Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

that simple,

believe it or not,"

lan to end

babies, no more relationship, and

had a sleepover here last night.I’m old and I'm your mother, remember? I can pick up on these things.My money says it has something to do

it.I don’t wanna talk about

mother was the last thing I wanted

I see was his face when

throat every time I remembered the moment he turned his back on me and left

pooled around my eyes as I heard his voice ringing in

took one look at me and as if she knew what I was thinking, she then asked, "Why? What

nothing! Alright? He did absolutely nothing..."my voice cracked and tears trickled down

take it back.I was sobbing incoherently and mom pulled me

she cooed

love him.I love him so much...And he just left me,"I said in

out that I was pregnant...getting into an

she stroked my hair and

just a boy.He doesn't know what

was talking about, but her words were enough

so young.You'll

was being so kind and

was, still lying to her.I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't tell her about lan, but I wanted to tell her

before...I thought I was being careful with the pills but I messed up.I went to the clinic with Tiff and Carrie to get an abortion, but then I couldn't and

rest of the story without crying again,

I’m the worst person on the planet,"I murmured

okay, honey, it’s okay.You're not the worst person

I was a pretty shitty human being.I was a liar to my own mother.I

I was toxic because I loved a

won't he stay with me, mom?" the words came out before I

who chooses to leave a girl like

everything in the span of a week? - Mom stayed with me for a few more hours until I

dream where I was walking

what I was looking for, but

went through all the names on_ the

my feet were covered

started to pour and I

of tombstones until I finally stopped at one that looked

covered in leaves, so I reached out

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

then darted to the next tombstone and it was a smaller

name and no writings on that

tombstone, and there it was, the one that I was

writing was

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

my body jolted in

opened my eyes and realized I was still lying on

to side and noticed that the room was

2 PM, and the daylight

"Mom?"

still panting from my weird

were no signs of

always

was walking sluggishly down the

PM and school

wished it

energy in me to go

Yesterday was brutal.

at the lobby and I told them

I went out and I never looked

entire bottle of whiskey

drank until I passed out and woke up the

all day long and I