Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

not that

not,"

simple for lan

more

old and I'm your mother, remember? I

it.I don’t wanna talk about

with my mother was the last

time I closed my eyes, all I see was his face when he told me that

remembered the moment he turned his back on

his voice ringing in my ears,

what I was thinking, she then asked, "Why? What did he do? Did he came by

Alright? He did absolutely nothing..."my voice cracked and tears

it back.I was sobbing incoherently and mom pulled me

she cooed gripped me

him so much...And he just left me,"I said in between

was too much for him.Finding out that I was pregnant...getting into an accident...I was too

my hair and let

doesn't know

know who I was talking about, but her words were enough

you're still so young.You'll get through

was being so kind and understanding, and I felt

around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't tell

up.I went to the clinic with Tiff and Carrie to get an abortion, but then I

continue the rest of the story

person on

honey, it’s okay.You're not the worst person

but we all know I was a pretty shitty human being.I was a liar to my own mother.I

I was toxic because I loved a guy with all my

me, mom?" the words came out before I could stop

gosh darn fool.Any guy who chooses to leave a girl like you is a fool.He doesn’t deserve

span of a week? -

sleep, I had this weird dream where I was walking through a

was looking for, but I was looking for

on_ the tombstones, looking for one that I would

my

to pour and I

tombstones until I finally stopped at one that looked

was covered in leaves, so I reached out

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

then darted to the next tombstone and it was a smaller tombstone, like the ones they used for

no name and no writings on that

next tombstone, and there it was, the one that I

was clear as

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

and my

eyes and realized I was still lying

side to side and noticed that

2 PM, and the

"Mom?"

still panting

were no signs of her anywhere, which

,she'd always

where mom went.I was

2 PM and school was almost

it were

no more energy

Yesterday was brutal.

saw her friends at the lobby

and

of whiskey on my

passed out and woke

throbbing headache all day