Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

I still feel really weak, but I'm feeling

small smile curved

his and squeezed

different about

me and he threw his gaze down again, staring at my hand

thumb ran circles on the back of my hand and it was a

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

gonna happen to us

breath and let out a smile, saying, "Well, your body's gonna recover.Things might be hard at first but you're the strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll be back at

all those nice

college in the

his face turned to

his face

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

don’t think we

words caught

that look on his face was clear as day.He was serious about what he

“What do you mean?"

gotten way, way too far," he paused for

in over our heads,What was he saying? Why was he saying all this? Where did this come from? "Are you

I croaked, 

that we’ve

I’m not good

said it, and he was pulling his hand away, but I held

terrible, but

him out of it.We belong together, we were perfect for each other.It was

pulled his hand away forcefully and

I

almost died!" he stood up and yelled, pointing out the fact that we were sitting on a hospital bed with my arm all hooked up

happen!"

have and I always will.But my being with you is far too destructive, for you and for me.I can't do

what? You're just gonna give

best if we take some time apart to

got our future all planned up.I’m gonna go

if I won't be there?"he cut me

don’t get that job and I have

I can stay here too.I'll go to college

cut me

see? That's

"What's the problem?"

best for you and I have

back?" I

you throw your life away from

away..." I paused and let out a deep sigh, "lan, you're my whole

right there,"he stated again.

you talking

me and said you can’t do it.And then I looked for you all over town and

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

the baby, okay? I’m not pregnant anymore.You got your wish.Why can’t

that was left here, but I guess I was

think I wished for this happen? Is that what you think of

I didn’t mean it that way,"I shook my

cold as he

to reach for his hand but he

if something like this happens again? Things just can't go back to the way they were

losing him, or maybe I already did.He had decided on this the moment he stepped