The Silent Alpha

Chapter 20: First steps 

 ***Jane*** 

Agnes and I spend the morning with Kota, Rosalie, Rosalie’s baby Emile, and Evan, fighting our own anxiety from our lack of activity.

In all my life, I had never had a moment to rest, to just sit and watch a movie or play games without a care in the world.

Even if there was chance that I completed my chores, my mind and self-hatred would torture me relentlessly.

As a pup, my father put me through rigorous schooling and speech therapies to make me the best Alpha I could be.

Of course, I could never live up to his expectations.

He would make me stand before him once a week to recite the history of our pack or the laws that governed it and the kingdom.

If I faltered in my pronunciation, I would be struck with a whip.

There was never a day that I made it out of a recital without shedding blood.

My mother would weep sorrowfully, begging my father helplessly to have mercy.

She would sometimes be beaten herself for attempting to shield me.

It hurt my soul to fail her so miserably but no matter how hard I concentrated, my tongue would only grow stiffer, and my words would slur like a drunk.

After I was demoted to Omega status, I became a field hand, carrying weapons for the warriors in training or helping maintain the equipment in the hot sun or cold winters.

As I grew older, I learned many things to make myself useful such as plumbing, mechanics, painting and other basic maintenance jobs.

Agnes is no different.

With her hearing gone, she had to make herself useful to earn her meals.

No one wants an extra mouth to feed.

She was beaten relentlessly by other Omegas if she slipped up.

She learned to be quick in the kitchen, never resting for fear she would be cast out or killed by the Omegas.

So, as we sit comfortably on the couch watching Aladdin with Kota, Agnes and I find it hard to rest, wondering if at any moment, this pack’s kindness would run out.

Even Grayson could not find the words to soothe my racing thoughts.

Feeling myself about to break, I get up quietly and search for a pen and paper before approaching Rosalie with a note.

"Are you sure there is nothing we can do to be of service 2" Rosalie reads aloud before raising an eyebrow at me.

"Are you bored?" She asks nervously.

"W-we can go to the park if you like.Kota could stretch his legs and play with some other pups.Let me just get the stroller for Emile," she says as Evan gets up from his spot to find said stroller.I shake my head at her, writing out my response.

"We just don't want to be a burden."She stares at the note before smiling up at me.

"You are our guests, not a burden," She chuckles.

"Gwen asked for this favor and need," She smiles.

"Just relax and enjoy yourselves. Take this a small vacation while Gwen finishes up her work."

Just then we hear the door open, and Natalia appears on her own, a thoughtful look in her eyes.

"You're back!" Rosalie chirps.

"How was the walk? Did you see all of River Moon?" She asks with a cheerful smile.

Talia smiles sheepishly, her eyes staring at her hands.

"It was ...eye opening..." she replies quietly.

"Aurora just had an emergency to deal with."

There's a serious tone in her voice and Rosalie appears to understand the true meaning behind her words.

"Well, you've come just in time.I think Kota might enjoy some time at the park,"

She gestures to Kota watching the movie on the floor with Rio lying lazily next to him.

"Yeah, mommy!" Kota cries, scrambling to his feet.

"Can we go to the park?"

I before giving her consent, Kota bouncing with

the stroller for Rosalie's pup, some blankets, and

out different buildings and explaining their purpose to us to keep

to me, watching Kota like a hawk whenever he runs ahead of us with Rio reassure her

for the girls, spreading out a blanket with snacks and pillows for

Rio through the open field to the playground, several pups

ease, and they begin a game of sorts where they run after

remain vigilant, and I wish with all my heart that I could help comfort

She is already frightened.

do not need to scare her

of the park, picking flowers, thin

her nimble fingers delicately folding the flower stems and blades of

with awe over her shoulder, praising

the crown to Rosalie, placing it on

this for me?" Rosalie asks with a smile as she puts her now sleeping pup

says, remembering the ‘thank you’ sign from this

another flower crown and places it on Talia's

fright at the gesture, having been so focused on her pup and not noticing

Agnes "Sorry,"

with a trembling hand,

at her for a few moments before taking the flower

is all," Talia apologizes,

apologizes once

with intrigue before asking a question I had been asking myself since

werewolves?" She asks bluntly, placing her

you attacked?" Talia shifts uncomfortably on her pillow and shakes

pup..." she says with a forced smile, adjusting her

"How old is he?"

in a tight line, as if holding her tongue, before turning to

four months old… almost

before her face

hard time talking to us about her story," she says with

here so you can stop looking at us like we're going

you already if

and watches Kota play with the other

the park for lunch and a few hours

I can see the hurt

urge Kota to go to his mother, Talia shakes her head at me to stop and walks on ahead of us to the guest house can feel a small pain in my heart as we make the small trek in silence and try to think of something I could

Maybe hold her hand...

Grayson suggests.

my pace until I walk alongside her, Kota mumbling with sleepiness in my

her hand,

her to snap

open my mouth to apologize when she suddenly takes

but I can still

as a small whimper escapes her throat and she squeezes my

me for a little while

explains, holding her hand as if it were

few stray tears that

hardens her face and holds

tired," She whispers, avoiding

room," She instructs as she

prepares a warm bath for Kota, but he begs her to let me wash him in her place.Talia looks like she might burst into tears after being rejected by her son for

it?" She asks, her voice

little pain in my heart returns as she

little boy for breaking his mother's heart, but I know he is truly unaware of how much his simple request is hurting her.I

let him stay in there too long," she says

help you clean up if he makes a mess.He

disappears down the hall, leaving me alone with the

climbs into the bubble filled tub, grabbing a handful

that he can enjoy the bubbles before

forewarned, Kota tries to splash me many times, but I grab his two little hands and place them

Kota," I

the water slowly draining down the hole much to Kota’s dismay

we are alone, I dress the little boy in a

t-think yo-your mommy is s-sad," I whisper to him, sliding his socks over

sucks on his thumb, his blue

asks, a patient look in

s-she miss-misses

"Oh," he sighs.

I like it here." I hide my smile and finish putting

i-it

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