Love Aint Always Pretty

Aistra

Translation: infatuation

Origin: Lithuanian

20

SAVANNAH'S POV

I missed my first class today but it was alright cos it was worth it anyways and I'm still not over the fact that I just allowed myself to let Nick have sex with me as much as he and I wants to. My brother will kill me if he'll know about this and I'm doing it with a frat guy. I haven't seen Nick around the campus too after he dropped me and Tracy off the dorm a while ago.

My mind was floating the whole day. I was thinking about Nick and when we will be finally doing it. I was physically present in my classes but I was mentally absent cos I'm imagining Nick and how kissed me that night. I could still feel his lips and I always smile at myself when I remember how it tasted. He was such a great kisser.

I walked out of my class and I was thankful that the day was over. I'm tired and I haven't had enough sleep cos we left too early a while ago. The only problem I have right now is I need to borrow a book at the library for my research but I can't borrow a book cos my library card is suspended.

Damn it.

Why did I ever forget to return that novel back before its due date?

I decided to go to the library anyways and to take down notes instead. While I was on my way, I saw Billy and he hurriedly ran to me. He smiled at me while he was fixing his backpack then his eyeglasses. "Hi."

"Oh you got a new set of glasses." I said.

"Yeah. The old one was broken during the initiation." He answered.

I smiled at him. "It looks good on you."

"Thanks. So, I was thinking. How about you and...." He trailed off.

I stared at him eagerly but he was more focused on looking at someone from behind me. Billy didn't continue his sentence anymore and looked nervous right away. I couldn't tell who he was looking at, maybe it's some group of frat men from afar.

"Billy? What were you about to say?" I ask.

"I... uhhh... well, I'll talk to you later Savannah! I forgot something." He waves at me then runs away from me.

That was weird.

I turned around to continue walking but I jumped back when I saw a very tall entity blocking my way. I pulled my head up and found Nick. It was Nick. His facial beard first caught my attention and then my heart raced right away when I stared at his lips then running up to his intensely blue eyes. He was also looking down at me and I just can't read him even though I've already kissed those lips.

"Hey." He speaks.

"Hey." I smiled tight-lipped.

Now Im wondering if he was the one who Billy was looking at a while ago.

"Going somewhere?" he asked.

For the first time he's asking me where I am heading to. God, I should kiss his lips more often so he'll be a little concerned for me.

"Library. Need to write down my research for this book in English." I said.

I feel the both of us starting to walk together now. Slowly. Tiny little baby steps. For some reason we were walking as if we were waiting for the other to take a step. We were in synch while walking and I don't know why he's walking with me but he didn't talk to me anymore.

"We have weird conversations." I snorted.

I watch him while he pulls his head down and smiled. "We do have weird conversations."

I slightly smiled.

"Tracy told me to pick you up cos she wants you to join dinner with us again tonight." He added.

"Oh." As far as I remember, Tracy doesn't know my class schedule. I never told her about it and she never asked for it too.

"Are you stalking my class schedule?" I teasingly asked him and I think he was embarrassed. Or maybe not.

far ahead. Sometimes I wish Nick was like water, so I can see him clearly. I can know his flow. I can see him being transparent to me so I could understand him. I wanna understand him. I know

really gonna be

your schedule at the office

"Right." I smirk.

again. His hands were inside his pockets and my books were close to my chest as I hold it around my arms. His long legs

go to the library first then I'll catch up

and he was looking right at

"Tell Tracy that I'll--"

go with you. We still have time." He gazed

at Nick and he was also looking at me, examining my face. The space in between me and Nick after that kiss, changed. The way he's treating me is already different. The way I feel when he is around is already different too. Or maybe Im just putting

know but I like it

up later with

take long

"I'll wait for you."

still need to look for

you look for that goddamn

Don't smile Savannah.

Don't smile.

Don't smile.

here, but then I knew he wasn't a library visitor cos people were whispering to each other as we pass by some tables. Or maybe it was their first time to see Nick with a girl aside

valid library card?"

"Nope." He answered.

This is

Thursday. I notice that Nick was also looking for the books on other the shelves and how

put meaning on it

I've searched. But I just couldn't find it. I wanted to ask the librarian about the book I'm looking for but then she looks mad to be disturbed right now. I looked around, looking for Nick and he was already

he's cold and moody and a jerk

novel. I think it's already a very classical book that it's no longer found here. There were also some great books that caught my attention which took almost all of my time. More books made me totally forget that I'm here for that classic novel. All of a sudden, Nick was gone. I couldn't find him anywhere close by around the shelves where the classic novels are. But then I saw him walking over to where the slutty late twenty aged assistant librarian and he started talking to her. She quickly

talking so casually to each other like that. Until I noticed that I was already on the last shelf of books inside the library. I was alone here and it's pretty damn cold here too since the air condition was just right across the other edge. I still kept looking for it on this last shelf,

thought

Nick walking

yet?" He

Popping on the P while

me. I stopped when I was already cornered

"Hey." He called out.

it! I quickly grabbed it from his hand and I was relieved to see the book on my hand. It was much better if I can take it back to the dorm with me but I can't borrow books until a week. I gazed at my watch, it was almost six thirty and I'm already starving. I'm sure

just texted me that

book cos my library card is dead. And I can't steal

says about stealing?" He pulled out

Holy hell, he didn't.

gasped inwardly. Almost dropping my mouth

said you didn't

assistant librarian a while ago. I heard she likes me so I guess my charm worked cos I got

for me?" I asked, my voice almost turning

He nods. "Yeah."

he approached her. Oh my

"Why?" I asked.

it and I'm already

but my smile couldn't fade away. All of a sudden he held my chin and pulled it up to him, he was leaning closer and closer to me until I feel his lips pressing against

thought he was already starving but why in hell is

way inside my mouth. Oh god the feeling of unexpectedness and rush are bolting around my body. I feel my back hitting

He.

Just.

Squeezed.

My.

Boobs.

In public!

down to my waist, to the back of my hips, down to my ass then the back of my legs and moving back up to my hips. He squeezed it with his fingers and the feeling of his tongue playing against my tongue is too erotic to even think of it. I didn't even care if we'll get caught or if someone was watching us cos my mind was only

cursed during