Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

but I'm feeling much

curved

my hand in his and squeezed it gently, saying,

something in the air, something different about him that I couldn’t put

eye contact with me and he threw his gaze down

back of my hand and it

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

happen to us

gonna recover.Things might be hard at first but you're the strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll be back at school

but he only replied with ‘you’.He said all those nice things

in the fall

we planned,"The smile on his face turned

swallowed hard and turned his face

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

think we should do this

caught me

a second I thought I wasn’t hearing him right, but that look on his face was clear as day.He was serious about what he was

“What do you mean?"

gotten way, way too far," he

saying? Why was he saying all this? Where did this

I croaked, 

that we’ve

I’m not good

as he said it, and he was pulling his hand away, but I held

what happened was terrible, but like you

snap him out of it.We belong together, we were perfect for

I don’t think you realize the gravity of the situation here," he pulled his hand away forcefully and raked

I

stood up and yelled, pointing out the fact that we were sitting

me.I can't let that happen!" his breaths were ragged, but he was trying

normal and he said, "I love you, Emma.I do.I always have and I always will.But my being with you is

You're just gonna give up on

if we take some time apart

all planned up.I’m

won't be there?"he cut me

I don’t get that job and I have to stay

I can stay here too.I'll go to college in the state

cut me off

you see? That's the

"What's the problem?"

right.You have to do what’s best for you and I have to do what's best for me.I

you back?" I spat when he couldn't

throw your life

and let out a deep sigh, "lan, you're my

right there,"he

are you talking

a week ago, you told me you were pregnant.Then I thought we decided to get rid of the baby.But the next day you called me and said you can’t do it.And then I looked for you all over town and I couldn't find you, and then your friends called me and told me you were in an accident.Like, what the

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

not pregnant anymore.You got your wish.Why can’t we just go back

was left here,

happen? Is that what you think of me?"he

mean it that way,"I shook my head

as he said, "But

for his

if something like this happens again? Things just can't go back to the way they were anymore, Emma.We've been through

the moment he stepped into the room.It felt like my heart was being ripped apart and