The Girl He Craves

Chapter 24

Sophie’s pov

I stared at the casket. The casket that confined Carson’s corpse inside.

My throat burned and every word the priest let out seemed to go on deaf ears.

The only sounds I can focus on was the sound of the pattering rain that fell on the umbrella Ingrid held over my head so I’d not get wet

I think I deserve to get wet. I deserve to feel the cold of the rain. Maybe then I’d start to feel again.

Since Carson’s death a week and a few days ago, I had become numb. I could not feel anymore except for the eating guilt

Ingrid wrapped one of her arms around my midsection and held me close as Carson’s parents wept loudly Their cries were louder than the pattering rain and that did not surprise me.

Mila looks over at me and looks at me in sorrow. She stood beside me and grabbed a hold of my hand. She squeezes it in reassurance

She knew everything. I told her everything. And she knew how f**g messed up I was now after what happened

She was the only one who knew why the two boys were fighting that day.

“Wait. No don’t put my baby in the dirt. Wait no! He’s not dead! He can’t be. I saw him last night. He’s not dead. Don’t put him down yet!” Carson’s mother screamed and started to thrash in her husband’s hold.

My stomach churns and I feel disgusted to even be in their presence knowing I was the main reason they lost their son.

I didn’t deserve to be here. I didn’t deserve to recieve everyone’s sympathy while Aiden got nothing but pitchforks thrown at him. They blamed him. They called him the devil.

Everyone turned their backs on him.

But me, everyone was way too sweet, way too nice to me. I didn’t like it. I hated it. I didn’t deserve their words, I didn’t deserve their sympathy. I was the main reason Carson was dead.

If I hadn’t

“No my baby boy! Don’t leave us! Please you can’t leave us! You were supposed to grow old Carson, give us grandchildren. How can you just leave us so soon?!” His mother screamed, tugging forward but her husband who was still visibly crying held her back.

been crying for so many days, for so many hours that I didn’t know i had any tears

down my cheeks showed me that I still had more than I thought. I wasn’t done crying and

in the hole they had dug up for where he would rest.

Carson baby come out and stop playing! Carson please

“Marge he’s gone Carson’s dad cried,

that wos now her son’s bed. She cried louder. I promise I’ll make that

blow to my heart even though they were not directed at me

panic “I need to go ”

“Sorry.” I gasped out when

heard Mila’s voice call

of here. I didn’t deserve to

Aiden was a devil then I was a

my head, my hair quickly plastering to my face and black dress as the

sorrow. They felt my guilt.

to me that day. If only you had

be in your mother’s arms. Your

was my fault. All

of me but another was behind bars and would be going for

lot of evidence that showed that Aiden was always malicious to Carson. And on the surveillance camera they saw

about but apparently from the angle of the camera, it showed Aiden had either punched or

was enough to put him behind bars and hold him until his hearing. What made it even worst was that Rena recalled Aiden

from the surveillance camera where you could hear loud and clear what Aiden had said to Carson

of way, but with all the evidence and others coming forward to speak on how much of an a***le he was 10 Carson, Aiden stood

boys future

shook my head. Aiden wasn’t

My legs feltjello and weak and I found myself falling on my bottom beside someone’s

distance away from the funeral but I knew someone

umbrella hovers over my head to block the rain from seeping to my bones. Mila sat beside me and one

“Everything is going to be okay Soph. I’ll always be here for you

trees off into the distance. I knew the mud was creating a mess behind my dress and