The Silent Alpha

 ***Natalia*** 

We walk down the road in silence, several wolves paying respect to their Queen with a bow as they walk past us.

"Why do they bow to you?" I blurt out, wishing the earth would swallow me after the words leave my lips.

"Sorry, ignore me," I mutter, avoiding her gaze.

"It’s okay," she says.

"lam an Ivory Wolf, a special type of wolf that only exists every 150 years when a Silver and Gold Wolf are mated.You can think of me as a guardian for the werewolf race, gifted with many abilities to protect all of the children of the moon.Wolves sense my power and pay respect to me by bowing." I store this information although I did not fully understand what a gold wolf or silver wolf is.

Aurora chuckles to herself and I raise an eyebrow at her.Did she think I was stupid for asking such a question?

 "Not at all," she chuckles as we arrive at a beautiful garden, brimming with gorgeous flowers, trees full of fruit and water fountains carved from stone.

"I just think it’s funny that you don’t seem to know a lot about werewolves and yet you hate us all."

"I never said I hated werewolves," I retort defensively.

"No, but you thought it," she shrugs, making her way to a small “Many times, I might add."

"How could you know tha-"

"I read your mind," she sighs, swinging her short legs as she takes a deep breath.

"It’s one of my gifts.I’ve heard every thought you've had ever since you set foot in my office last night and while we had breakfast this morning.I’ve also seen all your memories, including those of your former pack."

My cheeks burn knowing I had thought many vile things last night about wolves, but it was not something I planned to apologize for.I did not ask to be brought here to live among wolves.I just wanted to live my life with my baby.

Why couldn’t anyone understand that? "I’m not asking you for an apology,"

Aurora sighs.

"In fact, I understand your fears and concerns.Trust me, I know exactly what pain you’re feeling-"

"You know what I’m feeling?" I scoff, crossing my arms over my chest.

"You don’t know a thing about me! I trusted your kind.I trusted my mate.I trusted my pack and they all turned their backs on me when I needed them the most.They shattered everything within me and the only reason I am still standing here today is because of my little boy.He is the only reason I get up every morning, working two jobs so I can give him everything he deserves! I’ve given him everything.Me! I did that! Not my mate! Not some pack! Not any wolf! Me!"

I scream, wiping the tears that had spilled onto my cheeks pain! You don’t know anything about me! You get to sit here and be happy with your mate.

You didn’t have to fight tooth and nail to prove your worth to your people! You didn’t have people waiting for you to fail, expecting you to crumble under all the pressure of being a human Luna.You weren’t rejected by your mate and made to feel like you were worthless!

My entire body trembles with rage.I want to kick myself from crying in front of a wolf and showing her just how truly broken I was.

The little Queen sits quietly in her seat, closing her eyes and inhaling the fresh summer air.

For a long time, she says nothing and I contemplate just leaving and taking Kota far away from here before she finally heaves a heavy sigh.

"I was almost 13," she whispers, her eyes still closed.

"I was almost 13 when I was accused of murdering my father." I stare blankly at her, not sure what to do with that information.

"The beatings started almost immediately when they found me with his body," she murmurs, fidgeting with her fingers in her lap.

"I never even had a chance to explain what happened. They all just turned on me..." Her voice trembles as she continues.

"My adoptive siblings, Mia and Salvador..." she pauses for a moment to catch her breath.

"T-they turned on me too...and for five years they...they beat me, tortured me in my sleep...shattered every space just trying to make it through the day."

When she finally looks up at me, there are tears in her eyes.

"My own mate didn’t even want me when we first met...Oliver, he...he rejected me." An uncomfortable smile curls on her lips.

"He didn’t want a murder for a Luna."

she could have forgiven

day in and day out until my bones hurt.I was not handed my crown, I fought for it, struggling against my own inner demons, my doubts, my fears, everything that made me believe I was just a worthless mutt to become what I am today," she says as she wipes

who is supposed to love you most.I know what it’s like to be betrayed and humiliated by your pack, by your family, by everyone you’ve ever loved.I

shouts back, the ground

get your fears about pack life,"

of us...both human and wolf.I would not be where I am today were it not for

Rosalie taught me strength.

to love myself and my body after years of hating everything

Gwen taught

me

all my flaws.He’s patient and gentle with me even when I can’t stand myself.He’s there when

Packs aren’t all bad.

you truly belong.I left Lluvia Blanca and found my

aren’t exclusive

every relationship

and found a new pack, one made up

loyal companion and Kota, your most precious gift, Nikki and Micah, your friends who have supported you always, and Mrs.Henry who stays open later to help out a

feet, taking a few steps towards

flinch and try to step away, not wanting to accept

go of your hatred for us overnight.Like I said, I understand your fear very well," she says as she gently rests her hands

not

the words

 "You remind me of me when I first arrived at River Moon," she

show

respond, she flicks her wrist, a portal opening before

I stand, I can make out a lake

hand but I flinch away as I keep my eyes

soothes, her kind eyes meeting mine with

her to lead me through the portal and

around and taking in the

new area looks like a construction site, hundreds of wolves carrying equipment and building materials

also a large group of women gathered by

looks of it, they are in the middle of a

formerly known as Amethyst Lake, a pack from hell," Aurora answers, leading me towards

and imprisoned the women of his pack, using them all as s*x slaves.Last year, my allies and I were able to liberate all of the women, their kids and some of "And

now,"

won't ever hurt anyone again. Take that as you

a sanctuary for those who

the hardest: getting them to accept my

been a rough

and destroyed until all that was left was a shell

children with

how to

of course, all of them still have

thanks to

the group of women working on their breathing exercises with eyes

cruel Alphas..." Aurora

others.Some of us just want to help.I did not need to take on

girls needed me.How could I turn my back on their suffering just because they belonged to another

settle in the pit of my stomach for misjudging the powerful

taking on this

have all been supportive with this train these women.The

trainers here so that my girls can learn to defend themselves and their pups.Luvia Blanca has given me access to their construction company to build a women's health

that turned on you?" I ask,

nods, looking off

no better than them.So, I made them my allies and we work closely now to ensure the safety of the Kingdom.I won't lie, sometimes it's hard...but

for I know if I were

it's weak to forgive, but I find the strongest people are the ones who hold no hatred in their heart,"

we watch the

open their eyes and catch a glimpse of the "Your majesty," a girl cries