Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

lan was standing at the door.He looked tired, disheveled, and there was this sadness in his eyes.But he was still my lan.

I was so relieved to see him in front of me.The moment I saw him standing there, my heart was doing backflips and I wished I could jump out of this bed and hug him.But I was still too weak, so all I could do was smile at him.  

"Hey, "I said softly.

"Hi,"he moved closer and closed the door behind him.

"How are you feeling—"

"I've missed you," I cut him off quickly.

I missed him so much, I couldn't hold it in anymore.I was so happy to see him, but then I also felt super self- conscious.I had been sitting in this hospital bed for a week.

Sure, I took a shower and all, but I probably looked terrible.I still had scars and bruises all over my face and body from the accident.As if he knew what I was thinking about, that sadness in his eyes was showing again.He put his gaze down as if he was in pain and stalked closer to the bed.

When he reached the side of my bed, he stopped and looked up at me.His eyes were glistening.

"I missed you too,"he paused for a moment and his hand reached for my face.

I leaned my face to the palm of his hand and he squeezed my cheek gently.He then took a deep breath and said, "I’m so sorry.I’m so sorry for everything,"

"No, I’m the one who should apologize..." I shook my head slowly.

My voice cracked when I spoke because I saw how broken he was.

All this time I was thinking about myself and my own feelings, I had forgotten that lan was hurting too.

"Why are you apologizing?"he said softly.

"Because...Because I was selfish and immature.I didn’t handle the situation right.I was confused and I just shut you out...and then I did something very reckless and stupid and I..."I could stop the tears from streaming down my face as I said, "I lost our baby...I'm really sorry,"

I was full on sobbing at this point and lan grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.He held onto me tightly as I cried into his shirt.

"It's not your fault, Emma.It's okay,"

he cooed me and stroked the back of my head.

"It is my fault.It’s all my fault.I messed everything up..."

my voice was muffled because I buried face into his chest.

"No, you don't,"

"Yes, I did,"

"No, look, you’re here and you're okay.That's all that matters,"he said as he tilted my face up.

He stared at me with this look of deep longing, and I thought he was going to kiss me.But instead, he leaned his forehead down and rested it against mine.He breathed me in and I breathed him in, and we just stayed like that for a while.

"I was so scared I was gonna lose you,"he whispered.

"You're never gonna lose me," I said as I gripped the back of his head.

I was leaning my face forward and pulling him in for a kiss, our lips almost touched, but then he pulled away quickly.

"lan?"

"You look really tired.I think I should let you rest for a while,"he said nervously.

"No, I’m fine," I said reassuringly.

"Are you sure?"

I still feel really weak, but

smile curved up his

my hand in his and squeezed it gently, saying,

was something in the air, something different about him that I couldn’t

he threw his

the back of my hand and it was

"lan,"

I said slowly.

"Yeah?"

gonna happen to

strongest girl I know.You'll make it through.You'll be back

those nice things about me, but he

to college in the fall

his face turned to a flat

swallowed hard and turned his face

"Emma..."he started.

"What?"

don’t think we should do this

words caught

I wasn’t hearing him right, but that look on his face was

“What do you mean?"

too far," he paused

saying? Why was he saying all this? Where did this come from?

I croaked, 

everything that

I’m not good for

me as he said it, and he was pulling his hand away, but

what happened was terrible, but like you said, I’m still here.We can work through

way, I was determined to snap him out of it.We belong together, we were perfect for each other.It was no

think you realize the gravity of the situation here," he pulled his hand away forcefully and raked his hair with

I snapped

pointing out the fact that we were sitting on a hospital bed with my arm all hooked up to an

happen!" his breaths were ragged,

he finally did, his voice turned back to normal and he said, "I love you, Emma.I do.I always have and I always will.But my being with you is far too destructive, for you and for me.I can't do

You're just gonna give up on us?"I asked

it's best if we take some time apart to

our future all planned up.I’m gonna go to

I won't be there?"he cut

that job

too.I'll go

cut me

see? That's

"What's the problem?"

can't base our life decisions off of each other.That's not right.You have to do what’s best for you and I

me what? Hold you back?" I spat when he couldn't finish

you throw your life away from me,"he

life away..." I paused and let out a deep sigh,

problem right there,"he stated again. 

you

rid of the baby.But the next day you called me and said you can’t do it.And then I looked for you all over town and I couldn't find you, and then your friends called me and

"That's too fuckin’ much,"

the baby, okay? I’m not pregnant anymore.You got your wish.Why

that was left here, but I guess I was

wished for this happen? Is that what you think

shook my head quickly, but

cold as he

for his hand but he

just can't go back to the way they were anymore, Emma.We've been

the moment he stepped into the