Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

not that simple,

is, believe it or not," I stifled

that simple for lan to

more relationship, and

gonna bet it isn't because Tiff and Carrie had a sleepover here last night.I’m old and I'm your

don’t wanna

lan with my mother was the last thing I wanted

was his face when he told

caught in my throat every time I remembered the moment he turned

pooled around my eyes as I heard his voice ringing in my ears, telling me that he will

was thinking, she then asked, "Why? What

nothing..."my voice cracked

my mom, it just happened, and I couldn't take it

she cooed

him so much...And he just left me,"I said in

was too much for him.Finding out that I was

stroked my hair and let out a

boy.He doesn't know what he’s

I was talking about, but her words were enough to help me

you're still so young.You'll get through

so kind and understanding, and

her all year long and here I was, still lying to her.I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't tell her

went to the clinic with Tiff and Carrie to get an abortion, but then I couldn't and then

the story without crying again, so

the worst person on the

okay.You're not the worst person

was true, but we all know I was a pretty shitty human being.I was a liar to my own mother.I was careless and I lost

loved a guy with all

with me, mom?" the words came out before I could stop

was I really that bad? "Because he’s a gosh darn fool.Any guy who chooses

fool? Or was it me, the girl that lost everything in the span of a week? - Mom stayed with me for a few more hours until I got

my sleep, I had this weird dream where I was walking

I was looking for, but I was looking

on_ the tombstones, looking for

barefoot and my feet were

pour and I began

went through a long row of tombstones until I finally stopped at one

stone was covered in leaves, so I reached

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

tombstone and it was

and no

the next tombstone, and there it was, the one

was clear as

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

screamed and my body jolted in

my eyes and realized I was

and noticed that the room

was 2

"Mom?"

still panting from my weird

signs of her anywhere, which

always be

where mom went.I was walking sluggishly down the

and school was almost

wished it

more energy in me to

Yesterday was brutal.

leaving Emma's room, I saw her friends at the lobby and I told them to come up and

out and

bottle of whiskey

passed out and woke up the

a throbbing headache all day long and I