Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 62

62 Noah’s back

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I’m cleaning the house. A thorough cleaning just to keep my mind off things. I’m still coming to

terms with the fact that I’m pregnant.

When Rowan rejected the idea of us having another baby. I all but gave up on giving Noah a

sibling. Now I have another baby on the way and I didn’t know how to feel.

My phone rings and I pick it up. Normally I would have refused to pick up, but not today. Pushing

those close to me away wasn’t doing me any good..

“Hi Letty” I murmur while sitting down.

I’ve been so tired of late. I should have known that there was something more to it.

“Oh my God. You picked up. I thought you wouldn’t” she screams through the phone before

sniffing. “I missed hearing your voice. It’s been weeks”

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“I’m sorry.” I release a breath. “I just didn’t know how to handle everything so I pushed you away”

I’ve never been good at communicating my feelings. I’ve never been good at even acknowledging

them. When I’m stressed or over emotional, I shut down. I try to bury them so that I can function

properly. Pushing my emotions down is usually better than acknowledging them. Now I know

that isn’t healthy at all.

“Are you okay now?”

“Not all the way, but I will be” I assure her.

I don’t know how I plan to do that, but I was going to come out of this stronger.

I still can’t believe that I thought of killing myself and my own child. I may not know how to feel,

but this baby was my blood. Just like Noah is. I plan to be a good mother. I plan to be the best

mother to him or her.

I shake those thoughts away. I don’t want to think of how low I had hit. I don’t want to think of

what I almost did.

“I’m pregnant” I whisper, when she doesn’t say anything after a while.

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What? She shrieks in surprise “When did you find out?”

“About a week ago

this baby is unexpected and unplanned. That won’t stop me

always wanted another child. I may not like his or her father right now, but

Laush

tells me as the surprises fades and joy

the news. I thought you wouldn’t, given who the

is a blessing, and this baby is who you

through. This baby is your saving grace. He or she came

in time.” She takes a deep breath as

could see it. Everyone could see it. I believe

managed to do. Pulling

what she’s said and it’s true. It’s because of Noah and this child

That I’m willing to get the help

you for trying Letty. Even when I kept pushing you away,

I was

thing makes me emotional

sister I never had. Of course I wouldn’t give up

know you would do the

that. Moving away from serious conversations.

It was an hour

to her. I didn’t realize how much I had missed

felt more like myself, now. I wasn’t quite there yet,

exhausted by the time I am

front door open.

hell would dare enter my house without knocking or ringing the

question is answered when I hear his sweet

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Mommy I am home!” he

smile takes over my face and I stand up. I rush out of

through the entry way.

“Noah!”

crashes with mine. I hug him close to me as tears fall down

I had missed

all over his

he doesn’t

you here right now?” I

don’t let him go.

the floor, but I didn’t care. I was just so fucking happy to have him here

was supposed

we talked

was only after he mentions his father that I

but I just can’t figure

“Hi” I say softly.

everyday just to check

different from the Rowan I was

to this version of

therapist who I began seeing three days ago. Every time he

by his action. It was so unlike him.

are you today?” he

I was making steps

sleeves and I look at him. “Is it true that

who looks at me sheepishly while rubbing the back of

tell him in

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