The Girl He Craves

Chapter 24

Sophie’s pov

I stared at the casket. The casket that confined Carson’s corpse inside.

My throat burned and every word the priest let out seemed to go on deaf ears.

The only sounds I can focus on was the sound of the pattering rain that fell on the umbrella Ingrid held over my head so I’d not get wet

I think I deserve to get wet. I deserve to feel the cold of the rain. Maybe then I’d start to feel again.

Since Carson’s death a week and a few days ago, I had become numb. I could not feel anymore except for the eating guilt

Ingrid wrapped one of her arms around my midsection and held me close as Carson’s parents wept loudly Their cries were louder than the pattering rain and that did not surprise me.

Mila looks over at me and looks at me in sorrow. She stood beside me and grabbed a hold of my hand. She squeezes it in reassurance

She knew everything. I told her everything. And she knew how f**g messed up I was now after what happened

She was the only one who knew why the two boys were fighting that day.

“Wait. No don’t put my baby in the dirt. Wait no! He’s not dead! He can’t be. I saw him last night. He’s not dead. Don’t put him down yet!” Carson’s mother screamed and started to thrash in her husband’s hold.

My stomach churns and I feel disgusted to even be in their presence knowing I was the main reason they lost their son.

I didn’t deserve to be here. I didn’t deserve to recieve everyone’s sympathy while Aiden got nothing but pitchforks thrown at him. They blamed him. They called him the devil.

Everyone turned their backs on him.

But me, everyone was way too sweet, way too nice to me. I didn’t like it. I hated it. I didn’t deserve their words, I didn’t deserve their sympathy. I was the main reason Carson was dead.

If I hadn’t

“No my baby boy! Don’t leave us! Please you can’t leave us! You were supposed to grow old Carson, give us grandchildren. How can you just leave us so soon?!” His mother screamed, tugging forward but her husband who was still visibly crying held her back.

have been crying for so many days, for so many hours

that I still had more

The casket was now being placed down in the hole they had dug up for where he would rest.

put him down’ He’s okay! He’s here with us! Carson baby come out and stop playing! Carson please stop giving moma anael Carson! Pleasel Carson!’ Hie inom screamed louder, thrashing harder in her

Carson’s dad cried, hugging his wife

She cried louder. I promise I’ll make

were not directed at me They were directed at

and said shakily with panic “I need to go ” I

out when

I heard Mila’s voice

I needed to get out of here. I didn’t deserve

Aiden was a devil

shook my head, my hair quickly plastering to my face and black dress as the

sorrow. They felt my guilt. They felt my pain. The rain….. were my

had not spoken to me that day. If only you had not called me pretty girl. You would’ve still been

your mother’s arms.

was my fault. All

Not only was one boy dead because of me but another was behind bars and would be going for a hearing tomorrow. One that would seal Aiden’s

lot of evidence that showed that Aiden was always malicious to

were yelling about but apparently from the angle of the camera, it showed Aiden

hearing. What made it even worst was that Rena recalled Aiden threatening

the diner also showed the footage from the surveillance camera where you could hear loud and clear what Aiden

that kind of way, but with all the evidence and others coming forward

I really just ruined two boys future because of my selfish

head. Aiden wasn’t

My legs feltjello and weak and I found myself falling on my

I was a good distance away from the

to my bones. Mila sat beside me and one

be okay Soph. I’ll always be here for you

knew the mud was creating a mess behind my