Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

Through the eyes of my alpha Chapter 62

RILEY I’ve been home for two days, and this was the first time I went out and saw the sun after 1 holed up in our room when I came home. My Gamma and Jenny have been attending to pack matters. I told them I just needed two days to myself, and tomorrow I would get back to work. They didn’t ask why and what happened in Atlanta.

Perhaps my Beta has already called them and explained.

And I was thankful for that.

But there was one more thing I needed to do before I could start fixing up whatever was left of my tired soul.

Maybe by doing this, I could finally move on and see a silver lining.

It was time to meet Andrea.

I rolled down the car window and spoke with Beta Paul.

He was at their border.

It was easier to ask permission for entrance.

It didn’t take long before he opened the gate and allowed my car in.

I was expecting him to search me as they did when I went here before, wanting to take Andrea away from Caspian, but he didn’t.

.

Instead, he offered to drive my car so we could reach the pack house immediately using a private route and told me he wanted a word about Alba.

So I moved out of my seat and let him drive, all the while he talked about him and Alba.

I missed a lot.

Alba has never contacted me again since I threw them out of the territory a few months back.

But I was happy that Caspian’s Beta was taking care of her.

I congratulated him and told him that he and Alba were free to visit my territory if they wanted to.

It didn’t take long until we reached the pack house and I found myself face-to-face with Caspian and Andrea.

I was lost for words.

Now that I was standing in front of her, I didn’t know how to start.

So I asked permission from Caspian to speak with Andrea.

I knew he might reject it, but I would understand, but fortunately, he didn’t.

He let me have a moment with Andrea alone.

He showed me again how he was a better man than I was.

I sat on the couch while Andrea chose to sit on the single sofa facing me, a center table between us.

For a moment, no one said a word.

She was looking at me while I was trying to read her.

I was trying to check my feelings too if I still have something for her.

But there was nothing, just regret for all the pain I had given her.

“Why are you here, Riley?

” She broke the silence.

I let out a sigh and rested my elbows on my thighs, my hands clasped together as I looked at her in the eyes.

“I woke up today and I told myself, it’s time to face my past so I could move on.

So I could free myself from guilt.

I know I haven’t said sorry to you yet, and I don’t know how to.

But Andrea, I want you to know that the person you saw in me for the last three years is not the real me.

It was the person I created to prove to myself that I’m better.

You and Caspian were the victims of my self-loathing.

When Caspian came, I kept thinking about what he had that I didn’t.

It became an obsession.

Until I just found myself getting lost in it.

I wanted to be better than anyone, better than him because I didn’t like myself either.

When you left that night, I decided to move on and be a better Alpha.

I left everything to the Goddess.

I let you go that night that you found out that Caspian was your mate.

I was ready to be alone.

But then the Goddess had her own plan.

I saw and met my fated mate that night, Andrea.

” A smile slowly crept into her lips.

“Nadia, right?

We’ve heard about her.

” I just nodded my head.

“But the Goddess knew how to make me pay for all my sins to you.

She gave me a mate, a wonderful female, someone who has lived her life almost the same as yours.

heard her gasp, but she stayed silent the whole time I told her about Nadia, about her uncle, and the men with whom she was paraded in

slap right

the first time, I was ashamed of what I did

hard time telling her

reason I threw you and Caspian out when you

she knew nothing about

leave once she found

surprised

scared of the person I was, but she gave me

my gaze to the floor as I

sounds like

to meet her

smiled weakly, the pain

she is no longer

“What do

heard your

“I fucked up again

I pushed her away.

“Did you try to win

shook

“Did you hurt her?

hand

but I would never raise a hand to any female, especially

it can still

female is

misunderstanding you have, the

saw

She looked happy.

if she was ever that happy when she was with

to ask her before if I was making her

was enjoying the happiness she was giving me

But I love her.

I love her, Andrea.

let her go so

give

doing that, I can be forgiven for all my

“You’re willing to let her go, but

would you rather spend the rest of your life thinking, what if I ask forgiveness, would she take

will never know unless

knows the answer,

do

would

choose

look at

choose you is

that Nadia is meant

met Caspian, she would

And you too.

told me that you smelled your mate that

day,

her over me, you just didn’t want

meant

other relationships, but not this one because she was the only person the Goddess perfectly

foolish to just let her slip by without

if

“I’m sure you

You have to try.

you imagine seeing her

and coiled my hands into

didn’t need

the

“See?

go, someone will

hadn’t fought for me, I would never

then go fight for

she doesn’t want you, then it’s time

as long as she didn’t, then try to win

so much faith in

can you after everything I did

real Riley before all

that female is the best thing that has

give

think I deserve

” “Everyone does.

I nodded

“Thank you.

for the

It was too

but because I didn’t know

the moment you

know that one day the memories

fall from her eyes as her shoulders

then I realized that maybe that part of my

have our own demons,

demons

me, you

Riley that Nadia

that your

both of us to come strongly from this

you promise

my conversation with Andrea, I

he had forgiven

forcing it, and we decided it was best to let

lighter load on my chest than I had this

thankful that I

was not ready to

She’s mine.

back, even if it meant swallowing my own

my Beta’s number as I drove back to my territory, but his phone was

he has no

five minutes before trying again,