The Carrero Contract - Selling Your Soul (Mafia Romance)

‘So, what now? He just lets me get away with threatening him? I get handed to you and forgotten?’ My voice is harsh yet low and I whisper hoarsely at him, aware that the door is open and you never know what night staff are still close by.

Even I don’t believe that will be the outcome. Alexi is one to exact revenge and punishment for far less crimes. He won’t forget that I pulled his own gun on him and held it to his heart. He would never allow me to go without some sort of reckoning for such gross behaviour. I mean the guy flipped over me throwing salad at him; I have no doubt pointing his gun at his heart is a far worse crime. That comes with a far worse punishment.

‘He knows you weren’t trying to kill him. You were scared, upset … drunk.’ Mico turns his attention back to me and just looks helpless. Smoothing the edge of my bedclothes in an awkward manner and tapping his thumb on the over bed table at the foot. That infuriating Alexi trait and I glance away, pain slicing my soul in two. I hate that he still gets to me when he is not even here.

‘So, what does that mean? I’m forgiven? … life goes on. A pitiful little show from a desperate plaything.’

I told him I loved him … and he destroyed me for it.

‘No.’ Mico inhales heavily, and yet I hold my breath and just eye him in question, tensing on the answer to what I am waking up to.

Where do I go from here? What does Alexi do with me now?

‘Alexi has told me to release you, all debt wiped. You go your way, we go ours. It’s over Camilla. You’re free.’ Mico sighs heavily as though somehow that’s a relief for him rather than me, and I frown trying to take it in.

I don’t know how to react. Everything in me just falls eerily silent and I blink at him in disbelief. Numb inside so suddenly as my mind tries to understand the words that have just come out of his mouth.

‘Just like that? Fifty grand struck off.’ I sound as disbelieving as I feel. Alternate universe flying in to smack me in the head.

I can’t believe that something Alexi held over me to keep me in his clutches is now dismissed as nothing, now that he has broken me. I’m dropped like an unwanted and used toy. I have lost the fun value, I guess. Alexi no longer wants a toy that’s cracked … he has new playthings to ruin. Where is the fun in that?

‘It’s pocket change to him. Take this opportunity to start a new life somewhere far away from the name Carrero. Forget him, forget us and get off this path.’ Mico watches me carefully, that warmth on his face showing through, and his voice reflects a hint of affection for me.

He is my first real friend in life. Pity he comes connected to that bastard cousin of his. Looks enough like him, sounds like him, and when he’s in shadow and his eyes are not as green as they normally are, he can pull expressions just like him.

The tears bite my eyes and that stubborn aching throb inside of me raises its ugly head. Traumatised for so many reasons.

Everything I felt last night washing over me as I become more lucid and in tune with my surroundings. Every memory of what happened almost crystal clear as the minutes roll by and I cringe at my own behaviour.

I am appalled that I genuinely tried to kill myself.

I am so god damn stupid. I swore I would never let a man push me over the edge, and yet here I am. One fucking man undid all of me and sent me spiralling out of control. I am no better than my mother with her pathetic addiction to prick men with control issues and abuse fetishes.

I refuse to keep being a victim in my own tragedy.

ever laid eyes on him. He doesn’t have to worry about me showing up anymore. I’m done. Maybe I just needed a knock to the head to help me think straight and realise I should stay a million miles away from him.’ I grit my teeth, stubborn shining through to push my pain aside and lock it all back up

is aching, but I’m determined to pick up and find

is a heartless bitch who lets no man fuck with her. Not anymore and

and I won’t let him keep me

bed. Silent and stone-faced, unreadable, much like his bastard cousin and just ponders me for a moment. Nothing on

I have to hide the

gently throws it to land in my lap, a heavy thud of a

empty smile and I glance from him to the

reason to be so

and open the flap with one finger to see what it is, peeking warily and my eyes almost pop out of my head at the pile of one-hundred-dollar notes jam-packed into such a small vessel. It’s crammed full. There has to be

you giving me this?’

feels responsible; it’s your foot up to a new life.’

in the stomach, that one word that leaves a sour taste in my mouth pushes everything else aside and I let the flap drop. Stunned

nastily. Every single ounce of flickering hope dies right inside of me. And I toss it back to Mico at the foot of the bed with a look of disgust for even letting me touch it. Feeling dirty as though he’s infected me with a toxic chemical, I rub my hands on

or any tie that he can ever come back for. Give it back to him and tell

pitch and scowling looks. My anger isn’t

to him.’ He tries for a defensive low tone, but I

in bed as that fire in my belly builds like

the upper hand. It’s him knowing after everything he did, that he still had to bail me out and throw me a life saver. He can fuck off. I don’t need anything from him ever again. I will never accept another helping

silent black statue I know he can

Alexi hatred right now. I need to hold onto that and let it feed and fuel my willpower. He may have knocked me down to dust, but I have the know-how to

…’ Mico breaks

I snap at him, closing down, pushing away. He may be my friend, my first real one, but I am doing the only thing I know how to do in life to protect myself. I am running away. Emotionally, mentally and when I am well—physically. I don’t need other humans touching my life anymore. I am better when they are all gone. It has been

face and trying to soften my resolve, but I raise a palm. Remorse at being rude to him pushed down by my inner steel.

but you and him … I just need you both gone. I don’t need you standing guard by my bed or waiting for me to change my mind. It’s over—all of it. It’s a concussion and I’m not suicidal. I was drunk and stupid and caught in his spell … it’s not the case anymore

being who was really decent towards me. I know I am putting myself first and this is the right thing. It only hurts for a little while and then it will all go

I don’t have friends.

have to

the sense to know this is a battle he will not win. I won’t back down and all of this is just delaying

the money and holds it for a moment, weighing it as though he’s thinking of trying again. Defeat crosses his face

a more determined half smile and locks his

need help, in any way, at any time … I’m not my cousin Camilla. I’m your friend and I will still care about you even when you’re