Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

I couldn‘t sleep. I knew my body was tired, but my mind wouldn‘t shut down. I kept thinking about my mate. I swear, while he was showing me around the pack house, I couldn‘t keep myself from yawning and I felt like I would fall asleep already and that was why Riley insisted that we head up so I could sleep. I was hoping he would invite me to his room, but he didn‘t. I wouldn‘t deny that I was disappointed, but what could I do? 

So here I was, alone in this room, trying to console myself by smelling his scent on the shirt I was wearing and hoping for sleep to take over. 

But the moment he left my room, I couldn‘t relax anymore and sleep never came. I guessed having him around was calming for me and my wolf. And now that I couldn‘t smell him, I found it hard to sleep in an unfamiliar place. 

Or perhaps it was because I had no idea what we were to each other at this point. 

We didn‘t talk about it. So I didn‘t know if the two–month deal was off or if it was still in place. 

Although he told me he didn‘t leave me on purpose at the cave, it still didn‘t mean that he wanted me. So I have to guard my heart. I couldn‘t fall for him if I had to leave after two months. 

But who was I kidding? I didn‘t even spend 24 hours with him, and yet, I didn‘t want to be far away from him already. Would I be able to survive if, after two months, he asked me to leave? 

Or maybe I could try? Make him fall for me within the next two months. 

But it seemed impossible. I’m just me. And he‘s Riley What‘s to like about me? I‘m no one. Even my own family didn‘t want me. I wonder if my mother survived childbirth, would she end up liking me? 

My eyes watered as I closed my eyes, clutching the blanket against my chest as I coiled my body.

‘‘Stop Nadia! You‘ve been through this torture for years, and I thought we were moving on?‘’ My wolf, Arrow, snarled at me. 

She hated it when I wallowed in self–pity. But she would never understand, she‘s so beautiful and I‘m just me, 

‘‘Stop or I will leave you alone.’’ She threatened me, but I knew she would never dare leave me. 

I shoved the blanket off and rose from my bed, I knew sleep would be impossible right now. I had better do something else to occupy my mind, because with my mate in my thoughts, I was sure I would never be able to sleep tonight. Riley told me he would take me tomorrow to the center of the territory where we could shop  

for some basic clothing that I could use. But then what would I wear tomorrow when we go to the center? Definitely not his clothes! 

come to let me borrow her clothes. Maybe she didn‘t like me or to share her things. I wouldn‘t blame her. I was basically a

out a sigh and went inside the bathroom. I grabbed my used clothes from the hamper and headed for

decent to wear tomorrow. I carefully walked through the corridor and threw a longing glance at his room. How I wish I

The pack house was already quiet and the lights were already dimmed. It was already midnight and, as he told me earlier, no one sleeps here aside from him and his Beta and Gamma, although he would allow anyone from his pack

reached the basement. The light was on in the laundry room. Did we forget to turn it off? I stepped inside the room at the same time a female

into an immediate smile

Nadia?” Her voice was so soft and sweet that I couldn‘t help

eyes off her. She extended her hand, a friendly smile still on her face.

is Jenny. I‘m Gamma Sebastian‘s mate. It‘s

saw the way her eyes gazed at

you have clothes already. Beta Dominic asked me to lend you some clothes, but I was away the whole day with the Gamma. We were on the other side of the territory, and we had just gotten home. So I‘m so

And

you are wearing are more comfortable, right?” She

the loose shirt I

 “It‘s actually big. These are the Alphas‘ clothes.”

My brows furrowed at her

how you call the Alpha here? Just by his

big ‘o‘ before she answered me. “No! No! We call  him Alpha. It‘s just that you‘re his mate, you‘re his equal, so you need to be comfortable calling him by

smiled and

get used to it. I never really encounter any Alphas in close

soon you‘ll be calling him by his name especially when you‘re hell mad at him.” She giggled before she took the clothes in my

It‘s okay, I can wash those.” I tried to take it back, but

and her finger pointed to the two washing machines at

Alphas.” She then turned to the other

for the Beta, and the last two are for me and my mate, the Gammas. And then on the next room, those are for the guests or for anyone

I was glad I met her otherwise I would have used the

forward and went to the Alpha‘s machine and opened its