Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 59

A surprise
It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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think too deeply about it, the bell rings

of my class without saying a single word

have to go to my next class

to anyone

I was expecting it to be at

groan as I walk to

sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their calls not really

relationship with Ethan

accept button instead

she

don’t say anything. Just release

Don’t shut me and your father

catching at

couldn’t even if I wanted to.

fucking word.

my daughter, Ava and I want to be in your life. I want to

one child, please don’t makeme lose another.

breaks my heart.

eyes. Damn it. I’ve

I tell her slowly. Trying to push back

give you time if that’s what you need, but always remember that

carried you in my heart even when I thought you had died. I

always be here

It feels so good to be wanted, but I don’t know if I can trust them

I reply before hanging

but I just don’t know. What if she’s just looking for someone to hang

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That’s what I’m afraid of. Of being used. Of being a second choice just like I

Rowan.

like that towards

pieces of my heart.

Carol says

groan under my

junior highschool teacher and she had a way of annoying the hell out

she likes to stick her nose in other people’s

“With the way

think you’re preggo” she finishes with

but I freeze in my seat. Her

every fiber of my

and frowns. “Are you okay, Ava? You have to know that

right?”

my body. Rushing out of the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway till I

of the parking lot.

couldn’t be happening. Please don’t let it

back. Try to do the math, but

that I will probably be pulled for over speeding.

Carol was wrong.

the store, I park my car and rush

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