The Carrero Heart - Beginning (Friends to Lovers)

Christian shows up first, followed by a timid looking Jenny who seems to appear rather closely to Nate. Gathering together in the street outside Arrick’s house. I notice Nate is being rather attentive to my girl and tries to take her hand as he catches up with her; she looks away, pulling away from him and slides an arm through mine in a coy move without catching his eye. I frown her way suspiciously and file it away to interrogate her as soon as I get her alone with Christian.

I’m now standing away from Arrick, as soon as I saw them appearing I made him let go of me and moved to two feet apart, needing a space to see my friends and let them know what has happened. My texts outlined the briefest explanation only and I am so not ready to be identified as Arry’s new love interest just yet. I feel like they may judge me on my readiness to jump into a relationship when last night, I swore to never let him near me again.

“Well hey, hey.” Christian grins swooning between us all and looking far too wide awake and glamorous while the rest of us are rough as hell. He winks at Arrick and gives him a coy shoulder nudge.

“See you finally manned up.” He smiles at Arrick’s frown and waves jazz hands in the air between them. So unmanly it’s almost painful, but it makes me and Jenny giggle as Nathan also bursts into a grin. Seems he isn’t surprised to see us together and I catch the way he throws me a satisfied ‘know it all’ smirk.

“I’m still in two minds about whether I should beat you or hug you.” Arrick tries for deadpan cool but Christian only gushes at Arrick’s sense of humor.

“Both. I am so into that.” He giggles and winks his way, with a little twirl back to me and a butt wiggle. Arrick just shakes his head and sighs before breaking into a huge smile. Obviously feeling dumb that he never once clicked that Christian is very unmistakably gay.

“I can’t believe I ever thought this guy was straight.” He laughs, and Nate throws him the ‘you’re obviously a moron’ look over everyone’s heads. I catch it and giggle a little harder. Arrick must have been completely blind to not pick up on it before, I mean Christian is currently sashaying around in a sparkly T-shirt with a huge rainbow heart on the front and wearing matching sneakers over ultra-skinny jeans. It’s not exactly inconspicuous.

I turn away and give Jenny a little nudge, noticing the way her eyes follow Nate as he moves in to give Arrick the familiar ‘Bro’ handshake and shoulder bump, the two of them lagging behind as we start walking towards the exit of the street. Christian comes to my free side and loops my other arm, gaining distance on the two men behind us so he can cut in with a whisper. Like three witches from Hocus Pocus doing the crazy walk and huddled to gossip about men.

“Did you two do the bed boogie last night? Notice you disappeared, along with our shameless hussy over there and the rather sexy Nathan.” He raises an alarming eyebrow at Jenny whose face turns crimson. She literally recoils in mortification.

“Shh!” Jenny scalds him, glancing back between us to check they aren’t listening, but the two of them are lost in conversation with equally serious expressions behind us and paying no attention to us. I glance back and catch Arrick smiling at something he is saying to Nate and that heart-swelling warmth hits me like it used to when I looked at him. I push it down, turning back to my friends, back to the very serious subject in hand.

“Jenny, please tell me you didn’t hook up with Nate?” I giggle at her in both shock and a little disbelief, not sure if I am happy for her or not. Nate is such a womanizer and Jenny only just got dumped by her boyfriend of almost two years. I don’t even know if I am impressed or seriously wowed.

“I got so drunk; I feel like such a slut. We somehow ended up making out in Arrick’s mom’s greenhouse, I don’t even remember how we got there.” Jenny’s turning beetroot and unable to look us in the eye, trying to keep her voice on the low. Christian grinning like a Cheshire cat, clearly proud of his ‘hussy’ girls and trying to coax the sordid details it out of her.

“That’s my girl! Only way to get over a man is to have a new one under you and fuck your brains out. So, did he?” Christian winks dirtily and Jenny burns even redder, her face a picture of utter mortification and she glares at him with an open mouth.

“Be quiet! ... There definitely has to be something said for men who have been around a lot of women.” She smiles shyly. Glancing back again quickly to see if they can hear us, and then at us. Blushing crazily and hitting the giggles; she looks so cute and girly right now and I realize it’s the first time I have ever seen her look this way.

“Jenny. I’m completely gobsmacked.” I smile, squeezing her arm and figuring that maybe she needed to do something this out of the norm to feel better; she doesn’t seem overly cut up about her ex anyway and there is no hint of guilt. I wonder if she really had been ready to end things with him after all.

“He was sooo good. I thought I’d experienced orgasms before, but Oh, my God. I literally couldn’t walk after. He took complete control of everything and did things I never imagined I would ever want. He makes me feel so crazily sexy.” She whispers then giggles at her revelation. I smile but then my heart plummets as reality catches up with me and the fact Jenny isn’t the type of girl to sleep around, especially not someone who gets into kinky aerobics in a greenhouse with a born womanizer. I don’t want to crush the ‘Christmas morning’ expression she has on her face, but I know I can’t let her go down this path to heartache.

“You know that’s what he is though right? A guy who sleeps around a lot. That nothing will come from this except heartbreak if you want more.” I point out honestly, watching her face as she bites on her bottom lip, curbing the smile and taking on a serious expression as she regards me with a nod.

“I know. I figured that out in the first five minutes of meeting him that he’s a major man whore. I knew what I was getting, and I think that’s why I went for it. He made me forget about everything and feel really good for one night. Made me realize how much better than Mark I can do. Mark is a selfish prick who only ever thinks about himself and never even gave me one orgasm in two years.” Jenny blurts out with a whoosh of relief, as though glad to finally get it off her chest. Christian’s head almost snaps off in the way he turns to her with horrifying speed.

loudly, his face aghast and laughs when we both Shh him with little slaps on his chest. Trying to muffle him

with a serious expression and only half keeping his attention. Arrick catches my eye and smiles at me immediately; that half-smile, soft dimpled one he

nudges me; my turn for the interrogation as she obviously caught that little moment between us and

wants to try … a relationship. I mean like a dating relationship. We had sex, sort of, I was too drunk, and we ended up just sleeping together and kind of talked.” I evade the details of what really happened, I’ve never told them about my past abuse and I never will. Explaining would be futile and I still do not want anyone else to know. I watch the ground as we walk in case my expression gives

it wasn’t hard to see.” Jenny breaks in, looking thoughtful, slyly glancing back at the two men between our heads and

shake my head at him, not wanting to point out that if it weren’t for Christian, Arry would

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door. Taking my hand and pulling me against him from behind

questioning look, knowing fine well he is a ‘love them and leave them’ type and rarely gentlemanly with a girl after he has already banged her. By

ready to let that go.” Arrick frowns, shaking his head at his mates back with

last thing she needs is this.” I scowl towards them as they find a table and start sitting down. The three of them look completely at ease already, as though Nate has

no strings attached sex with someone who will take her mind off it for a while. Sex can work miracles when both sides know that’s all it is.” Arrick shrugs my way and then pulls me over with the speed of light and deposits a kiss on my mouth followed by a cheeky smile. He’s getting bolder with throwing kisses my way and don’t mind this time, I’m sort of starting to like the fact he wants to kiss me anytime he sees

myself as

is worth a thousand times more than sex.” Arrick squeezes

and let him push us to sit in the seats with our friends. Christian on one side of Jenny and Nate on the other as we slide in to face them, Arrick’s arm immediately slides along the back of the seat behind me so he’s caging me in and

***

chatting idly, about the party, school, work and nothing in particular.

be, Arrick has loads of friends who are gay, Nate’s little brother is gay, and both are pretty accepting of most types of people, overall. I can’t stop myself glancing at Arrick and realizing how quickly and easily I am falling back into being used to his company again. The initial confusion is draining

so I figured I would see what the fuss is about, besides, I am so hungover right now and this sounded better than a fry up.” He digs in, taking a mouthful and chewing it slowly as if to savor the taste before giving me an approving look and digging in for more. I shake my head

good.” I gush between bites, slapping Christian’s hand as his fork makes a dive at my food with a cheeky

with a smirk, winking my way and carrying on with his own food while I scowl at Christian’s hovering fork. I lean over my plate with a

and throws me a triumphant

what his game is and mentally hoping to God she really does take

her?” Christian eye rolls at Arry, catching my frowny face as he meets my

in his, bringing my fingers to his mouth softly, kissing them before letting me go. I have to admit the little stomach surge it gives

get to see me go

have bruises in odd places from this stroppy little mare when she throws one on me.” Christian sulks, I falter but shove more food in my mouth and try not to let my uneasiness on the topic show. I know I have always been aggressive; I can’t help it. My body reacts and lashes out before my mind does. The therapist helped me get better, less volatile but I am aware that I have issues in that

the way I am, even though he knows. I blush under his intense stare and go back to eating, loving him for always keeping my secrets for me, even when surrounded by friends who might know. The one thing he has never done, even

best waffles in the world.” I frown at them both, picking up my milkshake to start washing away the food, trying to show how uncomfortable I am with two pairs of adoring eyes aimed my way as they bond over their love of me. I never thought this would be a scenario I would be in the middle of. Especially not when we were on the plane two days

Christian sulks, looking down at his standard pancakes and maple and eyeing mine