When did this happen? When did my feelings spill beyond friendship this badly?
I’ve seen him with other women …
He’s always been this way, when did I start reacting like this? Breaking my heart over him being his Casanova self.
“Tell the others, after I’m gone, I had to go away for a couple of days.” He’s picking up his suitcase, his body stiff with tension and the hatred oozing between us is unbearable.
“What reason shall I give?” I sound alien. This fake politeness between us, thick in the stifling air. We’re both exceptionally good at cold and polite.
“I don’t give a shit, Emma … The truth for all I care.” He flexes his eyebrows sardonically.
That was a blow … it hurt; it knocked the wind out of my sails. I move back as he stalks out with suitcase in hand, he slides his shades on, despite it being duller in here and he doesn’t even look at me; he seems beyond pissed.
Should I follow him? Should I stay here?
Stop hovering, Emma, it’s pathetic.
to do, this isn’t me, not anymore. He’s up the hall and out the door in the blink of an eye, obviously determined to leave. I hesitate and follow, I’m
the sun hurting my eyes. I blink and shield them from view and suddenly I want him to slide his glasses over my eyes, the way he always does. I want him to brush my hair back and take care of me. I want the Jake I know and care about, not
me. I catch sight of him near the rear of the boat,
my god. He really is going, it’s not a ruse. He really wants to kill
the waiting boat. I can’t bear to see him leave, so I turn on my heel and run back to my room at full speed. I run like my ass is on fire and don’t stop until I slam down onto my bed and sob every
a damn has opened and the floodgates break. Everything I’ve ever held back slips out with the pain I’ve
Jake’s breaking my heart.
***
shadows of the water on my ceiling, I’m still and numb. As sensation as though I’m floating on the ocean directly, but I’m still laid on my bed. It’s night and dark… I haven’t left, and I don’t
my body is ravaged and weak. I didn’t know that it could do this to me … release so much … doubt … insecurity … pain. I haven’t sobbed properly since I was five years old; back then I didn’t cry
the worst pain I have ever experienced, it leads to breaking down over the way my life has turned out. The way I am. I think of
break this way over Ray
never dated me, he never left me in that way. I never experienced her kind of heartache. Ray inflicted more than heartbreak on her. I have no
that
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