Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

that

not," I stifled

was that simple for lan

more

old and I'm your mother, remember? I can pick up on these things.My money says it has something to do with him, the guy you're seeing

don’t wanna talk about

lan with my mother was the last thing I

see was his face when he

I remembered the moment he turned his back on me and left the

ringing in

took one look at me and as if she knew what I was thinking,

He did absolutely nothing..."my voice

I couldn't take it back.I was sobbing incoherently and mom pulled me into a

cooed gripped me

him so much...And he just left me,"I said in between sobs,

was too much for him.Finding out that I was pregnant...getting into an accident...I was too

stroked my hair and let out a sigh,

boy.He doesn't

was talking about, but her words were

young.You'll

was being so kind and understanding,

lying to her.I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't tell her about lan, but I wanted

I was being careful with the pills but I messed up.I went to the clinic with Tiff and Carrie to get an abortion, but then I couldn't and then I got into an accident

the rest of the story without crying again, so

person

okay.You're not the worst person on the

was true, but we all know I was a pretty shitty human being.I was a liar to my own mother.I

I loved a guy with all my heart and

with me, mom?" the words

he’s a gosh darn fool.Any guy who chooses to leave a girl like you is a

really a fool? Or was it me, the girl that lost everything in the span of a week? - Mom

this weird dream where I

know what I was looking for, but

the names on_ the tombstones, looking for one that I

barefoot and my feet were covered

to pour and I began

tombstones until I finally stopped at

covered in leaves, so I reached

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

was a smaller tombstone, like the ones they

name and no

the next tombstone, and there it was, the one that I was looking

was clear as

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

my

I was

and

it was 2 PM, and the daylight outside

"Mom?"

still panting from

no signs of

always

was

PM and

it were

energy

Yesterday was brutal.

Emma's room, I saw her friends at the lobby and I told them to come up

out and I never looked

bottle of whiskey

until I passed out and

headache all day long and