Accidental Surrogate

Chapter 121

Chapter 121

Trigger Warning: This chapter contains experiences of abuse and s3xual assaultnothing explicit, but please take care reading..

Sinclair

Ella’s small body is completely stiff in my arms, even though we’re in her favorite

place. I’ve only bathed with her once before, but it didn’t take a rocket scientist to

figure out how much she loves a bubble bath. She takes at least four a week, and

when she’s upset I’ve known her to have a bath even after showering. Until I spoke

with Cora about Ella’s self-care practices, I didn’t understand the connection to her

childhood experience of neglect, but now that I know I’m determined never to deprive

her of the comfort even if my water bills go through the roof and the city goes into a

drought.

“Are you ready to talk this out, trouble?” I inquire, resting my hands on her round

tummy and feeling a pulse of stress from the baby. A fresh spark of worry assails me,

and I know that Rafe is channeling his mother’s fraught emotions. Ella doesn’t

respond to my question, and I press on, realizing that the poor little wolf isn’t going to

relax until she knows l’m not going to reject her”

Sweetheart, it never even crossed my mind to end things. I love you

Ella’s muscles tighten further, though I didn’t think such a thing was possible.

“But..She stammers, twisting around to look at me, “but you left!”

Im sorry that I walked out.”I reply gently, grazing my knuckles over her cheek. “But it

wasn’t because I ever had doubts about us.”I share, wondering about my sweet

mate’s reaction. I know some survivors of child abuse view any confrontation as a

disaster or threat, but Ella has weathered my anger in the past without any signs of a

trauma response. “I was angry that you thought you don’t contribute anything to our

and my wolf lost it when you suggested you couldn’t be

of losing you pushed me over the edge, and I needed to calm

continuing.”

I can see her

things.” She whispers, staring at the water. “I

come back.. think.. I think maybe

Mike’s betrayal and learning

them into very

I gently flip her body the rest of the way

facing me completely, I snuggle her to my chest, lowering my knees

can

so sorry, baby.” I profess, kissing her head and stroking her spine.

I just don’t trust myself not to

way I would never make a pack ruling

fury. I think taking

can find some way to take breaks in

too much physical distance.” I suggest. “But even if we can’t, you

or how long

you, Ella.”

and her arms tighten

I’m sorry I said I couldn’t be your Luna,

weight here. This isn’t the first time I’ve tried to

for you and failed.”

for a moment.” I order, sliding my

you take care

You keep

l’m being an ogre You stand up to bullies

burdens even when I don’t want you to. Moreover, I

to nurture and protect. If

care of you, I

didn’t

the terror that

up. I’ve growled and grumbled

knee and overpowered her countless times without

wolf responds to

happen

didn’t I?”

chin, but her eyes look anywhere but

as Ella gives a slight nod, and then her wide gaze

so vulnerable that my heart aches. “Do we have to talk

could tell her no, promise that she won’t ever

help anything. “We’re in a

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