Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

not that simple,

not,"

for lan to end things

more

today, but I’m gonna bet it isn't because Tiff and Carrie had a sleepover here last night.I’m old and I'm your mother, remember? I can pick up on these things.My money says it has something to do with him, the

please, just drop it.I don’t

my mother was the last thing

I closed my eyes, all I see was his face when

in my throat every time I remembered the moment he turned his

my eyes as I heard his voice ringing in my ears, telling me that

look at me and as if she knew what I was thinking, she then asked, "Why? What did he do? Did he came

Alright? He did absolutely nothing..."my voice cracked

mean to cry and say all those things to my mom, it just happened, and I couldn't take it back.I was sobbing incoherently and mom pulled

she cooed gripped

he

everything was too much for him.Finding out that I was pregnant...getting into an accident...I was too

she stroked my hair and let

boy.He doesn't

talking about, but her words

you're still so young.You'll get through

so kind and

long and here I was, still lying to her.I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.I knew

I messed up.I went to the clinic with Tiff and Carrie to get

the rest of the

person on the

it’s okay.You're not the worst person on the planet.Don't beat yourself up,"she said

pretty shitty human being.I was a liar to

I was toxic because I loved a guy with all my heart

the words came

gosh darn fool.Any guy who

in the span of a week? - Mom stayed with

this weird dream where I was

what I was looking for, but I was

the tombstones, looking

barefoot and my feet

started to pour and

went through a long row of tombstones until I finally stopped at one that looked different

leaves, so I

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

next tombstone and it was a smaller tombstone, like

and no writings on

and there it was, the one that I was looking

was clear as

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

my

realized I was still lying on

side and noticed that the room

was 2 PM, and the daylight outside the windows confirmed

"Mom?"

again, still panting from my

signs of her

always be

went.I was walking sluggishly down

and school was

wished it were over

energy

Yesterday was brutal.

saw her friends at the lobby

went out and

probably an entire bottle of whiskey on my own

until I passed out and woke up

all day long and I didn’t mind