“All I know is that without you in my life, Sophs, I fall apart, and everything just sucks. I can’t seem to pull myself together, and that raises some major fucking questions as to what Natasha is to me.” His face crumbles, fusing brow over lost boy eyes and the heaviest sigh ever.
My heart almost stops beating, my voice caught in my throat at this confession of sorts, and I no longer know what to do, or what to say. Tears start free falling down my face as Arrick gently wipes them away with soft fingertips. Watching me, agony mirrored in his expression.
“What do you want from me?” I blurt out, unsure what to even think or feel anymore, heart constricting with the return of my pain and suffering.
This is what I wanted, wasn’t it?
Then why does it still feel like he’s pushing me away?
out on Natasha during a fight and haven’t been home all day; she only knows I’m looking for you. I just needed to know you were okay, that you were safe. I just needed to find you.” Arrick seems to struggle with the closeness and steps back again, dragging air into his lungs heavily, screwing up his face as though battling something in his head and rubs his hand up the back of his neck
that way about me though, you were so sure. I can’t understand how you can go from that to this. How you can say you don’t feel that way and
a family that has been an extension of my own since I was born. I put you on the very firm
Like this is all some dream and I no longer have a connection to my emotions. I think I may be in shock, like
running hands down his
at a time. Deal with your family and this mess you created and worry about us later.” He sounds exhausted, defeated and I
then drop it.” I snap at him,
me to say? I’m an asshole? Yes, I fucking am. I never thought
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