Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Honey, you should eat something,"mom said as she watched me play with this spoon full of oatmeal.

I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.I wished I didn’t have to wake up.

Tiff and Carrie had to go to school, so mom was back watching over me.

"I'm not hungry,"I sighed and pushed the bowl away.

"What's going on with you? You were fine yesterday,"she said.

She was as sharp as always.I stayed quiet and reached for my book instead.

Tiff and Carrie had brought over my homework and books so I could stay up to date with the lessons at school.

"Did something happen last night?"mom said again.

She was studying my face and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact.

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you,"she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone," I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"No, mom.I’m just not hungry," I replied simply.

"Emma, I’m your mother.I know when something’s not right with you," she stated sternly.  

"I'm fine mom, just leave me alone,"I groaned, my tone of voice was a little higher than I had anticipated.

"Hey, don't talk to your mother like that,"she scolded.

"I'm sorry.I’m just...tired,"

I really hoped that she would drop this and move on, but she was persistent.

She had been mostly quiet around me the past few days, she didn’t want to upset me.

But she was grilling my friends for information and sometimes she would sneak around the room and read the message cards that friends had sent me, hoping to get a clue.

Maybe she was at her wits’ end.She couldn't take not knowing any more.

Taking a deep breath, she sat at the foot of the bed and took my hand.

Looking right at me, she then said, "We gave you a lot of freedom this past year because we trusted you, Emma.You never gave us a reason not to, until now.So please, excuse me if I’m trying to be your mom,"

"I'm sorry,"I bit my lip and looked away.

"I don't want you to apologize, Emma.I just want you to be honest with me, for once,"

"About what?"

"Well, about the pregnancy for starters.Can you tell me who the father was?"

 "Does it even matter?" I scoffed.

"I told you he was a nobody and there’s no more baby now, so case closed,"

that simple,

is, believe it or not," I

was that simple for lan to end things with

more babies, no more relationship, and no more

had a sleepover here last night.I’m old and

please, just drop it.I don’t wanna talk

with my mother was the last

closed my eyes, all I see was his face when he told me that

every time I remembered the moment he

my eyes as I heard his voice ringing in my

look at me and as if she knew what I was thinking, she then asked, "Why? What did he do? Did he

did nothing! Alright? He did absolutely nothing..."my voice cracked and tears trickled down my

it just happened, and I couldn't take it back.I was sobbing incoherently and mom pulled me into

cooed gripped

much...And he just

him.Finding out that I was pregnant...getting into

Emma," she stroked my hair and let out a

doesn't know what he’s

who I was talking about, but

you're still so young.You'll get through this, I

so kind and understanding,

to her.I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.I knew I couldn't tell her about lan, but I wanted to tell her everything else that

was being careful with the pills but I messed up.I went to the clinic with Tiff and Carrie to get an abortion,

the rest of the

person on the planet,"I murmured to her

it’s okay.You're not the worst person on the planet.Don't beat

being.I was a liar to my

was toxic because I loved a guy

with me, mom?" the words came out before I

was I really that bad? "Because he’s a gosh darn fool.Any guy who chooses to leave a girl like you

of a week? - Mom stayed

this weird dream where I was walking through a

I was looking for, but I was looking

went through all the names on_ the tombstones, looking for one that

and my feet were covered

and I began to run

went through a long row of tombstones until I finally stopped at one that

so I reached out

lan Hayes.

The stone read.

"No!"

I said to myself.

to the next tombstone and it was a

was no name and

then my eyes darted to the next tombstone, and there it was, the one

was clear as

Here lies Emma Sinclair.

"Mom!"

screamed and my body jolted in

eyes and realized I was still lying on

side to side and noticed that the room

it was 2 PM, and the daylight outside the windows confirmed

"Mom?"

still panting from my weird

signs of her anywhere, which was

always be

wonder where mom went.I was

2 PM and

it were over

more energy in me to go

Yesterday was brutal.

room, I saw her friends at the lobby and I told

out and I never looked

entire bottle of whiskey on my own that

until I passed out and

headache all day long and I didn’t mind