Accidental Surrogate

Sinclair

Don’t shift, don’t shift, don’t shift. I think manically Ella needs you.

Listening to Ella recount her childhood always makes me furious, but this time is

worse than all the others. I’ve suspected that Ella suffered terrible traumas for some

time now, but before this night l’d been able to pacify my outrage with the hope that

I’m wrong.

No longer.

As Ella speaks, I wonder how she could ever imagine herself weak. I can’t even stand

to listen to her story, but she actually lived it. She sacrificed herself for her sister, and

she survived things I can only imagine

“When the matron realized it was me, she smiled so cruelly that my stomach turnedshe was only too glad to take, me instead of Cora.” Ella continues, shuddering with

the memory. Her unease gives my wolf the push he needed to put aside his own rage

and comfort her. I finally manage a weak purr, and Ella presses her nose to my chest,

breathing in my scent.

“She took me to her own room and put me in her bed, and then she got in with me

and.. started touching me in ways I didn’t like or understand.

She made me touch her too, and she never stopped talking She told me how pretty I

was over and over, and kept asking me if I liked it. I said no, but she just insisted that

this was a special, secret game I was lucky to play. She said everything I was feeling

might be confusing, but it was good and right and natural. She said it took practice,

but that we’d have plenty of time.. Afterwards she took me back to the dorm with a

reminder not to share our secret. Cora asked me what happened but I didn’t know

how to explain.”

“The next day I went to the doctor in residence, and I told him what the matron had

done. I’d never liked him much, but in my heart I knew what had happened was

wrong, and I didn’t know who else to tell. I thought that since it was about my body,

the doctor was the one who could help. There was no such thing as sex ed at the

orphanage and no one else ever talked to us about our bodies. At first I was relieved

to tell someone. The doctor seemed very concerned, and agreed that it sounded

strange.”

me that he needed to

words are coming in starts and stops now, and

steaming around us, so I know she isn’t cold

off my clothes and put me on the exam table.

said, ‘now it’s very important that you be still, Ella. This is

if you move too much I could

down Ella s cheeks as she quotes the doctor, and it takes

contain my wolf. “Then he said, T know little girls can have a hard

nifty straps to help

strapped me down. and then

did, and when I explained he would touch me exactly how she

I didn’t answer, if I cried or objected, he would only do

demand I tell him”

first minute or so I figured out what he

didn’t speak he would start guessing

demonstrating them on my body. They were

So I answered. I told him how to hurt me.”

up at me for the first time since she

but she offers me a bitter smile and reaches

my jaw. “It’s okay, big bad

a whine, and Ella determinedy forges on. “I was too young

but I knew how

happen again,

like Cora

have a horrible sick feeling in my stomach,

and whisk Ella away from that horrible place

could hurt her.

would have meant other

what Ella did. My brave, brilliant little mate would never stand by and

if it meant

stopped hiding at night. I gave myself up so

I already was, and it

to be destroyed.” Ella shares, confirming my

her logic. “The matron came almost

call me in for check ups every few weeks.

sort of gentle, and she never tied

she seemed determined

different. He was a true sadist;

escalated over time.” Ella hides her face

was twelve he r*ped me, and that’s

run with us, but most were more afraid

were of the matron. Luckily they didn’t know about the doctor,

stayed behind to never confide in

Ella I’m

doesn’t complain.

have unwound now that

and I can only kiss and caress my sweet mate as

everything she

The matron and the doctor?”

hiss.

only live outside during the

but eventually

to the