The Carrero Heart - Beginning (Friends to Lovers)

Driving the few blocks to Arrick’s apartment, we are equally silent, both lost in our own heads. His occasional glances my way don’t go unnoticed, but I have no clue how to feel, and I’m dreading the moment we walk into his home and come face to face with the girl who has shared his bed for almost two years. Everything is a mess; I should have stayed miles away from him like I planned, but somehow that tiny flicker of hope inside of me is destroying all my willpower.

Natasha comes out of the nearby bedroom as we enter Arrick’s penthouse apartment, her little brown curled head and slight frame just make her look like a little lost puppy dog, and it’s clear by her makeup-free face that she’s been crying at some point. Natasha is never without her makeup, and seeing her now, I see she is a lot plainer looking than I ever realized. She has that girl next door quality and looks a lot better when made up. It feels odd to see her like this, like I am seeing the girl beyond the outer shell for a moment.

“Oh, my God, you found her. Sophie, we have been so worried about you.” She rushes forward and gives me the smallest of awkward hugs that makes my skin crawl. I stand stiffly, endure it and don’t reciprocate, glad when she lets me go. The thing with Natasha is that despite how much I hate her, and I always make it pretty obvious, she always seems to act like she cares. I’ve never been able to figure out if it’s an act for Arrick’s benefit, or she really is genuine. Either way, I think it makes her weird, and kind of sad really.

Standing back shyly, she regards me with an open face and wide eyes that give her the look of a wounded animal, and I can’t help but feel a tiny tug of guilt. Knowing what I know now, knowing how much she loves him, I would have to be inhumane not to feel something for her. She looks so lost.

“I love your hair; you look so grown up.”

roll, irritated that she always has to point out my age in any way she can. Has always treated me like a five-year-old sibling whom she had

seem more youthful than me at this moment and could really use a belt to cinch the waist and some baby blue pumps instead of the ugly black heeled things adorning her feet.

couple, who have been fighting, I can see no evidence of anything

resist the urge to tell her to back off as she turns gracefully, and I smile emptily at her, putting on my fake nice mask and hoping to God she has no intention of staying here for long. I have so much pent up angst, misfiring on all my cylinders, that I cannot trust myself not to

turns back to what she is doing, moving to the ice maker on the

need to be more careful. People love you and just want you home and safe.” Natasha has the nerve to try and lecture me, even if she is delivering it with a soft wispy voice

thanks for the advice.” I reply emptily. Annoyed with the thousands of emotions running through me, concerning her. My hatred is wavering as all I can think of is the fact she has no clue about what is even going on in her boyfriend’s head. For a moment, I feel mad at him that he hasn’t told her yet, but I also get it. He loves her, he knows how much it will hurt her, and more than likely make her question not only theirs but our entire relationship. It’s messy, complicated and will only hurt her, no matter how he

used to use often. He’s uneasy and not his normally solid and cool self. It’s the first time I notice how tired he is,

hesitates and she pauses mid movement as her hand tenses on the glass she is laying down on the counter.