Accidental Surrogate

Sinclair

Don’t shift, don’t shift, don’t shift. I think manically Ella needs you.

Listening to Ella recount her childhood always makes me furious, but this time is

worse than all the others. I’ve suspected that Ella suffered terrible traumas for some

time now, but before this night l’d been able to pacify my outrage with the hope that

I’m wrong.

No longer.

As Ella speaks, I wonder how she could ever imagine herself weak. I can’t even stand

to listen to her story, but she actually lived it. She sacrificed herself for her sister, and

she survived things I can only imagine

“When the matron realized it was me, she smiled so cruelly that my stomach turnedshe was only too glad to take, me instead of Cora.” Ella continues, shuddering with

the memory. Her unease gives my wolf the push he needed to put aside his own rage

and comfort her. I finally manage a weak purr, and Ella presses her nose to my chest,

breathing in my scent.

“She took me to her own room and put me in her bed, and then she got in with me

and.. started touching me in ways I didn’t like or understand.

She made me touch her too, and she never stopped talking She told me how pretty I

was over and over, and kept asking me if I liked it. I said no, but she just insisted that

this was a special, secret game I was lucky to play. She said everything I was feeling

might be confusing, but it was good and right and natural. She said it took practice,

but that we’d have plenty of time.. Afterwards she took me back to the dorm with a

reminder not to share our secret. Cora asked me what happened but I didn’t know

how to explain.”

“The next day I went to the doctor in residence, and I told him what the matron had

done. I’d never liked him much, but in my heart I knew what had happened was

wrong, and I didn’t know who else to tell. I thought that since it was about my body,

the doctor was the one who could help. There was no such thing as sex ed at the

orphanage and no one else ever talked to us about our bodies. At first I was relieved

to tell someone. The doctor seemed very concerned, and agreed that it sounded

strange.”

that he needed

in starts and stops now, and her shaking

around us, so I know she isn’t

off my clothes and put me on the exam

very important that

exam than you’re used to, and if you move too much I could hurt

as she quotes the doctor, and it takes

T know little

I have these nifty straps to

the table and strapped me down. and then he asked

did, and when I explained he would touch me exactly

if I didn’t answer, if I cried or

demand I tell him”

figured out what he was about,

if I didn’t

demonstrating them on my body. They were far

done.. So I answered. I told him how to

at me for the first time

overflowing, but she offers

jaw. “It’s okay, big bad wolf, it’s

a whine, and Ella determinedy forges on. “I

they did those things, but I knew how it made

again, but I was

girls like Cora who weren’t

no. No, no, no tell me she didn’t!I have a horrible

go back in time and whisk Ella away from that horrible place

could hurt her.

other children would be hurt,

brilliant little mate would never stand by and

if it meant

gave myself up so the others wouldn’t be touched..

I already was, and it was better than

destroyed.” Ella shares, confirming my

“The matron came almost

for check ups every few weeks.

sort of gentle, and she

didn’t want to inflict pain, she

was a true sadist; he loved my fear, loved

face in my neck as

he r*ped me, and that’s when Cora and I ran

most were

were of the matron. Luckily they didn’t know about the doctor, and

to

Ella I’m afraid I must

doesn’t complain.

still crying, but her muscles have unwound now that

and I can only kiss and caress my sweet mate

everything she shared.

still there? The matron and the doctor?” I finally ask, my

hiss.

Ella replies. “Cora and I could only live outside during the summers, and we

away through the first winter, but eventually the police found us squatting

us to the orphanage.