The Silent Alpha

Chapter 20: First steps 

 ***Jane*** 

Agnes and I spend the morning with Kota, Rosalie, Rosalie’s baby Emile, and Evan, fighting our own anxiety from our lack of activity.

In all my life, I had never had a moment to rest, to just sit and watch a movie or play games without a care in the world.

Even if there was chance that I completed my chores, my mind and self-hatred would torture me relentlessly.

As a pup, my father put me through rigorous schooling and speech therapies to make me the best Alpha I could be.

Of course, I could never live up to his expectations.

He would make me stand before him once a week to recite the history of our pack or the laws that governed it and the kingdom.

If I faltered in my pronunciation, I would be struck with a whip.

There was never a day that I made it out of a recital without shedding blood.

My mother would weep sorrowfully, begging my father helplessly to have mercy.

She would sometimes be beaten herself for attempting to shield me.

It hurt my soul to fail her so miserably but no matter how hard I concentrated, my tongue would only grow stiffer, and my words would slur like a drunk.

After I was demoted to Omega status, I became a field hand, carrying weapons for the warriors in training or helping maintain the equipment in the hot sun or cold winters.

As I grew older, I learned many things to make myself useful such as plumbing, mechanics, painting and other basic maintenance jobs.

Agnes is no different.

With her hearing gone, she had to make herself useful to earn her meals.

No one wants an extra mouth to feed.

She was beaten relentlessly by other Omegas if she slipped up.

She learned to be quick in the kitchen, never resting for fear she would be cast out or killed by the Omegas.

So, as we sit comfortably on the couch watching Aladdin with Kota, Agnes and I find it hard to rest, wondering if at any moment, this pack’s kindness would run out.

Even Grayson could not find the words to soothe my racing thoughts.

Feeling myself about to break, I get up quietly and search for a pen and paper before approaching Rosalie with a note.

"Are you sure there is nothing we can do to be of service 2" Rosalie reads aloud before raising an eyebrow at me.

"Are you bored?" She asks nervously.

"W-we can go to the park if you like.Kota could stretch his legs and play with some other pups.Let me just get the stroller for Emile," she says as Evan gets up from his spot to find said stroller.I shake my head at her, writing out my response.

"We just don't want to be a burden."She stares at the note before smiling up at me.

"You are our guests, not a burden," She chuckles.

"Gwen asked for this favor and need," She smiles.

"Just relax and enjoy yourselves. Take this a small vacation while Gwen finishes up her work."

Just then we hear the door open, and Natalia appears on her own, a thoughtful look in her eyes.

"You're back!" Rosalie chirps.

"How was the walk? Did you see all of River Moon?" She asks with a cheerful smile.

Talia smiles sheepishly, her eyes staring at her hands.

"It was ...eye opening..." she replies quietly.

"Aurora just had an emergency to deal with."

There's a serious tone in her voice and Rosalie appears to understand the true meaning behind her words.

"Well, you've come just in time.I think Kota might enjoy some time at the park,"

She gestures to Kota watching the movie on the floor with Rio lying lazily next to him.

"Yeah, mommy!" Kota cries, scrambling to his feet.

"Can we go to the park?"

at Rosalie and I before giving her consent, Kota bouncing with

for Rosalie's pup, some blankets,

their purpose to us to keep the walk from being

a hawk whenever he runs ahead

arrive at the park, I help Evan set up a picnic for the girls, spreading out a blanket with snacks and pillows for them to sit

to the playground, several pups gathering around him and

a game of sorts where they run after each other and freeze in

eyes remain vigilant, and I wish with all my heart that I could help comfort in some way, but I know

She is already frightened.

need to scare her

the park, picking flowers, thin sticks, and long

and begins weaving them into crowns, her nimble fingers delicately folding the flower stems

watches with awe over her shoulder, praising

presents the crown to Rosalie, placing

Rosalie asks with a smile as she puts her now sleeping pup away in his

you," she says, remembering the ‘thank you’ sign

weaves yet another flower crown

gesture, having been so focused on her pup and not noticing Agnes getting

Agnes "Sorry,"

a trembling hand, stepping

a few moments before taking

scared me, is all," Talia

smiles nervously and apologizes once again for

a question I had

placing her chin in her hand and looking at

shifts uncomfortably on

lovely pup..." she says with a forced smile, adjusting

"How old is he?"

line, as if holding her tongue, before turning

four months old… almost

smiles proudly before her

had a hard time talking to us about

just FYI, you are safe here so

would have hurt you already if we

Kota play with the

the time being.We remain at the park for lunch and a few hours thereafter until Kota and Rio tire themselves out and

a smile, but I can see the hurt in her

go to his mother, Talia shakes her head at me to stop and walks on ahead of us to the guest house can feel a small pain in my heart as we make the small trek

Maybe hold her hand...

Grayson suggests.

pace until I walk alongside her, Kota mumbling with sleepiness

I have, I touch her hand, Talia

heart nearly stops as I mentally prepare for her to snap at

she suddenly takes

up my arm, but I can still feel her hand

escapes her

a

holding her hand as

few stray tears that rolled down her

hardens her face and holds her head

She whispers, avoiding

room," She

her to let me wash him in her place.Talia

it?" She

pain in my heart returns as she looks at me with glossy brown

he is truly unaware of how much his simple request is hurting her.I

stay in there too

be firm and have him help you clean up if he makes a mess.He needs to learn that there are consequences to

leaving me alone with the cheeky

climbs into the bubble filled tub, grabbing a handful of bubbles and

that he can enjoy the bubbles

to splash me many times, but I grab his two

m-no-more, Kota," I

the plug in the tub, the water slowly draining down the hole much to Kota’s dismay glance

I dress the little boy in a pair of blue

is s-sad," I whisper to him,

his blue and brown

mommy sad?" He asks, a patient

s-she miss-misses home," I

"Oh," he sighs.

like it here." I hide my smile and finish

i-it t-t-too," I

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