Accidental Surrogate

Chapter 121

Chapter 121

Trigger Warning: This chapter contains experiences of abuse and s3xual assaultnothing explicit, but please take care reading..

Sinclair

Ella’s small body is completely stiff in my arms, even though we’re in her favorite

place. I’ve only bathed with her once before, but it didn’t take a rocket scientist to

figure out how much she loves a bubble bath. She takes at least four a week, and

when she’s upset I’ve known her to have a bath even after showering. Until I spoke

with Cora about Ella’s self-care practices, I didn’t understand the connection to her

childhood experience of neglect, but now that I know I’m determined never to deprive

her of the comfort even if my water bills go through the roof and the city goes into a

drought.

“Are you ready to talk this out, trouble?” I inquire, resting my hands on her round

tummy and feeling a pulse of stress from the baby. A fresh spark of worry assails me,

and I know that Rafe is channeling his mother’s fraught emotions. Ella doesn’t

respond to my question, and I press on, realizing that the poor little wolf isn’t going to

relax until she knows l’m not going to reject her”

Sweetheart, it never even crossed my mind to end things. I love you

Ella’s muscles tighten further, though I didn’t think such a thing was possible.

“But..She stammers, twisting around to look at me, “but you left!”

Im sorry that I walked out.”I reply gently, grazing my knuckles over her cheek. “But it

wasn’t because I ever had doubts about us.”I share, wondering about my sweet

mate’s reaction. I know some survivors of child abuse view any confrontation as a

disaster or threat, but Ella has weathered my anger in the past without any signs of a

trauma response. “I was angry that you thought you don’t contribute anything to our

my wolf lost it when you suggested

of losing you pushed me over the edge, and I needed to

continuing.”

can see her grappling with

whispers, staring

you’d come back.. think.. I think maybe I have some

And Mike’s betrayal and learning that I’m a

into

over me, and I gently flip her body the

is facing me completely, I snuggle her to

she can

sorry, baby.” I profess, kissing

were already upset, I just don’t trust myself not to say

I’m that angry. The same way I would never make a pack

punishment in the height of a fury.

but maybe we can find

“But even if we

far I go or how

you, Ella.”

whimpers, and her arms tighten around

“and I’m sorry I said I couldn’t be

I’m not pulling my weight here. This isn’t the first time I’ve tried

for you and failed.”

order, sliding my finger under her chin

mine. “First of all you take care of me all

You keep me

You stand up to bullies like the Prince

burdens even when I don’t want you to. Moreover, I need to

DNA to nurture and

I

I didn’t let you. I

recalling the terror that came over her beautiful

her up. I’ve growled and grumbled

knee and overpowered her countless times without

time her wolf responds to my bossiness like a bee to honey. “I

both know this didn’t happen randomly.

didn’t I?”

still holding Ella’s chin, but her eyes look anywhere but at me.

fingers as Ella gives a slight nod,

heart aches. “Do

I could tell her no, promise that

know that wouldn’t help anything. “We’re

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