His Immense Desires

THE MUM I WISH I HAD

**STEFFS'POV**

It's been two weeks since I last saw Janelle, it was not easy for me when I reported her to the lecturer.

I only did that because I still felt hurt at her words, when she left the class, I was so down, but me, being a strong girl, I masked up my emotions and tried acting strong.

I never knew the lecturer would be so tough on her, I assumed since he's a very young lecturer he would take it easy on her, but it was the opposite.

Janelle was meant to come to class today, since last week Thursday marked the end of her suspension from the sociology class, I wondered why she didn't come to school today.

After lectures, I thought on going to her house but on second thought, I decided to go visit my parents.

It's been a while since I last saw my parents.

I went back to the lodge with the hope of visiting my parents, I got carried away by the breeze and fresh air which sauntered its way to the windows and finally into my room.

I decided to take a little nap, school was really stressful.

**JANELLE'S POV**

"And that was all what happened, i tried apologizing to her but to no avail, she didn't even try listening to me.

She just went so far, reporting me to her lecturer, although I feel her pains, but still, I haven't been going to his class for the past two weeks.

The worst part is that the lecturer feels insulted by me, he thinks I was trying to make mockery of him due to how young he is.

I don't even know how I am going to face him in his next class.

I just don't know", I said addressing Steffs' parents.

Yes steffs' parents, I came here because literally I am so fed up with the fact that I and Steff are having issues.

I know that if I can't talk to her, her parents would probably talk to her.

"Janelle I understand the fact that you are trying to help her from her addiction, we have been trying our best to make sure she quits the drug, but what do you expect when she spent her last thirtteen years with typical Jamaican kids.

I was her age, but her father helped me through with it, it wasn't easy at first but look

will forever be grateful to him", she said looking into the

that exists between them, I won't lie, I wished I had parents who cared

will get going, tomorrow is Saturday and I have a whole lot of work to do in my lodge,

that, it's almost 8pm and you intend leaving for your

in Florida where you can go out and come back the time

it's not just rape but you could be be manhandled by all these street boys,

you spend the night, please??", She cried out, giving me the puppy look, that made to laugh out loud, still giving a thought to what she

could get scary at night sometimes, I crossed my hand to the other side of the table, and clasped her hand, urging her that

I would definitely do so", I said,

she said standing up, I stood up to follow her to the kitchen, she stopped me, and said, "no baby, don't worry, it's just to

subjected

had little talk, after

done eating, I cleared the table and went to

I was done with the plates, so I went to the sitting room,

so into the movie, o stood on a spot, trying to remember

either work or she spends her day arguing

really call it threatening, because I still respect the fact that she's my mum,

you look

just thinking about something", i

is it about Stefflon again?, You really love

smiled as a tear escaped

"Shhhh, what's that Janelle, I thought we talked about this", she

came over and brought

After some minutes, I felt okay, "do why

"I-it-its n-noth-ing", I stuttered.

can't be nothing, you can confide in

m-my m-mum", I

to

she doesn't even care about me, she ju-ju-just, I don't even know what I did

that Janelle, your mum loves you, there's no mother that doesn't love her child, maybe she's just so

right to do

talk like that Janelle, don't let your