His Immense Desires

THE MUM I WISH I HAD

**STEFFS'POV**

It's been two weeks since I last saw Janelle, it was not easy for me when I reported her to the lecturer.

I only did that because I still felt hurt at her words, when she left the class, I was so down, but me, being a strong girl, I masked up my emotions and tried acting strong.

I never knew the lecturer would be so tough on her, I assumed since he's a very young lecturer he would take it easy on her, but it was the opposite.

Janelle was meant to come to class today, since last week Thursday marked the end of her suspension from the sociology class, I wondered why she didn't come to school today.

After lectures, I thought on going to her house but on second thought, I decided to go visit my parents.

It's been a while since I last saw my parents.

I went back to the lodge with the hope of visiting my parents, I got carried away by the breeze and fresh air which sauntered its way to the windows and finally into my room.

I decided to take a little nap, school was really stressful.

**JANELLE'S POV**

"And that was all what happened, i tried apologizing to her but to no avail, she didn't even try listening to me.

She just went so far, reporting me to her lecturer, although I feel her pains, but still, I haven't been going to his class for the past two weeks.

The worst part is that the lecturer feels insulted by me, he thinks I was trying to make mockery of him due to how young he is.

I don't even know how I am going to face him in his next class.

I just don't know", I said addressing Steffs' parents.

Yes steffs' parents, I came here because literally I am so fed up with the fact that I and Steff are having issues.

I know that if I can't talk to her, her parents would probably talk to her.

"Janelle I understand the fact that you are trying to help her from her addiction, we have been trying our best to make sure she quits the drug, but what do you expect when she spent her last thirtteen years with typical Jamaican kids.

once an addict when I was her age, but her father helped me through with it, it wasn't easy at first but look at me now, don't

to him", she said

love that exists between them, I won't lie, I wished I had parents who cared more

going, tomorrow is Saturday and I have a whole lot of work to do in my lodge, if you

it's

you in Dreamland or what?, Do you think you are still in Florida where you can go out and come back the time you want

the rate of rape here is too much, it's not just rape but you could be be manhandled by all these street boys, they could also

please??", She cried out, giving me the puppy look, that made to

I crossed my hand to the other side

do so", I said, giving her a reassuring

stood up to follow her to the kitchen, she stopped me, and

subjected to her

had little talk, after which

eating, I cleared the table and went to the kitchen to wash the

plates, so I went to the sitting room, where I saw steffs' mum watching

spot, trying to

or she spends her day arguing with me, or threatening

because I still respect

what's up, you look

just thinking about

is it about Stefflon again?, You really love

a tear escaped my

that Janelle, I thought

hurtful cry, she came over and brought

After some minutes, I felt okay, "do why were you crying?", She

"I-it-its n-noth-ing", I stuttered.

"It can't be nothing, you can confide in me", she

m-mum", I

"What happened to

"She-she doesn't care about me, she doesn't trust me, she doesn't even care about me, she ju-ju-just, I don't even know what

there's no mother that doesn't love her child, maybe she's just

right to do what

your emotions get to