Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 59

A surprise
It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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answer that question or think too deeply about it,

without saying

before I have to go

to anyone

up. I was expecting it to be

groan as I walk to

rings just as I sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their calls not really

relationship with Ethan I go to hang up,

accept button instead

Ava?” she calls

release the

shut me out. Don’t shut me

catching at

even if I wanted to. My mouth refuses

fucking word.

in your life. I want to be the

I want to be there for you. I already lost one child, please don’t makeme lose another. Losing you again just after finding you would kill me”

breaks my heart.

eyes. Damn it. I’ve been

her slowly. Trying to

that’s what you need, but always remember

when I thought

and know that I’ll always be here for you if

but I don’t know if

I reply before

saying, but I just don’t know. What if she’s just looking for someone to hang on

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That’s what I’m afraid of. Of being used. Of being a second

Rowan.

that towards them. I was just trying to protect the

pieces of my heart.

girl” Carol says walking towards my

I groan under

junior highschool teacher and she had a way of annoying the

likes to stick her nose in other people’s

“With the way you’ve

preggo” she finishes with

joking, but I freeze in my seat.

fear through every fiber of my

behavior and frowns. “Are you okay, Ava?

right?”

panic starts coursing through my body. Rushing out of the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway till I

of the parking lot.

be happening. Please don’t let it be happening.

Try to do the math, but my mind is so jumbled

probably be pulled for over speeding. I

Carol was wrong.

I park my car and rush out. Unluckily for

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