The Carrero Heart - Beginning (Friends to Lovers)

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“You can have pizza and a milkshake.” Arrick adopts his no-nonsense fatherly tone. I have heard this a million times in the past and know I have zero energy for it. I can always argue the point later.

“Fine, but I want a chocolate sundae for dessert.” I add, suddenly picturing ice-cream in my mind’s eye. Preferably a very big mountain with a million toppings.

“Okay, for tonight, but you will be eating better if you’re staying here and there’s no arguing about it.” He pushes his chair in, moves his mat from the table and tosses it on the counter behind him.

“We’ll see.” I raise an eyebrow at him wickedly and he only sighs heavily. Still watching me eat as though he has never witnessed feeding time at the zoo, and I wonder if he wants to video it. Maybe it’s the fact he has never seen me put something moderately healthy in my mouth on purpose and is making sure it’s not an illusion.

“I know that look, Sophs, I’m not going to fold so easily anymore. I already know what you’re like to handle and this is not how it’s going to stay!” He challenges me, eye to eye.

“You know what you’re letting yourself in for then, therefore don’t expect any drastic changes to my eating habits.” I shrug stubbornly and pout a little in his direction. Waving my spoon his way and splashing watery yoghurt all over the place.

There’s a long silence for a moment as we stare each other out with lowered brows, a non-serious face-off before he sighs again. I can almost smell his defeat in the air and feel strangely smug.

“You’re going to make life hell for me, aren’t you?” He seems resigned to the fact and he has just realized how bad a life with me as a girlfriend might be. I wonder if he has had his first bout of second thoughts.

“Maybe. You chose this life, cowboy, so you better man up. You did say you would do anything for me!” I smirk and smile wider when he only sighs and shakes his head in defeat.

###Chapter 114

I yawn as I wander from the elevator into Arrick’s apartment, covering my mouth and dropping my oversized school bag on the floor by his coat rack in the entrance come dumping ground, for shoes. His jacket and sneakers are already there, and I can hear the soft strumming of a guitar as I wander around the little wall that conceals the elevator from his lounge area.

He is sat on the couch strumming his acoustic guitar, oblivious to my arrival and I stop and watch him for a moment with a huge smile splaying across my face. It’s been eons since he played his guitar and I reminisce warmly over how many times he has played to me. A little shiver of joy that the boy I loved is making a slow comeback. He looks amazingly sexy with it on his lap, strumming it while concentrating so hard on what he’s doing. He looks so at peace and not a single expression on that calm beautiful face.

It has been over three weeks of dating him and we are getting into a routine slowly, going out together, having fun and spending more nights together than apart. I left my friends from our Friday dinner and caught a cab here to wait for him as planned, but he has beaten me home after drinks with his own friends at a nearby bar. Sometimes we still do things apart, I still feel like I should be holding something back a little, not quite ready to fully throw myself at his mercy again, and he doesn’t complain when I ask for a night to do my own thing. Obviously, he still understands where I am at.

I slide off my flat pumps and discard my cardigan with my jacket, moving across to come upon him from behind so he won’t see me until I run my fingers over those large shoulders that just scream to be touched. These past weeks I’ve been braver about exploring that body when I cuddle up to him and discovered he has no boundaries in where he lets my hands roam. As long as it’s not down into his pants of course, which he is making sure is off-limits and things stay unheated.

Arrick pauses, looking up and seeing me smiling down at him, catches my face as I lean over and gives me an upside-down kiss, crazily molding our mouths and managing a very erotic bit of lip sucking that makes me giggle. I run my fingers over his face as I pull away and push my hair back behind my ears.

cannot express the happiness at

weeks and too feel more like I used too, able to be myself around him for the most part, even with the silly squabbles and disagreements that mean nothing.

want me to sing for you?” He strums a few notes as he tunes his guitar again, while I think back to all the songs he used to

Arrick played this song to me when most were almost asleep or chilling by the log fire. I was haunted by the memory of how perfect that moment was for a long time after. Arrick smiles down at his guitar as though reliving the same memory, looking my way for a

kiss you. Moving in close without even thinking about it and telling myself I was drunk and being an idiot.” He frowns as he strums another couple of notes, eyes still on

my head to one side and regard him as he starts to play softly on his guitar, moving into that familiar pose, hunched over and tapping his foot in time as

it off as being alcohol-driven.” He

thought that’s what you were doing.” I replay the moment, seeing it differently now I know what he had meant to do, and it makes me all warm

only moves it to one side slightly so he can lean into me and kiss me fully on the mouth. Softly at first and then moving in against my face and deepening it to an open-mouthed

has avoided letting our make-out sessions get beyond this level of passion for the last couple of weeks, always aware of taking things too far and it is starting to get to me. Not sure if I am ready to get more

respecting me, taking care of me, but on the other hand, I want to feel whole, and capable of having a normal relationship. Part of me is afraid that he’ll get so used to this weird something, stuck between platonic and not, and we will never

become breathless and frenzied, he breaks free, letting me loose and pulls his guitar back between us, back to strumming softly and calming himself down with a little space. I flop back on the couch and stare at the ceiling while listening to him, knowing it’s pointless getting upset about it,

guitar. The alcohol I consumed at dinner with Christian and Jenny is making me sleepy and emotional, and when

called sporadically over the last couple of weeks; tearful long drawn out sobbing conversations and hour-long texts begging him to go see her. He hasn’t, but he tries to placate her, soothe her tears, and generally tries to get her off his phone without

away when she calls, and we have had minor squabbles about it in which I always say I am fine and no it’s not upsetting me, that I’m being an ass for the sake of it. He just seems to think it irritates me a little, rather than the fact it shreds my insides to fucking pieces when

I catch a glimpse of him pulling his phone towards him and sighing. I see that moment of self-doubt, where he is trying to choose whether to answer or

snacks he dutifully keeps in the cupboard. I put some popcorn in the microwave and try to zone out as I hear

fact he is still willing to put up with this shit only angers me. I’m tired and irrational and I don’t care if he sees me pissed at this tonight. I am so sick of acting like it doesn’t get to me as much as it does. Tired of the little charade of the understanding girlfriend I have had to play for this long, even when she showed up that one time to the movies when we were there, and he ended up sitting with her for twenty minutes across the aisle and ‘consoled’ her. I literally thought of walking out on him that night and

microwave, I walk past him without a backwards glance, chin in

well Natasha will hear me and not giving a single shit about it. I have kept quiet long enough, acting like I am oblivious and never make a peep when she calls, in case it

at me, for being unnecessarily cruel, but I am not about to turn back and

pushing the door open for me without removing his cell from his ear. I mutter some thanks under my breath and push on ahead, without turning his way.

popcorn and curse myself. I want to stay in here and rage and not have to walk past him again and face that disapproving look he gives me when I

concept of what a dickhead he

and killing time by turning on the tv, finding a movie to turn on low. It isn’t overly late, and we have no plans tonight, except to stay here and vegetate, as we have plans to meet his friends for bowling tomorrow night. Christian and Jenny are coming and Nathan too; we have been doing a lot of stuff like this with all of them and even Christian’s boyfriend has been on

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