The Silent Alpha

***Christian***

 WHERE THE f**k IS SHE?!?

I pant as I look around at the mess I’ve created, my hand bleeding from shattering the family portrait hanging on the wall.

I run my fingers through my hair as I try to compose myself, but my rage is hard to contain knowing I am so close yet so far from having Natalia and my pup again.I have been so patient these past few days, hoping Natalia would turn up but she’s determined to tear me apart.

The answer is right in front of you and yet, you refuse to see it, Jack snarls.

Vm not killing my mother! I snap, staring at the framed photograph of my mother and Talia at the beach now shattered on the floor, Then watch me burn it all to the ground! Jack sneers, his wrath seeping into my veins.

He fights for control, Jack clawing his way to the surface and attempting to shove me as far back to the depths of my mind as he can.

Just as I feel myself about to lose the battle, a knock at the door distracts Jack enough for me to push through and lock him out.

The door creaks open, my mother poking her head in and waving hello to me side.

My mother stands still and unfazed by my behavior, her dress perfectly ironed, her hair combed neatly in place without a hair out of place.

As always, she wears heels and has a cool, unwavering smile on her face.

"Christian," She says in a soothing voice as she walks carefully over the debris on the office floor.

"I see you’re not having a good evening." She scrutinizes my disheveled hair and the blood on my hand, shaking her head disapprovingly at me.

"Almost thirty years old and throwing a tantrum, are we?" She chuckles condescendingly.

"And I thought Vanessa was a mess."

"If you are here to pester me, you may leave," I mutter, resting my hands on my desk to feel some sense of stability in all this turbulence.

"Oh Christian," my mother sighs, her heels clicking towards me.

"Go away, Mother," I huff.

"It’s past your bedtime.Doesn't every perfect Luna need her beauty sleep?" I smile coldly.

"Perhaps," she laughs, placing her hands on my shoulders.

" But my son needs me more." I side eye her and she smiles her perfect smile at me, the same smile she taught Natalia.

"Shall we go on a little midnight run?" she hums, gently of you brooding here in your office.

DOTT, Jack chants menacingly.

KILL HER...

I fight the voice in my head but he growls so loudly, I just want him to stop.

"Come on Chrissy.Let’s go for a run," my mother murmurs, her heels clicking away as she turns to leave.

Jack breaks through as my mother leaves the room and reaches for the syringe I’ve kept hidden in my drawers.

It contains a lethal dose of wolfsbane that the witches gave me to complete my task.

No!\s****m at him but Jack stuffs the syringe into my pocket nonetheless and turns to leave.

I manage to fight my way back to the surface as I walk out of the house towards the surrounding woods to find my mother.

The sound of rustling behind a large tree and the scent of her sweet perfume alerts me that my mother is undressing and I stop in my tracks to give her some privacy.

from behind the tree and comes to greet me, my mother nudging me with her snout and urging me

up on me but I swallow back his rage and hide behind the tree to shift,

I don’t need it, I don’t need it, I chant to myself, my bones rearranging into Jack taking command of my body

bow, my mother taking

a brief moment, I feel like a kid again

doesn’t

cliff overlooking a valley of trees, my anger and my fears come racing towards me

on your mind,

mother mind-links me as she plops down near the

drifting to thoughts of me bringing my own pup here to the cliffs for a midnight run.I’ve now memorized his little face and know I could

he like?

boy with all the makings of a true

you?" my mother asks,

word, knowing I f****d up to ever trade a

her...but you have to live with the

does." I growl at her but she

is happy," she

she is

me," I snarl, my mother giving me an amused

take care of her

took care of her the first time?" My mother snorts, my wolf growling at

"I made a mistake!"

her, my

decision to hurt your wife over and over again for several

that through that thick head of yours.You cheated knowing she would feel it.So own up to it.You did this.You

one who tore my family apart.I cheated on my wife… not

first four

him

to

a moment

her mind, you were not fit

are you on?" I growl, my mother softening her features as she nuzzles up

love you with

But that the wrong.

best for her baby and, as a mother, I cannot blame her for taking her pup to a place she thought was safe, even if that place is

doesn't understand!

didn’t! I don’t deserve to pay for the mistakes you made.I want my Tiny back.I want her and our pup back in my arms and I will never let them go! I will never hurt my Tiny like

the anger

in the direction of the house as she

to change, stuffing the syringe back in my pocket as I hear my mother’s footsteps approach.I turn my back to my mother as she quickly shifts

me as

speaking to you!" she snaps, my feet

murmur, feeling

"You don’t understand..."

course I do," My mother soothes, walking over to me and gently caressing

moving on-"breathe without her!" I snap, my mother staring back in shock at

neither you, nor my father, nor Jordan and Derek are going to stop me

flashes in my mother’s eyes as she stares

you're sick," She whispers, holding back a sob

need help.I can get you some help.You just have to

your

you can’t be Alpha like this, Christian.You'll hurt someone or

over me and I turn to look at my

sick?" I ask