Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

but I'm

smile curved up

and squeezed it

different about him that I couldn’t put my

with me and he

on the back of my hand and it was a soothing gesture, but somehow

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

gonna happen to

hard at first but you're the strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll be

but he only replied with ‘you’.He said all those nice

the fall with

his face turned to a

swallowed hard and turned his face away again, avoiding

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

we should do

caught me

but that look on his face was clear

“What do you mean?"

stop.This has gotten way, way too far," he paused

was he saying all this? Where did this come from? "Are

I croaked, 

everything that we’ve been

not good

as he said it, and he was

about? I love you.And okay, what happened was terrible, but like you said, I’m still here.We can

him act this way, I was determined to snap him out of it.We belong

gravity of the situation here," he pulled his hand away forcefully and raked

situation?" I snapped

pointing out the fact that we were sitting on a hospital bed with my arm

your entire life and future for me.I can't let that happen!" his breaths were ragged, but he was trying his best to

have and I always

You're just gonna give up on us?"I asked

some time apart to figure everything

our future all planned up.I’m gonna

be there?"he cut

if I don’t get that job and I have to

can stay here too.I'll go

me off

you see? That's

"What's the problem?"

best for you and I have to do what's best for me.I can’t

let me what? Hold you back?" I

let you throw your life away from me,"he

my life away..." I paused and let

problem right

are you

to get rid of the baby.But the next day you called me and said you can’t do it.And then I looked for you all over

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

the baby, okay? I’m not pregnant anymore.You got your wish.Why can’t

whatever that was left here, but I guess I was

happen? Is

mean it that way,"I shook my

turned cold as

for his hand but he moved away

just can't go back to the way

had decided on this the moment he stepped into the room.It felt like my heart was being ripped apart and torn to pieces.I was so happy minutes ago