The Dark Side Of Fate

~Tamia~

What a joke. Typically people are elated over something like this, but my heart was conflicted.

Every fibre of my being wanted him.

I wanted to throw away my love and promises and accept fate.

It was overwhelming and euphoric.

All that existed at that moment was him. Kaira wanted to jump and let him take us. I wanted to let her.

Devin looked up at me and came close to me.

His teary eyes searched mine, and I could see he was desperate. Desperate to have me and make me his. His eyes flashed golden, and I knew his wolf was in control.

Kaira wanted him. He touched my cheek with his palm, and I closed my eyes to feel his touch caressing my skin, enveloping me in his intoxicating scent.

“Mate,” His wolf said, and Kaira wanted to respond, but I held my lips. I searched his eyes, and they were expectant.

“Why didn’t you say anything that night?” I asked angrily that he had let the moment slip. If he had, I would be in the south and would have never gone to the north.

I was angry not because I went to the north, but because he knew I was suffering with Leo and didn’t make a move to take me from him.

“You sent me back to his house. You let me go back!” I yelled at him, tears streaming down my face, and he bowed.

“You knew I was suffering. You knew I was in pain. You had the power to take it away. You are Alpha, and you let me go,” I said and stepped back.

“Now you hold a rose and say, Mate?” I said, and Kaira pleaded with me to take it easy, but I was mad.

“Why Devin? Why didn’t you save me? Why didn’t you claim me? When I wanted my fated to come and rescue me, to take my pain away. I prayed so hard the goddess answered, but you weren’t willing.

“Why now? Do you hate Sylvester so much that you want to hurt him the worst way ever!” I said, and he shook his head, tears streaming down his face, looking misunderstood.

looking at

why now? Why!” I yelled at him; my heart was beating so fast. I was fighting

Leo to let you go before

give myself up as a tribute to get away from him,” I

want me then; why now?” I asked him, and he shook

wanted you. But I wanted to wait for the right moment, the perfect moment to make you mine. I wanted to do it properly. We

taken me from him that night. You

so I won’t go rogue when I leave Leo. Meanwhile, you were there all along, waiting for the perfect moment that would never come because the world doesn’t work that way, Devin. There is no such thing as perfect. It is an illusion, a lie we tell ourselves, and you gambled me away with that decision. You

for me and crashed his

push him away, but my body responded. He was tugging on the bond, and

to my sweet spot and sucked it grazing his teeth over it

my head, giving me

is dubious,” I said, shaking my

me. I will

for my sake, but you are willing

as bait for your Wolf Lord agenda. I refuse to be used,” I told him, and he pulled

want to be wolf lord anymore; I just

made promises to anyone, and hoping to find you. Do you know how heartbroken I was when I saw Leo’s mark on your

for me. Not enough to break the rules for my sake. Not

not want to ruin the place. I swear, Tamia. I just wanted to do it amicably. I did not know Sylvester would take you away and that you would end up with him,” he

why we seize the moment and do all we can. Love the people we love, appreciate them, tell them, and show them how we feel. Do all that we want for them because the future isn’t guaranteed. Tomorrow isn’t guaranteed. So we become a bit impulsive, so we don’t look back on it with regrets. Things change, feelings, time, and conditions; they all change, so we always seize the moment and live in it because tomorrow isn’t guaranteed. I know this and live by it daily, which you should have. If you had, we would be together. I wouldn’t have met Sylvester, known him, and fallen in love with him. I wouldn’t be torn and fighting our bond right now; my heart and yours wouldn’t

you came, you weren’t willing. You weren’t ready, so I had to face it alone, and someone else had to help me through the healing process. What you feel for me is a bond ordained by the goddess and fate; what I have

me hope and love again. He was there. Now you hold a rose in your hand and want me to just forget about the one person who loved me through my pain and suffering. The one person that went against tradition, his values, his family, his people, for my sake. The one person willing to seize the moment and

him I would be home tomorrow. I promised him I would never leave him. I promised I wouldn’t break his heart. I am not letting you go because of my promises; I am letting you go because I have already given

a lie. When I heard of your marriage, I thought you only did it to survive. But seeing you here made me realise I

wolf would always be conflicted. Leo loved you, still loves you, and because of that, he hasn’t been able to be happy with Amanda. I see him die more every time, and I do not wish that on you, Tamia. I do not want to be the source of your pain. You were right when you said I had lost my opportunity. Even if I take you and claim you, just like Leo, your heart will always beat for Sylvester. I can see it in your eyes. I care about you enough to want you to be truly happy. I do not want my love or our bond to be a source of pain and regret for you. Whatever you do, I will accept

did not

wanted to reject him and walk

told me to consider it. I wasn’t fated to Sylvester; what if he finds his fate and betrays me? Then

I let Devin go, I might never have a fated again. Second-chance mates are rare. I looked at him,