The Silent Alpha

"Agnes** * 

My little butterfly flutters around the room, its iridescent wings catching the light that filters in through the window.

On the floor, Kota watches a Disney film with Rio by his side, large headphones blocking out the rest of the world to him.

Rosalie types away at her desk, looking over hundreds of spreadsheets and developing promotional content for her pack's company.She is the Head Social Media coordinator in charge of the company's social media presence.

As she works, she instructs me to give her pup, Emile, a bath and put him to sleep.I execute the task with great care, preparing a warm bath with little bubbles.

Emile seems to enjoy the bath, his eyes widening as I pour a little water over his hair and his legs kicking frantically with excitement.

He likes the water...my wolf, Cynthia smiles.

Just like Archie.

An overwhelming sadness fills my heart as I look down at the small happy pup in my arms, seeing in him the little boy I had lost long before I became Zane's mother.

He's with his father now, Cynthia tries to comfort me but it's no use.

There would forever be a small hole in my heart...all because of My life as a Ravenstone wolf was by no means perfect.

Being deaf, I was always pushed around and made fun of for being unable to talk or hear.

While my parents never said it, I knew they were ashamed to have a deaf daughter and Alpha Tristan (Alpha Toran's father and former Alpha of Ravenstone) would not have hesitated to get rid of me were it not for the fact that my father was the gamma’s younger brother.I learned early on that it was best to stay out of the Alpha’s way and be invisible.

But Damon saw me, and he never stopped seeing me.

Growing up, none of the other pups understood me nor did they bother to try.I was too strange because I talked with my hands and made weird sounds whenever I tried to speak.

But as Moon Goddess would have it, I met my mate in a sandbox of all places.

He wanted to know why I played with the sand all by myself and never joined In on the games with the other pups.He wanted to know why I used my hands instead of my words.

When Damon realized I could not hear, he brought me a notebook and wrote down all of his favorite things to do in it so that we could do them together.

Hide and seek, tag, and mancala were among our favorite games to play together.

I taught him how to sign and he taught me how to hear with my eyes and feet.

His father was learned to stay vigilant, like relying more on my nose and my sense of touch.

I was devastated the day of my first shift when I realized my wolf was as deaf as I was.I had held onto the hope that I could hear in her form, but Moon Goddess did not grant me that gift.

"You are not useless,"Damon told me as I shifted back into my human form and burst into tears.

"You are just different."

Those simple words helped soothe my broken heart and I learned to accept myself as I was.

The day of Damon’s 18th birthday will forever be one of the greatest days of my life.

He did not hesitate to claim me as his mate, marking me that very same day.

I was only 16 but my parents were overjoyed that I would not spend the rest of my life in loneliness as they had expected me to.

With Alpha Toran's permission, I was allowed to move in with Damon as his wife despite not being a matured wolf yet.

Neither Damon nor I were ready to start a family, so we focused on building our home and becoming contributing members of the pack.

father while I finished school and worked at

was overjoyed to be a

special attention to every corner of our pup's room and child proofing virtually every room

joy, I was nervous about being

if he is

one night "Then we will

as he wiped

he will know love

his love, reassuring

and he was the most beautiful

big blue eyes were shaded by a pair of thick long lashes like his father's and he had my

describe the joy I felt when I held him in my

or the sound of his father's voice, asserting that he was not

second he could with

to sleep,"

"I've got Archie."

rich and we could barely make

loved me and

pup and a

that fateful day

that all came crashing down the day Alpha Toran discovered Alpha Cyrus

the beginning of a vicious

Haven burn

to young new

go on to commit

full-time, I was forced to

I it would be the last time I would

and at around noon,

I could to see what all the commotion was about and to my horror, I saw the collapsed daycare center In

pups and

intensified, Damon volunteering to be

was devoid of all feelings, my heart shriveling up to the size of a shrimp.I could no longer find joy or peace, waking up every night

more than ready to be cast out as a rogue.I craved It for I saw

Sebastian's second son still lives," he wrote to me as I sat silently

and mate?" I sat there staring at the question on the sheet of paper, understanding the individual words but struggling to comprehend

heir, not even during the attack of

kept the child hidden in the pack house which he has turned

hands struggling

could I possibly be of any service and get revenge?" The Alpha smiled wickedly at me, twirling a strand of

no doubt about that. A wolf of your caliber is virtually useless to any pack," he wrote, his sinister smile never I stared at

stumbling through woods on the edge of their territory,"

pathetic state and take you in, allowing you to find the hidden heir and kill him..." l read the words, gasping at the

"Or..." the Alpha continued.

on sight, which I assume is a viable option for you, all things considered," he shrugged, his eyes scanning my poor state

were hollowed out from lack of eating and my once

at him.I had lost a child.I could not do the

once more, unfazed by

I'm not giving you

a worthless mutt like you in a time of war. You will be a rogue whether you accept

having destroyed the man who took not only your pup, but the only man dumb

is yours, my dear Agnes," he adds on a separate sheet

you die a worthless mutt in the woods, raped and killed by other rogues...or will you die a hero and end this war so that no other Ravenstone