Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

not that

believe it or not," I stifled

that simple for lan to end things

more relationship, and no more

sleepover here last night.I’m old and I'm your

drop it.I don’t wanna

about lan with my mother was the last thing I wanted to

his

in my throat every time I remembered the moment he turned his back on me and left

heard his voice ringing in

was thinking, she then asked, "Why? What did he do? Did

did nothing! Alright? He did absolutely nothing..."my voice cracked

things to my mom, it just happened, and I couldn't take it back.I was sobbing incoherently and mom pulled me into a hug.I cried

honey," she cooed

love him so much...And he just left me,"I said

him.Finding out that I was pregnant...getting into an accident...I was too much

my hair and let out a sigh,

just a boy.He doesn't know what he’s

who I was talking about, but

so young.You'll

was being so kind and understanding, and I

I was, still lying to her.I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.I knew I

thought I was being careful with the pills but I messed up.I went to the clinic with Tiff and Carrie to get an abortion, but then I couldn't and then

of the

sorry mom, I’m the worst person on the planet,"I murmured to her

okay, honey, it’s okay.You're not the worst person on the planet.Don't beat yourself up,"she

pretty shitty human being.I was a liar to my own mother.I was careless

loved

mom?" the words came

"Because he’s a gosh darn fool.Any guy who chooses to leave a girl

of a week? - Mom stayed with me for a few more hours until I got tired of crying and I fell

this weird dream

know what I was looking

the names on_ the

my feet were

pour and

a long row of tombstones until I finally stopped at one that looked

stone was covered in leaves, so I reached out to wipe them

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

eyes then darted to the next tombstone and it was a smaller tombstone, like the ones they

and no writings on that

the next tombstone, and there it was, the one that I was

writing was clear

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

and my body jolted in

eyes and realized I was still lying

side to side and

that it was 2 PM,

"Mom?"

still panting from my

of her

always

where mom went.I was

2 PM and school was almost

it were over

no more energy in me to

Yesterday was brutal.

the lobby and I told them to come up

out and

bottle of whiskey on my

I passed out and

all day long and I