Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

not that

it or not,"

that simple for lan to end things with

more relationship,

I’m gonna bet it isn't because Tiff and Carrie had a sleepover here last night.I’m old and I'm your

just drop it.I don’t

about lan with my mother was the last thing I wanted to

eyes, all I see was his face when he told me that things had

breath was caught in my throat every time I remembered the moment he turned his back on me and left the

ringing in my ears, telling me

took one look at me and as if she knew what I was thinking, she then asked,

did nothing! Alright? He did absolutely nothing..."my voice cracked and tears trickled down my

to my mom, it just happened, and I couldn't take it back.I was sobbing incoherently and

honey," she cooed

love him so much...And he just left me,"I said in between

I was

stroked my hair

just a boy.He doesn't know what

didn’t know who I was talking about, but her words were enough to help me calm

young.You'll get

being so kind and understanding, and I felt

my arms around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't tell her about lan, but I wanted to tell

pills but I messed up.I went to the clinic with

continue the rest of the

I’m the worst person on the planet,"I murmured

okay, honey, it’s okay.You're not the worst person on the planet.Don't

human being.I was a liar to my own mother.I was careless and I lost a

loved a guy with all

won't he stay with me, mom?" the words came out before I could stop

I really that bad? "Because he’s a gosh darn fool.Any guy who chooses to leave a girl like you is a fool.He doesn’t

that lost everything in the span of a week? - Mom stayed with me for a few more hours until I got tired of crying and I

had this weird dream where I was walking

I was looking for, but I was

names on_ the tombstones, looking for

and my feet were

and I began to run

until I finally stopped at one that

leaves, so I reached out to wipe

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

was a smaller tombstone,

name and no

my eyes darted to the next tombstone, and there it was,

was

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

my body

realized I was still lying

looked from side to side and

clock on the wall showed that it was 2 PM, and the daylight outside

"Mom?"

still panting from my weird

signs of her

,she'd always

where mom went.I was walking sluggishly down the

was 2 PM and

it were

more energy in

Yesterday was brutal.

friends at the lobby and I told

went out and I

bottle of whiskey on my

out and

all day long and I