Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

that

believe it or not," I stifled a bitter

simple for lan to end things with

no more relationship, and no

Carrie had a sleepover here last night.I’m old and I'm your mother, remember? I can pick up on

it.I don’t wanna talk about

with my mother was the

see was his face when he told me that things

remembered the moment he turned his back on me and left

as I heard his voice ringing in my ears, telling me that he will always

knew what I was thinking, she then asked, "Why? What did he do? Did he came by last

nothing! Alright? He did absolutely nothing..."my voice cracked and tears trickled down my tired

to cry and say all those things to my mom, it just happened, and I couldn't take it back.I was sobbing incoherently and mom pulled me into a hug.I cried into

honey," she cooed gripped

he just left me,"I said in

everything was too much for him.Finding out that I was pregnant...getting into an accident...I was too much

Emma," she stroked my hair and let out a

boy.He doesn't know

know who I was talking about, but her words were enough to help

young.You'll

and

lying to her.I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't tell her about lan, but I wanted to tell her everything else that I

pills but I messed up.I went to the clinic with Tiff and Carrie to get an abortion, but then I couldn't and then

couldn't continue the rest of the story without crying

worst person on

it’s okay.You're not the worst person on the planet.Don't beat

that was true, but we all know I was a pretty shitty human being.I was a liar to my own mother.I was careless and I lost a

I was toxic because I loved a guy with all my heart and

the words came out before I could stop

"Because he’s a gosh darn fool.Any guy who chooses to leave a girl like you is a

really a fool? Or was it me, the girl that lost everything in the span of a week? - Mom

my sleep, I had this weird dream where I was walking

know what I was looking for,

on_ the tombstones, looking for one that I would

was barefoot and my feet

and I began

went through a long row of tombstones until I finally stopped

stone was covered in leaves, so I reached out to

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

tombstone and it was a smaller tombstone, like the ones

no name and no writings on

the next tombstone, and there

was clear

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

and my body

opened my eyes and realized I was still lying on the hospital

side to side and noticed that

2 PM, and the daylight

"Mom?"

again, still panting from my

of her anywhere, which was

,she'd always

where mom went.I was walking sluggishly

was 2 PM and school

it were

energy in me

Yesterday was brutal.

Emma's room, I saw her friends at the lobby and I told them to come up and check

out and I never looked

drank probably an entire bottle of whiskey on my own

out

all day long and I