Cruel World

Chap 59

(THERAPIST OFFICE)

'So Sarah did you write those pointers that I told you?' Becca holds a pen and paper and asked that with a smile

Theo saw how nervously Sarah took the paper from her bag.

Sarah was not looking him ...like she was afraid and it was disturbing for theo

Becca unfolds the paper and reads it 'hmmm, interesting....ok follow this one by one. Theo according to Sarah...she hated the moment when you use to misjudge her not to give the chance to speak to clear her. Instead of doing that you hit her....so is it true or not and please explain if it is'

Theo flinched, he clear his throat 'yes it's true and I'm terribly sorry for those moments'

Becca looked at tense Sarah 'can you highlight some of those moments please'

Sarah closed her eyes like she doesn't want to go there and Theo felt helpless...he squeezed her hand that it's ok to expose his cruelty front of their therapist

Sarah sigh 'there were many... when I met my brother after so many years of my marriage ...he ...he confronted me so bad...even he felt bad after but it still leaves me in a bad mess but most painful were when he locked me in the basement room for days, with limited food.... I almost died (Sarah shiver with the thought) and when we went to Miami he beat me so bad that I was in a coma for days and I can't even speak for weeks' Sarah said with a painful deep voice

his head ...he remember all...he remembers how bad he was...how he almost lost her ...he again

'theo what you want to

'I feel fucking guilty and wanted to kill myself the things I did with her.....she is right... I did all of these things....those time give me a sense of power and satisfaction but now I feel like shit....(he then looked at Sarah) I'm sorry baby...so so sorry...i did all this because (he looks so regretful and in shame) because Sarah was Simon sister..and it was a constant reminder for me that because of them I lost Tina, which

tears and she looks away at how this thinking of Theo made her

Miami and with out listening to you I did (he was shameful to even say that aloud)....so wrong

your mistakes and you did great theo. I won't say that it justifies all but it clear some confusion isn't

water cup tightly and nodes 'some how....but listening it made me hurt more...that's why I don't want to

tiredly reply 'im sorry you are hurt but you know it

get you out of this......and I don't think you should feel embarrassed about anything you said here because you know you were

your hate towards her because your thinking she was involved in tina death but she wants to know why you hated your daughter Ava....you were not there when she was born even knowing how difficult

felt uncomfortable 'i...i ...love my daughter so much...Sarah, you also

but I'm talking about those days when you hated that I was pregnant with your child. When she was born you still keep that

you that time but I also feel so attracted and passionate towards you that it scared me that my plans to put you behind the bars will be compromised....so that why I keep this attitude...but I never hated her...i try to but still I cant....she was my flesh and blood how can I, even when you were gone she reminds me of you....and in order to forget you

a little stun 'you miss me

I mean it was all done...what I wanted for years finally come true when you were in prison but I was so burdened with something heavy and then you were all the time in my mind....i

its last one ..so theo why you play with Sarah emotions