Ex-Husband's Regret

A surprise
It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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that question or think too deeply about it, the

class without saying a single word

my head down as I rush to the teacher’s lounge. I just want to breathe a little before I have to go to

to anyone

and freeze up. I was expecting

release a groan as I walk to the

sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored

Ethan I go to hang up,

accept button instead

Ava?” she

say anything. Just release the

shut me out. Don’t shut me and your father out” she

catching at the

still don’t say anything. I couldn’t even if I wanted to. My

fucking word.

and I want to be in your life. I want to be the mother

lost one child, please don’t makeme lose another. Losing you again just after finding you would kill

breaks my heart.

Damn it. I’ve been so

slowly. Trying

that’s what you need,

always carried you in my heart even when I thought you had died. I hope

know that I’ll always be here for

wanted, but I don’t know if I can trust them yet. Only time

I reply before hanging

know. What if she’s just looking for someone to hang on

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of. Of being used. Of being

Rowan.

or anything like that towards

pieces of my heart.

says walking towards

I groan under

junior highschool teacher and she had a way of annoying

she likes to stick her nose

that food” she looks at me in shock. “With the way you’ve been eating and

would think you’re preggo”

seat. Her words

fear through every fiber of my

Ava? You have to know

right?”

quickly stand up as panic starts coursing through my body. Rushing out of the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway till I am out of the school. I immediately jump into my car and

of the parking lot.

be happening. Please

back. Try to do the math, but my mind

drive fast, not caring that I will probably be pulled for over

Carol was wrong.

store, I park my car and rush out. Unluckily for