The Silent Alpha

 ***WARNING***

The following chapter contains a scene with self harm and abuse.

Reader discretion is advised, I will place (*) asterisk when the abuse self-harm begins for those of you who wish to Skip.

** ***Zane*** 

What are you so nervous about? Grayson mutters as we walk over to the main pack house, my legs barely able to drag me to our destination.

We need this training! What use is our gift if we can't use it? I know he's right but that doesn't stop the fear somersaulting in my belly.

My father always said I was weak.

What if my power truly is weak and worthless? Then what? Then we learn to fight like any other f****"g mutt! Grayson growls in annoyance.

Talia and Agnes walk silently behind me, both equally nervous for our first day in our new assignments.

Kota appears to be the only one excited to visit the River Moon wolves.

To keep herself calm, Agnes holds her butterfly in her hand, the beautiful creature crawling along her finger and fluttering its wings.

She had kept it in her room since we arrived in River Moon and it seemed to give her comfort.

I would have to thank Salvador again for Talia fidgets with the sack lunch that I prepared for her this morning, wrinkling the paper bag with her fingers.

To my surprise, she took the lunch willingly and my heart only soared higher when I noticed she was still wearing the gold bracelet I gave her.

I just hope she will still be okay with me when she reads my note today.

Quit worrying.

We were smooth, Grayson grins We finally approach the pack house, Rosalie already waiting for us with her young pup cradled in her arms.

"Come with me Agnes," She smiles warmly at her before turning to Talia and I.

"Aurora is in the entertainment room waiting for you."

Talia and I exchange nervous glances and make our way to the entertainment room where we find Aurora sitting on the floor with her eyes closed, Oliver combing through her hair with tenderness, as if her hair were made of silk.

Evan sits on the couch, watching the two with friendly disgust while Rio sits lazily at his feet.

Oliver leans in close to his mate and kisses her temples, murmuring soothing words in her ears.

The Queen looks completely relaxed in his lap as he begins to gently braid her hair into one long french braid, her breaths slow and steady.

It almost feels wrong to watch such an intimate moment between two loving mates and I feel a pain in my heart.

Would Talia ever trust me enough to let me care for her as the Rio jumps up to greet Kota and the two roll around the floor playfully.

"Please sit," Aurora says, her eyes fluttering open as Oliver ties up the braid.

Kota stops his play for a moment and we bow our heads in reverence to the timid Queen.

"My sister will be here soon for you, Talia.You can wait here while I take Zane to the training grounds.Kota can stay at the daycare or here with Rosalie and Agnes.It's up to you and what you feel most comfortable with."

"Here," Talia replies almost immediately.

"H-here, please." The Queen smiles brilliantly at her as she rises to her feet with Oliver's help.

"Then it shall be so." Oliver grabs his coat and car keys from the coffee table and prepares to take off.

"Be safe," Oliver murmurs as he kisses his Queen on the cheek before he glares at me.

"If you hurt her, I will kill you.Understand?" he threatens, his voice a low growl.

I nod obediently, swallowing the lump in my throat.

Aurora rolls her eyes at her mate and pacifies him with a kiss.

"No you will not," she chuckles.

"You cannot heal on your own," he argues.

"If he hurts you during training-"

"Then I will heal her," a woman's voice calls out from behind us.

"So go huff and puff somewhere else and let my sister train in. We all turn around to the source of the voice and find a small woman identical to Queen Aurora standing by the door.

The only difference between the two appears to be their eyes, with this woman's eyes being silvery grey while Aurora's are a golden honey color.

Aurora wastes no time running towards the woman, embracing her in a tight hug.

"You literally see each other every f*****g day,"

Evan exasperates, Oliver rolling his eyes at the gamma wolf.

The small woman lifts her middle finger up at Evan, Aurora giggling hysterically.

twin, Celina," She says as she steps

spawn is

her

spawn, then what

with a bored look on her face, Talia snorting as she

chick? I'm running late, so

down as

she says, stepping closer

We’ve worked

she scowls and points an accusing finger

f*****g attitude," she

because I can guarantee, our girls have gone through far worse.They need someone who won’t flinch away from them or look at them like they’re maggots.They’re broken and they need help.I’m not taking you anywhere until you promise

face as she crosses her arms and

nods, never once flinching from the cold tone

but Talia remains unfazed, as

Celina suddenly turns to her sister and smiles

me." Aurora shakes her head disapprovingly at her sister

"She didn’t mean that."

I most definitely did," her sister shrugs with an innocent smile

go.We have a long day

I even blink an eye, the two women

be back later

knees and speaking in

here and play with Rio.Would you like that?" Kota grins

instructs Evan to take Kota upstairs to Rosalie's office before the three of

at the thought of using my gifts so I shove them in my

worry" Aurora reassures as we arrive to

all about exploring your ability and helping you figure out exactly what you can

entire training grounds is empty, with all of the

in peace," she smiles sheepishly as she leads me

want an audience today." She turns

"Evan can leave too."

chance," he replies, sitting down

sigh and rolls her

place, unsure what to do with myself but Aurora once again offers a reassuring

scary at first.It’s a lot of voices in your

in front of her,

I was a telepath?" I ask

your walls," she

person I know with walls is my sister and she is also a telepath.The walls help block out the voices and keep out intruders.I can usually make my way into a person's thoughts and their memories without them noticing but it wasn't so easy getting into your head.It was like there was this massive force trying to push me out," she says, miming an unseen force in front of

you felt me enter your memories ...didn’t you?" I nod, remembering the pinch in my temples when

help you with your gifts?"

No, Grayson snarls.

out for years! It wasn’t until Talia came into the picture that the bastard finally let

you didn’t

you didn’t trust me!

means you both need to learn

thought I

chuckles

connection.I’m inside your head.Now I want you to do the same with me and make anew

nervous with hurting her as I remember all the failed attempts I had made

go into a catatonic state for hours after my attempts of reading her mind on purpose.I couldn't do that to

moment and I fear she has already cut our connection and is now expecting me to make contact but she only smiles at me,

thin air, a small ball of fire forms inside her palm and she cradles the flame

a lot of fears,

very dangerous.Fear and anger make you irrational....they make you lose

her palm

unintentionally by letting your fears

element but it is very difficult to control.My flames are fueled by my emotions and if I let them get the best of me, I can lose control. I stare at the large

if you ever want to control your gift.You need to learn to let go of your fears and trust in your wolf

know if I can do

a chance to show you his worth,"

Grayson seeks a connection with you." I don’t like him,

He's an i**"t.

Aurora frowns at me.

earn his trust by belittling him, “she

is, Wolf You know his pain better than anyone." He

to us and did he ever let me in to help? No! He put me in a corner and forced me to

even like myself..." I

either or want to help...so I thought it was better to

doesn’t reply, wallowing

the eyes but she suddenly moves closer to me and holds my wrists care or listen," she

matter how much you hurt him.He is part of your soul." I pull at the mat on the ground before I

locked you out.I didn’t know what else to do ....I whisper.I’m sorry too, hesighs.I should

good, "

my head.I'll put my walls down to make this

your mind? " I ask, looking over

on purpose, I hurt them. " Aurora nods

thoughts as

of them are flowing at different speeds and currents and unfortunately,