Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 62

62 Noah’s back

Ava

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I’m cleaning the house. A thorough cleaning just to keep my mind off things. I’m still coming to

terms with the fact that I’m pregnant.

When Rowan rejected the idea of us having another baby. I all but gave up on giving Noah a

sibling. Now I have another baby on the way and I didn’t know how to feel.

My phone rings and I pick it up. Normally I would have refused to pick up, but not today. Pushing

those close to me away wasn’t doing me any good..

“Hi Letty” I murmur while sitting down.

I’ve been so tired of late. I should have known that there was something more to it.

“Oh my God. You picked up. I thought you wouldn’t” she screams through the phone before

sniffing. “I missed hearing your voice. It’s been weeks”

م

“I’m sorry.” I release a breath. “I just didn’t know how to handle everything so I pushed you away”

I’ve never been good at communicating my feelings. I’ve never been good at even acknowledging

them. When I’m stressed or over emotional, I shut down. I try to bury them so that I can function

properly. Pushing my emotions down is usually better than acknowledging them. Now I know

that isn’t healthy at all.

“Are you okay now?”

“Not all the way, but I will be” I assure her.

I don’t know how I plan to do that, but I was going to come out of this stronger.

I still can’t believe that I thought of killing myself and my own child. I may not know how to feel,

but this baby was my blood. Just like Noah is. I plan to be a good mother. I plan to be the best

mother to him or her.

I shake those thoughts away. I don’t want to think of how low I had hit. I don’t want to think of

what I almost did.

“I’m pregnant” I whisper, when she doesn’t say anything after a while.

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What? She shrieks in surprise “When did you find out?”

“About a week ago

baby is unexpected and unplanned. That won’t stop

like his or her father right now, but it’s

Laush

darling, congratulations” she tells me as the surprises fades and

the news. I thought

truly believe that a baby is a blessing, and this baby is who

through. This baby is your saving grace. He or she came to

deep breath

could see it. Everyone could see it. I believe this baby

managed to do. Pulling you out of the

think about what she’s said and it’s true. It’s because of Noah and this child that

I’m willing to get

I kept pushing you away, you still kept

up on me” I was

makes me emotional

the sister I never had. Of course I

I know you would

after that. Moving away from serious conversations. By

an

I didn’t realize how much I had missed her. Just how

I wasn’t quite there yet, but I was on my

am done. I collapse

front door open.

would dare enter my house without knocking

is answered when I hear his

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Mommy I am

big smile takes over my face and I stand up. I rush out of the living room just as

through the entry way.

“Noah!”

mine. I hug him close to me as

I had

his face, I hold him

he

are you here right now?” I

don’t let him go.

care. I was just so

you needed me. It was supposed to be a

we talked

that I realize Rowan was standing

but I

“Hi” I say softly.

by my house everyday just to check up on. He has been supportive and

different from the Rowan I was used to that I

to react to this

his words, he got me a therapist who I began

left surprised by his action. It

Ava…how are you today?” he asks

good” I shrug. I was making steps to

at him. “Is

at me sheepishly while rubbing the back of

tell him

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