The Girl He Craves

Chapter 24

Sophie’s pov

I stared at the casket. The casket that confined Carson’s corpse inside.

My throat burned and every word the priest let out seemed to go on deaf ears.

The only sounds I can focus on was the sound of the pattering rain that fell on the umbrella Ingrid held over my head so I’d not get wet

I think I deserve to get wet. I deserve to feel the cold of the rain. Maybe then I’d start to feel again.

Since Carson’s death a week and a few days ago, I had become numb. I could not feel anymore except for the eating guilt

Ingrid wrapped one of her arms around my midsection and held me close as Carson’s parents wept loudly Their cries were louder than the pattering rain and that did not surprise me.

Mila looks over at me and looks at me in sorrow. She stood beside me and grabbed a hold of my hand. She squeezes it in reassurance

She knew everything. I told her everything. And she knew how f**g messed up I was now after what happened

She was the only one who knew why the two boys were fighting that day.

“Wait. No don’t put my baby in the dirt. Wait no! He’s not dead! He can’t be. I saw him last night. He’s not dead. Don’t put him down yet!” Carson’s mother screamed and started to thrash in her husband’s hold.

My stomach churns and I feel disgusted to even be in their presence knowing I was the main reason they lost their son.

I didn’t deserve to be here. I didn’t deserve to recieve everyone’s sympathy while Aiden got nothing but pitchforks thrown at him. They blamed him. They called him the devil.

Everyone turned their backs on him.

But me, everyone was way too sweet, way too nice to me. I didn’t like it. I hated it. I didn’t deserve their words, I didn’t deserve their sympathy. I was the main reason Carson was dead.

If I hadn’t

“No my baby boy! Don’t leave us! Please you can’t leave us! You were supposed to grow old Carson, give us grandchildren. How can you just leave us so soon?!” His mother screamed, tugging forward but her husband who was still visibly crying held her back.

words had my heart pinching and my eyes began to water again. I have been crying for so many days, for so many hours that I didn’t know

But feeling them trail down my cheeks showed me that I still had more than I thought. I wasn’t done crying and I didn’t think

The casket was now being placed down in the hole they had dug up for where he would rest. I felt sick to my

He’s okay! He’s here with us! Carson baby come out and stop playing! Carson please stop giving moma anael Carson! Pleasel Carson!’ Hie

“Marge he’s gone Carson’s dad cried, hugging his

as she looks down at the casket that wos now her son’s bed. She cried louder. I promise I’ll make that devil pay for

a blow to my heart even though they were not directed at me They were directed at Aiden but I

“I need to go ” I didn’t wait for her to respond, I just turned around and aimlessly made

I gasped out when I shouldered

“Sophie!” I heard Mila’s voice call out

of here. I didn’t deserve to

Aiden was a devil

my head, my hair quickly plastering to my face and black dress as the

guilt. They felt my pain.

day. If only you had not called me pretty girl. You would’ve still

would still be in your mother’s arms. Your

This was my fault. All

behind bars and would be going for a hearing tomorrow. One

malicious to Carson. And on the surveillance camera they saw the

hear what they were yelling about but apparently from the angle of the camera, it showed

hearing. What made it even worst was that Rena

the footage from the surveillance camera where you could hear loud and clear what Aiden had said to Carson that day. Which did include him

others coming forward

really just ruined two boys future because

shook my head. Aiden

feltjello and weak and I found myself falling on my bottom beside someone’s

was a good distance away from the funeral but I knew

over my head to block the rain from seeping to my bones. Mila sat beside me and

I’ll always be here for

I knew the mud was creating a mess behind my dress