Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

feel really weak, but I'm feeling much better now that you're

smile curved up his

in his and squeezed it gently, saying,

the air, something different about him

eye contact with me and he threw

back of my hand and it was a soothing gesture, but somehow

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

happen to us

at first but you're the strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll be back at school in no time, cheerleading or swimming, and hanging out

but he only replied with ‘you’.He said all those nice

to college in the fall with you, right?"I asked

his

and turned his

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

don’t think we should do

caught me

on his face was

“What do you mean?"

way too far," he paused for a moment and let out a

Why was he saying all this? Where did this come

I croaked, 

that

not good for

looked up to me as he said it, and he

was terrible,

act this way, I was determined to snap him out

of the situation here," he pulled his hand

situation?" I snapped

that we were sitting on a hospital

can't let that happen!" his breaths were ragged, but he was trying

turned back to normal and he said, "I love you, Emma.I do.I always have and I

give up on us?"I

take some time apart to figure everything out,"he said

got our future all planned up.I’m gonna go to college on the east coast and you'll be

be

if I don’t get that job and I have to stay

go to college in the

cut me off

you see? That's the

"What's the problem?"

each other.That's not right.You have to do what’s best for you and I

what? Hold you back?" I spat when he

let you throw your life away from me,"he

and let out a deep sigh,

the problem right there,"he stated again. 

you talking

you called me and said you can’t do it.And then I looked for you all over town and I couldn't find you, and then your friends called me and told me you were in

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

okay..I lost the baby, okay? I’m not pregnant anymore.You got your wish.Why can’t we just go

whatever that was left

Is that what

shook my head quickly, but it didn’t

cold as he said,

for his hand

like this happens again? Things just can't go back to the way they were anymore, Emma.We've been

touch him.He wouldn't even look at me.I was losing him, or maybe I already did.He had decided on this the moment he stepped into the room.It felt like my heart was being