Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 62

62 Noah’s back

Ava

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I’m cleaning the house. A thorough cleaning just to keep my mind off things. I’m still coming to

terms with the fact that I’m pregnant.

When Rowan rejected the idea of us having another baby. I all but gave up on giving Noah a

sibling. Now I have another baby on the way and I didn’t know how to feel.

My phone rings and I pick it up. Normally I would have refused to pick up, but not today. Pushing

those close to me away wasn’t doing me any good..

“Hi Letty” I murmur while sitting down.

I’ve been so tired of late. I should have known that there was something more to it.

“Oh my God. You picked up. I thought you wouldn’t” she screams through the phone before

sniffing. “I missed hearing your voice. It’s been weeks”

م

“I’m sorry.” I release a breath. “I just didn’t know how to handle everything so I pushed you away”

I’ve never been good at communicating my feelings. I’ve never been good at even acknowledging

them. When I’m stressed or over emotional, I shut down. I try to bury them so that I can function

properly. Pushing my emotions down is usually better than acknowledging them. Now I know

that isn’t healthy at all.

“Are you okay now?”

“Not all the way, but I will be” I assure her.

I don’t know how I plan to do that, but I was going to come out of this stronger.

I still can’t believe that I thought of killing myself and my own child. I may not know how to feel,

but this baby was my blood. Just like Noah is. I plan to be a good mother. I plan to be the best

mother to him or her.

I shake those thoughts away. I don’t want to think of how low I had hit. I don’t want to think of

what I almost did.

“I’m pregnant” I whisper, when she doesn’t say anything after a while.

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What? She shrieks in surprise “When did you find out?”

“About a week ago

is unexpected and unplanned. That

not like his or

Laush

tells me as the surprises fades and

the news. I thought you wouldn’t, given who the

believe that a baby is a blessing, and this baby is who you

recently been through. This baby is your saving grace. He or she came to

She takes a deep

Ava. I could see it. Everyone could see it.

else has managed to do.

and it’s true. It’s because

willing to

Even when I kept pushing you

I

thing makes me

More like the sister I never had. Of course I wouldn’t give up on

know you

up after that. Moving away from serious conversations. By the

an hour or so

much I had missed her. Just how lonely I had

myself, now. I wasn’t

am exhausted by the time I am done. I collapse on the sofa, just as I hear

front door open.

dare enter my house without knocking or ringing the

is answered when

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am home!” he

up. I rush out of the living room

through the entry way.

“Noah!”

mine. I hug him close to me as tears fall down

had missed

him all over his face, I hold him

but he

much! How are you here right now?” I ask him as I pull away a little

don’t let him go.

care. I was just so fucking happy

needed me. It was supposed to be

we talked

father that I realize Rowan was

emotion in his eyes, but I just can’t figure out what

“Hi” I say softly.

my house everyday just to check up on. He has been

still surprises me. He was so different from the

react to

to his words, he got me a therapist who I began seeing three

surprised by his action. It was so

are you today?” he asks with a small

steps to get better and that’s

and I look at him. “Is it true that you’re having a

Rowan who looks at me sheepishly while rubbing

tell

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