Accidental Surrogate

Sinclair

Don’t shift, don’t shift, don’t shift. I think manically Ella needs you.

Listening to Ella recount her childhood always makes me furious, but this time is

worse than all the others. I’ve suspected that Ella suffered terrible traumas for some

time now, but before this night l’d been able to pacify my outrage with the hope that

I’m wrong.

No longer.

As Ella speaks, I wonder how she could ever imagine herself weak. I can’t even stand

to listen to her story, but she actually lived it. She sacrificed herself for her sister, and

she survived things I can only imagine

“When the matron realized it was me, she smiled so cruelly that my stomach turnedshe was only too glad to take, me instead of Cora.” Ella continues, shuddering with

the memory. Her unease gives my wolf the push he needed to put aside his own rage

and comfort her. I finally manage a weak purr, and Ella presses her nose to my chest,

breathing in my scent.

“She took me to her own room and put me in her bed, and then she got in with me

and.. started touching me in ways I didn’t like or understand.

She made me touch her too, and she never stopped talking She told me how pretty I

was over and over, and kept asking me if I liked it. I said no, but she just insisted that

this was a special, secret game I was lucky to play. She said everything I was feeling

might be confusing, but it was good and right and natural. She said it took practice,

but that we’d have plenty of time.. Afterwards she took me back to the dorm with a

reminder not to share our secret. Cora asked me what happened but I didn’t know

how to explain.”

“The next day I went to the doctor in residence, and I told him what the matron had

done. I’d never liked him much, but in my heart I knew what had happened was

wrong, and I didn’t know who else to tell. I thought that since it was about my body,

the doctor was the one who could help. There was no such thing as sex ed at the

orphanage and no one else ever talked to us about our bodies. At first I was relieved

to tell someone. The doctor seemed very concerned, and agreed that it sounded

strange.”

me that he needed to examine

and stops now, and

I know she

and put me on the exam table. and then

the way he said, ‘now it’s very important that you be still, Ella. This is a

and if you move too

as she

“Then he said, T know little girls can have

so I have these nifty straps to help you. He pulled out restraints

table and strapped me down. and then he asked me

did, and when I explained he would touch me exactly

didn’t answer, if I cried

demand I tell him”

I figured out

anymore, but if I didn’t speak

my body.

So I answered. I told him how to hurt me.” Ella is

looks up at

Her eyes are overflowing, but she offers me a bitter smile and reaches up

“It’s okay, big bad

whine, and Ella determinedy forges

why they did those things, but I knew how it made

again, but I was already

girls like Cora who

didn’t!I have a horrible sick feeling

in time and whisk Ella

could hurt her.

other

brave, brilliant little mate would

abused… even if it

I stopped hiding at night. I gave myself up

more than I already was, and it was better

else to be destroyed.” Ella shares, confirming my fears but

“The matron came almost every night…

call me in for check ups every few weeks.

the matron was sort of gentle, and she

want to inflict pain, she seemed determined to make

different. He was a true sadist;

escalated over time.” Ella hides her face in my neck as she concludes

he r*ped me, and that’s when Cora and I ran away. I

other girls to run with us, but most were more afraid of living on the street

Luckily they didn’t know about the doctor,

behind to never

tightly on Ella I’m afraid I must be hurting her, but

doesn’t complain.

have unwound now that

eyes, and I can only kiss and caress my sweet mate

she shared.

The matron and the doctor?”

hiss.

only live outside during the

stay away through the first winter, but eventually the police found us

returned us to the