The Silent Alpha

 ***WARNING***

The following chapter contains a scene with self harm and abuse.

Reader discretion is advised, I will place (*) asterisk when the abuse self-harm begins for those of you who wish to Skip.

** ***Zane*** 

What are you so nervous about? Grayson mutters as we walk over to the main pack house, my legs barely able to drag me to our destination.

We need this training! What use is our gift if we can't use it? I know he's right but that doesn't stop the fear somersaulting in my belly.

My father always said I was weak.

What if my power truly is weak and worthless? Then what? Then we learn to fight like any other f****"g mutt! Grayson growls in annoyance.

Talia and Agnes walk silently behind me, both equally nervous for our first day in our new assignments.

Kota appears to be the only one excited to visit the River Moon wolves.

To keep herself calm, Agnes holds her butterfly in her hand, the beautiful creature crawling along her finger and fluttering its wings.

She had kept it in her room since we arrived in River Moon and it seemed to give her comfort.

I would have to thank Salvador again for Talia fidgets with the sack lunch that I prepared for her this morning, wrinkling the paper bag with her fingers.

To my surprise, she took the lunch willingly and my heart only soared higher when I noticed she was still wearing the gold bracelet I gave her.

I just hope she will still be okay with me when she reads my note today.

Quit worrying.

We were smooth, Grayson grins We finally approach the pack house, Rosalie already waiting for us with her young pup cradled in her arms.

"Come with me Agnes," She smiles warmly at her before turning to Talia and I.

"Aurora is in the entertainment room waiting for you."

Talia and I exchange nervous glances and make our way to the entertainment room where we find Aurora sitting on the floor with her eyes closed, Oliver combing through her hair with tenderness, as if her hair were made of silk.

Evan sits on the couch, watching the two with friendly disgust while Rio sits lazily at his feet.

Oliver leans in close to his mate and kisses her temples, murmuring soothing words in her ears.

The Queen looks completely relaxed in his lap as he begins to gently braid her hair into one long french braid, her breaths slow and steady.

It almost feels wrong to watch such an intimate moment between two loving mates and I feel a pain in my heart.

Would Talia ever trust me enough to let me care for her as the Rio jumps up to greet Kota and the two roll around the floor playfully.

"Please sit," Aurora says, her eyes fluttering open as Oliver ties up the braid.

Kota stops his play for a moment and we bow our heads in reverence to the timid Queen.

"My sister will be here soon for you, Talia.You can wait here while I take Zane to the training grounds.Kota can stay at the daycare or here with Rosalie and Agnes.It's up to you and what you feel most comfortable with."

"Here," Talia replies almost immediately.

"H-here, please." The Queen smiles brilliantly at her as she rises to her feet with Oliver's help.

"Then it shall be so." Oliver grabs his coat and car keys from the coffee table and prepares to take off.

"Be safe," Oliver murmurs as he kisses his Queen on the cheek before he glares at me.

"If you hurt her, I will kill you.Understand?" he threatens, his voice a low growl.

I nod obediently, swallowing the lump in my throat.

Aurora rolls her eyes at her mate and pacifies him with a kiss.

"No you will not," she chuckles.

"You cannot heal on your own," he argues.

"If he hurts you during training-"

"Then I will heal her," a woman's voice calls out from behind us.

"So go huff and puff somewhere else and let my sister train in. We all turn around to the source of the voice and find a small woman identical to Queen Aurora standing by the door.

The only difference between the two appears to be their eyes, with this woman's eyes being silvery grey while Aurora's are a golden honey color.

Aurora wastes no time running towards the woman, embracing her in a tight hug.

"You literally see each other every f*****g day,"

Evan exasperates, Oliver rolling his eyes at the gamma wolf.

The small woman lifts her middle finger up at Evan, Aurora giggling hysterically.

Zane.This is my twin, Celina," She says as she steps back from

is

sticking her tongue out

spawn, then what are you? His

on her face, Talia snorting as she tries to hold

this Talia chick? I'm

looks her up and down as if assessing her.She then exchanges looks with her sister

it," she says, stepping closer to Talia, Aurora giving her sister

We’ve worked too

in Celina’s silver irises as she scowls and points an accusing finger at

f*****g

been through because I can guarantee, our girls have gone through far worse.They need someone who won’t flinch away from them or look at them like they’re maggots.They’re broken and they need help.I’m not

over Celina’s face as she crosses her

promise," Talia nods, never once flinching from the

hesitation but Talia remains unfazed, as if used to being scrutinized by

suddenly turns to her sister

a b***h like me." Aurora shakes her head disapprovingly at

"She didn’t mean that."

I most definitely did," her sister shrugs with

go.We have a long day ahead of

blink an eye, the two women vanish into thin air wrapping

will be back later

and speaking in a soothing tone to the little

stay here and play with Rio.Would you like

Rosalie's office before the three of us walk

of using my gifts so I shove them in my pockets, willing

as we arrive

exploring your ability and helping you figure out exactly what you

entire training grounds is empty, with all of the equipment stored away and all trainers

had the grounds cleared for us to work in peace," she smiles sheepishly as she leads

audience today." She turns to Evan

"Evan can leave too."

replies,

sigh and

what you can do." I remain frozen in place, unsure what to do with myself but Aurora

calm voice enters my "Telepathy can be a little scary at

ground in front of her,

was a telepath?" I ask as I take a seat

your walls," she says,

keep out intruders.I can usually make my way into a person's thoughts and their memories without them noticing but it wasn't so easy getting into your head.It was like there was this massive force trying to push me out," she says, miming an unseen force in

your thoughts with a little push but you felt me enter your memories ...didn’t you?" I nod, remembering the pinch in my temples when she entered my memories and saw

you with

No, Grayson snarls.

until Talia came into the picture that the bastard finally let

didn’t help! I

you didn’t trust me! Aurora

point in blaming each other.This just means you both need to learn to work together.Let's 

thought I already

she chuckles softly."

your head.Now I want you

with hurting her as I remember all the failed attempts I had made on

my attempts of reading her mind

our connection and is now expecting me

fire forms inside her palm

a lot of

very dangerous.Fear and anger make you irrational....they

the flames in her palm grow bigger until they engulf her

unintentionally by letting your fears get the best of you," She adds,

but it is very difficult to control.My flames are fueled by my emotions and if I let them get the best of me, I can lose control. I stare at the large

principle for you if you ever want to control your gift.You need to learn to let go of your fears and trust in your wolf to

I can do that.."

a chance to show you his

Grayson seeks a connection with you." I don’t like

He's an i**"t.

Aurora frowns at me.

not earn his trust by belittling him, “she says sternly, Grayson rolling his eyes

make him fear more ashamed of himself than he already is, Wolf You know his pain better than anyone."

to help? No! He put me in a corner and forced me to watch him suffer! I could feel the

like myself..." I

think you'd like me either or want to help...so I thought it was

reply, wallowing in his own

eyes but she suddenly moves closer to me and holds my wrists care or listen,"

never leave your side...no matter how much you hurt him.He is part of your soul." I pull at

you out.I didn’t know what else to do ....I whisper.I’m sorry too, hesighs.I should have fought harder to

is good, " Aurora

put my walls down to make this

ask, looking

them. " Aurora nods as she assesses my concerns before

of thoughts as

are flowing at different speeds and currents and unfortunately, they are all coming