Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

that simple,

believe it or not," I stifled a

was that simple for lan to end things

more relationship, and no

so upset today, but I’m gonna bet it isn't because Tiff and Carrie had a sleepover here last night.I’m old and I'm your mother, remember? I

please, just drop it.I don’t

with my mother was the last

eyes, all I see was his face when

was caught in my throat every time I remembered the

voice ringing in my ears, telling me that

at me and as if she knew what I was thinking, she then asked,

Alright? He did absolutely nothing..."my voice cracked and tears

just happened, and I couldn't take it back.I was sobbing incoherently and mom pulled me into a

she cooed gripped me

him so much...And he

much for him.Finding out that I was pregnant...getting

she stroked my hair and let out a

a boy.He doesn't know

was talking about, but her words were enough to help

young.You'll get

being so kind and

to her.I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't tell her about lan,

tell you before...I thought I was being careful with the pills but I messed up.I went to

of the story

worst person on the planet,"I murmured to

it’s okay.You're not the worst person

know I was a pretty shitty human being.I was a liar to my own mother.I was careless and I lost a beautiful life that I was

I loved a guy with all

me, mom?" the words came out before I

that bad? "Because he’s a gosh darn fool.Any guy who chooses to leave a

a week?

my sleep, I had this weird dream where I was walking through

was looking for, but I was looking

through all the names on_ the tombstones, looking for one

my

to pour and I began to

tombstones until I finally stopped at one that looked different from

leaves, so I reached

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

the next tombstone and it was a smaller tombstone, like the ones they used for

was no name and no writings

to the next tombstone, and there it was, the one

was clear as

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

and my

realized I was still

to side and noticed

showed that it was 2 PM, and the daylight

"Mom?"

croaked again, still panting from my weird

signs of her

,she'd always be

was walking sluggishly down the

PM and

it

no more energy

Yesterday was brutal.

the lobby and I

and I never looked

bottle of whiskey on

drank until I passed out and woke up the next

a throbbing headache all day long and I