The Silent Alpha

Chapter 20: First steps 

 ***Jane*** 

Agnes and I spend the morning with Kota, Rosalie, Rosalie’s baby Emile, and Evan, fighting our own anxiety from our lack of activity.

In all my life, I had never had a moment to rest, to just sit and watch a movie or play games without a care in the world.

Even if there was chance that I completed my chores, my mind and self-hatred would torture me relentlessly.

As a pup, my father put me through rigorous schooling and speech therapies to make me the best Alpha I could be.

Of course, I could never live up to his expectations.

He would make me stand before him once a week to recite the history of our pack or the laws that governed it and the kingdom.

If I faltered in my pronunciation, I would be struck with a whip.

There was never a day that I made it out of a recital without shedding blood.

My mother would weep sorrowfully, begging my father helplessly to have mercy.

She would sometimes be beaten herself for attempting to shield me.

It hurt my soul to fail her so miserably but no matter how hard I concentrated, my tongue would only grow stiffer, and my words would slur like a drunk.

After I was demoted to Omega status, I became a field hand, carrying weapons for the warriors in training or helping maintain the equipment in the hot sun or cold winters.

As I grew older, I learned many things to make myself useful such as plumbing, mechanics, painting and other basic maintenance jobs.

Agnes is no different.

With her hearing gone, she had to make herself useful to earn her meals.

No one wants an extra mouth to feed.

She was beaten relentlessly by other Omegas if she slipped up.

She learned to be quick in the kitchen, never resting for fear she would be cast out or killed by the Omegas.

So, as we sit comfortably on the couch watching Aladdin with Kota, Agnes and I find it hard to rest, wondering if at any moment, this pack’s kindness would run out.

Even Grayson could not find the words to soothe my racing thoughts.

Feeling myself about to break, I get up quietly and search for a pen and paper before approaching Rosalie with a note.

"Are you sure there is nothing we can do to be of service 2" Rosalie reads aloud before raising an eyebrow at me.

"Are you bored?" She asks nervously.

"W-we can go to the park if you like.Kota could stretch his legs and play with some other pups.Let me just get the stroller for Emile," she says as Evan gets up from his spot to find said stroller.I shake my head at her, writing out my response.

"We just don't want to be a burden."She stares at the note before smiling up at me.

"You are our guests, not a burden," She chuckles.

"Gwen asked for this favor and need," She smiles.

"Just relax and enjoy yourselves. Take this a small vacation while Gwen finishes up her work."

Just then we hear the door open, and Natalia appears on her own, a thoughtful look in her eyes.

"You're back!" Rosalie chirps.

"How was the walk? Did you see all of River Moon?" She asks with a cheerful smile.

Talia smiles sheepishly, her eyes staring at her hands.

"It was ...eye opening..." she replies quietly.

"Aurora just had an emergency to deal with."

There's a serious tone in her voice and Rosalie appears to understand the true meaning behind her words.

"Well, you've come just in time.I think Kota might enjoy some time at the park,"

She gestures to Kota watching the movie on the floor with Rio lying lazily next to him.

"Yeah, mommy!" Kota cries, scrambling to his feet.

"Can we go to the park?"

her consent, Kota bouncing

stroller for Rosalie's

explaining their purpose to

me, watching Kota like a hawk whenever he runs

arrive at the park, I help Evan set up a picnic for the girls, spreading out

through the open field to

of sorts where they run after

eyes remain vigilant, and I wish with all my heart that I could help comfort in some way,

She is already frightened.

need to

around the perimeter of the park, picking flowers, thin sticks,

a large pile of foliage and begins weaving them into crowns, her nimble fingers delicately folding the flower stems

with awe over her shoulder, praising her incredible weaving

to Rosalie, placing it on

me?" Rosalie asks with a smile as she puts her now

you," she says, remembering the ‘thank you’ sign

yet another flower crown and places it on Talia's

so focused on her pup and

Agnes "Sorry,"

with a

her for a few moments before taking the flower crown and squeezing Agnes'

all," Talia apologizes, turning

nervously and apologizes once again for

question I had been asking myself

asks bluntly, placing her chin

you attacked?" Talia shifts uncomfortably on her

have a lovely pup..." she says with a forced smile, adjusting her

"How old is he?"

in a tight line, as if holding

four months old… almost

before her face

had a hard time talking to us about her story,"

you are safe here so you can stop looking at us like we're going to eat you," she

would have hurt you already if

silent and watches Kota play

for the time being.We remain at the park for lunch and a few hours thereafter until Kota and Rio tire themselves out and lifting his arms up for me to

but I can see the hurt in her eyes at being pushed

and walks on ahead of us to the guest house can feel a

Maybe hold her hand...

Grayson suggests.

I walk alongside her, Kota mumbling with sleepiness in

have, I touch her

nearly stops as I mentally prepare for her to snap at me but

mouth to apologize when she suddenly takes my hand, interlocking our fingers in a firm

sparks tingle up my arm, but I can still feel

small whimper escapes

me for a little while longer before letting

  can't.I'm sorry," She explains, holding her hand as if it

few

her face and

She whispers,

room," She instructs as

to let me wash him in her place.Talia looks like she might burst into tears after being rejected by her son for the second time today but nonetheless, appeases

you do it?" She

as she looks at me with

mother's heart, but I know he is truly unaware of how much his simple request is hurting her.I

in there too

a cold.He likes to splash you so be firm and have him help you clean up if he makes a mess.He needs to learn that

down the hall, leaving me alone with the cheeky

climbs into the bubble filled tub, grabbing a handful of bubbles and

that he can enjoy the bubbles before the water turns

me many times, but I grab his two little

m-no-more, Kota,"

he can protest, I pull the plug in the tub, the water slowly draining down the hole

are alone, I dress the little boy in

t-think yo-your mommy is s-sad," I whisper to

thumb, his blue

is mommy sad?" He asks, a patient look in his

thi-thi-think s-she miss-misses home,"

"Oh," he sighs.

I like it here." I hide my smile and finish putting on his other

like i-it t-t-too,"

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