Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

not that

it or not," I

lan

babies, no more relationship, and

Tiff and Carrie had a sleepover here last night.I’m old and I'm your

just drop it.I don’t wanna talk about

was the last thing I

closed my eyes, all I see was his

breath was caught in my throat every time I remembered the moment he turned his

heard his voice ringing in my ears, telling me that

if she knew what I was thinking, she then asked, "Why? What did

did nothing! Alright? He did absolutely nothing..."my voice cracked and tears trickled down

to cry and say all those things to my mom, it just happened, and I couldn't take it back.I was sobbing incoherently and mom pulled me into a hug.I cried into her chest and said, "He left, mom.He left

cooed

him.I love him so much...And he

I was pregnant...getting into an accident...I was too

Emma," she stroked my hair and

a boy.He doesn't know what he’s

know who I was talking about, but her

young.You'll get

and understanding, and

around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't tell her about lan, but I wanted to tell her

I messed up.I went to the clinic with Tiff and Carrie to get an

the

so sorry mom, I’m the worst person on the

worst person on the planet.Don't beat yourself up,"she said

pretty shitty human being.I was a liar to my own mother.I was careless and I lost a

because I loved a guy with all my heart and

stay with me, mom?" the words came out before I could stop

I really that bad? "Because he’s a gosh darn fool.Any guy who chooses

everything in the span of a week?

sleep, I had this weird dream

know what I was looking for, but I was looking for

through all the names on_ the tombstones,

my feet

pour and I began to

through a long row of tombstones until I finally stopped at one that

covered in leaves, so I reached out to wipe them

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

tombstone and it was a smaller tombstone, like the ones they used for

and no writings on that

my eyes darted to the next tombstone, and

writing was

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

screamed and my body jolted in

and realized I was still lying

side to side and noticed that the

2

"Mom?"

again, still panting from my

signs of her anywhere, which was

,she'd always be

was

and school was almost

wished it were

no more energy

Yesterday was brutal.

I saw her friends at the lobby and I told them

I went out and I never

probably an entire bottle of whiskey on

drank until I passed out and woke up the next

all day long and I didn’t