Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 59

A surprise
It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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can answer that question or think too deeply about it, the bell rings

of my class without saying

to breathe a little before I have to go to my

to anyone

get to the teacher lounge and freeze up. I was

I release a groan as I walk to the

rings just as I sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their calls

them. Especially given their relationship with Ethan I

accept button instead

Ava?” she

say anything. Just release the breath I

out. Don’t shut me and your father

catching at the

wanted to. My mouth refuses to move. To

fucking word.

want to be in your

please don’t makeme lose another. Losing you

breaks my heart.

eyes. Damn it. I’ve been so emotional

time” I tell her slowly. Trying to push back

give you time if that’s what you need, but always remember that

in my heart even when I thought

always be here for you if you need me”

feels so good to be wanted, but I don’t know if I can trust them yet. Only time

reply

What if she’s just looking

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That’s what I’m afraid of. Of being used. Of being a second choice just like I was

Rowan.

towards

pieces of my heart.

girl” Carol says walking

I groan under

junior highschool teacher and she had a

likes to stick her nose in other

“With the way you’ve

preggo” she finishes with

know she was joking, but I freeze in my seat. Her words ring in my mind like a broken

fear through every fiber of

you okay, Ava? You have to know that I

right?”

ran through the

of the parking lot.

Please don’t let it

to do the math, but my mind is

not caring that I will probably be pulled for over speeding. I needed to

Carol was wrong.

my car and rush out. Unluckily for

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