Ex-Husband's Regret

A surprise
It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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deeply about it, the bell rings Taking

without saying

down as I rush to the teacher’s lounge. I just want to breathe a little before I have to go to my next class Luckily, no one

to anyone

to the teacher lounge and freeze up. I was expecting it

release a groan as I walk to the furthest

name flashes. I’ve

Ethan I go to hang

accept button instead

Ava?” she calls

anything. Just release the breath I was

my dear, please don’t shut me out. Don’t

catching at

even if I wanted to. My mouth refuses to move. To utter

fucking word.

in your life. I want to be the mother I was supposed

I already lost one child, please don’t makeme lose another. Losing you again just after finding you would kill me” she pleads, crying

breaks my heart.

my eyes. Damn it. I’ve been so emotional these past few

tell her slowly.

you time if that’s what you need,

carried you in my heart even when I thought you had

I’ll always be here for you

be wanted, but I don’t know if I can trust them yet. Only time will

I reply

know. What if she’s just looking for someone

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being used. Of being a second choice just

Rowan.

that towards them. I was just

pieces of my heart.

says walking towards my

I groan under

a junior highschool teacher and she had a way of annoying the hell out of people.

she likes to stick her

“With the way you’ve

you’re preggo” she finishes with a laugh.

know she was joking, but I freeze in my seat. Her words ring

every

okay, Ava? You have to

right?”

stand up as panic starts coursing through my body. Rushing out of the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway till I am out of the school. I immediately jump into my car and speed

of the parking lot.

happening. Please don’t let it be

Try to do the math, but my mind is so jumbled that I cannot think

that I will probably be pulled for over speeding. I needed

Carol was wrong.

and rush out. Unluckily for me, I