His Immense Desires

THE MUM I WISH I HAD

**STEFFS'POV**

It's been two weeks since I last saw Janelle, it was not easy for me when I reported her to the lecturer.

I only did that because I still felt hurt at her words, when she left the class, I was so down, but me, being a strong girl, I masked up my emotions and tried acting strong.

I never knew the lecturer would be so tough on her, I assumed since he's a very young lecturer he would take it easy on her, but it was the opposite.

Janelle was meant to come to class today, since last week Thursday marked the end of her suspension from the sociology class, I wondered why she didn't come to school today.

After lectures, I thought on going to her house but on second thought, I decided to go visit my parents.

It's been a while since I last saw my parents.

I went back to the lodge with the hope of visiting my parents, I got carried away by the breeze and fresh air which sauntered its way to the windows and finally into my room.

I decided to take a little nap, school was really stressful.

**JANELLE'S POV**

"And that was all what happened, i tried apologizing to her but to no avail, she didn't even try listening to me.

She just went so far, reporting me to her lecturer, although I feel her pains, but still, I haven't been going to his class for the past two weeks.

The worst part is that the lecturer feels insulted by me, he thinks I was trying to make mockery of him due to how young he is.

I don't even know how I am going to face him in his next class.

I just don't know", I said addressing Steffs' parents.

Yes steffs' parents, I came here because literally I am so fed up with the fact that I and Steff are having issues.

I know that if I can't talk to her, her parents would probably talk to her.

"Janelle I understand the fact that you are trying to help her from her addiction, we have been trying our best to make sure she quits the drug, but what do you expect when she spent her last thirtteen years with typical Jamaican kids.

was once an addict when I was her age, but her father helped me through

him", she said looking

I wished I had parents who cared more

I will get going, tomorrow is Saturday and I have

say that, it's almost 8pm and you intend

Do you think you are still in Florida where you can go

Hell baby, the rate of rape here is too much, it's not just rape but you could be be manhandled by

night, please??", She cried out, giving me the puppy look, that made

crossed my hand to the other side of the table, and clasped her hand, urging her that I would stay for

I would definitely do so", I said, giving

the kitchen, she stopped me, and said, "no baby, don't worry, it's just

laughed and subjected to

and steffs' Dad, Mr Douglas had little talk, after which Mrs Douglas

were done eating, I cleared the table and went to the kitchen

with the plates, so I went to the sitting room, where I saw steffs' mum watching a

o stood on a spot, trying to remember when last I saw my mum so engrossed

For her, it's either work or she spends her day arguing with me, or threatening me to

because I still respect the

up, you look zoned

just thinking about

what, is it about Stefflon again?, You really

a tear

"Shhhh, what's that Janelle, I

came over and brought me to the cushion,

I felt okay, "do

"I-it-its n-noth-ing", I stuttered.

"It can't be nothing, you can confide in me", she

m-mum",

to you mum?", She

"She-she doesn't care about me, she doesn't trust me, she doesn't even care about me, she ju-ju-just, I don't even know what I did to her",

your mum loves you, there's no mother that doesn't love her child, maybe she's just so riled

with the fact that you are in highschool, so she feels you have the right to

talk like that Janelle, don't let your emotions