Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 59

A surprise
It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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answer that question or think too deeply about

class without saying a single word

I just want to breathe a little before I have to go to my next class Luckily, no one

to anyone

lounge and freeze up. I was

release a groan

phone rings just as I sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their

given their relationship with Ethan I go to hang up, but

accept button instead

she calls

release the

my dear, please don’t shut me out. Don’t shut me and your

catching at

I couldn’t even if I wanted to. My mouth refuses

fucking word.

Ava and I want to be in your life. I

hurting and I want to be there for you. I already lost one child, please

breaks my heart.

my eyes. Damn it. I’ve

her slowly. Trying to push back

if that’s

you in my heart even when I

that I’ll always be here

feels so good to be wanted, but I don’t

I reply before hanging

What if she’s just looking for

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Of being used. Of being a second

Rowan.

or anything like that towards them. I was just trying to

pieces of my heart.

Carol says walking towards my

I groan

had a way of annoying the

her nose in

that food” she looks at me in shock. “With the way

you’re preggo” she finishes

seat. Her words ring in my mind like a

every fiber

“Are you okay, Ava? You have

right?”

up as panic starts coursing through my body. Rushing out of the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway till I am out of the

of the parking lot.

be happening. Please don’t let it

do the math, but my mind is so jumbled that

caring that I will probably be pulled for over speeding. I needed to confirm

Carol was wrong.

car and rush out. Unluckily for me, I bump

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