The Girl He Craves

Chapter 24

Sophie’s pov

I stared at the casket. The casket that confined Carson’s corpse inside.

My throat burned and every word the priest let out seemed to go on deaf ears.

The only sounds I can focus on was the sound of the pattering rain that fell on the umbrella Ingrid held over my head so I’d not get wet

I think I deserve to get wet. I deserve to feel the cold of the rain. Maybe then I’d start to feel again.

Since Carson’s death a week and a few days ago, I had become numb. I could not feel anymore except for the eating guilt

Ingrid wrapped one of her arms around my midsection and held me close as Carson’s parents wept loudly Their cries were louder than the pattering rain and that did not surprise me.

Mila looks over at me and looks at me in sorrow. She stood beside me and grabbed a hold of my hand. She squeezes it in reassurance

She knew everything. I told her everything. And she knew how f**g messed up I was now after what happened

She was the only one who knew why the two boys were fighting that day.

“Wait. No don’t put my baby in the dirt. Wait no! He’s not dead! He can’t be. I saw him last night. He’s not dead. Don’t put him down yet!” Carson’s mother screamed and started to thrash in her husband’s hold.

My stomach churns and I feel disgusted to even be in their presence knowing I was the main reason they lost their son.

I didn’t deserve to be here. I didn’t deserve to recieve everyone’s sympathy while Aiden got nothing but pitchforks thrown at him. They blamed him. They called him the devil.

Everyone turned their backs on him.

But me, everyone was way too sweet, way too nice to me. I didn’t like it. I hated it. I didn’t deserve their words, I didn’t deserve their sympathy. I was the main reason Carson was dead.

If I hadn’t

“No my baby boy! Don’t leave us! Please you can’t leave us! You were supposed to grow old Carson, give us grandchildren. How can you just leave us so soon?!” His mother screamed, tugging forward but her husband who was still visibly crying held her back.

crying for so many days, for so many hours that I

them trail down my cheeks showed me that I still had more than I thought.

hole they had dug up

“Noi Please no Don’t put him down’ He’s okay! He’s here with us! Carson baby come out and stop playing! Carson please stop giving moma

dad

wos now her son’s bed. She cried louder. I promise I’ll make that devil pay for

to my heart even though they were not directed at me They were

“I need to go ” I didn’t wait for her to respond, I just turned around and aimlessly made my way through the people around

when I shouldered

heard Mila’s voice call out behind

get out of here. I didn’t deserve to be

a devil then I

shook my head, my hair quickly plastering to my face and

They felt my guilt.

spoken to me that day. If only you had not called me pretty girl. You would’ve still

still be in your mother’s arms. Your parents would still have their

my fault.

only was one boy dead because of me but another was behind bars and

evidence that showed that Aiden was always malicious to Carson. And

of the camera, it showed

behind bars and hold him until his hearing. What made it even worst was that Rena recalled Aiden threatening to kill

but the owner of the diner also showed the footage from the surveillance camera where you could hear loud and clear what Aiden had

kind of way, but with all the evidence and others coming forward to speak on how much of an

Had I really just ruined two boys future because of

head. Aiden

and weak and I found myself falling on my bottom

from the

rain from seeping to my bones. Mila

“Everything is going to be okay Soph. I’ll always be here for you no matter what.” Mila whispered, kissing my

knew the mud was creating a