The Girl He Craves

Chapter 24

Sophie’s pov

I stared at the casket. The casket that confined Carson’s corpse inside.

My throat burned and every word the priest let out seemed to go on deaf ears.

The only sounds I can focus on was the sound of the pattering rain that fell on the umbrella Ingrid held over my head so I’d not get wet

I think I deserve to get wet. I deserve to feel the cold of the rain. Maybe then I’d start to feel again.

Since Carson’s death a week and a few days ago, I had become numb. I could not feel anymore except for the eating guilt

Ingrid wrapped one of her arms around my midsection and held me close as Carson’s parents wept loudly Their cries were louder than the pattering rain and that did not surprise me.

Mila looks over at me and looks at me in sorrow. She stood beside me and grabbed a hold of my hand. She squeezes it in reassurance

She knew everything. I told her everything. And she knew how f**g messed up I was now after what happened

She was the only one who knew why the two boys were fighting that day.

“Wait. No don’t put my baby in the dirt. Wait no! He’s not dead! He can’t be. I saw him last night. He’s not dead. Don’t put him down yet!” Carson’s mother screamed and started to thrash in her husband’s hold.

My stomach churns and I feel disgusted to even be in their presence knowing I was the main reason they lost their son.

I didn’t deserve to be here. I didn’t deserve to recieve everyone’s sympathy while Aiden got nothing but pitchforks thrown at him. They blamed him. They called him the devil.

Everyone turned their backs on him.

But me, everyone was way too sweet, way too nice to me. I didn’t like it. I hated it. I didn’t deserve their words, I didn’t deserve their sympathy. I was the main reason Carson was dead.

If I hadn’t

“No my baby boy! Don’t leave us! Please you can’t leave us! You were supposed to grow old Carson, give us grandchildren. How can you just leave us so soon?!” His mother screamed, tugging forward but her husband who was still visibly crying held her back.

heart pinching and my eyes began to water again. I have been crying for so many days, for

that I still had more than I thought. I wasn’t done

was now being placed down in the hole they had dug up for where he

no Don’t put him down’ He’s okay! He’s here with us! Carson baby come out and stop playing! Carson please stop giving

“Marge he’s gone Carson’s dad

she looks down at the casket that wos now her son’s bed. She cried louder. I promise I’ll make that devil pay for what

were like a blow to my heart even though they were not directed at me They were directed at Aiden but I felt

looked up at Ingrid and said shakily with panic “I need to go ” I didn’t wait for

“Sorry.” I gasped out when I shouldered

I heard Mila’s voice

out of here. I didn’t deserve

was a devil then

head, my hair quickly plastering to my face

felt my guilt. They felt my pain. The rain….. were my

you had not spoken to me that day. If only you had not called me pretty girl. You would’ve still been

be in your mother’s arms. Your parents would

was my fault. All of

of me but another was behind bars and would be going for a hearing

a lot of evidence that showed that Aiden was always malicious to Carson. And on

they were yelling about but apparently from the angle of the camera, it showed Aiden had either punched or pushed Carson

it even worst was that Rena recalled

diner also showed the footage from the surveillance camera where you could

that kind of way, but with all the evidence and others coming forward to speak on how much of an a***le he was 10 Carson, Aiden stood no

just ruined two boys future

Aiden

and I found myself falling on my bottom

from the funeral but I knew someone had

umbrella hovers over my head to block the rain from seeping to my bones. Mila sat beside me and one of her arms

is going to be okay Soph. I’ll always be here for you no matter

trees off into the distance. I knew the mud was creating a mess