The Silent Alpha

***Christian***

 WHERE THE f**k IS SHE?!?

I pant as I look around at the mess I’ve created, my hand bleeding from shattering the family portrait hanging on the wall.

I run my fingers through my hair as I try to compose myself, but my rage is hard to contain knowing I am so close yet so far from having Natalia and my pup again.I have been so patient these past few days, hoping Natalia would turn up but she’s determined to tear me apart.

The answer is right in front of you and yet, you refuse to see it, Jack snarls.

Vm not killing my mother! I snap, staring at the framed photograph of my mother and Talia at the beach now shattered on the floor, Then watch me burn it all to the ground! Jack sneers, his wrath seeping into my veins.

He fights for control, Jack clawing his way to the surface and attempting to shove me as far back to the depths of my mind as he can.

Just as I feel myself about to lose the battle, a knock at the door distracts Jack enough for me to push through and lock him out.

The door creaks open, my mother poking her head in and waving hello to me side.

My mother stands still and unfazed by my behavior, her dress perfectly ironed, her hair combed neatly in place without a hair out of place.

As always, she wears heels and has a cool, unwavering smile on her face.

"Christian," She says in a soothing voice as she walks carefully over the debris on the office floor.

"I see you’re not having a good evening." She scrutinizes my disheveled hair and the blood on my hand, shaking her head disapprovingly at me.

"Almost thirty years old and throwing a tantrum, are we?" She chuckles condescendingly.

"And I thought Vanessa was a mess."

"If you are here to pester me, you may leave," I mutter, resting my hands on my desk to feel some sense of stability in all this turbulence.

"Oh Christian," my mother sighs, her heels clicking towards me.

"Go away, Mother," I huff.

"It’s past your bedtime.Doesn't every perfect Luna need her beauty sleep?" I smile coldly.

"Perhaps," she laughs, placing her hands on my shoulders.

" But my son needs me more." I side eye her and she smiles her perfect smile at me, the same smile she taught Natalia.

"Shall we go on a little midnight run?" she hums, gently of you brooding here in your office.

DOTT, Jack chants menacingly.

KILL HER...

I fight the voice in my head but he growls so loudly, I just want him to stop.

"Come on Chrissy.Let’s go for a run," my mother murmurs, her heels clicking away as she turns to leave.

Jack breaks through as my mother leaves the room and reaches for the syringe I’ve kept hidden in my drawers.

It contains a lethal dose of wolfsbane that the witches gave me to complete my task.

No!\s****m at him but Jack stuffs the syringe into my pocket nonetheless and turns to leave.

I manage to fight my way back to the surface as I walk out of the house towards the surrounding woods to find my mother.

The sound of rustling behind a large tree and the scent of her sweet perfume alerts me that my mother is undressing and I stop in my tracks to give her some privacy.

behind the tree and comes to greet me, my mother nudging me with her snout and urging me to

Jack creeping up on me but I swallow back his rage and hide behind the tree to shift, tucking the syringe within my pile

don’t need it, I chant to myself, my bones rearranging into Jack taking command of my body as

mother taking off in a

other and, for a brief moment, I feel like a kid again playing

doesn’t last

a valley of trees, my anger and my fears come

on your

she plops down near the

own pup here to the cliffs for a midnight run.I’ve

he like? I

he is a strong boy with

aren’t you?" my mother asks, settling beside

word, knowing I f****d up to ever

you hurt her...but you have to live with the

to least I pray she does." I growl at her but she pays me no mind and

is

is alright every

be better here with me," I snarl, my mother giving

take care of

of her the first time?" My mother snorts, my wolf growling at

"I made a mistake!"

snap at her, my mother

made a conscious decision to hurt your wife over and over again

would feel

tore my family apart.I cheated on my wife… not

the first four

took him from

right to demand to be

quiet for a moment to

you were not

growl, my mother softening her features

you, Christian.I love you with all my

But that the wrong.

was best for her baby and, as a mother, I cannot blame her for taking her pup to a place she thought was safe, even if that place is

doesn't understand!

want her and our pup back in my arms and I will never let them go! I will never hurt my Tiny like you! His

suffocating, as if the anger

in the direction of the house

human form to change, stuffing the syringe back in my pocket as I

after me as

am speaking to you!" she snaps,

I murmur, feeling

"You don’t understand..."

course I do," My mother soothes, walking over to me and gently caressing my

hurts.But moving on-"breathe without her!" I snap, my mother staring back

nor my father, nor Jordan and Derek are going to stop me from getting

my mother’s eyes as she

whispers,

help.I can get you some help.You just have to

not sick and I don’t want your help!" I snarl,

can’t be Alpha like this, Christian.You'll hurt

washes over me and I turn to look at my

I’m sick?" I ask in a small voice, my