Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 59

A surprise
It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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too deeply about

out of my class without saying a single word to my

to breathe a little before I have to go to my

to anyone

to the teacher lounge and freeze up. I was expecting it to be at least somewhat empty,

I release a groan as I walk to the

down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their

Especially given their relationship with Ethan I go to hang up, but I press

accept button instead

Ava?” she calls

don’t say anything. Just release the breath I was

out. Don’t shut me and your father out”

catching at

couldn’t even if I wanted to. My mouth refuses to move. To

fucking word.

be in your life. I want to

child, please don’t makeme lose another. Losing

breaks my heart.

it. I’ve been so emotional these

time” I tell her slowly. Trying to

that’s what you need, but always remember that I

when I

and know that I’ll always be here for you if

so good to be wanted, but I don’t know if I can trust them yet. Only

reply before

What if

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I’m afraid of. Of being used. Of being

Rowan.

wasn’t being cold or anything like that towards them. I was just

pieces of my heart.

Carol says

I groan

she had a way of annoying the hell out

her nose in other people’s

she looks at me in shock. “With the way you’ve been eating and how moody

think you’re preggo” she finishes

my seat. Her words ring

every fiber

my behavior and frowns. “Are you okay, Ava? You have

right?”

through my body. Rushing out of the lounge, I blindly ran through

of the parking lot.

couldn’t be happening. Please don’t let it

Try to do the math, but my mind is so jumbled that I

be

Carol was wrong.

park my car and rush out. Unluckily for

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