The Girl He Craves

Chapter 24

Sophie’s pov

I stared at the casket. The casket that confined Carson’s corpse inside.

My throat burned and every word the priest let out seemed to go on deaf ears.

The only sounds I can focus on was the sound of the pattering rain that fell on the umbrella Ingrid held over my head so I’d not get wet

I think I deserve to get wet. I deserve to feel the cold of the rain. Maybe then I’d start to feel again.

Since Carson’s death a week and a few days ago, I had become numb. I could not feel anymore except for the eating guilt

Ingrid wrapped one of her arms around my midsection and held me close as Carson’s parents wept loudly Their cries were louder than the pattering rain and that did not surprise me.

Mila looks over at me and looks at me in sorrow. She stood beside me and grabbed a hold of my hand. She squeezes it in reassurance

She knew everything. I told her everything. And she knew how f**g messed up I was now after what happened

She was the only one who knew why the two boys were fighting that day.

“Wait. No don’t put my baby in the dirt. Wait no! He’s not dead! He can’t be. I saw him last night. He’s not dead. Don’t put him down yet!” Carson’s mother screamed and started to thrash in her husband’s hold.

My stomach churns and I feel disgusted to even be in their presence knowing I was the main reason they lost their son.

I didn’t deserve to be here. I didn’t deserve to recieve everyone’s sympathy while Aiden got nothing but pitchforks thrown at him. They blamed him. They called him the devil.

Everyone turned their backs on him.

But me, everyone was way too sweet, way too nice to me. I didn’t like it. I hated it. I didn’t deserve their words, I didn’t deserve their sympathy. I was the main reason Carson was dead.

If I hadn’t

“No my baby boy! Don’t leave us! Please you can’t leave us! You were supposed to grow old Carson, give us grandchildren. How can you just leave us so soon?!” His mother screamed, tugging forward but her husband who was still visibly crying held her back.

my eyes began to water again. I have been crying for so many days, for so many

trail down my cheeks showed me that I still had more than I thought. I wasn’t done crying and I didn’t think I would ever

hole they had dug

no Don’t put him down’ He’s okay! He’s here with us! Carson baby come out and stop playing! Carson please stop giving moma anael Carson! Pleasel Carson!’ Hie inom screamed louder, thrashing

he’s gone Carson’s dad cried, hugging his wife

bottom hip wobble as she looks down at the casket that wos now her son’s bed. She cried louder. I promise I’ll make that devil pay for what he

they were not directed at me They were

And suddenly I couldn’t breathe. I looked up at Ingrid and said shakily with panic “I need to go ” I didn’t wait for her to respond, I just turned around and aimlessly

gasped out when

I heard Mila’s

needed to get out of here. I

devil then I

to my face and black dress as the

They felt my guilt. They felt my pain. The

to me that day. If only you had not called me pretty girl. You

your mother’s arms. Your parents would still have their

was my

Not only was one boy dead because of me but another was behind bars and would be

malicious to Carson. And on the surveillance camera they saw the two

of the camera, it showed

it even worst was that Rena recalled Aiden threatening to kill Carson in the diner when

denied it but the owner of the diner also showed the footage from the surveillance camera where you could

of way, but with all the evidence and others coming forward to speak on how much of an a***le he was 10

two boys

I shook my head. Aiden wasn’t the

feltjello and weak and I found myself falling on

I was a good distance away from the funeral but I knew someone had followed

hovers over my head to block the rain from seeping to

going to be okay Soph. I’ll always be here for you no

at the trees off into the distance. I knew the mud was creating a mess behind my dress and I knew that I might catch a cold. But I