Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

that simple,

it or not," I stifled a bitter

that simple for lan

more relationship, and

so upset today, but I’m gonna bet it isn't because Tiff and Carrie had a sleepover here last night.I’m old and I'm your mother, remember? I can pick up on these things.My money says it

just drop it.I don’t wanna talk about

my mother was the

see was his face when he told

was caught in my throat every time I remembered the moment he turned his back on me and left the

pooled around my eyes as I heard his voice ringing in

what I was thinking, she

absolutely nothing..."my voice cracked and tears trickled down my tired

happened, and I couldn't take it back.I

she cooed gripped me

him so much...And he just left me,"I said in between sobs,

everything was too much for him.Finding out that I was pregnant...getting

stroked my hair and let out a sigh,

boy.He doesn't

but her words were

still so young.You'll get through

being so kind and understanding, and I

I was, still lying to her.I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't tell her about lan, but I wanted to tell her everything else

but I messed up.I went to the clinic with Tiff and Carrie

continue the rest of the story without crying again,

the worst person

the worst person on the planet.Don't beat yourself

was true, but we all know I was a pretty shitty human being.I was a liar to my own mother.I was careless and I lost a beautiful life

I was toxic because I loved a guy with all my heart and

stay with me, mom?" the words came out before I could

that bad? "Because he’s a gosh darn fool.Any guy who

fool? Or was it me, the girl that lost everything in the span of a week? - Mom stayed with me for a few more hours until I got tired of crying and I fell

this weird dream

I was looking for, but I was looking

all the names on_ the tombstones, looking for one that I would

was barefoot and my feet were covered

started to pour and I began to run

I finally stopped at one that looked different

in leaves, so

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

then darted to the next tombstone and it was a smaller tombstone, like the ones they

no name and no writings on

then my eyes darted to the next tombstone, and there it was, the one that I was

writing was clear as

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

and my

eyes and realized I was still lying on the hospital

looked from side to side and noticed that

the wall showed that it was 2 PM, and the daylight outside the

"Mom?"

still panting

of her anywhere, which was

always

where mom went.I was walking

PM and

wished it were over

energy in me to go

Yesterday was brutal.

I saw her friends at the lobby

and

an entire bottle of

passed out and woke

a throbbing headache all day long and I didn’t