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I’m cleaning the house. A thorough cleaning just to keep my mind off things. I’m still coming to

terms with the fact that I’m pregnant.

When Rowan rejected the idea of us having another baby. I all but gave up on giving Noah a

sibling. Now I have another baby on the way and I didn’t know how to feel.

My phone rings and I pick it up. Normally I would have refused to pick up, but not today. Pushing

those close to me away wasn’t doing me any good..

“Hi Letty” I murmur while sitting down.

I’ve been so tired of late. I should have known that there was something more to it.

“Oh my God. You picked up. I thought you wouldn’t” she screams through the phone before

sniffing. “I missed hearing your voice. It’s been weeks”

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“I’m sorry.” I release a breath. “I just didn’t know how to handle everything so I pushed you away”

I’ve never been good at communicating my feelings. I’ve never been good at even acknowledging

them. When I’m stressed or over emotional, I shut down. I try to bury them so that I can function

properly. Pushing my emotions down is usually better than acknowledging them. Now I know

that isn’t healthy at all.

“Are you okay now?”

“Not all the way, but I will be” I assure her.

I don’t know how I plan to do that, but I was going to come out of this stronger.

I still can’t believe that I thought of killing myself and my own child. I may not know how to feel,

but this baby was my blood. Just like Noah is. I plan to be a good mother. I plan to be the best

mother to him or her.

I shake those thoughts away. I don’t want to think of how low I had hit. I don’t want to think of

what I almost did.

“I’m pregnant” I whisper, when she doesn’t say anything after a while.

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What? She shrieks in surprise “When did you find out?”

“About a week ago

and unplanned. That won’t

always wanted another child. I may not like his or her father

Laush

congratulations” she tells me as the surprises fades and joy

about the news. I thought you wouldn’t, given who the

am. I truly believe that a baby is a blessing,

recently been through. This baby is your saving grace.

in time.” She takes a deep breath as emotions clogs her

Everyone could see it. I

to do. Pulling you

said and it’s true. It’s because of Noah and

willing to

Letty. Even when I kept pushing you away, you still kept

me” I was close

single thing makes

I never had. Of course I wouldn’t give up on

I know you would do the

after that. Moving away from serious conversations. By the time we say goodbye

It was an hour or

nice talking to her. I didn’t realize how much I had

past few weeks. I felt more like myself, now. I wasn’t quite there yet, but I

am done.

front door open.

enter my house without

question is answered when I hear his

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am home!”

takes over my face and I stand up. I rush out of the living

through the entry way.

“Noah!”

mine. I hug him close to me as tears fall down my face. His

I had missed

him all over his face, I

he doesn’t push me

you here right now?” I ask

don’t let him go.

floor, but I didn’t care. I

It was supposed to be a surprise, that’s

when we talked

father that I realize Rowan was standing before him. Our

an emotion in his eyes, but I just can’t

“Hi” I say softly.

has been by my house everyday just to check up on. He has been

was so different from the Rowan I

react to this version

his words, he got me a therapist who I began

I’m left surprised by his action. It was so unlike

you today?” he asks

I shrug. I was making steps to get better

I look at

glare at Rowan who looks at me sheepishly

tell him in

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