When did this happen? When did my feelings spill beyond friendship this badly?

I’ve seen him with other women …

He’s always been this way, when did I start reacting like this? Breaking my heart over him being his Casanova self.

“Tell the others, after I’m gone, I had to go away for a couple of days.” He’s picking up his suitcase, his body stiff with tension and the hatred oozing between us is unbearable.

“What reason shall I give?” I sound alien. This fake politeness between us, thick in the stifling air. We’re both exceptionally good at cold and polite.

“I don’t give a shit, Emma … The truth for all I care.” He flexes his eyebrows sardonically.

That was a blow … it hurt; it knocked the wind out of my sails. I move back as he stalks out with suitcase in hand, he slides his shades on, despite it being duller in here and he doesn’t even look at me; he seems beyond pissed.

Should I follow him? Should I stay here?

Stop hovering, Emma, it’s pathetic.

out the door in the blink of an eye, obviously determined to leave. I hesitate and follow, I’m not sure why, but I suddenly need to cling to his presence, the last moments of him. I just

stairs, the sun hurting my eyes. I blink and shield them from view and suddenly I want him to slide his glasses over my eyes, the way he always does.

sheer hysteria and panic consumes me. I catch sight of him near

god. He really is going, it’s not a

run back to my room at full speed. I run like my ass is on fire and don’t stop until I slam down onto my

like a damn has opened and the floodgates break. Everything I’ve ever held back slips out with the pain I’ve always avoided. I can’t breathe, it’s suffocating and unbearable. It’s excruciating and every cell of my

Jake’s breaking my heart.

***

I’m still and numb. As sensation as though I’m floating on the ocean directly, but I’m still laid on

do this to me … release so much … doubt … insecurity … pain. I haven’t sobbed properly since I was five years old; back

to be the worst pain I have ever experienced, it leads to breaking down over the way my life has

she break this way over

left me in that way. I never experienced her kind of heartache. Ray inflicted more than

thought of that monster makes me

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