he cut

I don’t get that job and I have to

go to college

cut me off

see? That's the

"What's the problem?"

right.You have to do what’s best for you and I have to do what's best for me.I can’t hold you

can’t let me what? Hold you back?"

let you throw your life away

I’m not throwing my life away..." I paused and let out a deep sigh, "lan,

right there,"he stated again.

you talking

to get rid of the baby.But the next day you called me and said you can’t do it.And then I looked for you all over town and I couldn't find you, and then your friends called me

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

lost the baby, okay? I’m not pregnant anymore.You got

that was left here, but I guess

this happen? Is that what you think of me?"he

it that way,"I shook my

as

tried to reach for his

can't go back to the way they were anymore,

decided on this the moment he stepped into the room.It felt like my heart