Accidental Surrogate

Chapter 121

Chapter 121

Trigger Warning: This chapter contains experiences of abuse and s3xual assaultnothing explicit, but please take care reading..

Sinclair

Ella’s small body is completely stiff in my arms, even though we’re in her favorite

place. I’ve only bathed with her once before, but it didn’t take a rocket scientist to

figure out how much she loves a bubble bath. She takes at least four a week, and

when she’s upset I’ve known her to have a bath even after showering. Until I spoke

with Cora about Ella’s self-care practices, I didn’t understand the connection to her

childhood experience of neglect, but now that I know I’m determined never to deprive

her of the comfort even if my water bills go through the roof and the city goes into a

drought.

“Are you ready to talk this out, trouble?” I inquire, resting my hands on her round

tummy and feeling a pulse of stress from the baby. A fresh spark of worry assails me,

and I know that Rafe is channeling his mother’s fraught emotions. Ella doesn’t

respond to my question, and I press on, realizing that the poor little wolf isn’t going to

relax until she knows l’m not going to reject her”

Sweetheart, it never even crossed my mind to end things. I love you

Ella’s muscles tighten further, though I didn’t think such a thing was possible.

“But..She stammers, twisting around to look at me, “but you left!”

Im sorry that I walked out.”I reply gently, grazing my knuckles over her cheek. “But it

wasn’t because I ever had doubts about us.”I share, wondering about my sweet

mate’s reaction. I know some survivors of child abuse view any confrontation as a

disaster or threat, but Ella has weathered my anger in the past without any signs of a

trauma response. “I was angry that you thought you don’t contribute anything to our

lost it when you suggested you couldn’t be

me over the edge, and I needed to calm

continuing.”

and I can see her grappling with

things.” She whispers, staring at the water.

think maybe I

completely aware of. And Mike’s betrayal and

into very sharp

washes over me, and I gently flip her body the rest of the way

I snuggle her to my chest, lowering my

can straddle

I profess, kissing her head and stroking

you were already upset, I just don’t trust

angry. The same way I would never make a pack ruling

fury. I think taking

maybe we can find some way to

I suggest. “But even if we can’t, you

how far I go or how long

you, Ella.”

arms tighten around me.

She hiccups, “and I’m sorry I said I

not pulling my weight here. This isn’t the first time I’ve tried

for you and failed.”

look at me for a moment.” I order, sliding my

eyes up to mine. “First of all you take care of me

keep me

up to bullies like the Prince and Lydia,

when I don’t want you to.

to nurture and protect. If

you, I would

frowns. “But I didn’t

sigh, recalling the terror

I’ve growled and grumbled

and overpowered her countless times

most of the time her wolf responds to my bossiness like a bee to

happen randomly.

didn’t I?”

still holding Ella’s chin, but her eyes look anywhere but at

as Ella gives a slight nod, and

heart aches. “Do we

no, promise that she won’t ever have

know that wouldn’t help anything. “We’re in a

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