The Girl He Craves

Chapter 24

Sophie’s pov

I stared at the casket. The casket that confined Carson’s corpse inside.

My throat burned and every word the priest let out seemed to go on deaf ears.

The only sounds I can focus on was the sound of the pattering rain that fell on the umbrella Ingrid held over my head so I’d not get wet

I think I deserve to get wet. I deserve to feel the cold of the rain. Maybe then I’d start to feel again.

Since Carson’s death a week and a few days ago, I had become numb. I could not feel anymore except for the eating guilt

Ingrid wrapped one of her arms around my midsection and held me close as Carson’s parents wept loudly Their cries were louder than the pattering rain and that did not surprise me.

Mila looks over at me and looks at me in sorrow. She stood beside me and grabbed a hold of my hand. She squeezes it in reassurance

She knew everything. I told her everything. And she knew how f**g messed up I was now after what happened

She was the only one who knew why the two boys were fighting that day.

“Wait. No don’t put my baby in the dirt. Wait no! He’s not dead! He can’t be. I saw him last night. He’s not dead. Don’t put him down yet!” Carson’s mother screamed and started to thrash in her husband’s hold.

My stomach churns and I feel disgusted to even be in their presence knowing I was the main reason they lost their son.

I didn’t deserve to be here. I didn’t deserve to recieve everyone’s sympathy while Aiden got nothing but pitchforks thrown at him. They blamed him. They called him the devil.

Everyone turned their backs on him.

But me, everyone was way too sweet, way too nice to me. I didn’t like it. I hated it. I didn’t deserve their words, I didn’t deserve their sympathy. I was the main reason Carson was dead.

If I hadn’t

“No my baby boy! Don’t leave us! Please you can’t leave us! You were supposed to grow old Carson, give us grandchildren. How can you just leave us so soon?!” His mother screamed, tugging forward but her husband who was still visibly crying held her back.

crying for

cheeks showed me that I still had more than I thought. I wasn’t done crying and

now being placed down in the hole they had dug

Don’t put him down’ He’s okay! He’s here with us! Carson baby come out and stop playing! Carson please stop giving

Carson’s dad cried, hugging his

wos now her son’s bed. She cried louder. I promise I’ll make that devil pay for what he did to you Carson I’ll make that b**d

directed at me They were directed at Aiden but I felt it I felt

with panic “I need to go ” I didn’t wait for her to respond, I

“Sorry.” I gasped out when I shouldered

heard Mila’s

I needed to get out of

If Aiden was a devil then I

I shook my head, my hair quickly plastering to my face and black dress as the

heavens felt my sorrow. They felt my guilt. They felt my pain.

had not spoken to me that day. If only you

still be in your mother’s arms.

my fault. All

Not only was one boy dead because of me but another was behind bars and would be going for a hearing tomorrow. One that would

to Carson. And on the surveillance camera they saw the two boys engaging into

but apparently from the angle of the camera, it showed Aiden

What made it even worst was that Rena recalled Aiden threatening to kill Carson in

the footage from the surveillance camera where you could hear loud and clear what Aiden

but with all the evidence and others

I really just ruined two boys future because of my selfish heart

my head. Aiden wasn’t the

found myself

the funeral

block the rain from seeping to my bones. Mila sat beside me and one of her arms

always be here

the mud was creating a mess behind my dress and I knew that I might catch a cold. But I didn’t