Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

feel really weak, but I'm feeling much

curved up his

took my hand in his and

something in the air, something different about

with me and he

ran circles on the back of my hand and it

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

happen

but you're the strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll be back at

but he only replied with ‘you’.He said all those nice things about

go to college in the fall with you, right?"I asked

smile on his face

his face away again, avoiding

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

we should

caught me by

him right, but that look on his face was clear as day.He was serious about what

“What do you mean?"

far," he paused for a moment and let out a

was he saying? Why was he saying

I croaked, 

everything that we’ve

not good

he said it, and he was pulling his hand away, but I held

you.And okay, what happened was terrible, but like you said, I’m still

was that was making him act this way, I was determined to snap him out of it.We

the situation here," he pulled his hand away forcefully and raked

situation?" I

stood up and yelled, pointing out the fact that we were sitting on a hospital bed with my arm all hooked up

your entire life and future for me.I can't let that happen!" his breaths were

to normal and he said, "I love you, Emma.I do.I always have and I always will.But my being with you is far too destructive, for

You're just gonna give up

we take some time apart to

planned up.I’m gonna go to college on the east coast and

I won't be there?"he cut me

I don’t get that job

go to college in the

cut me off

you see? That's

"What's the problem?"

to do what’s best for you and I have to do what's best for me.I can’t hold you back and I can’t let

can’t let me what? Hold you back?" I spat when he couldn't finish

throw your

I paused and let

right there,"he stated again. 

you

was too much too fast.Just a week ago, you told me you were pregnant.Then I thought we decided to get rid of the baby.But the next day you called me and said you can’t do it.And then I looked for you all over town and I couldn't find you, and then your friends called me and told me you were in an accident.Like, what the actual fuck?"he took a deep breath and looked

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

got your wish.Why can’t we

trying my best to hold on to whatever that was left here, but I guess

this happen? Is

it that way,"I shook my head quickly, but it didn’t

cold as he said, "But you

reach for his hand but he moved

something like this happens again? Things just can't go back to the

already did.He had decided on this the moment he stepped into the room.It felt like my heart was being ripped apart and