Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

not that simple,

believe it or not," I stifled a bitter

for lan to

babies, no more relationship, and

because Tiff and Carrie had a sleepover here last night.I’m old and I'm your mother, remember? I can pick up

just drop it.I don’t wanna talk

mother was the last thing I wanted to

closed my eyes, all I see was his face

throat every time I remembered the moment he turned his back on me and left

my eyes as I heard his voice ringing in my ears, telling me

knew what I was thinking, she then asked,

did nothing! Alright? He did absolutely nothing..."my voice cracked

mean to cry and say all those things to my mom, it just happened, and I couldn't take it back.I was sobbing incoherently and mom pulled me into

she cooed gripped me

him.I love him so much...And he just left me,"I said

everything was too much for him.Finding out that I was pregnant...getting into an

she stroked my hair and

boy.He doesn't

about, but her words were enough to help

you're still so young.You'll get through this, I

being so kind and

year long and here I was, still lying to her.I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't tell her about lan, but I wanted to tell her everything else

tell you before...I thought I was being careful with the pills but I messed up.I went to the clinic with Tiff and Carrie to get an abortion, but then I couldn't

couldn't continue the rest of the

so sorry mom, I’m the worst person

honey, it’s okay.You're not the worst person on the

human being.I was a

I loved a

with me, mom?" the words came out before

"Because he’s a gosh darn fool.Any guy who chooses to

in the span of a week? - Mom stayed

I had this weird dream where I was walking

looking for, but I was looking for

the tombstones, looking for one that I would

my

and

through a long row of tombstones until I finally stopped at one that looked different

so I reached

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

the next tombstone and it was

name and

next tombstone, and there it was, the one

was clear as

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

screamed and my body jolted in

I was still lying on

side and

the wall showed that it was 2

"Mom?"

panting

signs of

always

wonder where mom went.I was

was 2 PM and school was almost

it

no more energy in

Yesterday was brutal.

at the lobby and I told them to come up and

and I never

of whiskey on my own

out

a throbbing headache all day long and I didn’t mind