The Silent Alpha

"Agnes** * 

My little butterfly flutters around the room, its iridescent wings catching the light that filters in through the window.

On the floor, Kota watches a Disney film with Rio by his side, large headphones blocking out the rest of the world to him.

Rosalie types away at her desk, looking over hundreds of spreadsheets and developing promotional content for her pack's company.She is the Head Social Media coordinator in charge of the company's social media presence.

As she works, she instructs me to give her pup, Emile, a bath and put him to sleep.I execute the task with great care, preparing a warm bath with little bubbles.

Emile seems to enjoy the bath, his eyes widening as I pour a little water over his hair and his legs kicking frantically with excitement.

He likes the water...my wolf, Cynthia smiles.

Just like Archie.

An overwhelming sadness fills my heart as I look down at the small happy pup in my arms, seeing in him the little boy I had lost long before I became Zane's mother.

He's with his father now, Cynthia tries to comfort me but it's no use.

There would forever be a small hole in my heart...all because of My life as a Ravenstone wolf was by no means perfect.

Being deaf, I was always pushed around and made fun of for being unable to talk or hear.

While my parents never said it, I knew they were ashamed to have a deaf daughter and Alpha Tristan (Alpha Toran's father and former Alpha of Ravenstone) would not have hesitated to get rid of me were it not for the fact that my father was the gamma’s younger brother.I learned early on that it was best to stay out of the Alpha’s way and be invisible.

But Damon saw me, and he never stopped seeing me.

Growing up, none of the other pups understood me nor did they bother to try.I was too strange because I talked with my hands and made weird sounds whenever I tried to speak.

But as Moon Goddess would have it, I met my mate in a sandbox of all places.

He wanted to know why I played with the sand all by myself and never joined In on the games with the other pups.He wanted to know why I used my hands instead of my words.

When Damon realized I could not hear, he brought me a notebook and wrote down all of his favorite things to do in it so that we could do them together.

Hide and seek, tag, and mancala were among our favorite games to play together.

I taught him how to sign and he taught me how to hear with my eyes and feet.

His father was learned to stay vigilant, like relying more on my nose and my sense of touch.

I was devastated the day of my first shift when I realized my wolf was as deaf as I was.I had held onto the hope that I could hear in her form, but Moon Goddess did not grant me that gift.

"You are not useless,"Damon told me as I shifted back into my human form and burst into tears.

"You are just different."

Those simple words helped soothe my broken heart and I learned to accept myself as I was.

The day of Damon’s 18th birthday will forever be one of the greatest days of my life.

He did not hesitate to claim me as his mate, marking me that very same day.

I was only 16 but my parents were overjoyed that I would not spend the rest of my life in loneliness as they had expected me to.

With Alpha Toran's permission, I was allowed to move in with Damon as his wife despite not being a matured wolf yet.

Neither Damon nor I were ready to start a family, so we focused on building our home and becoming contributing members of the pack.

I finished school and worked at the pack library as

overjoyed to be a

every corner of our pup's room and child proofing virtually every room

I was nervous

he is

"Then we

replied as he wiped

he will know love

fears with his kisses and his

was the most beautiful

thick long lashes

I felt when I held him in my arms for the

like bells or the sound of his

doting father, spending every second he

to

"I've got Archie."

our small family was not rich and we could barely make

loved me and I loved

had a healthy pup and a house to call our own.We

that fateful day

that all came crashing down the day Alpha Toran discovered

would mark the beginning of a vicious and bloody

see Scarlet Haven burn

send a message to young new Alpha, killing both his first-born son, Jonathan and then later his

an unthinkable act, but Alpha Sebastian would go on to commit an even greater war

forced

would be the last time I would ever

delivered to the daycare and at

to my horror, I saw the collapsed daycare center In the

survivors, all 26 pups and their accompanying

war intensified, Damon volunteering to be a soldier in the name

the war just one month after losing my pup.I was devoid of all feelings, my heart shriveling up to the size of a shrimp.I could no longer find

called me to his office, I was more than ready to be cast out as a rogue.I craved It for I

son still lives," he wrote to me as I

for your son and mate?" I sat there staring at the question on the sheet of paper, understanding the individual words but struggling to

Sebastian's secret heir, not even during the

the pack house which he has

understand," I replied, my trembling hands struggling to hold the pen to

possibly be of any service and get revenge?" The Alpha smiled wickedly at me, twirling a strand

virtually useless to any pack," he wrote, his sinister smile never I stared at his bitter

want you to become a rogue stumbling through

to find the

"Or..." the Alpha continued.

for you, all things considered," he

lack of eating and my once bright eyes were

a child.I could not do the same to another man, not even to

by my lack of interest in

I'm not giving you an option,"

have room for a worthless mutt like you in a time of war. You will be a rogue whether you accept my proposal or not," he

of having destroyed the man who took not only your pup, but the only man dumb enough to accept you

my dear Agnes," he adds on a

the woods, raped and killed by other rogues...or will you die a hero and end this war so that no other Ravenstone wolf ever has to fear for their