The Silent Alpha

 ***WARNING***

The following chapter contains a scene with self harm and abuse.

Reader discretion is advised, I will place (*) asterisk when the abuse self-harm begins for those of you who wish to Skip.

** ***Zane*** 

What are you so nervous about? Grayson mutters as we walk over to the main pack house, my legs barely able to drag me to our destination.

We need this training! What use is our gift if we can't use it? I know he's right but that doesn't stop the fear somersaulting in my belly.

My father always said I was weak.

What if my power truly is weak and worthless? Then what? Then we learn to fight like any other f****"g mutt! Grayson growls in annoyance.

Talia and Agnes walk silently behind me, both equally nervous for our first day in our new assignments.

Kota appears to be the only one excited to visit the River Moon wolves.

To keep herself calm, Agnes holds her butterfly in her hand, the beautiful creature crawling along her finger and fluttering its wings.

She had kept it in her room since we arrived in River Moon and it seemed to give her comfort.

I would have to thank Salvador again for Talia fidgets with the sack lunch that I prepared for her this morning, wrinkling the paper bag with her fingers.

To my surprise, she took the lunch willingly and my heart only soared higher when I noticed she was still wearing the gold bracelet I gave her.

I just hope she will still be okay with me when she reads my note today.

Quit worrying.

We were smooth, Grayson grins We finally approach the pack house, Rosalie already waiting for us with her young pup cradled in her arms.

"Come with me Agnes," She smiles warmly at her before turning to Talia and I.

"Aurora is in the entertainment room waiting for you."

Talia and I exchange nervous glances and make our way to the entertainment room where we find Aurora sitting on the floor with her eyes closed, Oliver combing through her hair with tenderness, as if her hair were made of silk.

Evan sits on the couch, watching the two with friendly disgust while Rio sits lazily at his feet.

Oliver leans in close to his mate and kisses her temples, murmuring soothing words in her ears.

The Queen looks completely relaxed in his lap as he begins to gently braid her hair into one long french braid, her breaths slow and steady.

It almost feels wrong to watch such an intimate moment between two loving mates and I feel a pain in my heart.

Would Talia ever trust me enough to let me care for her as the Rio jumps up to greet Kota and the two roll around the floor playfully.

"Please sit," Aurora says, her eyes fluttering open as Oliver ties up the braid.

Kota stops his play for a moment and we bow our heads in reverence to the timid Queen.

"My sister will be here soon for you, Talia.You can wait here while I take Zane to the training grounds.Kota can stay at the daycare or here with Rosalie and Agnes.It's up to you and what you feel most comfortable with."

"Here," Talia replies almost immediately.

"H-here, please." The Queen smiles brilliantly at her as she rises to her feet with Oliver's help.

"Then it shall be so." Oliver grabs his coat and car keys from the coffee table and prepares to take off.

"Be safe," Oliver murmurs as he kisses his Queen on the cheek before he glares at me.

"If you hurt her, I will kill you.Understand?" he threatens, his voice a low growl.

I nod obediently, swallowing the lump in my throat.

Aurora rolls her eyes at her mate and pacifies him with a kiss.

"No you will not," she chuckles.

"You cannot heal on your own," he argues.

"If he hurts you during training-"

"Then I will heal her," a woman's voice calls out from behind us.

"So go huff and puff somewhere else and let my sister train in. We all turn around to the source of the voice and find a small woman identical to Queen Aurora standing by the door.

The only difference between the two appears to be their eyes, with this woman's eyes being silvery grey while Aurora's are a golden honey color.

Aurora wastes no time running towards the woman, embracing her in a tight hug.

"You literally see each other every f*****g day,"

Evan exasperates, Oliver rolling his eyes at the gamma wolf.

The small woman lifts her middle finger up at Evan, Aurora giggling hysterically.

twin, Celina," She says as she steps back

is

sticking her

spawn, then what are you? His

bored look on her face, Talia snorting as she tries to hold back

this Talia chick? I'm running late,

Celina looks her up and down as if assessing her.She then exchanges looks with her

say it," she says, stepping closer to Talia, Aurora giving

We’ve worked

clouds swirl in Celina’s silver irises as she scowls and points an accusing finger at

f*****g attitude,"

them or look at them like they’re maggots.They’re broken and they need help.I’m not taking you anywhere until you promise Aurora and I that you will set aside

Celina’s face as she crosses her arms and

never once flinching from the cold

stares intently at her as if to catch any hesitation but Talia remains unfazed, as

to her sister and smiles

a b***h like me." Aurora shakes her head disapprovingly

"She didn’t mean that."

most definitely did," her sister shrugs with an innocent smile on her

have a long day ahead of

Talia’s hand and before I even blink an eye, the two

will be back later

down on her knees and speaking in a soothing

and play with Rio.Would you like that?" Kota grins and

take Kota upstairs to Rosalie's office before the three of us walk to the training

shake uncontrollably at the thought of using my gifts so I shove them in my pockets, willing myself to

worry" Aurora reassures as

helping

empty, with all of the equipment stored

the grounds cleared for us to work in peace," she smiles sheepishly as she leads me

wouldn't want an audience today." She turns to Evan and

"Evan can leave too."

replies, sitting

a heavy sigh

can do." I remain frozen in place, unsure what to do with myself but Aurora once

can be a little scary at first.It’s a

down and patting the ground in front of

you know I was a telepath?" I ask as I take a seat

can sense your walls," she says, her

I know with walls is my sister and she is also a telepath.The walls help block out the voices and keep out intruders.I can usually make my way into a person's thoughts and their memories without them noticing but it wasn't so easy getting into your head.It was like there was this massive force

you?" I nod, remembering the pinch in my temples when

wolf help you with your gifts?"

No, Grayson snarls.

until Talia came into the picture that the bastard finally let me

didn’t help!

trust me! Aurora frowns at

means you both need to learn to work together.Let's

I

chuckles

connection.I’m inside your head.Now I want you to do the same with me and

with hurting her as I remember all the failed attempts

a catatonic state for hours after my attempts of reading her mind on purpose.I couldn't do that to the

I fear she has already cut our connection and is now expecting me to make contact but she only smiles at me,

fire forms inside her palm and she cradles

have a lot of fears, Zane..." she

is very dangerous.Fear and anger make you irrational....they make you

demonstrate, the flames in her palm

a lot of people unintentionally by letting your fears get the best of you," She adds, the violet

and if I let them get the best of me, I

control your gift.You need to learn to let go of your fears and trust in

I can do that.."

never know if you don't give him a chance

you seek a connection with your mate, Grayson seeks a connection with you." I don’t

He's an i**"t.

Aurora frowns at me.

not earn his trust by belittling him, “she

ashamed of himself than he already is, Wolf You

and did he ever let me in to help? No! He put me in a corner and forced me to watch him suffer! I could feel

even like

think you'd like me either or want to help...so I thought it was better to put you

wallowing in his

I stare at my hands, afraid to look Aurora in the eyes but she suddenly moves closer to me

half and he will never leave your side...no matter how much you hurt him.He is part of your soul."

sorry I locked you out.I didn’t know what else to do ....I whisper.I’m sorry too, hesighs.I should

is good, "

together to enter my head.I'll put my walls down to make this

" I ask, looking over at Evan who

time I enter someone’s head on purpose, I hurt them. " Aurora nods as she assesses

of thoughts

speeds and currents and unfortunately, they