The Silent Alpha

Chapter 20: First steps 

 ***Jane*** 

Agnes and I spend the morning with Kota, Rosalie, Rosalie’s baby Emile, and Evan, fighting our own anxiety from our lack of activity.

In all my life, I had never had a moment to rest, to just sit and watch a movie or play games without a care in the world.

Even if there was chance that I completed my chores, my mind and self-hatred would torture me relentlessly.

As a pup, my father put me through rigorous schooling and speech therapies to make me the best Alpha I could be.

Of course, I could never live up to his expectations.

He would make me stand before him once a week to recite the history of our pack or the laws that governed it and the kingdom.

If I faltered in my pronunciation, I would be struck with a whip.

There was never a day that I made it out of a recital without shedding blood.

My mother would weep sorrowfully, begging my father helplessly to have mercy.

She would sometimes be beaten herself for attempting to shield me.

It hurt my soul to fail her so miserably but no matter how hard I concentrated, my tongue would only grow stiffer, and my words would slur like a drunk.

After I was demoted to Omega status, I became a field hand, carrying weapons for the warriors in training or helping maintain the equipment in the hot sun or cold winters.

As I grew older, I learned many things to make myself useful such as plumbing, mechanics, painting and other basic maintenance jobs.

Agnes is no different.

With her hearing gone, she had to make herself useful to earn her meals.

No one wants an extra mouth to feed.

She was beaten relentlessly by other Omegas if she slipped up.

She learned to be quick in the kitchen, never resting for fear she would be cast out or killed by the Omegas.

So, as we sit comfortably on the couch watching Aladdin with Kota, Agnes and I find it hard to rest, wondering if at any moment, this pack’s kindness would run out.

Even Grayson could not find the words to soothe my racing thoughts.

Feeling myself about to break, I get up quietly and search for a pen and paper before approaching Rosalie with a note.

"Are you sure there is nothing we can do to be of service 2" Rosalie reads aloud before raising an eyebrow at me.

"Are you bored?" She asks nervously.

"W-we can go to the park if you like.Kota could stretch his legs and play with some other pups.Let me just get the stroller for Emile," she says as Evan gets up from his spot to find said stroller.I shake my head at her, writing out my response.

"We just don't want to be a burden."She stares at the note before smiling up at me.

"You are our guests, not a burden," She chuckles.

"Gwen asked for this favor and need," She smiles.

"Just relax and enjoy yourselves. Take this a small vacation while Gwen finishes up her work."

Just then we hear the door open, and Natalia appears on her own, a thoughtful look in her eyes.

"You're back!" Rosalie chirps.

"How was the walk? Did you see all of River Moon?" She asks with a cheerful smile.

Talia smiles sheepishly, her eyes staring at her hands.

"It was ...eye opening..." she replies quietly.

"Aurora just had an emergency to deal with."

There's a serious tone in her voice and Rosalie appears to understand the true meaning behind her words.

"Well, you've come just in time.I think Kota might enjoy some time at the park,"

She gestures to Kota watching the movie on the floor with Rio lying lazily next to him.

"Yeah, mommy!" Kota cries, scrambling to his feet.

"Can we go to the park?"

anxiously at Rosalie and I before giving her consent,

returns with the stroller for Rosalie's pup, some blankets, and Rio’s

explaining their purpose to us to keep the

me, watching Kota like a hawk whenever he runs ahead of us with Rio reassure her that

we finally arrive at the park, I help Evan set up a picnic for the girls, spreading out a blanket with snacks and pillows

field to

begin a game of sorts where

eyes remain vigilant, and I wish with all my heart that I could

She is already frightened.

need to scare

walks around the perimeter of the park, picking

her nimble fingers delicately

awe over her shoulder, praising her

presents the crown to Rosalie,

as she puts her now sleeping pup away in his

says, remembering the

crown and places

gesture, having been so focused on

Agnes "Sorry,"

signs with a

blinks at her for a few moments before taking the

scared me, is all," Talia apologizes,

smiles nervously and apologizes once again for scaring

before asking a question I had been asking

She asks bluntly, placing her chin in her hand and

on

she says with

"How old is he?"

as if holding her tongue, before turning to

four months old… almost

proudly before her face

a hard time talking to us about

safe here so you can stop looking at us like we're going to eat you," she says with a light

you already

silent and watches Kota play with the

remain at the park for lunch and a few hours thereafter until Kota and

forces a smile, but I can see the hurt in her eyes at

me to stop and walks on ahead of us to the guest house can feel a small pain in my heart as

Maybe hold her hand...

Grayson suggests.

walk alongside her, Kota mumbling

I have, I touch her hand,

for her to snap

apologize when she suddenly takes my

sparks tingle up my arm, but I can still feel her hand

whimper escapes her throat and

onto me for a little while longer before

  can't.I'm sorry," She explains, holding her hand as if it

a few stray tears that rolled down

her face and holds her

tired," She whispers, avoiding my

to the room," She instructs as

a warm bath for Kota, but he begs her to let me wash him in her place.Talia looks like she might burst into tears after being rejected by

She asks, her

my heart returns as

truly unaware of how much his simple request is

in there too long,"

you clean up if he makes a mess.He needs to learn that there are consequences to his

disappears down the hall, leaving me alone with the

grabbing a handful of bubbles and throwing them up in the

he can

forewarned, Kota tries to splash me many times, but I

m-no-more, Kota," I say

in the tub, the water slowly draining down the hole much to Kota’s dismay

that we are alone, I dress the little boy in a

is s-sad," I whisper to him, sliding

his thumb, his blue and brown eyes blinking

mommy sad?" He asks, a patient

s-she miss-misses

"Oh," he sighs.

hide my smile and finish putting on his other

like i-it t-t-too," I

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