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I’m cleaning the house. A thorough cleaning just to keep my mind off things. I’m still coming to

terms with the fact that I’m pregnant.

When Rowan rejected the idea of us having another baby. I all but gave up on giving Noah a

sibling. Now I have another baby on the way and I didn’t know how to feel.

My phone rings and I pick it up. Normally I would have refused to pick up, but not today. Pushing

those close to me away wasn’t doing me any good..

“Hi Letty” I murmur while sitting down.

I’ve been so tired of late. I should have known that there was something more to it.

“Oh my God. You picked up. I thought you wouldn’t” she screams through the phone before

sniffing. “I missed hearing your voice. It’s been weeks”

م

“I’m sorry.” I release a breath. “I just didn’t know how to handle everything so I pushed you away”

I’ve never been good at communicating my feelings. I’ve never been good at even acknowledging

them. When I’m stressed or over emotional, I shut down. I try to bury them so that I can function

properly. Pushing my emotions down is usually better than acknowledging them. Now I know

that isn’t healthy at all.

“Are you okay now?”

“Not all the way, but I will be” I assure her.

I don’t know how I plan to do that, but I was going to come out of this stronger.

I still can’t believe that I thought of killing myself and my own child. I may not know how to feel,

but this baby was my blood. Just like Noah is. I plan to be a good mother. I plan to be the best

mother to him or her.

I shake those thoughts away. I don’t want to think of how low I had hit. I don’t want to think of

what I almost did.

“I’m pregnant” I whisper, when she doesn’t say anything after a while.

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What? She shrieks in surprise “When did you find out?”

“About a week ago

baby is unexpected and unplanned. That won’t stop me from

I always wanted another child. I may not like his or her

Laush

she tells me as the surprises fades and joy

happy about the news. I thought you wouldn’t, given who the

I truly believe that a baby is a blessing, and this baby is who you

through. This baby is your saving grace. He or she came

takes a deep breath

could see it. I believe this

do. Pulling you out of

true. It’s because of Noah and this child that I want

to get the help I

Letty. Even when I kept pushing you away, you still kept trying. You

I

thing makes me emotional

bestfriend. More like the sister I never had. Of

know you would do

from serious conversations. By the time we say goodbye

was an hour or

her. I didn’t realize how much I had missed her. Just how lonely I

now. I wasn’t quite

by the time I am done. I collapse on

front door open.

hell would dare enter my house

is answered when I hear his

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am home!” he

over my face and I stand up. I rush

through the entry way.

“Noah!”

I hug him close to me as tears fall down my

I had

him all over his face, I

he doesn’t push me

much! How are you here right now?” I ask him as

don’t let him go.

on the floor, but I didn’t care. I was just so

said you needed me. It was supposed to be a surprise, that’s why

we

father that I realize Rowan was standing before

in his eyes, but I just can’t

“Hi” I say softly.

by my house everyday just to check up

still surprises me. He was so different from the

react to

he got me a therapist who I

his action. It was so unlike

he

good” I shrug. I was making steps to get better and that’s what

I look at him. “Is it true that you’re

looks at me sheepishly while rubbing the

I tell

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