His Immense Desires

THE MUM I WISH I HAD

**STEFFS'POV**

It's been two weeks since I last saw Janelle, it was not easy for me when I reported her to the lecturer.

I only did that because I still felt hurt at her words, when she left the class, I was so down, but me, being a strong girl, I masked up my emotions and tried acting strong.

I never knew the lecturer would be so tough on her, I assumed since he's a very young lecturer he would take it easy on her, but it was the opposite.

Janelle was meant to come to class today, since last week Thursday marked the end of her suspension from the sociology class, I wondered why she didn't come to school today.

After lectures, I thought on going to her house but on second thought, I decided to go visit my parents.

It's been a while since I last saw my parents.

I went back to the lodge with the hope of visiting my parents, I got carried away by the breeze and fresh air which sauntered its way to the windows and finally into my room.

I decided to take a little nap, school was really stressful.

**JANELLE'S POV**

"And that was all what happened, i tried apologizing to her but to no avail, she didn't even try listening to me.

She just went so far, reporting me to her lecturer, although I feel her pains, but still, I haven't been going to his class for the past two weeks.

The worst part is that the lecturer feels insulted by me, he thinks I was trying to make mockery of him due to how young he is.

I don't even know how I am going to face him in his next class.

I just don't know", I said addressing Steffs' parents.

Yes steffs' parents, I came here because literally I am so fed up with the fact that I and Steff are having issues.

I know that if I can't talk to her, her parents would probably talk to her.

"Janelle I understand the fact that you are trying to help her from her addiction, we have been trying our best to make sure she quits the drug, but what do you expect when she spent her last thirtteen years with typical Jamaican kids.

me through with it, it wasn't easy

him", she said looking into the eyes

that exists between them, I won't lie, I wished I had parents

alright ma, I do understand also, I think I will get going, tomorrow is Saturday and I have a whole lot of work to do in my lodge, if you

how can you say that, it's almost 8pm

you are still in Florida where you can go out and

baby, the rate of rape here is too much, it's not just rape but you

out, giving me the puppy look, that made to laugh out loud, still

could get scary at night sometimes, I crossed my hand to the other side of the table, and clasped her hand, urging her that

"Alright, I would definitely do so", I said, giving

she stopped me, and said, "no baby, don't worry, it's just

subjected to

had little talk, after which Mrs Douglas came with the

we were done eating, I cleared the table and went to the

the plates, so I went to the sitting room, where I saw steffs' mum watching a

movie, o stood on a spot, trying

work or she spends her day arguing with me, or threatening

still

up, you look

thinking about something", i

what, is it about Stefflon

as a tear

"Shhhh, what's that Janelle, I thought we talked

crying, it was a hurtful cry, she came over and brought me to

minutes, I felt okay, "do why

"I-it-its n-noth-ing", I stuttered.

"It can't be nothing, you can confide

m-mum",

to you mum?",

about me, she doesn't trust me, she doesn't even care about me, she ju-ju-just, I don't even know what I did to

there's no mother that doesn't love her child, maybe she's just

she feels you have the right to do

like that Janelle, don't let your emotions get to you,