Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 59

A surprise
It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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can answer that question or think too deeply about it, the

out of my class without saying

little before I have to

to anyone

up. I was expecting it to be at least

packed. I release a groan as I walk to the

as I sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their calls not

relationship with Ethan I go

accept button instead

Ava?” she calls

anything. Just release the

don’t shut me out. Don’t shut me and your father

at the

wanted to.

fucking word.

my daughter, Ava and I want to be in your life. I want to be the

be there for you. I already lost one child, please don’t makeme lose another. Losing you again just after finding you would kill me”

breaks my heart.

I’ve been

slowly. Trying

that’s

my heart even when I thought you had

and know that I’ll always be here for you if

don’t know if I

reply before hanging

but I just don’t know. What if

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gap. That’s what I’m afraid of. Of being used. Of being a second choice just like I was

Rowan.

cold or anything like that towards them. I was just trying to

pieces of my heart.

girl” Carol says walking towards my

groan under

had a way of annoying the hell

stick her nose

in shock. “With the way you’ve been eating and how moody you

you’re preggo” she finishes

my seat. Her words

every fiber

Ava? You have to know that

right?”

blindly ran through the hallway till I am out

of the parking lot.

couldn’t be happening. Please don’t let

try to think back. Try to do the math, but my mind

be pulled

Carol was wrong.

to the store, I park my car and rush out. Unluckily

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