Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

still feel really weak, but I'm

smile curved up

and squeezed it gently,

in the air, something different about him that I

barely keep eye contact with me and he threw his gaze down again, staring

hand and it was a

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

gonna happen to

be hard at first but you're the strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll be back at school

‘you’.He said all those

the

smile on his face turned

swallowed hard and turned his face away

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

don’t think we should do

caught

but that look on his face was clear as day.He was

“What do you mean?"

far," he paused for a moment and let

what we're doing.We're way in over our heads,What was he saying? Why was he

I croaked, 

everything that we’ve been

not

it, and he was pulling his hand

are you talking about? I love you.And okay, what happened was terrible,

him act this way, I was determined to snap him out of it.We belong together, we were perfect for each other.It was no

gravity of the situation here," he pulled his hand away forcefully and raked his

situation?" I

we were sitting

your entire life and future for me.I can't let that happen!"

do.I always have and I always will.But my being with you is far too destructive, for you

just gonna give up

think it's best if we take some time apart to figure everything out,"he

We've gone through this.We've got our future all planned up.I’m gonna go to college on the east

won't be there?"he cut me

if I don’t get that job and I have to

I can stay here too.I'll go to college in

cut me off

see? That's the

"What's the problem?"

of each other.That's not right.You have to do what’s best for you and I have to

back?" I spat when he couldn't finish

let you throw your life

away..." I paused and let out a deep sigh, "lan, you're my

right there,"he

are you talking

looked for you all over town and I couldn't find you, and then your friends called me and told

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

not pregnant anymore.You got your wish.Why can’t we

on to whatever that was left here, but I guess I was holding on too

I wished for this happen? Is that what

shook my head quickly,

gaze turned cold as he said, "But you

to reach for his hand

just can't go back to the way

had decided on this the moment he stepped into the room.It felt like my heart was being ripped apart and torn to pieces.I was so happy minutes ago and now I