Cruel World

Chap 59

(THERAPIST OFFICE)

'So Sarah did you write those pointers that I told you?' Becca holds a pen and paper and asked that with a smile

Theo saw how nervously Sarah took the paper from her bag.

Sarah was not looking him ...like she was afraid and it was disturbing for theo

Becca unfolds the paper and reads it 'hmmm, interesting....ok follow this one by one. Theo according to Sarah...she hated the moment when you use to misjudge her not to give the chance to speak to clear her. Instead of doing that you hit her....so is it true or not and please explain if it is'

Theo flinched, he clear his throat 'yes it's true and I'm terribly sorry for those moments'

Becca looked at tense Sarah 'can you highlight some of those moments please'

Sarah closed her eyes like she doesn't want to go there and Theo felt helpless...he squeezed her hand that it's ok to expose his cruelty front of their therapist

Sarah sigh 'there were many... when I met my brother after so many years of my marriage ...he ...he confronted me so bad...even he felt bad after but it still leaves me in a bad mess but most painful were when he locked me in the basement room for days, with limited food.... I almost died (Sarah shiver with the thought) and when we went to Miami he beat me so bad that I was in a coma for days and I can't even speak for weeks' Sarah said with a painful deep voice

was...how he almost lost her ...he again feels hate and disgust

intently at Theo 'theo what you want to say on

I feel like shit....(he then looked at Sarah) I'm sorry baby...so so sorry...i did all this because (he looks so regretful and in shame) because Sarah was Simon sister..and it was a constant reminder for me that because of them I lost Tina, which i know I was wrong on that....so not giving

eye filled with tears and she looks away at how this

continue 'But whenever I do such things especially when you were in the basement room starving and when I slapped you for meeting your brother was all wrong and blaming you for giving interview behind my back in Miami and with out listening to you I did (he was shameful to even say that aloud)....so wrong that

'ok...this was very important to accept your mistakes and you did great theo. I won't say

it made me hurt

softly and tiredly reply 'im sorry you are hurt but you

is right... it's very important ....you look ok by appearance but mentally you are still disturbed... I need to get you out of this......and

than Becca raised another question 'ok next question....theo according to Sarah she always can understand your hate towards her because your thinking she was involved in tina death but she wants to know why you hated your daughter Ava....you were not there when she was born even knowing how difficult

'i...i ...love my daughter so much...Sarah, you also know that...Ava

I was pregnant with your child. When she was born you

me that my plans to put you behind the bars will be compromised....so that why I keep this attitude...but I never hated her...i try to but still I cant....she was my flesh and blood how can I, even when you were gone she reminds me of you....and in order to forget you I was distant to her....but it didn't work out...as I fell so much in love

looks a little stun

her 'yes I do ...it was so frustrating... I mean it was all done...what I wanted for years finally come true when you were in prison but I was so burdened with something heavy and then you were all the time in my mind....i knew i was already in love with you but i never acknowledged that' theo meant every

both of them) ok its last one ..so theo why you play with Sarah emotions