The Girl He Craves

Chapter 24

Sophie’s pov

I stared at the casket. The casket that confined Carson’s corpse inside.

My throat burned and every word the priest let out seemed to go on deaf ears.

The only sounds I can focus on was the sound of the pattering rain that fell on the umbrella Ingrid held over my head so I’d not get wet

I think I deserve to get wet. I deserve to feel the cold of the rain. Maybe then I’d start to feel again.

Since Carson’s death a week and a few days ago, I had become numb. I could not feel anymore except for the eating guilt

Ingrid wrapped one of her arms around my midsection and held me close as Carson’s parents wept loudly Their cries were louder than the pattering rain and that did not surprise me.

Mila looks over at me and looks at me in sorrow. She stood beside me and grabbed a hold of my hand. She squeezes it in reassurance

She knew everything. I told her everything. And she knew how f**g messed up I was now after what happened

She was the only one who knew why the two boys were fighting that day.

“Wait. No don’t put my baby in the dirt. Wait no! He’s not dead! He can’t be. I saw him last night. He’s not dead. Don’t put him down yet!” Carson’s mother screamed and started to thrash in her husband’s hold.

My stomach churns and I feel disgusted to even be in their presence knowing I was the main reason they lost their son.

I didn’t deserve to be here. I didn’t deserve to recieve everyone’s sympathy while Aiden got nothing but pitchforks thrown at him. They blamed him. They called him the devil.

Everyone turned their backs on him.

But me, everyone was way too sweet, way too nice to me. I didn’t like it. I hated it. I didn’t deserve their words, I didn’t deserve their sympathy. I was the main reason Carson was dead.

If I hadn’t

“No my baby boy! Don’t leave us! Please you can’t leave us! You were supposed to grow old Carson, give us grandchildren. How can you just leave us so soon?!” His mother screamed, tugging forward but her husband who was still visibly crying held her back.

pinching and my eyes began to water again. I have been crying for so many

trail down my cheeks showed me that I still had more than I thought. I wasn’t done crying and I didn’t think I would

casket was now being placed down in the hole they had dug up for where he would

out and stop playing!

Carson’s dad cried, hugging his

cried louder. I promise I’ll make that devil pay for what he did to you

Her words were like a blow to my heart even though they were not directed at me They were directed at Aiden but I

need to go ” I didn’t wait for her to respond, I just turned

“Sorry.” I gasped out when I

Mila’s

I needed to get out of here. I

was a devil

plastering to my face and black dress as the rain shower

sorrow. They felt my guilt. They felt

to me that day. If

would still be in your mother’s

was my

one boy dead because of me but another was behind bars

to Carson. And on

from the angle of the camera, it showed

put him behind bars and hold him until his hearing. What made it even worst was that Rena recalled Aiden threatening to kill Carson in the diner when they were

from the surveillance camera where you could hear loud

but with all the evidence and others coming forward to

ruined two boys future because

my head. Aiden wasn’t the

I found myself falling on

distance away from the funeral but I knew

seeping to my bones. Mila

be okay Soph. I’ll always be here for you no matter what.” Mila whispered, kissing

creating a mess behind my dress and