The Silent Alpha

 ***Natalia*** 

We walk down the road in silence, several wolves paying respect to their Queen with a bow as they walk past us.

"Why do they bow to you?" I blurt out, wishing the earth would swallow me after the words leave my lips.

"Sorry, ignore me," I mutter, avoiding her gaze.

"It’s okay," she says.

"lam an Ivory Wolf, a special type of wolf that only exists every 150 years when a Silver and Gold Wolf are mated.You can think of me as a guardian for the werewolf race, gifted with many abilities to protect all of the children of the moon.Wolves sense my power and pay respect to me by bowing." I store this information although I did not fully understand what a gold wolf or silver wolf is.

Aurora chuckles to herself and I raise an eyebrow at her.Did she think I was stupid for asking such a question?

 "Not at all," she chuckles as we arrive at a beautiful garden, brimming with gorgeous flowers, trees full of fruit and water fountains carved from stone.

"I just think it’s funny that you don’t seem to know a lot about werewolves and yet you hate us all."

"I never said I hated werewolves," I retort defensively.

"No, but you thought it," she shrugs, making her way to a small “Many times, I might add."

"How could you know tha-"

"I read your mind," she sighs, swinging her short legs as she takes a deep breath.

"It’s one of my gifts.I’ve heard every thought you've had ever since you set foot in my office last night and while we had breakfast this morning.I’ve also seen all your memories, including those of your former pack."

My cheeks burn knowing I had thought many vile things last night about wolves, but it was not something I planned to apologize for.I did not ask to be brought here to live among wolves.I just wanted to live my life with my baby.

Why couldn’t anyone understand that? "I’m not asking you for an apology,"

Aurora sighs.

"In fact, I understand your fears and concerns.Trust me, I know exactly what pain you’re feeling-"

"You know what I’m feeling?" I scoff, crossing my arms over my chest.

"You don’t know a thing about me! I trusted your kind.I trusted my mate.I trusted my pack and they all turned their backs on me when I needed them the most.They shattered everything within me and the only reason I am still standing here today is because of my little boy.He is the only reason I get up every morning, working two jobs so I can give him everything he deserves! I’ve given him everything.Me! I did that! Not my mate! Not some pack! Not any wolf! Me!"

I scream, wiping the tears that had spilled onto my cheeks pain! You don’t know anything about me! You get to sit here and be happy with your mate.

You didn’t have to fight tooth and nail to prove your worth to your people! You didn’t have people waiting for you to fail, expecting you to crumble under all the pressure of being a human Luna.You weren’t rejected by your mate and made to feel like you were worthless!

My entire body trembles with rage.I want to kick myself from crying in front of a wolf and showing her just how truly broken I was.

The little Queen sits quietly in her seat, closing her eyes and inhaling the fresh summer air.

For a long time, she says nothing and I contemplate just leaving and taking Kota far away from here before she finally heaves a heavy sigh.

"I was almost 13," she whispers, her eyes still closed.

"I was almost 13 when I was accused of murdering my father." I stare blankly at her, not sure what to do with that information.

"The beatings started almost immediately when they found me with his body," she murmurs, fidgeting with her fingers in her lap.

"I never even had a chance to explain what happened. They all just turned on me..." Her voice trembles as she continues.

"My adoptive siblings, Mia and Salvador..." she pauses for a moment to catch her breath.

"T-they turned on me too...and for five years they...they beat me, tortured me in my sleep...shattered every space just trying to make it through the day."

When she finally looks up at me, there are tears in her eyes.

"My own mate didn’t even want me when we first met...Oliver, he...he rejected me." An uncomfortable smile curls on her lips.

"He didn’t want a murder for a Luna."

wondering how she could have forgiven him

forced to work day in and day out until my bones hurt.I was not handed my crown, I fought for it, struggling

to be rejected by the one person who is supposed to love you most.I know what it’s like to be betrayed and humiliated by your pack, by your family, by everyone you’ve ever loved.I know what it’s like to feel like you will never

back, the ground trembling

about pack life," she says softly after

human and wolf.I would not be where I am today were it not

Rosalie taught me strength.

love myself and my body

and Gwen taught me

in me long

He’s loved me unconditionally with all my flaws.He’s patient and gentle with me even when I can’t stand myself.He’s there when I

Packs aren’t all bad.

have to leave one to find where you truly belong.I left Lluvia

aren’t exclusive

in every

a new pack, one made up

who stays open later to help out a young single mother struggling with her

slowly rises to her feet, taking a few

step away, not wanting to accept her

said, I understand your fear very well," she says as she

not all wolves

the words of another

me when I first arrived at River Moon," she sighs,

show you

respond, she flicks her wrist, a portal opening

out a lake and several

take my hand but I flinch

okay," she soothes, her kind eyes meeting mine with

her to lead me through the portal and find myself in

looking around and taking

hundreds of wolves carrying equipment and building materials for

of women

of it, they are in the middle of a

territory was formerly known as Amethyst Lake, a pack from hell," Aurora answers,

women of his pack, using them all as s*x slaves.Last year, my allies and I

Alpha now," Aurora says

ever hurt anyone again. Take that as

intend to transform this place of misery into a sanctuary for those who suffered

is the hardest: getting them to accept

a rough

and destroyed until all that was left was a shell of who

have children with their

how to read

all of them still

all thanks to a man who was

group of women working on their breathing exercises with eyes closed.They look like little angels nestled on the shores of the

cruel

all of us are out to hurt others.Some of us just want to help.I did not need to take on this burden.I have more than plenty of work handling River Moon and the kingdom, but these wolves..." her voice

back on their suffering just because they belonged

of my stomach

not just I who is taking on this

supportive with this train these

strong men to guard the territory and assigning female trainers here so that my girls can learn to defend themselves and their pups.Luvia Blanca has given me access to their construction company to build a women's health center equipped with a school, a clinic, and a daycare.They will soon start building new homes

turned on you?" I ask, wondering if I've gotten

nods, looking off

their time of need would make me no better than them.So, I made them my allies and we work closely now to ensure the safety of the Kingdom.I won't lie, sometimes it's hard...but

if I were ever in her shoes, I

it's weak to forgive, but I find the strongest people are the ones who hold no hatred in their

remain silent as we watch the women complete their

a girl cries with a beaming