Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

feel really weak, but I'm

smile curved up

and squeezed it

something in the air, something different about

me and he threw his gaze down again, staring at

thumb ran circles on the back of my hand and it was a soothing gesture, but somehow it

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

gonna happen to us

hard at first but you're the strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll

only replied with ‘you’.He said all those

college in the fall with you, right?"I

on his

and turned his face away

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

don’t think we

words caught me

thought I wasn’t hearing him right, but that look on his face was clear as day.He was serious about

“What do you mean?"

gotten way, way too far," he paused for a moment and let out a

over our heads,What was he saying? Why was he saying all this? Where did this

I croaked, 

after everything that

I’m not

looked up to me as he said it, and he was pulling his hand away, but I held

you talking about? I love you.And okay, what happened was terrible, but like

him act this way, I was determined to snap him out of it.We belong together, we were perfect for each other.It

situation here," he pulled his

situation?" I

almost died!" he stood up and yelled, pointing out the fact that we were sitting on a hospital bed with my arm all hooked up to an

life and future for me.I can't let that happen!" his breaths were ragged, but he was trying his

normal and he said, "I love you, Emma.I do.I always have and I always

what? You're just gonna give up on us?"I asked in

some time apart to figure everything

out? We've gone through this.We've got our future all planned up.I’m gonna go to

if I won't be there?"he cut me off

I don’t get that job

I can stay here too.I'll go to college in

me off

you see? That's

"What's the problem?"

for you and I have to do what's best for me.I can’t hold you

you back?" I spat when he couldn't finish his

throw your life

paused and let

the problem right there,"he stated again.

are you talking

next day you called me and said you can’t do it.And then I looked for you all over town and I couldn't find you, and then your friends called me and told me you were in an accident.Like, what the actual fuck?"he took a deep breath and looked up to the ceiling, he was

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

okay? I’m not pregnant anymore.You got

was left here, but I guess I was holding on too

for this happen? Is that what you

I didn’t mean it that way,"I shook

cold as

tried to reach for his hand but

Things just can't go back to the way they were anymore, Emma.We've been

moment he stepped into the room.It felt like my heart was being ripped apart and