The Girl He Craves

Chapter 24

Sophie’s pov

I stared at the casket. The casket that confined Carson’s corpse inside.

My throat burned and every word the priest let out seemed to go on deaf ears.

The only sounds I can focus on was the sound of the pattering rain that fell on the umbrella Ingrid held over my head so I’d not get wet

I think I deserve to get wet. I deserve to feel the cold of the rain. Maybe then I’d start to feel again.

Since Carson’s death a week and a few days ago, I had become numb. I could not feel anymore except for the eating guilt

Ingrid wrapped one of her arms around my midsection and held me close as Carson’s parents wept loudly Their cries were louder than the pattering rain and that did not surprise me.

Mila looks over at me and looks at me in sorrow. She stood beside me and grabbed a hold of my hand. She squeezes it in reassurance

She knew everything. I told her everything. And she knew how f**g messed up I was now after what happened

She was the only one who knew why the two boys were fighting that day.

“Wait. No don’t put my baby in the dirt. Wait no! He’s not dead! He can’t be. I saw him last night. He’s not dead. Don’t put him down yet!” Carson’s mother screamed and started to thrash in her husband’s hold.

My stomach churns and I feel disgusted to even be in their presence knowing I was the main reason they lost their son.

I didn’t deserve to be here. I didn’t deserve to recieve everyone’s sympathy while Aiden got nothing but pitchforks thrown at him. They blamed him. They called him the devil.

Everyone turned their backs on him.

But me, everyone was way too sweet, way too nice to me. I didn’t like it. I hated it. I didn’t deserve their words, I didn’t deserve their sympathy. I was the main reason Carson was dead.

If I hadn’t

“No my baby boy! Don’t leave us! Please you can’t leave us! You were supposed to grow old Carson, give us grandchildren. How can you just leave us so soon?!” His mother screamed, tugging forward but her husband who was still visibly crying held her back.

words had my heart pinching and my eyes began to water again. I have been crying for so many days, for so many hours that I

I still had more than I thought. I wasn’t done

hole they had dug

no Don’t put him down’ He’s okay! He’s here with us! Carson baby come out and stop playing! Carson please stop giving moma anael Carson! Pleasel Carson!’ Hie inom screamed louder,

he’s gone Carson’s dad cried, hugging

cried louder. I promise I’ll make that devil

were like a blow to my heart even though they were not directed at

with panic “I need to go ” I didn’t wait for

“Sorry.” I gasped out when I shouldered

I heard Mila’s voice call out

out of here. I didn’t deserve

If Aiden was a devil

hair quickly plastering to my face and black dress as the

guilt. They felt

to me that day. If only you had not called me pretty girl. You would’ve still

would still be in your mother’s arms. Your parents would still have

This was my

only was one boy dead because of me but another was behind bars and would be going for a hearing tomorrow. One

They found a lot of evidence that showed that Aiden was always malicious to Carson. And on the surveillance camera they saw the two boys engaging into a

couldn’t hear what they were yelling about but apparently from the angle of the camera, it showed Aiden had either punched or

hold him until his hearing. What made it even worst was that Rena recalled Aiden threatening to kill Carson in the diner when they

from the surveillance camera where you

hadn’t meant it in that kind of way, but with all the evidence and others coming forward

ruined two boys future because of my selfish heart and

head. Aiden wasn’t

and I found myself falling

away from the funeral but I knew someone had followed

to my

be okay Soph. I’ll always be here for you no matter what.” Mila

the mud was creating a