When There Is Nothing Left But Love

After all the struggling, I was close to total exhaustion. The fluid was getting less, and the movements from the baby were dying down.

I guessed that the baby’s strength was slowly draining away as he could not breathe.

No, not like this. My baby! You can’t die like this! I have not seen what you look like, and I haven’t brought you to look at the world. I can’t let you go just like this!

I was tormented by the pain in my heart and my abdomen. Then, I saw something shiny in the dark warehouse. It was a mirror!

A glimmer of hope was ignited, and I moved my body with difficulty towards it.

It was only two steps away, but it seemed to take me an eternity to reach the mirror. I knocked on it with my head.

Crash! The mirror broke into a few pieces, and I felt a sharp pain on my forehead.

Without giving it much thought, I grabbed a piece of glass with my hands, which were tied together, and began to saw at the rope that tied my legs together.

The hemp rope was very thick, and I did not know how long I was cutting at it. There was a sharp pain in the palm of my hand, and I felt warm blood on my hands and legs, which felt sticky like batter.

However, this pain could not compare with the pain of feeling the baby dying slowly in my womb.

That pain was worse than death.

 Suddenly, thunder struck across the sky,

continued, but the child’s strong movements gradually stopped. I suddenly froze, and the piece of glass in my

was covered with a thick sticky liquid. I could not tell if it was blood or amniotic

The thunder became louder and louder, and the lightning

I seemed to see that child struggling to live as he tried again and again to crawl his

to let him out. He must be blaming his mother for keeping him in, even though he

was really my fault. I should not have yearned for Ashton’s warmth, should not have trusted him to protect the child and me. I should

fault. If not for me, this child would not die in

began to think it was okay. I’m going to die with my baby. At least, my baby won’t be alone and afraid in

on earth, I could not protect him,

opened, and

tall man walk in. I was so dizzy. When I tried to see him clearly,

to the next

I felt as if I had stood up and under my feet was this thick red liquid which I knew

with my hand and found that it was flat. In shock, I looked around for

I seemed to see a small

me stumblingly, for he

towards him and held him in my arms. Then I looked at the child carefully. He was so small, and there was a red mark on his head. He must have tried so hard to get out of my womb

tiny nose and eyes looked so cute. He even knew how to smile, curving