Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

that

believe it or not," I stifled

that simple for lan to end things with

no more relationship,

because Tiff and Carrie had a sleepover here last night.I’m old and I'm your mother, remember? I can pick up on these things.My money says it has something to do with him, the

please, just drop it.I don’t

mother was

my eyes, all I see was his face when he told me that things

my throat every time I remembered the moment he turned his back on me and left

around my eyes as I heard his voice ringing

at me and as if she knew what I was thinking, she then asked, "Why? What did he

absolutely nothing..."my voice cracked and tears trickled down my tired

my mom, it just happened, and I couldn't take it back.I was sobbing incoherently and mom pulled me into a hug.I cried into her chest and said, "He left,

she cooed

he just left

him.Finding out that I was pregnant...getting into an

stroked my hair

doesn't know

know who I was talking about, but her words were enough to help

still so young.You'll

and understanding, and

all year long and here I was, still lying to her.I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't tell her about

didn’t you tell you before...I thought I was being careful with the pills but I messed up.I went to the clinic with Tiff

rest of the story without crying again,

the worst person on the planet,"I murmured to her

worst person on the

was a pretty shitty human being.I was a liar to my own mother.I was careless and I lost a beautiful life that I

loved a guy

me, mom?" the words came out before I could

mean, was I really that bad? "Because he’s a gosh darn fool.Any guy who chooses to leave a

fool? Or was it me, the girl that lost everything in the span of a week?

weird dream where I

looking for, but

through all the names on_ the tombstones, looking

and my feet

and I began

a long row of tombstones until I finally stopped at one

in leaves, so I

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

eyes then darted to the next tombstone and it was

and no

my eyes darted to the next tombstone, and there it was, the one that

was clear as

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

screamed and my body jolted in

eyes and realized I was

looked from side to side and noticed that the room was

the wall showed that it was 2 PM, and the daylight outside the windows confirmed

"Mom?"

panting from my weird

signs of her anywhere,

,she'd always be

wonder where mom went.I was walking sluggishly

was 2 PM and school was almost

it

energy in me

Yesterday was brutal.

at the lobby and I told them to

went out and I

probably an entire bottle of whiskey on my own

passed out and woke up the next

had a throbbing headache all day long