Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

Through The Eyes Of My Alpha Chapter 63

Through the eyes of my alpha Chapter 63

RILEY I’ve been home for two days, and this was the first time I went out and saw the sun after 1 holed up in our room when I came home. My Gamma and Jenny have been attending to pack matters. I told them I just needed two days to myself, and tomorrow I would get back to work. They didn’t ask why and what happened in Atlanta.

Perhaps my Beta has already called them and explained.

And I was thankful for that.

But there was one more thing I needed to do before I could start fixing up whatever was left of my tired soul.

Maybe by doing this, I could finally move on and see a silver lining.

It was time to meet Andrea.

I rolled down the car window and spoke with Beta Paul.

He was at their border.

It was easier to ask permission for entrance.

It didn’t take long before he opened the gate and allowed my car in.

I was expecting him to search me as they did when I went here before, wanting to take Andrea away from Caspian, but he didn’t.

.

Instead, he offered to drive my car so we could reach the pack house immediately using a private route and told me he wanted a word about Alba.

So I moved out of my seat and let him drive, all the while he talked about him and Alba.

I missed a lot.

Alba has never contacted me again since I threw them out of the territory a few months back.

But I was happy that Caspian’s Beta was taking care of her.

I congratulated him and told him that he and Alba were free to visit my territory if they wanted to.

It didn’t take long until we reached the pack house and I found myself face-to-face with Caspian and Andrea.

I was lost for words.

Now that I was standing in front of her, I didn’t know how to start.

So I asked permission from Caspian to speak with Andrea.

I knew he might reject it, but I would understand, but fortunately, he didn’t.

He let me have a moment with Andrea alone.

He showed me again how he was a better man than I was.

I sat on the couch while Andrea chose to sit on the single sofa facing me, a center table between us.

For a moment, no one said a word.

She was looking at me while I was trying to read her.

I was trying to check my feelings too if I still have something for her.

But there was nothing, just regret for all the pain I had given her.

“Why are you here, Riley?

” She broke the silence.

I let out a sigh and rested my elbows on my thighs, my hands clasped together as I looked at her in the eyes.

“I woke up today and I told myself, it’s time to face my past so I could move on.

So I could free myself from guilt.

I know I haven’t said sorry to you yet, and I don’t know how to.

But Andrea, I want you to know that the person you saw in me for the last three years is not the real me.

It was the person I created to prove to myself that I’m better.

You and Caspian were the victims of my self-loathing.

When Caspian came, I kept thinking about what he had that I didn’t.

It became an obsession.

Until I just found myself getting lost in it.

I wanted to be better than anyone, better than him because I didn’t like myself either.

When you left that night, I decided to move on and be a better Alpha.

I left everything to the Goddess.

I let you go that night that you found out that Caspian was your mate.

I was ready to be alone.

But then the Goddess had her own plan.

I saw and met my fated mate that night, Andrea.

” A smile slowly crept into her lips.

“Nadia, right?

We’ve heard about her.

” I just nodded my head.

“But the Goddess knew how to make me pay for all my sins to you.

She gave me a mate, a wonderful female, someone who has lived her life almost the same as yours.

I heard her gasp, but she stayed silent the whole time I told her about Nadia, about her uncle, and the men with whom she was paraded in search of the highest bidder.

a slap right on

was ashamed of what I did to

time telling her about

and

and she knew nothing about

terrified she would leave once she found out about you and

surprised

person I was, but

water, and I dropped my gaze to the floor as

like

to meet her one

the pain crushing my

she is no longer

“What do you

heard your people

“I fucked up again and

I pushed her away.

“Did you try

I shook

“Did you hurt her?

hand on

might be a fucked up man, but I would never raise a hand to any

it can

this female is your

have, the love would be

“I saw her

She looked happy.

wonder if she was ever that happy when she was

bothered to ask her before if I was making her

she was giving me so much that I failed

But I love her.

I love her, Andrea.

her go so

I can’t give her that happiness

that, I can be forgiven

to let her go, but can

rather spend the rest of your life thinking, what if I ask forgiveness,

know unless

only one who knows the answer, not

“Tell me, Andrea, do you

she would choose

didn’t choose me,

look at

I didn’t choose you is that I was

same way that Nadia is meant

think if she met Caspian, she

And you too.

your mate that one time you visited

that day, something

me, you just didn’t

meant

disregard all other relationships, but not this one because she was the only person

let her slip by

“I don’t know if I can make her

“I’m sure

You have to try.

seeing her with

eyes and coiled my

need

the

“See?

let her go, someone will come and take

me, I

her, then

she tells you she doesn’t want you, then it’s time to

she didn’t, then try to win

so much

after everything

“Because I knew the real

believe that female is the best thing that has

give up that

I deserve a

” “Everyone does.

I nodded my

“Thank you.

sorry for the last three

too painful to

because I didn’t know if I deserved

moment you

one day the memories

fall from her eyes

my life was not for me, but for you, so you will learn and you

have our own demons,

demons made

me, you will rise

Riley that Nadia

that your

us to come strongly from this bad

promise me

Andrea, I requested to speak with Caspian

had

forcing it, and we decided it was best to let time heal

with a lighter load on my chest than I had this

that I had talked to

I was not ready to see

She’s mine.

do everything to win her back, even if it meant swallowing

I drove back to my territory, but his

has

waited for five minutes

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