The Silent Alpha

Chapter 20: First steps 

 ***Jane*** 

Agnes and I spend the morning with Kota, Rosalie, Rosalie’s baby Emile, and Evan, fighting our own anxiety from our lack of activity.

In all my life, I had never had a moment to rest, to just sit and watch a movie or play games without a care in the world.

Even if there was chance that I completed my chores, my mind and self-hatred would torture me relentlessly.

As a pup, my father put me through rigorous schooling and speech therapies to make me the best Alpha I could be.

Of course, I could never live up to his expectations.

He would make me stand before him once a week to recite the history of our pack or the laws that governed it and the kingdom.

If I faltered in my pronunciation, I would be struck with a whip.

There was never a day that I made it out of a recital without shedding blood.

My mother would weep sorrowfully, begging my father helplessly to have mercy.

She would sometimes be beaten herself for attempting to shield me.

It hurt my soul to fail her so miserably but no matter how hard I concentrated, my tongue would only grow stiffer, and my words would slur like a drunk.

After I was demoted to Omega status, I became a field hand, carrying weapons for the warriors in training or helping maintain the equipment in the hot sun or cold winters.

As I grew older, I learned many things to make myself useful such as plumbing, mechanics, painting and other basic maintenance jobs.

Agnes is no different.

With her hearing gone, she had to make herself useful to earn her meals.

No one wants an extra mouth to feed.

She was beaten relentlessly by other Omegas if she slipped up.

She learned to be quick in the kitchen, never resting for fear she would be cast out or killed by the Omegas.

So, as we sit comfortably on the couch watching Aladdin with Kota, Agnes and I find it hard to rest, wondering if at any moment, this pack’s kindness would run out.

Even Grayson could not find the words to soothe my racing thoughts.

Feeling myself about to break, I get up quietly and search for a pen and paper before approaching Rosalie with a note.

"Are you sure there is nothing we can do to be of service 2" Rosalie reads aloud before raising an eyebrow at me.

"Are you bored?" She asks nervously.

"W-we can go to the park if you like.Kota could stretch his legs and play with some other pups.Let me just get the stroller for Emile," she says as Evan gets up from his spot to find said stroller.I shake my head at her, writing out my response.

"We just don't want to be a burden."She stares at the note before smiling up at me.

"You are our guests, not a burden," She chuckles.

"Gwen asked for this favor and need," She smiles.

"Just relax and enjoy yourselves. Take this a small vacation while Gwen finishes up her work."

Just then we hear the door open, and Natalia appears on her own, a thoughtful look in her eyes.

"You're back!" Rosalie chirps.

"How was the walk? Did you see all of River Moon?" She asks with a cheerful smile.

Talia smiles sheepishly, her eyes staring at her hands.

"It was ...eye opening..." she replies quietly.

"Aurora just had an emergency to deal with."

There's a serious tone in her voice and Rosalie appears to understand the true meaning behind her words.

"Well, you've come just in time.I think Kota might enjoy some time at the park,"

She gestures to Kota watching the movie on the floor with Rio lying lazily next to him.

"Yeah, mommy!" Kota cries, scrambling to his feet.

"Can we go to the park?"

consent, Kota bouncing with excitement while

the stroller for Rosalie's

explaining their purpose

runs ahead of us

Evan set up a picnic for the girls, spreading out a blanket with snacks and

open field to

sorts where they run after each other and freeze in place

wish with all my heart that I could help comfort in some way, but

She is already frightened.

need to scare her any

the perimeter of the park, picking flowers, thin sticks, and long blades

a large pile of foliage and begins weaving them into crowns, her nimble fingers delicately folding

awe over her shoulder,

the crown to Rosalie, placing it on

this for me?" Rosalie asks with a smile as she puts her now

remembering the

weaves yet another flower crown and places

at the gesture, having been so focused on her

Agnes "Sorry,"

a trembling

a few moments before

just scared me, is all," Talia apologizes, turning

nervously and apologizes once

question I had been asking myself since I first met my

placing her chin in her hand and looking at

uncomfortably on her pillow and

pup..." she says with

"How old is he?"

a tight line, as if

four months old…

smiles proudly before her face

to us about her story," she says with

are safe here so you can stop looking at

would have hurt you already

Kota play with

questions but decides to keep them to herself for the time being.We remain at the park for lunch and a

a smile, but I can see the hurt in her eyes at being

the guest house can feel a small pain in my heart as we make the small trek in silence and try to

Maybe hold her hand...

Grayson suggests.

until I walk alongside her, Kota

have, I touch her hand, Talia flinching away at the sensation of the

for her to snap at me but instead, she just stares at

mouth to apologize when she suddenly takes my hand, interlocking our

tingle up my arm, but I can still feel

bites down on her lower lip as a small whimper escapes her throat and she squeezes my hand with all her

for a little while longer before letting

explains, holding her hand as if

wiping a few stray tears that

face and holds her head

tired," She whispers, avoiding

room," She instructs

house, Talia prepares a warm bath for Kota, but he begs her to let me wash him in her place.Talia looks like she might burst into tears after being rejected

it?" She asks, her voice

as she looks at me with glossy

scold the little boy for breaking his mother's heart, but I know he is truly unaware of how much

him stay in there too long," she says

have him help you clean up if he makes a mess.He needs to learn

the hall, leaving me alone with

eagerly undresses and climbs into the bubble filled tub, grabbing a handful of bubbles and throwing

that he can

me many times, but I grab his two little hands and place them

m-no-more, Kota," I say

can protest, I pull the plug in the tub, the water slowly draining down the hole

are alone, I dress the little boy in a pair

whisper to him, sliding his socks

thumb, his blue and brown eyes blinking

sad?" He asks, a patient

thi-thi-think s-she miss-misses home," I

"Oh," he sighs.

I hide my

like i-it t-t-too," I

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