Accidental Surrogate

Sinclair

Don’t shift, don’t shift, don’t shift. I think manically Ella needs you.

Listening to Ella recount her childhood always makes me furious, but this time is

worse than all the others. I’ve suspected that Ella suffered terrible traumas for some

time now, but before this night l’d been able to pacify my outrage with the hope that

I’m wrong.

No longer.

As Ella speaks, I wonder how she could ever imagine herself weak. I can’t even stand

to listen to her story, but she actually lived it. She sacrificed herself for her sister, and

she survived things I can only imagine

“When the matron realized it was me, she smiled so cruelly that my stomach turnedshe was only too glad to take, me instead of Cora.” Ella continues, shuddering with

the memory. Her unease gives my wolf the push he needed to put aside his own rage

and comfort her. I finally manage a weak purr, and Ella presses her nose to my chest,

breathing in my scent.

“She took me to her own room and put me in her bed, and then she got in with me

and.. started touching me in ways I didn’t like or understand.

She made me touch her too, and she never stopped talking She told me how pretty I

was over and over, and kept asking me if I liked it. I said no, but she just insisted that

this was a special, secret game I was lucky to play. She said everything I was feeling

might be confusing, but it was good and right and natural. She said it took practice,

but that we’d have plenty of time.. Afterwards she took me back to the dorm with a

reminder not to share our secret. Cora asked me what happened but I didn’t know

how to explain.”

“The next day I went to the doctor in residence, and I told him what the matron had

done. I’d never liked him much, but in my heart I knew what had happened was

wrong, and I didn’t know who else to tell. I thought that since it was about my body,

the doctor was the one who could help. There was no such thing as sex ed at the

orphanage and no one else ever talked to us about our bodies. At first I was relieved

to tell someone. The doctor seemed very concerned, and agreed that it sounded

strange.”

he told me that he

starts and stops

is still steaming around us, so I know she isn’t cold and I know

clothes and put me on

it’s very important that you be still, Ella. This

than you’re used to, and if you move too much I could

Ella s cheeks as she quotes the doctor, and it

“Then he said, T know little girls can have a hard

have these nifty straps to help you.

strapped me down. and then he asked me exactly what

and when I explained he would touch me exactly how she had, saying

didn’t answer, if I cried or objected,

demand I tell him”

minute or so I figured out what he was about, and

questions anymore, but if I didn’t speak he would start guessing more

my body. They

I told him how to hurt me.” Ella is interrupted

up at me for the first time since she

she offers me a bitter smile and reaches

okay, big bad wolf, it’s

a whine, and Ella determinedy forges on. “I was

they did those things, but I knew how

to happen again, but I was

Cora who weren’t

me she didn’t!I have a horrible

go back in time and whisk Ella away from that horrible place before

could hurt her.

meant other children

did. My brave, brilliant little mate would never stand by and

even if it meant being

night. I gave myself up so the others wouldn’t be

I couldn’t be ruined more than I already was, and it

else to be destroyed.” Ella shares, confirming my fears

“The matron came almost every night…

would call me in for check ups every few weeks. I

was sort of gentle, and she never tied me down

inflict pain, she seemed determined to make

true sadist; he loved my fear, loved

hides her face in my neck as

he r*ped me, and that’s when Cora and

with us, but most

were of the matron. Luckily they didn’t know

stayed behind to never confide

tightly on Ella I’m afraid I must be hurting her, but

doesn’t complain.

her muscles have

can only kiss and caress my sweet

everything she

matron and the doctor?”

hiss.

could only

stay away through the first winter, but eventually the police found us squatting

us to the orphanage. When we got back