Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

that

not,"

for lan to end things with

babies, no more relationship, and

a sleepover here last night.I’m old and I'm your mother, remember? I can pick up on these things.My money says it has something to do

just drop it.I don’t wanna

with my mother was the last thing I wanted to

see was his face

remembered the moment he turned his back on me and

heard his voice ringing in my ears, telling me

at me and as if she knew what I was thinking, she then asked, "Why? What did he

nothing..."my voice cracked and

just happened, and I couldn't take it back.I was sobbing incoherently and mom pulled me into a

cooed

much...And he just

much for him.Finding out that I

my hair and let out a

boy.He doesn't know what he’s

I was talking about, but her words were enough to help me

young.You'll

kind and understanding, and

been lying to her all year long and here I was, still lying to her.I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't

didn’t you tell you before...I thought I was being careful with the pills but I messed up.I went to the clinic with Tiff and Carrie to get an abortion, but then I

couldn't continue the rest of the story without

worst person on the planet,"I murmured to her

person on the planet.Don't beat yourself up,"she said

human being.I was a

apparently, I was toxic because I loved a guy with all my heart and

he stay with me, mom?" the words came out before I could

mean, was I really that bad? "Because he’s a gosh darn fool.Any guy who chooses to

that lost everything in the span of a week? - Mom stayed with me for a few more hours until I got tired of crying

this weird dream where I was

was looking for, but I was looking for

the names on_ the tombstones, looking for one that

barefoot and my feet

to pour and I

a long row of tombstones until I finally stopped at one

leaves, so I

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

tombstone and it was a smaller tombstone, like the

was no name and no writings

darted to the next tombstone, and there it was, the one that I was looking

was clear as

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

my body jolted in

opened my eyes and realized I was

from side to side and noticed that

on the wall showed that it was 2 PM, and

"Mom?"

panting from my

were no signs of

,she'd always be

was walking

2 PM and school was almost

wished it were

energy in me to go

Yesterday was brutal.

leaving Emma's room, I saw her friends at the lobby and I told them to come up and

I went out and I

drank probably an entire bottle of whiskey on

drank until I passed out and

headache all day long and I