Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 59

A surprise
It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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think too deeply about it, the bell rings Taking my

of my class without saying a single word

the teacher’s lounge. I just want to breathe a little before I have to go to my next class Luckily, no one stops me

to anyone

up. I was expecting it to be at least

a groan

down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their calls

Especially given their relationship with Ethan

accept button instead

Ava?” she calls

anything. Just release the breath I was

dear, please don’t shut me out. Don’t shut

catching at

still don’t say anything. I couldn’t even if I wanted

fucking word.

and I want to be in your life. I want

you. I already lost one child, please don’t makeme lose another.

breaks my heart.

fill my eyes. Damn it. I’ve been so emotional these past

tell her slowly. Trying to push back my

time if that’s what

when I thought you had died. I

and know that I’ll always be here

don’t know

reply before

but I just don’t know. What if she’s just looking for someone to

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That’s what I’m afraid of. Of being used. Of

Rowan.

being cold or anything like that towards them. I was

pieces of my heart.

Carol says

I groan

was a junior highschool teacher and she had a way of annoying

stick her nose in

in shock. “With the way you’ve been

think you’re preggo”

joking, but I freeze in my seat. Her words ring in my mind

fear through every

Ava? You have to know that I was

right?”

out of the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway till I am out of the school.

of the parking lot.

Please don’t

think back. Try to do the math, but my mind is so jumbled

fast, not caring that I will probably be pulled for over speeding.

Carol was wrong.

the store, I park my car and rush

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