Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

I still feel really weak, but I'm feeling much better now

small smile curved up his

and squeezed it gently, saying, "That's

something different about him that I

eye contact with me and he threw his gaze down again, staring at my

of my hand and it was a

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

gonna happen

strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll be back at school in

but he only replied with ‘you’.He said all those nice things about me, but he didn’t say anything about us

I'll go to college in the fall with you, right?"I

on his face turned to

swallowed hard and turned his

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

we

caught me

thought I wasn’t hearing him right, but that look on his face was clear as day.He was serious

“What do you mean?"

way, way too far," he paused for a moment and

was he saying all this? Where did this come from? "Are you breaking up

I croaked, 

everything that

not good for

looked up to me as he said it, and he was pulling his hand away, but I held onto it

love you.And okay, what happened was terrible, but

determined to snap him out of it.We belong

pulled his hand

I

you! You almost died!" he stood up and yelled, pointing out the fact that we were sitting on a hospital bed

me.I can't let that happen!"

"I love you, Emma.I do.I always have and I always will.But my being with you is far too destructive, for you and for me.I can't

give up on us?"I asked

it's best if we take some time

this.We've got our future all planned up.I’m gonna go to college on

I won't be there?"he cut me

I don’t get that job and

go to college in

me

you see?

"What's the problem?"

not right.You have to do what’s best for you and I have to do what's best for me.I can’t hold you

you back?" I

throw your life away from me,"he

throwing my life away..." I paused and let out a deep sigh,

problem right there,"he stated again. 

are you talking

baby.But the next day you called me and said you can’t do it.And then I looked for you all over town and I couldn't find you, and then your friends called me and told me you were in an accident.Like, what the

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

okay? I’m not pregnant anymore.You got your wish.Why can’t we just go back to the

trying my best to hold on to whatever that was

I wished for this happen? Is that what you think of me?"he spat

it that way,"I shook my

gaze turned cold as he

tried to reach for his hand but he moved away

if something like this happens again? Things just can't go back to the way they were anymore, Emma.We've been through

wouldn't let me touch him.He wouldn't even look at me.I was losing him, or maybe I already did.He had decided on this the moment he stepped into the room.It felt like my heart was being ripped apart and torn to pieces.I was so happy minutes ago and now