His Immense Desires

THE MUM I WISH I HAD

**STEFFS'POV**

It's been two weeks since I last saw Janelle, it was not easy for me when I reported her to the lecturer.

I only did that because I still felt hurt at her words, when she left the class, I was so down, but me, being a strong girl, I masked up my emotions and tried acting strong.

I never knew the lecturer would be so tough on her, I assumed since he's a very young lecturer he would take it easy on her, but it was the opposite.

Janelle was meant to come to class today, since last week Thursday marked the end of her suspension from the sociology class, I wondered why she didn't come to school today.

After lectures, I thought on going to her house but on second thought, I decided to go visit my parents.

It's been a while since I last saw my parents.

I went back to the lodge with the hope of visiting my parents, I got carried away by the breeze and fresh air which sauntered its way to the windows and finally into my room.

I decided to take a little nap, school was really stressful.

**JANELLE'S POV**

"And that was all what happened, i tried apologizing to her but to no avail, she didn't even try listening to me.

She just went so far, reporting me to her lecturer, although I feel her pains, but still, I haven't been going to his class for the past two weeks.

The worst part is that the lecturer feels insulted by me, he thinks I was trying to make mockery of him due to how young he is.

I don't even know how I am going to face him in his next class.

I just don't know", I said addressing Steffs' parents.

Yes steffs' parents, I came here because literally I am so fed up with the fact that I and Steff are having issues.

I know that if I can't talk to her, her parents would probably talk to her.

"Janelle I understand the fact that you are trying to help her from her addiction, we have been trying our best to make sure she quits the drug, but what do you expect when she spent her last thirtteen years with typical Jamaican kids.

when I was her age, but her father helped me through with it,

will forever be grateful to him", she said looking into the eyes of

see the great love that exists between them, I won't lie, I wished I had parents who cared more about

tomorrow is Saturday and I have a

you say that, it's

you in Dreamland or what?, Do you think you are still in Florida where you can go out and come back

Hell baby, the rate of rape here is too much, it's not just rape but you

you spend the night, please??", She cried out, giving me the puppy look, that made to laugh out

side of the

do so", I said, giving her a reassuring

follow her to the kitchen, she stopped

and subjected to her

Douglas had little talk, after which Mrs Douglas came with the

I cleared the table and went to the

to the sitting room, where I

the movie, o stood on a spot, trying to remember when last I saw my mum

it's either work or she spends her day arguing with me, or threatening me

threatening, because I still respect the fact

"Hey what's up, you

thinking about something",

Stefflon again?, You

a tear escaped my

"Shhhh, what's that Janelle, I thought

hurtful cry, she came over and brought me to the cushion, after which

felt okay, "do why were you crying?",

"I-it-its n-noth-ing", I stuttered.

"It can't be nothing, you

m-mum", I

"What happened to you mum?",

she doesn't trust me, she doesn't even care about me, she ju-ju-just, I don't even know what I did

talk like that Janelle, your mum loves you, there's no mother that doesn't love her child,

feels you have the right to do what you want, she just cares so

don't let your emotions