Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

that

or not," I stifled

simple for lan to end things with

more babies, no more

a sleepover here last night.I’m old and I'm your mother, remember? I can pick up on these things.My money says it has something to do with him, the

don’t

lan with my mother was the

my eyes, all I see was his face when he told me that things had to

in my throat every time I remembered the moment he turned his back

pooled around my eyes as I heard his voice ringing in my ears, telling me that he will always love

if she knew what I was thinking, she then asked, "Why? What did he do? Did he came by

He did absolutely nothing..."my voice cracked and tears trickled down my tired

I couldn't take it back.I was sobbing incoherently and mom pulled me into a hug.I cried into her chest and

honey," she cooed

much...And he just left me,"I

that I was pregnant...getting into

stroked my hair and let out a

doesn't know what he’s

about, but her

young.You'll get through this, I

was being so kind and understanding,

wrapped my arms around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't

to the clinic

rest of the story without

so sorry mom, I’m the worst person on the

honey, it’s okay.You're not the worst person on

a liar to my own mother.I was careless and I lost a beautiful

I loved a guy with all my heart

mom?" the words

mean, was I really that bad? "Because he’s a gosh darn fool.Any guy who chooses to leave

a week? - Mom stayed with me for a few more

weird dream where I was walking

know what I was looking for, but

all the names on_ the tombstones, looking for one that I

my

pour and I began

row of tombstones until I finally stopped at one that looked

stone was covered in leaves, so I reached out to wipe

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

to the next tombstone and it was a smaller tombstone, like the ones

was no name and no writings

the next tombstone, and there it was, the one that I

writing was clear

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

my

eyes and realized I was still lying on the

from side to side and

was 2 PM, and the daylight outside the windows

"Mom?"

croaked again, still panting from

signs of

,she'd always

went.I was walking sluggishly down

2 PM and school

it were over

more energy in me to go

Yesterday was brutal.

her friends at the lobby and I told them to come up

and I

of whiskey on my

until I passed out and woke

had a throbbing headache all day