Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

really weak, but I'm

small smile curved up his

hand in his and squeezed it gently,

air, something different about him that I couldn’t

with me and he threw his gaze down again, staring at my

back of my hand and it was a soothing

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

gonna happen to us

make it through.You'll be

said all those nice things about me,

go to college in the

on his face turned to a

hard and turned his face away again, avoiding

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

don’t think we should do

words caught me by

I wasn’t hearing him right, but that look on his face was clear as day.He was serious about what he was

“What do you mean?"

stop.This has gotten way, way too far,"

was he saying all this? Where did

I croaked, 

after everything that we’ve

I’m not good

said it, and he was pulling

what happened was terrible, but like you said, I’m

out of it.We belong together, we were perfect for each other.It was no use trying to

of the situation here," he pulled his hand away forcefully and

I

You almost died!" he stood up and yelled, pointing out the fact that we were sitting on a hospital bed with my arm all hooked up

life and future for me.I can't let that happen!" his breaths were ragged, but he

he said, "I love you, Emma.I do.I always have and I always will.But my being with

give up

it's best if we take some time

our future all planned up.I’m gonna go to college

won't be there?"he cut me off

I don’t get that job and

too.I'll go to college

cut me off

see? That's the

"What's the problem?"

not right.You have to do what’s best for you and I have to do what's best for me.I can’t hold you

can’t let me what? Hold you back?" I

you throw your life away from me,"he

my life away..." I paused and let out a deep sigh, "lan, you're my

right there,"he stated

are you talking

for you all over town and I couldn't find you, and then your

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

got your wish.Why can’t we just go back to

to whatever that was left here, but I guess

happen? Is that what you think of me?"he spat

it that way,"I shook my head quickly, but it didn’t

gaze turned cold as he said, "But you

reach for his

just can't go back to the way they were anymore, Emma.We've been through too damn

did.He had decided on this the moment he stepped into the room.It felt like my heart was