Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

Through The Eyes Of My Alpha Chapter 63

Through the eyes of my alpha Chapter 63

RILEY I’ve been home for two days, and this was the first time I went out and saw the sun after 1 holed up in our room when I came home. My Gamma and Jenny have been attending to pack matters. I told them I just needed two days to myself, and tomorrow I would get back to work. They didn’t ask why and what happened in Atlanta.

Perhaps my Beta has already called them and explained.

And I was thankful for that.

But there was one more thing I needed to do before I could start fixing up whatever was left of my tired soul.

Maybe by doing this, I could finally move on and see a silver lining.

It was time to meet Andrea.

I rolled down the car window and spoke with Beta Paul.

He was at their border.

It was easier to ask permission for entrance.

It didn’t take long before he opened the gate and allowed my car in.

I was expecting him to search me as they did when I went here before, wanting to take Andrea away from Caspian, but he didn’t.

.

Instead, he offered to drive my car so we could reach the pack house immediately using a private route and told me he wanted a word about Alba.

So I moved out of my seat and let him drive, all the while he talked about him and Alba.

I missed a lot.

Alba has never contacted me again since I threw them out of the territory a few months back.

But I was happy that Caspian’s Beta was taking care of her.

I congratulated him and told him that he and Alba were free to visit my territory if they wanted to.

It didn’t take long until we reached the pack house and I found myself face-to-face with Caspian and Andrea.

I was lost for words.

Now that I was standing in front of her, I didn’t know how to start.

So I asked permission from Caspian to speak with Andrea.

I knew he might reject it, but I would understand, but fortunately, he didn’t.

He let me have a moment with Andrea alone.

He showed me again how he was a better man than I was.

I sat on the couch while Andrea chose to sit on the single sofa facing me, a center table between us.

For a moment, no one said a word.

She was looking at me while I was trying to read her.

I was trying to check my feelings too if I still have something for her.

But there was nothing, just regret for all the pain I had given her.

“Why are you here, Riley?

” She broke the silence.

I let out a sigh and rested my elbows on my thighs, my hands clasped together as I looked at her in the eyes.

“I woke up today and I told myself, it’s time to face my past so I could move on.

So I could free myself from guilt.

I know I haven’t said sorry to you yet, and I don’t know how to.

But Andrea, I want you to know that the person you saw in me for the last three years is not the real me.

It was the person I created to prove to myself that I’m better.

You and Caspian were the victims of my self-loathing.

When Caspian came, I kept thinking about what he had that I didn’t.

It became an obsession.

Until I just found myself getting lost in it.

I wanted to be better than anyone, better than him because I didn’t like myself either.

When you left that night, I decided to move on and be a better Alpha.

I left everything to the Goddess.

I let you go that night that you found out that Caspian was your mate.

I was ready to be alone.

But then the Goddess had her own plan.

I saw and met my fated mate that night, Andrea.

” A smile slowly crept into her lips.

“Nadia, right?

We’ve heard about her.

” I just nodded my head.

“But the Goddess knew how to make me pay for all my sins to you.

She gave me a mate, a wonderful female, someone who has lived her life almost the same as yours.

I heard her gasp, but she stayed silent the whole time I told her about Nadia, about her uncle, and the men with whom she was paraded in search of the highest bidder.

slap right

I was ashamed

time telling

threw you and Caspian out when you visited

was there and she knew nothing

leave once she found out about you and what I did

surprised

I was, but she gave me

my

like a

would love to meet her one

weakly, the pain crushing my heart, “She

no longer

do

heard your people loved

“I fucked up again

I pushed her away.

“Did you try to win

shook my

“Did you hurt her?

hand on

“No, I might be a fucked up man, but I would never raise a

can still

this female

sure whatever misunderstanding you have,

“I saw

She looked happy.

even wonder if she was ever that happy when she was with

selfish I never even bothered to ask her before if I

happiness she was giving me so much that I failed to notice

But I love her.

I love her, Andrea.

her go so she can be

can’t give her that happiness

I can be forgiven

let her go, but

the rest of your life thinking, what if I ask forgiveness, would she

know

only one who knows the answer, not you,

“Tell me, Andrea, do you think I’m worth

she would

didn’t choose

“Riley, look

choose you is that I was meant for

the same way that Nadia is meant

Caspian, she would choose

And you too.

me that you smelled your mate that one time you visited Alpha

that day,

her over me, you just

is meant for

but not this one because she was the only

just let her slip by without

“I don’t know if I

“I’m sure

You have to try.

you imagine seeing

my eyes and coiled my hands

didn’t need to answer

the answer

“See?

let her go, someone will come and take her

for me, I would never be

then

tells you she doesn’t want you, then it’s

as long as she didn’t, then try to win

have so much faith

can you after everything I did

the real Riley before all

I want to believe that female is the

give up

“Do you think I deserve a

” “Everyone does.

I nodded my

“Thank you.

I’m sorry for the last

too

because I didn’t want to, but because I didn’t know if I

you the moment you helped Caspian on the

that one day

fall from her eyes

I did wrong, but then I realized that maybe that part of my life was not for me,

all have our own demons,

demons

you will rise

Riley that

that your pack

strongly

promise me

Andrea, I requested to

he had forgiven me, he told me

not forcing it, and we decided it was best to let

lighter load on my chest

was thankful that I

not ready to see

She’s mine.

do everything to win her back, even if it meant swallowing

as I drove back to my territory,

has no

minutes

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