Love Aint Always Pretty

Saudade

- the feeling of longing for something or someone who you love which is lost

Origin: Portuguese

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NICK'S POV

EIGHT YEARS AGO

"Is this how you do it?" I asked.

Catherine looks over at me while I was chopping the spices she needs for the spicy spaghetti she's teaching me. She laughs and stands behind my back as she pressed her front on me.

"Love, that's too small..." she giggles.

"Is it?" I pulled my head up to her.

"But don't worry. It'll work out just fine later I guess." She leans over and kissed my cheeks while her blond hair falls to my left shoulder.

I smile at her.

She keeps kissing my cheek while her arms were holding around my chest. Her breasts pressed against my back. Catherine was teaching me how to cook and even though I hate cooking, she forced me to and since I love her so much, I allowed myself to learn. At least if we'll go to college, I'm ready to make meals for her if she comes home late.

Catherine walks back to the burner with the chopping board on her hand and started placing the chopped spices into the mixed paste. I stood right next to her and just love the view of her while she is wiping her sweat over her forehead. She told me to check the pasta so I checked the pasta. She told me to whisked the sauce so I whisked the sauce. The aroma filled the entire house and I'm sure as hell that our dinner will be delicious.

The entire house was ours tonight since mom and Tracy went out of town with Danny and I really wanted to stay behind cos of Catherine. I helped Catherine prepare the table and we had such a scrumptious dinner. We talked a lot about our plans for college and then we washed the dishes together.

We lounged on the couch while the tv was the only thing lighting the entire living room. She was resting her head on my shoulder while we were both watching this romantic movie that she picked for us to watch. Even though I don't like the movie, I have no choice but to watch it cos I love Catherine.

I want Catherine to be happy. I want Catherine to smile. I want Catherine to be pleased. I want Catherine and only her.

"Have you talked to your parents on transferring to high school here?" I ask.

"I'm still talking to them about it."

I sigh. "Maybe it's not a good plan to let you transfer. Your parents will be suspicious about transferring all of a sudden to my school."

I feel her twirling her finger over my chest. "But I don't want to wait for almost two more years to see you."

She pulls her head up to me and I bent down a little to kiss her forehead. It's been three weeks since the first time I kissed her at the lake and after that we kiss a lot than usual.

"Catherine you don't have to worry about me. Two years will be fast and we'll be together in college then." I said.

"But women will be all over you while I'm away." She pouts.

"They'll never be as good as you." I push her hair behind her ear.

She hugs me all of a sudden and I just rub her back. This was hard for us cos I'm sure her parents won't allow her to transfer to a cheap ass school and I'm sure they'll find out about us soon. I'm scared of that day to happen cos I am most definitely sure they'll tear us apart.

persuade

"Catherine you don't really--"

and I don't want to be away from

smiled at her.

of the movie were watching are now making out and she glances at it but then pulls herself up a little

you ever had sex before?" She asked.

softly. "Why? You're getting carried

chuckles. "I'm

lean closer to her and kissed her lips quickly. "Yeah. But now that I think about it, I

She smiles.

I mean that. I didn't just say it to impress her. But I really wished I did wait

a virgin,

away, covering her face quickly then pulling it away from her. I love how Catherine's cheeks turns red when she's shy or caught off guard. I love it when she's embarrassed in front of me every time we talk dirty. She shakes her head telling me that

you okay about that?" She

Catherine. I will accept you with

a sudden. I kiss her back really quick and we just kissed with tongue until I feel her leaning

this now?"

I want you.

only left with her underwear. I pulled off my pants from me leaving my boxers on. She sits on top of my lap as I unclasp

leg, kissing her ribs then she lands her lips on mine. She strokes my length and her hands were good. When I

our first time to have sex, I want to be on top

body and slowly inserting myself inside of

•••••

love." I hear her.

a tray of foods that she obviously made for me. I'm quickly sat on the bed and

forward to me and kissed my lips. "Good morning

breakfast love. Pancakes with honey, no butter cos you don't like butter and

orange juice cos that

She giggles.

me." I said as

and teased each other a little bit. Since Catherine brought some clothes with her, it felt like we were married couple.

didn't know mom and Tracy will be back sooner than

her while I was upstairs

hear her.

for the cake she'll be baking

love?" I ask while I stumble down the stairs.

I hear yelling.

daughter inside the house of a man wearing nothing but my loose shirt on her. Shit. Catherine told him that she was staying over a female friend's house but this totally ruined everything that we planned for. My heart quickly accelerated and I see Catherine's

this man? This poor man living on this

out of the door and tried to explain to

arm getting red from all the

I'm doing! I know what's best for her!!"

Catherine is crying.

Catherine is hurt.

won't stop falling.