Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

Through the eyes of my alpha Chapter 58

NADIA It has been more than a month since I left the Silver Moon Pack. And although there was never a day that I didn’t long for my mate, I think I was doing okay. Riley’s scent on his clothes that I took with me has already faded. Nothing was left of him, and it was painful. I could vividly remember my heat two weeks ago when I tried to scent his clothes to get me through the pain and so that I could have my release, but it was no longer there.

I spent the whole night crying and trashing my rented space.

I was so close to packing up my things and running back to him until my body just gave up and I passed out.

I was having a harder time moving on now than the first time we got separated.

Maybe because by now, I already knew how it felt to be his.

And no matter how many times I kept telling myself that it was him that drove me to this misery, I still couldn’t find it in my heart to hate him.

If there was only one consolation from all of this, it was that Riley had never been intimate with anyone.

And I was hoping it would remain that way until we could figure out a way to move on with the rejection.

I knew I wanted him, but I couldn’t just force myself to be with someone who didn’t want me in the first place.

So I was trying my best.

I wanted to move on.

Some days were better, but some days were worse.

I pushed the main door of the building where I was renting a small apartment.

A few blocks away from here was the small diner that took me in as a server.

In the beginning, I was hired just to clean up the table and help tidy up the kitchen, but eventually, I got the server post when one of the other employees resigned.

I was thankful for the people around me.

Despite being new, I was welcomed.

And if anything, I was glad I took the risk and jumped out of the train when it stopped in Atlanta, because I found her.

FLASHBACK A Month Ago I went to the newly vacated booth and began stacking up the used plates and glasses on the tray before picking up the paper trash and placing everything on the trolley.

I then proceeded to wipe the table clean.

In less than an hour, my shift would be over, and I could go to the park, where I would spend a few hours before heading home to the small apartment that I was able to rent cheaply.

The apartment was nothing grand, but it wasn’t terrible either.

The walls were dull-looking, but nothing was leaking, and I had good ventilation.

It was enough for me.

Prices around here were not cheap, so finding a cheap apartment in a decent neighborhood was a challenge, but I got lucky that the restaurant owner knew the landlord of the apartment, and she helped me get this place.

I took one last look at the table.

I was satisfied that it was now spotless, so I turned around, ready to head back to the kitchen when I bumped into someone.

I gasped lowly as steady hands held my shoulders to keep me from falling down.

“I’m sorry.

I should have been more careful.

” I smiled at the female standing before me, and she waved her hand in the air as she smiled back at me.

“No.

It’s not your fault.

I was actually approaching you, but I didn’t expect you to turn around.

“I see.

Would you like to take the booth here?

It’s ready now.

” “Lovely!

” She winked at me before she passed by where I stood, but not before she whispered something.

“I can smell you.

” “Excuse me?

” My eyes followed her as she sat in the booth I had just cleaned.

She curled her finger and motioned for me to come near her, which I did.

“I’m a wolf too.

” She said it in a very low voice, just enough for my werewolf hearing to pick it up.

“Oh,” I gasped before I smiled at her.

“Don’t worry.

There’s not much of us around here, so your secret is safe.

” “That’s good to hear.

” I chuckled.

I just met her, but I think I will end up liking her.

“I will ask a server to come and take your order.

Just give me a minute.

” I smiled at her and watched as she pulled her hair out of a ponytail before I turned around.

She looked familiar, though.

I feel like I’ve seen her before, but I couldn’t put my finger on it.

I was just a few steps away from the kitchen when a memory flashed in my head, Pictures.

Tons of them.

shown to

she had more than twenty years ago My chest thudded loudly as I turned my body

diner and I was glad that the place was almost

few feet away from her and took a deep breath before I

“Zahra?

I said, my voice

and looked at me with a bewildered expression in

I know why she

the same deep

“Silver Moon Pack?

” I added.

she smiled at

“You know me?

don’t go by Zahra in

It’s Monica.

hand to her, which she took and

“My name is Nadia.

meet

know somebody from that place still

Especially at your age.

my lower lip, contemplating whether I should drop the bomb or

“I know, Riley.

I mean Alpha Riley.

color drain from her face, and I was scared that she would

do you know

” “I’m his mate.

Fated mate.

as her hand flew to her

weakly at her, my own

shift

spare for me, maybe we can go somewhere

to the nearest park

handed her the coffee that I had, so

chose a bench at the farthest

deserted except for one couple who were cuddling under a

conversation, and I was thankful that she was the one

mate, but I’m

the reason

you want to know, will you give

I took a sip

you want

didn’t you come back

happy with

” I asked her.

offensive, but there were so many

“I couldn’t.

moment I could, it was too late

don’t think he would want to

from the part where Riley is

is it worth

To leave him?

” “You’re judging me.

“Then tell me so

a long

have all the time in the

to understand you and

“Do you

with

“Why are you

tomorrow…” I chuckled softly, tears pooling in my

love Riley too, with all

coffee on the space beside her and took my hand, entwining it with her as she clasped her other hand

father, is a good

I did love

he’s not

told me as

secret that

I thought I would be taking it

some secrets need to come

if Riley hated me, I don’t want you to hate me,

” “I don’t.

have the right to hate

gaze focused on the view

and I, we grew up

thought we would end up

together since I was fifteen and he

Alpha when I

both devastated when we

I loved him.

I do.

there was no way we could be together

to break it up with him

He was inconsolable.

He was furious.

his anger, he marked

bit my lower

but I kept

have run to my parents and told

would deal with

could be stripped of his title or received more severe

him, and I didn’t want him to

I

to pretend

no one dared ask me to

mother doubted it, but

we kept on with

Melvin kept his hair

with the guilt

painful than when Melvin told me he saw his fated

know she was

only then that I realized that Melvin must be expecting the same thing from me – to reject

then I got

thought I would be happy,

the guilt, the lies, it

giving birth to Riley when

the Goddess I tried to stay