His Immense Desires

THE MUM I WISH I HAD

**STEFFS'POV**

It's been two weeks since I last saw Janelle, it was not easy for me when I reported her to the lecturer.

I only did that because I still felt hurt at her words, when she left the class, I was so down, but me, being a strong girl, I masked up my emotions and tried acting strong.

I never knew the lecturer would be so tough on her, I assumed since he's a very young lecturer he would take it easy on her, but it was the opposite.

Janelle was meant to come to class today, since last week Thursday marked the end of her suspension from the sociology class, I wondered why she didn't come to school today.

After lectures, I thought on going to her house but on second thought, I decided to go visit my parents.

It's been a while since I last saw my parents.

I went back to the lodge with the hope of visiting my parents, I got carried away by the breeze and fresh air which sauntered its way to the windows and finally into my room.

I decided to take a little nap, school was really stressful.

**JANELLE'S POV**

"And that was all what happened, i tried apologizing to her but to no avail, she didn't even try listening to me.

She just went so far, reporting me to her lecturer, although I feel her pains, but still, I haven't been going to his class for the past two weeks.

The worst part is that the lecturer feels insulted by me, he thinks I was trying to make mockery of him due to how young he is.

I don't even know how I am going to face him in his next class.

I just don't know", I said addressing Steffs' parents.

Yes steffs' parents, I came here because literally I am so fed up with the fact that I and Steff are having issues.

I know that if I can't talk to her, her parents would probably talk to her.

"Janelle I understand the fact that you are trying to help her from her addiction, we have been trying our best to make sure she quits the drug, but what do you expect when she spent her last thirtteen years with typical Jamaican kids.

I was her age, but her father helped me through with it, it wasn't easy at

him", she said looking into

could see the great love that exists between them, I won't lie, I wished I had parents who cared more about the welfare of their children than their

and I have a whole lot of work to do in my lodge, if

can you say that, it's almost 8pm and you intend leaving for

still in Florida

it's not just rape but you

cried out, giving me the puppy look, that made to

get scary at night sometimes, I crossed my hand to the other side of the table,

do so",

standing up, I stood up to follow her to the kitchen, she stopped me, and said, "no baby, don't worry, it's just to warm it up, you could stay here and give your bestfriends' dad some

and subjected

Mr Douglas had little

cleared the table and went to the kitchen to wash

the plates, so I went to the sitting

spot, trying to remember when last I saw my mum so

she spends her day arguing with me, or threatening me

still respect the fact that she's my mum,

"Hey what's up, you look zoned out", that

I was just thinking about something",

about Stefflon again?, You really love her", she

a tear

"Shhhh, what's that Janelle, I thought we talked about this",

I started crying, it was a hurtful cry, she came over and brought me to the cushion, after which she started

minutes, I felt okay,

"I-it-its n-noth-ing", I stuttered.

be nothing, you can confide in me",

m-mum",

happened to you

she doesn't even care about me, she ju-ju-just, I

"Shh, don't talk like that Janelle, your mum loves you, there's no mother that doesn't love her child, maybe she's just so

she feels you have the right to do what you want, she just cares so much about you that it hurts

like that Janelle, don't let your