His Immense Desires

THE MUM I WISH I HAD

**STEFFS'POV**

It's been two weeks since I last saw Janelle, it was not easy for me when I reported her to the lecturer.

I only did that because I still felt hurt at her words, when she left the class, I was so down, but me, being a strong girl, I masked up my emotions and tried acting strong.

I never knew the lecturer would be so tough on her, I assumed since he's a very young lecturer he would take it easy on her, but it was the opposite.

Janelle was meant to come to class today, since last week Thursday marked the end of her suspension from the sociology class, I wondered why she didn't come to school today.

After lectures, I thought on going to her house but on second thought, I decided to go visit my parents.

It's been a while since I last saw my parents.

I went back to the lodge with the hope of visiting my parents, I got carried away by the breeze and fresh air which sauntered its way to the windows and finally into my room.

I decided to take a little nap, school was really stressful.

**JANELLE'S POV**

"And that was all what happened, i tried apologizing to her but to no avail, she didn't even try listening to me.

She just went so far, reporting me to her lecturer, although I feel her pains, but still, I haven't been going to his class for the past two weeks.

The worst part is that the lecturer feels insulted by me, he thinks I was trying to make mockery of him due to how young he is.

I don't even know how I am going to face him in his next class.

I just don't know", I said addressing Steffs' parents.

Yes steffs' parents, I came here because literally I am so fed up with the fact that I and Steff are having issues.

I know that if I can't talk to her, her parents would probably talk to her.

"Janelle I understand the fact that you are trying to help her from her addiction, we have been trying our best to make sure she quits the drug, but what do you expect when she spent her last thirtteen years with typical Jamaican kids.

once an addict when I was her age, but her father helped me through with it, it wasn't easy at first but look at me now, don't I

forever be grateful to him", she said looking

them, I won't lie, I wished I

Saturday and I have

how can you say that, it's almost 8pm

you think you are still in Florida where you can go out and come back the time you want

just rape but you could

cried out, giving me the puppy look, that

hand to the other side of

"Alright, I would definitely do so", I said, giving

me warm up our dinner", she said standing up, I stood up to follow her to the kitchen, she stopped me, and said, "no baby, don't worry, it's just to warm

laughed and subjected to her

little talk,

After we were done eating, I cleared the table and went to the kitchen to

went to the sitting room, where

trying to remember when last I

either work or she spends her day arguing with me, or

won't really call it threatening, because I still

up, you look zoned out", that was

was just thinking about something",

it about Stefflon again?, You really

a

"Shhhh, what's that Janelle, I thought we talked about this",

it was a hurtful cry, she came over and brought

okay, "do why

"I-it-its n-noth-ing", I stuttered.

"It can't be nothing, you

m-mum", I

happened to

doesn't trust me, she doesn't even care about me, she ju-ju-just, I don't even know what

loves you, there's no mother that doesn't love her child, maybe she's just so riled

you have the right to do what you want, she just cares

don't let your emotions get to you, just calm