The Silent Alpha

Chapter 20: First steps 

 ***Jane*** 

Agnes and I spend the morning with Kota, Rosalie, Rosalie’s baby Emile, and Evan, fighting our own anxiety from our lack of activity.

In all my life, I had never had a moment to rest, to just sit and watch a movie or play games without a care in the world.

Even if there was chance that I completed my chores, my mind and self-hatred would torture me relentlessly.

As a pup, my father put me through rigorous schooling and speech therapies to make me the best Alpha I could be.

Of course, I could never live up to his expectations.

He would make me stand before him once a week to recite the history of our pack or the laws that governed it and the kingdom.

If I faltered in my pronunciation, I would be struck with a whip.

There was never a day that I made it out of a recital without shedding blood.

My mother would weep sorrowfully, begging my father helplessly to have mercy.

She would sometimes be beaten herself for attempting to shield me.

It hurt my soul to fail her so miserably but no matter how hard I concentrated, my tongue would only grow stiffer, and my words would slur like a drunk.

After I was demoted to Omega status, I became a field hand, carrying weapons for the warriors in training or helping maintain the equipment in the hot sun or cold winters.

As I grew older, I learned many things to make myself useful such as plumbing, mechanics, painting and other basic maintenance jobs.

Agnes is no different.

With her hearing gone, she had to make herself useful to earn her meals.

No one wants an extra mouth to feed.

She was beaten relentlessly by other Omegas if she slipped up.

She learned to be quick in the kitchen, never resting for fear she would be cast out or killed by the Omegas.

So, as we sit comfortably on the couch watching Aladdin with Kota, Agnes and I find it hard to rest, wondering if at any moment, this pack’s kindness would run out.

Even Grayson could not find the words to soothe my racing thoughts.

Feeling myself about to break, I get up quietly and search for a pen and paper before approaching Rosalie with a note.

"Are you sure there is nothing we can do to be of service 2" Rosalie reads aloud before raising an eyebrow at me.

"Are you bored?" She asks nervously.

"W-we can go to the park if you like.Kota could stretch his legs and play with some other pups.Let me just get the stroller for Emile," she says as Evan gets up from his spot to find said stroller.I shake my head at her, writing out my response.

"We just don't want to be a burden."She stares at the note before smiling up at me.

"You are our guests, not a burden," She chuckles.

"Gwen asked for this favor and need," She smiles.

"Just relax and enjoy yourselves. Take this a small vacation while Gwen finishes up her work."

Just then we hear the door open, and Natalia appears on her own, a thoughtful look in her eyes.

"You're back!" Rosalie chirps.

"How was the walk? Did you see all of River Moon?" She asks with a cheerful smile.

Talia smiles sheepishly, her eyes staring at her hands.

"It was ...eye opening..." she replies quietly.

"Aurora just had an emergency to deal with."

There's a serious tone in her voice and Rosalie appears to understand the true meaning behind her words.

"Well, you've come just in time.I think Kota might enjoy some time at the park,"

She gestures to Kota watching the movie on the floor with Rio lying lazily next to him.

"Yeah, mommy!" Kota cries, scrambling to his feet.

"Can we go to the park?"

giving her consent, Kota bouncing with excitement while Rio jumps at his

for Rosalie's pup,

and explaining their purpose to us to keep the walk

stays close to me, watching Kota like a hawk whenever he runs ahead of us with Rio reassure her that

at the park, I help Evan set up a picnic for the girls, spreading out a blanket with snacks and pillows for them to sit

with Rio through the open field to the playground, several pups

game of sorts where they

I wish with all my heart that I could help comfort in some way, but I know better

She is already frightened.

to

walks around the perimeter of the park, picking flowers, thin sticks, and long

them into crowns, her nimble fingers delicately folding the flower

watches with awe over her shoulder, praising her incredible

then presents the crown to Rosalie,

for me?" Rosalie asks with a smile as she puts her now sleeping pup

she says, remembering the

crown and places it on

at the gesture, having been so

Agnes "Sorry,"

with a

blinks at her for a few moments before taking the

you just scared me, is all," Talia

smiles nervously and apologizes once again for scaring

intrigue before asking a question I

asks bluntly, placing her chin in her hand and looking at

uncomfortably on her pillow

with a forced smile,

"How old is he?"

tight line, as if holding

four months old… almost

proudly before her

had a hard time talking to us about

want to tell us.But just FYI, you are safe here so you can

have hurt you already

watches Kota

decides to keep them to herself for the time being.We remain at the park for lunch and a few hours thereafter until Kota and Rio tire themselves out and lifting his arms up for me to

but I can see the hurt in her eyes

head at me to stop and walks on ahead of us to the guest house can feel a small pain in my heart as we make the small trek in silence and try to think of something I could do to

Maybe hold her hand...

Grayson suggests.

I walk

up every drop of courage I have, I touch her hand, Talia flinching away at

her to snap at me but instead, she just stares at

my mouth to apologize when she suddenly takes my hand, interlocking

sparks tingle up my arm, but I

bites down on her lower lip as a small whimper escapes her

me for a little while

sorry," She explains, holding

not… f**k!" she groans, wiping a few stray

her face and

tired," She

Kota to the room," She instructs as she walks

house, Talia prepares a warm bath for Kota, but he begs her to let me wash him in her place.Talia looks like she might burst into tears after being rejected by her son for the second time today but

you do it?" She

heart returns as she looks at me with glossy

I know he is truly unaware of how much his simple request is hurting her.I accept and Talia hands

let him stay in there too long," she

you clean up if

alone with the cheeky pup grinning at me

eagerly undresses and climbs into the bubble filled tub, grabbing

him so that he can enjoy the bubbles before the

Talia forewarned, Kota tries to splash me many times, but I grab his two little hands and place them over his

m-no-more, Kota," I

draining down the

we are alone, I dress the little boy in a pair of blue

whisper to him, sliding his

his thumb, his blue and brown eyes blinking at

asks, a patient look

s-she miss-misses home,"

"Oh," he sighs.

here." I hide my

i-it t-t-too,"

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