His Immense Desires

THE MUM I WISH I HAD

**STEFFS'POV**

It's been two weeks since I last saw Janelle, it was not easy for me when I reported her to the lecturer.

I only did that because I still felt hurt at her words, when she left the class, I was so down, but me, being a strong girl, I masked up my emotions and tried acting strong.

I never knew the lecturer would be so tough on her, I assumed since he's a very young lecturer he would take it easy on her, but it was the opposite.

Janelle was meant to come to class today, since last week Thursday marked the end of her suspension from the sociology class, I wondered why she didn't come to school today.

After lectures, I thought on going to her house but on second thought, I decided to go visit my parents.

It's been a while since I last saw my parents.

I went back to the lodge with the hope of visiting my parents, I got carried away by the breeze and fresh air which sauntered its way to the windows and finally into my room.

I decided to take a little nap, school was really stressful.

**JANELLE'S POV**

"And that was all what happened, i tried apologizing to her but to no avail, she didn't even try listening to me.

She just went so far, reporting me to her lecturer, although I feel her pains, but still, I haven't been going to his class for the past two weeks.

The worst part is that the lecturer feels insulted by me, he thinks I was trying to make mockery of him due to how young he is.

I don't even know how I am going to face him in his next class.

I just don't know", I said addressing Steffs' parents.

Yes steffs' parents, I came here because literally I am so fed up with the fact that I and Steff are having issues.

I know that if I can't talk to her, her parents would probably talk to her.

"Janelle I understand the fact that you are trying to help her from her addiction, we have been trying our best to make sure she quits the drug, but what do you expect when she spent her last thirtteen years with typical Jamaican kids.

I was her age, but her father helped me through with it,

forever be grateful to him", she said

see the great love that exists between them, I won't lie, I wished I

I do understand also, I think I will get going, tomorrow is Saturday and I have a whole lot of

no, no, no, how can you say that, it's almost

what?, Do you think you are still in Florida

baby, the rate of rape here is too much, it's not just rape but you could be be manhandled by all these street boys, they could also go away with your

out, giving me the puppy look, that made to laugh out loud, still giving a thought to

Jamaica could get scary at night sometimes, I crossed my hand to the other side of

definitely do so", I

the kitchen, she stopped me, and said, "no baby, don't worry, it's just to warm it up, you could stay here and give your

laughed and subjected

Mr Douglas had little talk, after which

After we were done eating, I cleared the table and

I went to the sitting room, where I saw steffs' mum watching a

trying to remember when last I saw my mum so

her, it's either work or she spends her day arguing with me, or threatening me to do

still respect the fact that she's my

what's up, you look

thinking about

is it about Stefflon again?,

just smiled as a tear escaped

that Janelle, I thought we talked about this", she

it was a hurtful cry, she came over and brought me to the cushion, after which she started

some minutes, I felt okay, "do why were you crying?", She

"I-it-its n-noth-ing", I stuttered.

"It can't be nothing, you

m-mum",

happened to you mum?",

she doesn't trust me, she doesn't even care about me, she ju-ju-just, I don't

you, there's no mother that doesn't love her child, maybe she's just so riled

the fact that you are in highschool, so she feels you have the right to do what you want, she just cares so much about you that it

let your